The light was blinding. Bright, white light. There was a defeaning noise, which seemed to come from nowhere, yet it was everywhere. Water. Blue liquid as thick as syrup. Harm was swimming, swimming so hard but getting nowhere. The water was too thick, the noise too loud. He was confused. Then he heard a voice, a sweet soft voice calling his name. He swam up and up and up, towards the light. His arms were heavy and his legs were tired, but he kept pushing. The light got brighter, the noise grew louder until he thought he could take no more and then he finally broke through. He opened his eyes
"Addison."

Harm and Mac's apartment
North of Union Station
0915 Hours
3 weeks later

Mac woke to the wonderful sounds of her little son waking up. She opened her eyes just in time to see his flutter open. She stared into his beautiful, big blue eyes – eyes as blue as his father's. He was curled up on her chest and within minutes he had maneuvered himself down to her breast and had started feeding. The little boy sighed contently. Mac smiled. She hadn't expected to be so blown away by love, so completely overwhelmed by this tiny little human, but he had captured her heart from the moment she saw him.

Trish and Frank had flown out when Mac and Addy had been released from the hospital and had stayed for two weeks to help out and spend time with their new grandson and daughter in-law. Mac was grateful for their help and enjoyed having them here, but it was also a relief to finally be alone just the two of them. They had gotten into a nice rhythm together already. Harriet stopped by almost every day with food and little essentials. Sometimes she brought Bud and little AJ. Admiral Chegwidden also stopped by regularly and although he tried to maintain his gruff exterior, she knew his heart melted every time that little boy looked at him. Mac had asked him to be little Addy's god father and AJ had clearly been very touched and honoured and had accepted immediately.

Mac and Addy had been to see Harm every day. Mac had kept him up to date on Addy's progress, however small, she was immensely proud of their baby boy.
Addy had finished eating and Mac lifted him up a little. He gave a satisfyed little burp before closing his eyes and drifting off to sleep again. Mac lay back down again and stroked the little boy's soft hair.
She wished Harm was here. She had so many doubts and worries and even though the two of them were doing just fine, she needed him. She missed him tremendously and her heart ached for him. They were supposed to be happy together. This was all he had wanted and now he was missing it and she was alone. She sighed and settled in to get more comfortable.

Suddenly the phone rang. Mac quickly snatched it up before it woke up Addy.
"Mackenzie."
Words were exchanged, but if someone later were to ask Mac what was said, she wouldn't be able to tell them. She hung up the phone. As quietly as she could she wrapped little Addy up in his blanket and placed him on the bed. Quickly she began packing Addy's bag before heading for the shower.

Bethesda Naval Hospital
1100 Hours

Mac walked as fast as she could with a little baby wrapped in his sling on her chest. Her heart was pounding and she could barely contain her emotions. Outside Harm's door she had to stop and take a few deep breaths before entering the room.

Harm was sitting with his back to the headboard, eating a jello. He felt weak and tired, but it was good to be back with the living. He still had no idea how much time he had missed.
Suddenly the door opened and Mac walked in. Boy, was she a sight for sore eyes. She was wearing dark blue jeans, a black top, her brown hair longer than he remembered. She had tears in her eyes and in a light blue wrap sling on her chest was a beautiful little baby. Harm's eyes welled up and tears started to fall.
"Sarah, sweetheart.." That was all it took for Mac to come undone and rush to him. He buried his head in her shoulder as they both cried. When she finally drew back she laughed a little and wiped her tears.
"Hey."
"Hey, yourself" he smiled.
"How are you feeling?"
"Much better now that you're here. Is that...?" He pointed to the little bundle and she nodded and carefully lifted him up. He curled his little legs and snuggled closer to his mummy.
"Do you want to hold him?" Harm nodded mutely as Mac carefully placed the little boy in his arms. Harm was in awe as he stroked his face and held his tiny little fingers.
"He's beautiful. I am so sorry I missed it." Mac leaned down and kissed him.
"You're here now and that is all that matters. I love you."
"I love you too. Both of you."