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WARNING: THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS SELF-HARM AND RAPE. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.
I know a lot of you don't like the idea, but I'm sorry, this is how the story will go.
It may seem like it's coming to an end, but we still got a long way to go, my darlings.
So with that in mind, here's chapter 10~
Warmth. That was the first thing I felt as I slowly became conscious. Then the fact that arms were wrapped firmly around me. Lips were pressed against my neck, soft puffs of air running along the skin there.
The events of last night hit me suddenly and I snapped my eyes open. Oh my god. Oh my god. I slept with my baby sister. I had sex with my baby sister! I took her innocence and she took mine and I allowed it to happen!
It only seemed right considering last night my mind was clouded with thoughts of how, like Hans, Anna could die at any moment.
But... but I never meant for this to happen. The wine must have... no, I only had two glasses.
I looked at the naked girl's limbs sprawled lazily across my body, one arm on my torso and one leg on my waist, both holding me firmly in place.
I took a deep, shaky breath. Okay, calm down Elsa, calm down...
She should have given that to a man she loved and wanted a future with, not her sick, twisted sister. A voice in the back of my mind hissed. You took away her innocence. You stole her purity. You corrupted her.
No! I desperately argued. I didn't!
You did. Imagine what the people of the kingdom would say if they found out their queen seduced her own sister and stole what she should have given to her future husband.
Please, stop!
Nobody would want her then. They'd come after you both. Maybe even kill you and Anna. All chances of a future for her are gone, now. Because of you.
Shut up! I clamped my eyes shut, a feeling of panic settling in.
Fear and self-hatred clouded my mind like thick smoke. I couldn't breathe. I was suffocating in myself.
A quiet groan made me open my eyes as Anna's own eyes slowly began to open. A sleepy smile spread across her face, then it was replaced with a look of concern.
"Elsa? Is... somethin' wrong?" She asked sleepily.
She's so cute when -
No! I stopped my mind immediately. Don't think that! She's your sister!
It's too late, now, that voice chuckled darkly. There's no stopping it. You're so in love with her it hurts. And because of that, because of you, she can no longer have a family.
I slid out from under her, trying hard not to be too rough. She was much more awake, now, and was looking at me with so much concern it made my heart ache.
"Shit..." I muttered, realizing she was too awake, and would definitely question my actions. "Anna, I-"
"What're you doing, Elsa?" She asked, her voice still husky from sleep.
"I-I have to... I have to go. I'm sorry." I hurriedly dressed and practically ran out of my room, ignoring Anna's pleas to stay.
What have I done?
By the time I reached my ice palace, it was well passed noon. I knew it was an easy place to find me, but I sent another Ice Guard to make sure nobody came to bother me. That damned Hans killed my first one.
I was pacing the floor of my icy room, the walls no longer a light blue, but instead a menacing red. Sharp icicles were closing in toward me, growing larger and larger as my fear and anger grew.
What have I done?
Conceal, don't feel. Conceal, don't feel. I repeated.
But the urge to do it again was just too strong. I promised Anna I wouldn't but... but I had to... I had to make this terrible feeling go away.
I yanked one of the spikes off the walls and sliced my wrist. Then again. And again. And again. I repeated the action until my arm was a raw, bloody mess. I felt a little better, but it wasn't enough.
I sent out several sharp ice blades, hearing them shatter into the walls. I let out screams of agony and rage as I punched several of my ice creations. The spikes on the walls were destroyed as I kept sending more icicles out into the walls. A harsh blizzard was swirling around me.
What have I done?!
Anna's POV
"Elsa doesn't want anybody near her." The large ice creature snarled.
"But I have to see her!" I argued.
I was outside of Elsa's palace, talking to some giant guard she created. The thing wouldn't let me through!
There was a harsh blizzard around the entire palace. The snow felt like little daggers as it whipped against my small body.
"Just let me through!" I hissed. "God-fucking-dammit!"
"Go away!" The guard raised its large hand, about to strike me down, when a snowball went up and hit its face.
