This and Smile updated in one night? Whoop I'm on a roll. haha. Well anyway I really enjoyed this one. It's my favorite to write. I have like 3 other stories with a page written, but I'm not becoming serious with anything until this and Smile are finished. And who knows when that's coming around? I do. I think this one's gonna be done in a little while. We'll see where my imagination takes us.
"You can't ignore him forever you know," Kim said.
"How did I get myself wrapped into something like this? Werewolves and vampires? This is some crazy shit," I said.
"I feel the same way," she said. "I was so excited when Jared finally noticed me. I thought we would be a nice normal couple. As you can see we're the opposite of normal around here."
"Normal? Yeah right."
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"Well what am I supposed to do Soleil? This is the way I am," Jacob said.
"I know that. It's just that normal is what I need. After everything with Grant I was dying for a normal life. Why do you think I came to school on the other side of the country? Not just to get away from everything but to be normal," I explained.
"So what are you saying? You don't want to be with me anymore because I'm not normal?" he asked sadly?
"No! Of course not. I'm just saying that I'll give up my chances of being normal so I can be with you."
He smiled and wrapped his arms around me. I looked up and brought my face closer to his kissing him.
"Well we can try to be normal. As normal as a werewolf can be. For you. Because I care about you," he said.
I pulled my arms tighter around his neck. I'd be happy with this being my normal. Just as long as I get to be with him I'm okay.
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I got a letter from my parents. I went into mine and Kim's room and opened it up. Thank God I was the only one home. I had no idea what was going to be in it. I thought it was just gonna be a letter from my mom begging me to come home for the remainder of the summer. When I opened it the paper was folded and had my name written on the side. In Grant's handwriting. What was this?
Dear Soleil,
I'm sorry. I'm so so so sorry. But I just can't take it anymore. I really can't. I know I was supposed to protect you but I can't handle it. Everything…it just became to much. Please find it in your heart to forgive me. I've been thinking about doing this for a while now. I'm sure you're wondering why I didn't talk to you about this. We tell each other everything. But this is something you'd never be able to understand. The pressure just became to much. You may not realize it but I've been living in your shadow since we were little kids. You were always the perfect daughter. I'm not strong enough to live with that. Again I'm sorry. Please don't be to mad at me, and don't you dare think for a second that this is your fault. Just try to understand why I had to do this. But remember don't ever be like me. Don't be a quitter. Stay strong Soleil. Don't ever give up. And don't be too mad okay?
I love you and I'll miss you
-Grant
What. The. Fuck. What was this? Where did this come from? It must be some kind of joke right? Why would my parents send me something like this? Maybe Cain was making a late April Fool's prank. I started sweating and breathing faster. Oh God not again. Remember Soleil calm down. Breathe.
In.. Two.. Three
Out.. Two.. Three
Repeat.
Remember to think happy things. Think of a safe place. I squeezed my locket. Happy times. Me and Grant's 12th birthday. That was happy. Mom and Dad took us all to Disney World. Grant was afraid of almost all the rides. I was too but I wouldn't let on. That was the day I realized how much I hated roller coasters. But that didn't matter. I had to be strong. Strong for the both of us. Come on Soleil if I was strong enough for the both of us back then, then I could be strong enough for myself now. Concentrate.
I re-read the letter. I could tell it was from Grant. It was definitely his handwriting and that's exactly the way he talks. I ran my hand across it. I knew he did the exact same thing after he wrote it. I could feel his hand. I can just imagine him writing this. I can see him sitting at his desk and trying to find the right words. He wasn't very good at writing. If I hadn't have did a large portion of his homework he would've failed English.
Ha. I remember that.
Staying up writing two reports on the same topic. Trying to come up with two sets of ideas. We were lucky that we're twins. The teacher assumed that was why our papers were always so alike. I just usually did English last so it was pretty late when I'd start them. She never knew the difference.
I'm glad he didn't ask me to help him write this. For probably the first time I wouldn't have any idea of what to say.
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"Come on Jacob I'm hungry," I complained. Jacob was dragging me up on some cliff so he could get some kind of part from Embry's truck. While doing this he was also depriving me from my lunch. I'm not a very happy person when I'm hungry. That explains why I was never one of those stick thin girls. I eat all my meals.
"I'm sorry Soleil but I really need to get this part. This car was supposed to be done yesterday but I couldn't be cause I was with you," he pointed out.
"Take you time," I said guiltily. We pulled up and he told me to wait. That was 10 minutes ago. I decided to get out and see what was up. I was still hungry.
I saw everyone standing by the edge of the cliff. Idiots. Don't they know it's dangerous.
"Come on Jake just once. It's been a while," Embry said.
"Fine," he said. He walked closer to the edge. I didn't realize what I was doing but I started running. Not again. I wasn't fast enough and he jumped off. Then I saw Grant. I screamed as loud as I could. Everyone turned and stared at me.
"Soleil are you okay?" Quil asked as he walked over to me.
I started breathing faster. I couldn't control it. I grabbed Quil's arm. I opened my mouth but of course I couldn't speak. I wanted to yell for Jacob. I wanted to yell at all of them for letting Jacob do something so stupid like that. I wanted to yell at myself for letting that happen. Of course I wanted to cry too.
All I could so squeeze my necklace. I closed my eyes and told myself to breathe. But when I closed them all I saw was Grant hanging there lifeless. And when I opened them all I saw was Jacob jumping off the cliff.
I fell to the ground on my knees. I grabbed my chest. I wasn't breathing anymore. I was checking to make sure my heart was still beating. It was but to slow. I tried to concentrate on my breathing but it wasn't working. I thought I heard someone mumble something. I didn't hear it though. I was trying to block everything out so I could breath. That was my main objective at this point breathe.
Someone was shaking me. Thanks but you're not helping. I needed air now. But my lungs just weren't working anymore. I heard something again. It didn't matter. My eyes started closing and the darkness was taking me over. Was this it? Was it all over? Was I about to die? Good news is I'll finally see Grant again. Is it wrong to be excited?
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I groaned. I felt like I was being watched. Was it Grant? I quickly opened my eyes and saw Jacob sitting across from me. He was the one who looked dead not me. He normally vibrant face was pale and lifeless. He looked emotionally drained. Well this tells me that I am not dead. Good right?
When he saw my eyes were open he lit up.
"Soleil," he said. He ran over to me and immediately hugged me. When he touched me I noticed I was cold before. "Are you okay?" he asked shaking. Oh God he was crying.
"I'm fine," I said. Then it all started coming back to me. I saw everything that happened again and my breath sped up. Jacob's face drained again and he called in a nurse. She put an oxygen mask on my face and told me to calm down. God would she shut up, she's not helping me concentrate. Jacob came over to me and held my hand. He was saying something but I had no idea what.
The oxygen mask was somewhat helping. Breathing was becoming a little bit easier. Now I could hear what Jacob was saying.
"Soleil, calm down. Calm down Soleil. It's alright. You're going to be fine. I'm here. I'm right here."
I used my other hand to squeeze my locket. Jacob's right. Calm down. Breathe.
In.. Two.. Three
Out.. Two.. Three
Repeat.
Okay I think I'm good now.
I didn't say anything. I was still trying to concentrate on my breathing. The nurse left the oxygen mask on my face. She was looking at my chart and writing things down. Jacob stood there watching me. I looked up into his eyes. It broke me to see how worried he looked. It broke me to know that I made him worry this much. I open my mouth to talk to him but he shook his head. He grabbed the chair and pulled it right next to me.
"Just rest. I'm right here."