EHHHH this chapter absolutely sucks! :(
Hopefully the next chapter won't be as bad !
Sorry I haven't updated in a long time! I've been soooo busy lately
I know some people don't like "Cheating Clare"
But there's a certain reason why Clare can't tell Henry :/
Read and find out! (;
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Clare's POV
May 23rd, 2005
New York
In front of Eli's apartment
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The rain made a melody as it pounded against the hard concrete of the streets of New York. I wrapped my green coat around my body more my hair was soaking against my pale skin. The city lights of New York were beautiful but I preferred the quite streets of Degrassi. Something deep down inside of me knew Eli does too, I shooed that thought away.
I looked at the address of Eli's new, fancy, and expensive apartment.
What was I doing here?
He probably forgot about me?
Why would he remember simple little Clare?
Or what if he remembers me but hates my guts?
I finally entered the apartment building; I asked which floor Elijah Goldsworthy was on. The door man gave me a friendly smile and directed me to the elevator
Just thinking about his name brings tears to my eyes. The emptiness I feel is the most excruciating ache, I wouldn't even wish this feeling on anyone even my worst enemy.
The door man sent me to the top of the building…..the penthouse
Dang…. I smirked at the success of Eli. It sparked another question in my mind
What if he doesn't want me anymore?
What if he doesn't want me anymore?
What if he doesn't want me anymore?
That question stuck to me the most. Why would he have wanted me in the first place? I'm nothing special just an average, smart, innocent girl.
I get to the large door that seemed to be a lot taller than me my feet tapped against the elegant marble floor. This place didn't seem like Eli…
My body was shaking not just from the cold.
What if he doesn't want me anymore?
I pressed the doorbell letting the ring echo in the room.
My heartbeat fluttered like a humming bird as the doorknob turned…..
My transparent breathe stopped as I saw who answered the door,
It was a gorgeous blonde female dressed in a man's shirt her laced red panties stuck out from the back.
I blushed silently because I thought I had the wrong door.
But the doorman told me the right place
And I looked closely at her shirt my mouth gaped open….
It's a dead hand shirt. My body felt like nothing
I had to make sure,
"Does Elijah Goldsworthy live here?" my voice sounded weak and distraught.
The model thin ditzy blonde girl replied,
"Yep Yep, he's in his bed asleep." She winked at me
My body felt like I was going to barf.
Everything he said to me was a lie. How could I be so naïve?
My breath became uneasy…
"Do you want me to take a message?" she chimed in
"No…." I practically whispered, my voice got louder as I said,
"I'm just an impractical fan."
"Okay dokay…Bye!" she slammed the door in my face.
My knees were becoming weak. I could barely stand, I put my hand on the wall to hold me up. My eyes couldn't stay on one object.
I couldn't get the image of her and Eli becoming one.
He probably says the sweetest words to her.
He probably calls her
His angel…
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Clare's POV
March 31st, 2006
Degrassi's Steak House
I cannot believe my mother set me up on a blind date. I never felt this pathetic…..oh wait never mind
I have when I went to New York about a year ago.
It was 6:59 my date supposed to be here at 7:00 so he should be here any minute now.
The clock clicked 7:00
And there in front of me was a tall, blonde, handsome, browned eyed man. It made my thoughts wish there was a
Dark haired, dark clothing, emerald eyed, guy staring at me instead.
Eli.
"Hello Clare…My name is Henry."
I put on my infamous fake smile.
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Clare's POV
Thanksgiving
November 25th, 2010
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Green on Blue.
I already missed the absence of his lips against me. His bewildered eyes stared me down as I grabbed the pies, plates, and forks.
Eli grabbed my shoulder,
I flinched remembering how Henry dug his nails into my shoulders.
"Why do you keep doing this?" he let go of my shoulder noticing my increasing fear in my body.
"I'm so sorry, I'm so unbelievably selfish." I looked down, ashamed beyond belief.
I cannot let him know the truth about Henry.
"Can we talk later?" I begged.
"Why not now?" you could tell Eli was getting more irritated.
I mean I couldn't blame him I keep using him as if he were a yoyo and not my true love.
My mother's yells became more aggravated.
"Not now…when were alone." I tried to explain to without giving him the answer to why I keep doing this to me.
For my secret could destroy me and hurt him.
I will do everything in my power to protect him.
Eli's emerald eyes held onto me… as I left into the dining room. I entered the room filled with laughter leaving a more than bewildered Eli behind.
I could hear Eli slam his fists against the counter, I flinched to the sound of skin hitting the hard surface.
I set the pies on top of thanksgiving table.
I saw Henry's menacing eyes catch onto me.
I'm in trouble…
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November 25th, 2010
In Henry's car to Clare's apartment
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The car ride was silent; the silence was the worst part. Because I was able to hear my heartbeat and my thoughts; I couldn't control my thoughts from thinking the worst punishment Henry could give me.
Henry's abuse has always been verbal but lately things have taken a new route
I felt the car stop in front of my apartment the tears were flowing down my face as I felt a sudden
Slap
Across my face, I immediately put my delicate hand against my throbbing cheek.