A/N hello, sorry I have been absent. My sister just started college, im very proud of her too! I went to the mall today, and there was a bird inside. He was highkey trying to get some Auntie Anne's, but I had to leave. I hope he got some pretzels.

My life is a mess and I dont really care anymore..

Rant.

Things keep happening and they have nothing to do with me.. Sometimes its kinda like there's no point for me to be there. My life is in shambles and im sitting here listening to the animal crossing soundtrack. I dont know how to talk to people. I want a better life for my family but I know that there's nothing I can do to help them except get through school faster so I can get a job. The one thing im looking forward to is going to be so hard and painful to have. Its hard not to wonder if its worth it. The only thing that I love to do costs money. I want to do it for the rest of my life but its impossible not to doubt myself. I see people happy with life and people thinking they have it bad when they dont. It makes me jealous. I know if I do the thing I believe I was born to do that it will be so hard and difficult that I dont know if I have the resolve to make it all the way to the place I want to be. Life is so hard. Sometimes I wish I could take a break. Pause time. Be somewhere else so that I can take my time with everything that's happening instead of this. Auugffgjshsj sorry I just needed to vent. Have a wonderful day. Enjoy the chapter too. It would make me happy if you were. Thanks

Warnings · Tad bit of anxiety... Not much. Im trying to be mellow with anything like that.

The days after the incident were terribly slow. For Tori, the days were like walking through tar, or drying concrete or something.. She had found out she was going to be fostered for a month. She had moved into a new place to stay. She healed her wounds, both emotionally and physically. The one thing she did the most was sleep. Her new room was small, but larger than the one in the orphanage. She slept because she was tired, antisocial, and unable to hold a normal conversation with anyone.

Her caretakers were very nice, a woman that was a nurse named Reya, and her daughter Leilo. They lived in a apartment on the top floor. Reya was in her late thirties but still very bubbly. Leilo was kinda rude, but Tori hadn't spoken to her much at All since she arrived.

The thing that Tori loved the most about staying with them was that their house smelled amazing.. Tori didn't know why. It just smelled like thick flowery happiness and amazing amazingness.. It kinda made it hard to get up in the morning. Her house always smelled amazing.

The day Tori arrived she had a nice dinner where everyone sat down and ate. No one really spoke during this time, but it was still delightful to be together. After that, Tori had gone to bed and had the best sleep she's had in months. It was quite odd that she would sleep so well the first night she stayed because usually she's very paranoid when it comes to stuff like this.

A small humidifier sat in the corner of the room, puffing out a steady stream of smoke until it was empty. The room had a bed, dresser, and desk, which was more than enough for Tori. She only had one bag since she preferred to travel light, and even still, she didn't own much anyways. The apartments walls were a soft white, and the floors were carpeted. Overall, Tori loved the place.

It was simple, but it still felt like it was full of love. The place felt like a home. A home that Tori deeply wished she lived in. It was quiet, at the top floor. The humidifier turned off, empty of water.

The only things that accompanied Tori when she woke up was the soft filtered light behind shades and the sound of muffled movement outside her door. Tori immediately sat up, (getting dizzy on the way) and got dressed. She wore a dark Grey T-shirt and light blue jeans. There was no mirror in her room, so she grabbed her brown contacts and snuck out to the bathroom. She heard more noise from the kitchen, but avoided being seen before her contacts. When she arrived in the bathroom, she washed her hands and put her contacts in.

From the kitchen came the smell of bacon and eggs. Tori's stomach groaned from hunger and she made her way into the kitchen. The smell grew stronger with every step, and eventually Reya was in sight. Tori stepped over to the counter and took a seat on the bar stool. Reya turned around and jumped so high Tori was a little frightened by her.

"You scared me! Why are you so quiet? Im making breakfast can you go wake up Leilo?" Reya said a little too quick for Tori to process, so Tori followed her command and went to her room.

Leilos room was about the same size as Tori's . Leilos furniture was simple and stylish, but her floor was messy and her table tops were covered in stuff. It could be a lovely room with some work, however, Leilo seemed a bit lazy to Tori. Leilo was sprawled out and tangled up in her bed, wearing headphones connected to the phone still in her hand. She was comepletey asleep.

Anxiety prickled in Tori's chest, she hated waking people up. People always have a different reaction to being woken up, and sometimes that reaction was anger. Taking soft and cautious steps, Tori approached the bed, where she softly called the sleeping persons name

"Leilo..Leilo..wake up.." no response. Tori moved to touch Leilos uncovered forearm, but before they connected Leilo moved over to her side. Tori drew her hand back and watched with alert eyes as Leilos eyes snapped open, and Leilos mouth opened to form a yawn. Tori decided to let Leilo know the situation, but she did try to be quiet as to not startle Leilo.

"Hey..um. Its time to wake up? Breakfast is ready, and your mom wants you. " Tori squeaked out, clearly uncomfortable with having to wake Leilo up despite having like, two conversations with her.

Just then, an annoyed and overdramatic groan was heard, and Leilo grabbed the blanket and shoved it over her head. Tori, having already been nervous to wake her up, left. When she returned to the kitchen, she found two plates set out on the counter, full of eggs, bacon and toast. Its smelled and looked delicious. Tori grabbed the closest plate and sat down on the bar stool. Reyas plate was in the sink already, and the bathroom door had closed. Tori ate in silence, listening to the shower run where Reya was. Leilo never appeared. After Tori finished breakfast, she did the dishes and went to try waking Leilo again.

"Its me again, you should wake up and eat.." Tori trailed off when she saw Leilo staring at her phone and moving her thumbs lazily. Tori left unnoticed. Reya had just gotten out of the shower when Tori returned, and Reya was quick to ask where Leilo was. Tori told her her whereabouts and went back to her room before hearing Reya yelling Leilo. Tori brushed her hair and tried not to listen. The yelling got quiet pretty fast, but Reya stayed in her room.

As she brushed her hair, she thought about chopping all of it off. Her hair reminded her of her mothers. It left a bitter taste that she always hated. When she thought about the things she desperately tried to suppress, the horrors, the terrible things she had done under her mothers influence, it always made her want to throw up. She hated herself, her mom, her sister. she shook her head violently, not wanting to go down that road. Her life was not like that. She wasn't like that.

Sometimes its easier to forget than forgive, but no one every really forgets, do they?

A/N its been a while, hasn't it? Im sorry. Life isn't very easy lately. I hope you have a wonderful day.

Im so sleepy lately.. Im so antisocial... I should talk to people but... Its so hard...

Making important decisions is too difficult

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