"Run!" I heard Kristoff's voice. I turned to see him on Sven's back.
I sent him a thankful smile and ran behind the monster as it went after Kristoff.
I told Kristoff about the situation and what happened and he was totally cool with it. He agreed to take me up the mountain and apparently he decided he'd lead the guardian away.
I hurried inside. Once Elsa ran out, I spent about half an hour crying. Why had she run? Did I... did I do something wrong?
Other than sleep with your sister? A voice in my head growled.
I ignored it.
She... she loves me. Why did she run if she loves me?
Maybe she doesn't.
Stop.
I gave her all of me. I showed her what she meant to me and she showed me what I meant to her. So why did she run?
When I saw the blizzard surrounding her palace, I knew something was wrong. I just hoped I wasn't too late before she did something stupid.
"Elsa!?" I called into the seemingly empty palace. "Where are you? We need to talk!"
"Go away, Anna!" I heard her distant snarl.
"No!" I argued, climbing up the stairs.
God, even inside this palace it was a freaking storm!
What the hell was wrong with her?
"Elsa!" I gasped as I saw her broken, sobbing form in the middle of the terrible blizzard.
My eyes trailed all over her body, finally settling on the crimson puddle near her arm.
"Elsa!" I ran over to her. "Elsa! What did you – oh god, Elsa..."
Her wrist was a bloody mess. There was so much blood. I fought not to gag.
"Elsa, we need to get you some help, I-"
"No!" She hissed, backing away from me. "I deserve this. I'm a monster. A sick, twisted, monster."
My vision blurred with tears. "Elsa, you're not a monster."
"Yes I am!" Tears poured down her delicate cheeks. My heart ached, suddenly. "I had sex with my little sister, Anna! That's... that's just horrible! And wrong! And... and... disgusting!"
I gasped, feeling the tears spilling over. "Elsa, what we did last night was not wrong! It was beautiful. It was the best night of my life and I would never take it back."
"Anna, it was a mistake! You could have had a future! I took away what you should have given to Kristoff or some other man you would one day marry! Not... not your sister."
"Elsa, what I gave you was something I saved for someone I love. That's why I gave it to you! I love you Elsa, and I don't want to marry anybody because I am so completely in love with you there is nobody else!" I was screaming now.
"Anna, you don't love me. You can't be in love with me because-"
"Because why? We're sisters?" I huffed, rage building up inside of me. "Elsa, I was always taught that love is when you can't live without a person. When they complete you, and make you nervous and happy and they're your entire world. I was told that it didn't matter who they were, because love doesn't care about that. Love only knows the heart. Elsa, I do love you. Every last bit of you and if you don't believe that it's obvious you don't fucking care about me!"
"Anna, you don't under-"
"Don't fucking say that, Elsa!" I yelled, hot tears dripping down my cheeks. "I do understand! You're just scared! Scared of your feelings, of your powers, when all you need to do is just talk to me!"
She looked into my eyes and my heart throbbed painfully. "Anna. Just... just go. What happened was a mistake, and you should forget about it."
I felt my heart rip in two. More tears came out. How could she say that? "Elsa..."
"Go!" She screamed, looking away.
I turned away, feeling agony rip at my heart. I ran out of the palace and collapsed to the ground. Sobs racked at my body, heaving it up and down with each sob.
How could she say that? After everything we did... how could she just... say that?
"Oh, Anna," I heard a terrifyingly familiar voice chuckle darkly.
I gasped and turned to see him. Hans.
Terror gripped at my stomach and I rubbed my eyes.
"B-Bu-But, you-you're dead!" I squeaked, backing away from him.
He grinned evilly. "Ah, yes, my brother did a fine job in convincing you and Elsa that, didn't he? But, no, I am very much alive, Anna." He knelt down and gripped the side of my face with one hand roughly. "It's a pity that I almost let you die, last time. You really are beautiful. I just wish I could take your innocence before your sister did."
My eyes widened. How did he know?!
