I know, I know I haven't updated in like centuries. I am sorry but school finishes friday (I know I get done late, don't remind me) and hopefully I should update sooner.

So, anyway this is an insanely fluffy chapter that as my Beta said is "missing something." What? I do not know, but I hope the next chapter will be better.

Thank you all for stickin' with me!

All throughout dinner, Tony had barely said anything, even turning down a movie. She looked over at him, and he returned the look. She was getting frustrated.

"Tony," Ziva said, breaking the silence, "what is wrong with you?"

"I'm fine," Tony responded, almost at a whisper.

"Tony…" she said, now even more worried.

"I AM FINE!" Tony yelled.

Ziva looked into his eyes, challenging him. He didn't flinch, still full of anger. Suddenly Ziva slapped Tony across the face. He held his face as his head turned with the impact. He quickly recovered and looked back at Ziva. He immediately regretted yelling when he saw the look of pain in Ziva's eyes. His shoulders slumped and he sighed.

"I haven't slept since you told me what happened," he admitted, his eyes downcast.

"You feel guilty," she stated, though it was more a question. He nodded.

"I should have been there sooner. I shouldn't have let you leave. I shouldn't have let you go three months without calling. It is my fault, what happened to you." Tears started forming in his eyes. Ziva's eyes turned from the anger she had had before to pure love for the man sitting in front of her now.

"Gosh, why can't I do anything right?" He questioned himself, holding his head in his hands. "First Kate, then Jenny, Paula…and now what happened to you. I could have helped you, all of you. But, I didn't." She reached over and lifted his head so his eyes met hers.

"Tony," she said matter-of-factly. "What happened to me was NOT your fault. I want you to know that. I do not blame you." She grabbed his hand. "You feel guilty. I understand. You blamed yourself about Jenny, Kate, and Paula." She paused. "But that is who you are. You are the most caring, loving person I know. You feel the need to protect everyone around you. It doesn't make me think less of you…" Her hand moved to his cheek.

"It makes me love you even more."