Croire en délires: Part 2

Warning: Contains some some fight scenes and some romance...(shifts eyes deviously)

The world freezes; my blood stops flowing as I look into his eyes. Every part of my mind tells me it can't be true, that Edym is dead. But I know deep inside he's telling the truth. I back away from him, like he's a ghost. "How…how is this…why are you here?"

Demyx seems taken aback, like he's surprised to see me acting like this. He sighs before answering. "I think it has something to do with Carrion; she cast a spell on me while I was fading. I think it's the strength of her magic that kept me human." He smiles at me, walking closer. "You have no idea how long I've wanted to just talk to you…"

I hold out my knives, determined to keep the distance between us. "What do you mean?"

"I had my suspicions when you first got here. I prayed that it wasn't the case, but now that you're here…"

"Things have changed."

The air falls silent. "What…what do you mean? Raelne, just because we're…"

"STOP CALLING ME THAT!" He backs away, hitting a hanging rack, knocking some of the items to the floor. Take a deep breath, Larxene. "It's Larxene now…We've been given new lives. I want to make the most of mine." I walk towards the door.

"Larxene, please; what about in TraverseTown? We were friends. Why can't we be here?"

Raelne would have made the right decision, run into his arms and sought familiarity in all the uncertainty. Larxene was above that now. She glares at the boy that she once loved with eyes of fire, searing his soul. "If you tell anyone about my past, that you know me, or anything like that, I will make you regret Carrion saving you." And with that, the Savage Nymph leaves him behind, a relic of the past.

Monotonous days pass, all bearing the same trials and tribulations of killing Heartless. The evenings are slightly more entertaining. I enjoy toying around with the guys, leading them on. So much of my early life, I was treated as an object; it's nice to return the favor.

"Larxene," I hear as I exit a corridor into the Grey Area. Marluxia strides towards me. "May I speak with you please?" I nod; might as well, I've got nothing better to do. "How have you been doing now that your on your own?" I tell him it's not that hard, that I actually wish there was more of a challenge.

"So," I say quietly, "do you still think I'm a candidate for whatever it is you're planning?"

He looks around, like I've let loose a secret. Seeing the coast is clear, he turns to me and smiles. "You're very quickly reaching that point." I smile, content with the answer. We walk past a huge panoramic window, the empty night sky its subject. "Won't it be wonderful," Marluxia muses, "when Kingdom Hearts is complete?"

"Doesn't matter to me," I mutter.

"What do you mean? Don't you want a heart again?"

"No," I scoff as I turn away from the window. "A heart creates feelings and feelings are weakness. As long as I have no heart, I have no weakness."

"But you'll never be human again."

I will never know love again, or pain, or loss. "It's worth it," I tell myself as much as him.

I RTC after I've gotten myself under control. The room is mostly empty: Demyx is on one of the couches; Xaldin leans against one of the walls watching me; Saïx and Axel are talking to one another; Xigbar is lounging alone.

"Hey, Lightning Bug," the latter says, "your mission tire you out?" My past has been flashing through my mind all day; facing everything, no wonder I look exhausted.

"Please, you call that tired?" Demyx chimes. "You should have seen her after she this guys in Trav…" Immediately, he realizes his mistake and runs outside. I'm going to kill him, I think to myself. I chase after him on a path along the side of the castle. I grab the back of his coat and push him against the wall, my arm across his throat. "What the heck do you think you're doing?!"

"I'm sorry, Larxene."

"You almost blew it."

"I didn't mean to."

"Do you realize what you could have done?"

He looks back at me, the emotion changing in his eyes. "No, I don't." His answer surprises me; I take a step back. "What did I almost do?"

"Just forget it," I say, turning back.

"NO!" I feel his hand on my shoulder, and a scene similar to this comes to mind. "Why does it have to be like this, Larxene? Why can't we go back to how things were before, back when we loved each other?"

"WE WERE NEVER IN LOVE!" Now I've surprised him. "WHATEVER YOU THOUGHT I FELT TOWARD YOU WAS NOT LOVE. I CAN NEVER LOVE YOU."

I'm sure what happened next. What I do know is that, somehow, Demyx and I are kissing…and he wasn't the one that started it. I pull away in utter shock.

We both stand there, not sure how to react.

"What was that about?" he finally asks.

"I'm not sure."

He comes to my side and holds me like he did so long ago. "Larxene, you can trust me."

"I missed you," I finally admit through tears. "I thought I'd lost you forever."

He leans in close; "then why did you say you could never love me?"

I break down again; he just holds me, strokes my hair, lets me cry. "I couldn't afford to lose you, not like everyone else. But it didn't help...I got left behind again."

"But I'm here now," he whispers. I lean in close, link my arms around his neck, and touch his lips gently with mine. Warmth and feeling wash over me, something I've never felt before in a kiss. I want more; I want to drink it in, to have it never stop. I accidently bite his lip; he whimpers as the taste of blood finds its way to my mouth. The sadistic side of me smiles at his pain, every other part rejoices: pain means this is real. I kiss him deeper, wanting so much more, wanting this moment to last for eternity…

"Larxene…Demyx." The kissing stops and we both freeze like deer in headlights. Of course Xemnas' stooge would come looking for us.

I quickly formulate a plan. "Brace yourself," I whisper to Demyx. Before he has a chance to respond, I kick him in the gut, sending him flying towards a handrail and right into Saïx's line of vision. I pounce on him and hit him across the face; the blood that's already there adds a bit more drama. "Keep your opinions to yourself, idiot, or I'll see to it personally that you are eliminated."

"That's enough, you two," the Kiss-up says. We both stare at him, awaiting instruction. "Larxene, back down. Demyx, go inside and clean up."

Obediently, he leaves, but not before giving me a secret smile. See you later, he mouths. Inside my chest, I can almost swear I feel a heart skip a beat.

Happy belated Larxene+Demyx Day (12/9) (honestly, I think I'm the only one who likes this pairing...oh well). Sorry to anyone who dislikes it, but I think they're perfect together.

I'd love to hear what you guys think. Only a few more chapters before the end...