He let out a cold, harsh laugh. "Oh, don't look at me like that. You two were awfully loud. I'm surprised the guards didn't burst into your room with all that screaming."
I finally recovered from my shock enough to snarl out, "get away from me!"
He used his other hand to roughly shove my shoulders and back to the ground. "But she won't save you, now. My brother has almost corrupted her mind to the breaking point."
"W-What are you-"
"My brother, like Elsa, was born with powers. He can leak into others minds and force them into thinking what he wants. As we speak, he is pushing Elsa into ending her life for corrupting her little sister."
"She didn't corrupt me!" I snarled and, with a sudden surge of strength, pushed him off of me.
He let out a growl of annoyance before picking me up and forcing me into a tree, my back making a sickening crunch.
I yelped in pain.
"Please, Anna, you're making this very difficult." He put a rough hand over my breast and squeezed. I opened my mouth to scream, but his other hand came up and slapped me hard across my cheek.
Tears streamed down my face as his hand moved lower.
"Now, let's show you what real pleasure is, so that monster can't hurt you anymore."
Something hard pressed against my thigh.
"Elsa!" I screamed in horror.
Another rough slap.
"She can't help you, Anna." He hissed, punching me straight in the face.
My dress moved up.
I couldn't move.
More punches all over my body.
The hard thing pressed lower.
"Els-" A hard blow to my head and it was all black.
Elsa's POV
Do it. You have to be punished for what you did. The voice encouraged.
I held the ice blade up to my throat. The voice was right. I had to do it.
I faltered, like I did the first time.
Only this time, it was because I heard a distant scream.
I knew who it belonged to instantly.
"Anna!" I gasped, standing up in an instant.
Don't bother. She never wants to see you again. She hates you for what you said, for what you've done. She knows you're to blame.
"Just shut the fuck up!" I scream, all the icicles and blades shattering at once. The sound is deafening. The wind in and around my palace stop suddenly, snowflakes completely still in the air.
Something is wrong. Anna is in danger. I can feel it.
I rush out of the castle and am stopped by something. Rather, someone.
"Prince Viktor?" I gasp. "How did you – ugh, never mind. I need to go. Anna is in danger."
The tall man chuckled darkly.
"Anna? She's long gone, by now." He took a step towards me.
"What?" Confusion swirled within me.
"Like I told you, she hates you for what you did. For taking away her virginity."
"You... you didn't say that."
"Oh, but I did. That voice you've been hearing? That was me. You're not the only royalty with a special power." Another step. "By now, Hans as fixed her up and is taking her back to the dungeon."
I felt anger surge through me. "Hans is fucking dead!"
"Ah, Elsa, so foolish. You didn't think anything of it when the doctor didn't come back. You didn't even check on Hans once!" He chuckled. "First you freeze your kingdom, then you ignore a dangerous prisoner so you can fuck your sister! Christ, you're an awful queen!"
Another storm picked up, this one out of anger. "What the fuck are you going on about!?"
"My brother and I are here for revenge. And for Arendelle."
"You'll never get my kingdom!" I snarled. "Where's Anna! What did you do with her, you sick bastard!?"
"I didn't do anything. My brother insisted he show her what real pleasure is. I'm sure he's having his way with her right now."
I sent several sharp ice blades towards him, just barely missing. "You fucking twisted psycho! When I'm done with you, you'll be nothing but a bloody popsicle!"
I lunged for him, ice blade in hand.
Elsa, you're not a monster. Heck, I bet you couldn't even hurt a fly. Let alone kill anybody! Anna's words from a few weeks ago echoed in my mind.
I faltered.
Something hard smashed into my body.
I blacked out.
I AM SO SORRY.
Please forgive me.
I just... I had a plot set out for this... and.. and... plEASE DON'T HATE ME I SWEAR IT'LL ALL BE OKAY.
I probably just destroyed some of you.
I'm sorry.
I swear to god this story is gonna have at least 20 chapters, so we're not close to the end, yet. Just please bare with me. I love you guys I'm sorry.
Until next time (which WILL be soon, I promise!)!
xoxo