Dear God, I kissed Carson's girlfriend.
She started it.
I kissed her. I kissed her. I kissed her.
She kissed you back. She kissed you back. She kissed you back.
Carson's going to kill me.
Provided he ever finds out...
Oh, he'll find out.
He's most definitely going to find out.
All of Atlantis will find out.
After all, Brown found out.
I didn't know that botanists could hit quite so hard.
She must work out or something.
And Zelenka knows.
Hell, Zelenka witnessed the aftermath of the-
Gulp.
Kiss.
He came into the lab maybe ten minutes later and thought I might have suffered a stroke or something.
Said he waved his hand in front of my face for a good twenty seconds and I was unresponsive.
Lucky I came out of it when I did.
Really lucky that he didn't call Beckett in to check on me, or force me to go to the infirmary.
I kinda suspect he knew what had just happened, especially after that look he gave me when he mentioned Cadman.
Is it my fault my eyes glazed over immediatly at the mere mention of her name?
Is it?
No!
So yes, Brown knows. Zelenka knows. Sheppard suspects.
That what's-her-face I keep seeing with Cadman keeps grinning at me like a Cheshire cat too.
Only a matter of time before the whole damned base knows.
All right, so now what to do?
We fought.
She kissed me.
I kissed her back.
She pulled away.
I sputtered.
She ran.
What does it mean?
She's got Carson, so why, why did she kiss me?
Is she ill? Does she have a tumor or something? I mean, I know she's been clumsy as of late, but I thought it was because of-
Realization hits hard.
Ouch.
She was staring at me when she spilled her coffee and broke her pencil.
Staring at me when she tipped over her water glass.
She reached for me when we got back from Voldran.
It wasn't Carson that was causing it at all.
It was me.
ME! ME! ME! ME! ME! ME!
Wait.
Oh.
Shit.
Am I in love with her?
Feeling a little slow today, are we Rodney?
Do I even know what love is?
Okay, so yes. I'm in love with her.
At least, I think I'm in love with her.
I mean, I'm pretty sure I-
Shut up and admit it already...
Yes. Yes. I'm in love with her. Okay? You happy? All you nasty little meddling voices in my head satisfied now?
I'm in love with her.
Wait.
Does she love you?
I have to find out.
What if she doesn't?
I've gotta find her.
Sheppard will know where she is, after all, he's her commanding-
She's where?
WITH BECKETT?