So I have this tiny week for relaxing before the tests so I spent it on writing.
I was asked "Why didn't Alice saw Edward cheating on her, didn't he make up his mind?" I swear this is not a mistake, you'll see soon or later.
"It's not that much of hell." Bella shrugged "I thought it was gonna be. I guess I was wrong…" she blabbered in a tiny voice...
I frowned, what is that suppose to mean? Then I decided to just push the question aside and come back to reality.
"So…I guess you'd plan to flee off Forks right after graduation?"
"I guess so. If I don't have any immediate plans changing in the middle of the way. Like…getting married." She joked. Little did she know how much the image of that annoyed me. I hate the image of her in a beautiful white dress, standing along with her human husband. The husband in my mind had a feature of Mike Newton. How much that hurt me. But I know that future would be more possible to happen than Bella with me. Bella with me is nothing but impossible.
As that thought came through my mind, I felt like something just ripped me to pieces. I grabbed the table to hold in the pain. But obviously the wood is not strong enough for me. My finger accidentally made a visible bent in the table. And Bella was there to witness everything.
A fear ran down my spine. It's an emotion I hadn't gone through for the passed decades. Now it hit again when I realized how much I had exposed our world to a human. And worse, that human is supposed to feel no fear toward me. I looked away quickly, lacking her gaze, worried that she might see the inhuman behind my eyes. My eyes are a mixture of butterscotch and coal black today.
Even though I looked away, I can't help scanning her emotions. It was a drop of fear at first. But then she pushed it aside and replace it with sympathizing and…lust. I was surprised. I gazed up and look deep in her eyes. She looked away quickly and blushed.
"Are you gonna leave it like that? It'll look a bit suspicious with a human-fingered shape carved in a table…" she said after an uncomfortable while. She tried to take it all as a joke. I admire her. If I was in her place, I'd be shocked and moved away already. But here she is, sitting here, joking with me.
"Yeah, I…guess so. I mean, I'm good at bending things but not fixing it back." Then, with all my effort to make it look like I'm using all my strength, I bent the table back to it normal state. When I gazed up, I saw Bella eyes set on me, a tiny heart-melting smile on her face. I automatically smile back. It's just an irrevocably thing. As is my love to Bella.
I cannot believe this. I'd spend decades after decades walking across millions of women with millions of different beauties, but none of them had ever made me smile automatically just by the warmth of their eyes. None of them had ever succeeded in melting my deep frozen heart just by the simplest touch. And now, I'd found that powerful girl and she happened to be the most fragile thing I'd ever seen.
I once again found myself impatiently tapping my feet, waiting for Bella.
I walked in circles in front of the history class. Where is she? How long could a teacher keep her class behind for?
Finally, the door opened and a stream of human poured out. The smell of their blood got me. But I pushed the thirst aside and started looking for Bella in the crowd. And after a while, the thirst was hard to notice. I guess that's how Carlisle had success all this year, never tasting a drop of human blood. He pushed the thirst aside and let his passion and compassion to go in front. I swear Carlisle heart had never freeze along with the rest of his body for the passed 300 years.
Just then, my thought stopped when I saw Bella. I can't think of anything but her. She didn't see me yet. She was just gathering up the books in her hands while walking. Without noticing, she tripped over her own feet and fell down. I let out a low chuckle and walked over to help her.
"Can I offer you a hand?" I said as I picked up the books.
"Thank you very much, Jasper." She said.
I stood up and gave out my hand to her to get her up. She took it. As her skin touch mine, I felt like I was holding a light bulb that had been on for hours. I could feel each beat in her vein, the flow of blood going through each of her finger. Her warmth was burning against my ice cold hand and it reach till my heart and melt it down. Then I kicked myself back to the Earth. I pulled my inhumanly cold hand off hers.
We walked off together to the parking lots. Just when I was about to open my mouth and start on of our short and awkward conversations, a blur passed me. Alice.
"BELLA" she squealed "Tellmetellmetellmeyournotdoinganythingthisweekend?"
"Pardon?"
Alice took a deep breath and using all her effort to slow down to human speed.
"Please…tell me you're not doing anything this weekend."
"Actually I am planning to go off to the La Push beach with Jessica, Angela and the guys."
"This Saturday or Sunday?"
"Saturday"
"Ok. Good. So I was making a plan for my weekend…" watching the future no doubt. I rolled my eyes "…and a superb idea came to me. I know we're gonna be great friends so why don't we start now! You can come over to my house this Sunday. It's gonna be great! We're gonna have so much fun girl time together." She squealed at the end.
Bella hesitated.
"Ye..Yeah, I guess it would be alright. I'll check with Charlie. I guess he'd be alright with it."
"I know he would. I'll pick you up at 10 in the morning. Ciao." She said excitedly. Then she turned around to me, "C'mon Jazz, we're waiting for you." And with that, she took my wrist and pulled me back to Edward's Volvo.
"Bye Bella. See you soon." Is all I managed to shouted behind.
I tried to make the chap long, but sorry, I failed.
I tried to describe as detail as I could about Jasper emotions and feelings but my limited level of English won't allow me.
The next update might not be any closer than July, which is when I'll finally get a vacation. But if I get a lot of reviews, it would make me really want to write the next chapter just to see MORE reviews. I love them.