6am.. Rise and shine! I woke up at 6 and stayed in bed until quarter past. I got up had a shower, got dressed, did my hair and it was time for some morning stretching and yoga. Obviously at this point Tara was still asleep, she normally wakes around 8am, lazy girl. "Morning, are you ready to start the hardest year of our lives" I chuckled. "Urgh" Tara half sighed-half laughed then got up. For the first time in about a year and a half me and Tara walked down to the studio together but as soon as she saw Ben she was off and I went to join a girl called Katie at the barre. "Ha, 2 years on and you still think you can take my place at the barre" I said to her before shooing her away from my place. I stretched some more and then we had pas de deux which was hard, every little thing was judged I was being watched like a hawk! I used to love Pas de deux it reminds me of sammy, when we did Cinderella was the most passion I had ever put in to a dance before. I was going to do some extra rehearsing after class but I decided to go to the place where sammy was run over.. I hadn't been there yet because I'm so scared ill cry so much ill loose control and control is all I need this year. But I need to be alone.
After a hard day I walked down to the place a dreaded. 3rd year was supposed to be different. And it isn't at all and I wish i stayed with Ethan!
I sat down on the bench and started talking in a whisper "Hey sammy, 3rd year isn't as good without you. We're not the same without you. Although I have become friends with the gang haha I know, I give it a week. I want to say I miss you but if I do those words will make me break down and I know you wouldn't want that. I. I want you to know your always in my heart" I said before breaking down. I finally faced my fear. I let my emotions go.
After some time to myself I heard a screech come from what sounded like Tara.
I ran down to the beach as quick as possible. Urgh, she was just messing with Ben. Ew, no, now there kissing. I hate PDA, it's discusting! Kissing should be personal, not for everyone to see "excuse me" I said sternly. "I came rushing down thinking you were in danger" Tara and Ben looked at each other and laughed "urgh. And also next time.. Don't kiss in public it's truly revolting" I started walking away from them but I felt a hand grab my arm. "Abigail you've been crying, are you ok?" Ben asked me. "I'm fine" I growled. "Are you sure?" Tara asked. "Yes I'm sure, now.. Go back to what ever you were doing"
I ran straight back to accommodation and criedAnd cried.. And it's only day one