A/N- sorry i havent updated, school is taking up a lot of my time. Also i dont know when the next chapter will be up.
Tears streamed down my face, i ran out the room, Sapphire was right. Dad couldve been dead for all i had known. I didnt keep my promise with Harry to see mum. My mind raced. I needed a way out of this. Now.
Tracy had thought i was bulimic.. she called it a coping method, So surely it works. I raced down to the kitchen, grabbing food from the cupboards, I was on the brink of breaking down, i hid my tears from everyone, i couldnt let anyone see my tears. My hands shook fast, Tee, Frank and Carmen had been on lookers at this event, Tracy entered the room.
"Maddie? Are you okay?" She asked me cautiously.
"Making a picnic for Harry" i replied nervously, Tracy pried me away from the food, she put her arm around me like a blanket. She took me out the room.
"Where are we going? Harry... the picnic..." I didnt want to move away from the thing keeping me strong.
"To talk to me, Mike and Gina, something is wrong Madeleine" Tracy said.
"Can i just talk to you?" I asked her
"Sure, come on" Tracy assured me, her arm still wrapped round me. We sat down on the sofa.
"Whats going on Maddie?" She placed her hands on my lap, her chair right infront of me.
"I let Harry down, i couldnt take care of mum.. she was drunk all the time, Dad didnt even come and try to find us, he doesnt care about us."My eyes met the floor.
"You didnt let Harry down, and you shouldnt of been caring for your mum, your still a child Maddie... Why did you take all the food?"
My mind lingered on her last question.. how could i explain it to her. Then i said it "A coping method.. i cant take the pressure, i should be there for Harry, i let the family fall to pieces."
She gave me a puzzled look, then her mind clicked " Oh Maddie" She was now sat next to me, hugging me, and wiping away my tears. My hidden side was now out. I let my guard down.
"Maddie, none of this is your fault, i promise you it will be okay.. but this... this is not the answer" Tracy hugged me tighter, stroking my hair.
"We would be a family if it werent for me." That was the last thing i said, before i broke from her grasp, making my way upstairs, tears still flowing uncontrollably from my face.