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This is unbeta-ed, so I'm sorry for any mistakes. Many thanks to Flora73 for helping me with the translations.
There is one more chapter, I think then the sequel (which I don't know when it will come). I need ideas for it, more than a few that I already have.
It helps to induce you in the mood: Lara Fabian - Je t'aime.
Anxiety is the dizziness of freedom. Soren Kierkegaard
We heard Alice and Rose's screams before we saw them. They had seen us and they were running to us full speed.
"Brace yourself." Edward whispered and shifted slightly in front of me.
Before I could crane my neck to look around, I was squished in Edward's side by Emmett's bear hug that engulfed both of us. Another set of arms wrapped around me and I turned to see Rose grinning at me. I extricated my arms and hugged her back, tightly.
"Bella! Look at you!" she exclaimed, attracting everyone's attention, she didn't seem to care or notice.
"Rose! I missed you so much!" I cried and hugged her.
"Bella!" Emmett exclaimed and wrenched me from Rose's hug. I burst in tears and hugged him tightly. "Hey, none of that."
I took a shaky breath and left the hug, wiping my tears. Why was I so emotional? When I thought I was calming down, Alice squeezed me to her.
"What is it with this place? Now, Rose's crying, too." Emmett complained.
"They just missed each other." Edward informed him as I released Alice from the hug. He came to me and wiped my tears then kissed me.
"I have every right to be emotional!" Rose informed him smugly. "I have good news, but let's go home, first. Oh God, how good it sounds! Home." She sighed and had a dreamy smile on her face.
"I'm driving." Edward whispered, took the keys and we made our way to the car. We stayed in the front seats as the others stayed in the back seat. Alice and Jasper seemed to have glued their lips together with no trace of ever resurfacing. I understood her, even after three months of kissing Edward; I still couldn't get enough of it.
"So…have you guys learnt the language?" Emmett asked loudly making Alice jump scared, tearing her lips from Jasper's.
"We knew it!" Edward and Jasper said smugly at the same time.
"I'm learning it." I let out and pinched Edward's side. He squeaked, making us laugh at his reaction.
He turned to me, narrowing his eyes. "You'll pay for that." He hissed.
"Not in the hallway! Please!" Jasper pleaded from the backseat. I blushed bright red and Edward chuckled nervously, speeding away.
"Oh poor, Jazzy. You had to endure those two." Alice cooed. "I'll help you make up for what they did to you."
"No!" he yelled as Edward started laughing, remembering what he had told Jasper before we left.
"He looks scared. What have you two done to him?" Emmett asked interested.
"I told him, I'd join if I had caught him and Alice as he caught us earlier." Edward said nonchalantly, but I could see his smirk threatening to make an appearance.
Everyone started laughing, even Jasper joined in the laughter, eventually, but not after slapping Edward.
I really liked this. I had my friends close by, my new family. Just thinking of that made me cry again. Edward shot me a concerned look, but I dismissed him with my hand.
We listened to Emmett as he told us about Edward's cousin catching Victoria. He made it so comical that my cheeks were hurting for laughing so much.
"…then she dived in and immobilized her! 'You have the right to remain silent. Anything you say can and will be used against you in a court of law. You have the right to an attorney. If you cannot afford an attorney, one will be appointed to you. Do you understand these rights as they have been read to you?'. Oh how I love that part!" he finished.
"We're here." Edward said between chuckles. I hadn't realized we had arrived home, I had been so engrossed in Emmett's story.
We showed them to their rooms and I went to make tea. Rose wanted to change from her clothes and then tell us her news.
I had just finished pouring the water in the cups as Edward's arms wrapped around me. His chin settled on my shoulder and his breath tickled my neck.
"Are you happy?" he whispered.
"More than you know." I answered and turned in his arms, wrapping mine around his waist.
He grinned and leaned to kiss me, backing me in the counter. "Anything else?" he whispered, gesturing to the cups.
"I'm hungry. Let's boil some frankfurters and make hot dogs." I decided.
We worked in silence and as the frankfurters boiled, we continued our kissing session. Edward's hand sneaked under my blouse and cupped my breast. "Have I mentioned that I love how you rounded?" he teased.
"A billion times." I moaned when he squeezed my left breast and nipped at my earlobe. "Edward" I breathed.
He disappeared as I was about to wind my fingers in his messy hair. When I opened my eyes, I saw him at the stove, grinning at the boiling water.
"You're mean." I pouted as my hands fell to my sides.
Edward raised his head to me and smirked. "They're done."
I took the tray with the tea cups and turned to him. "Make the hot dogs." I said stiffly and left.
Our friends were in the small living room, perched on the couch, talking and laughing.
"About time! What were you doing there?" Emmett laughed loudly.
I blushed, but managed to say coolly. "Hot dogs." I realized it was a bad thing as soon as the words escaped my mouth.
Edward came in the room with a plate full of hot dogs, two bottles, one of mustard and one of ketchup, under his arm, his hair sticking in every direction.
"I see. You mean, doggy hot?" Emmett asked crudely.
"Leave them be! And Alice, you are right, she's been holding out on us." Rose said smiling and smirked at me.
"Me? What have I done?" I asked surprised. Edward sat in the small loveseat and pulled on his lap.
"Your secret!" Alice wailed as if it was the most obvious thing in the world.
"What secret? I thought Rose had a secret…"
"I have." She said proudly and Emmett took a serious face, which was odd for him. "I'm pregnant." Rose whispered and turned to Emmett kissing him soundly.
"That's great news!" I exclaimed and rushed to her, hugging her.
"Just found out. She's only seven weeks along." Emmett informed us.
"Congrats, Em!" Edward nodded from his seat, not moving. "Come back." He whispered and extended a hand. I went back, without even thinking. He was attracting me to him, his special power, as I liked to call it. A moth to the flame, he was my flame and I was the moth.
"What about you two?" Alice asked us, bouncing on Jasper's lap.
"They're at it like rabbits." Jasper offered.
"Which resulted in Bella being in Rose's condition, as I see." Alice giggled.
"WHAT?" Edward and I asked at the same time.
Alice watched us amused then her features turned in horror. "You didn't know?"
"Know what?" I whispered. She was wrong. I wasn't pregnant. As Edward put it, I had only gained some weight.
"You are pregnant! You are glowing and I daresay you are…rounder than I remember."
"Bella just put on some weight, which I find quite appealing." Edward announced and buried his nose in my hair.
I carefully counted in my head, to show Alice that she was wrong. My last period had been in April. I tried to remember if I noted down a date in May, but I came up blank. Had I missed it? Had I forgotten to note it? I couldn't be pregnant! I felt all my blood drain from my face as I remembered the flight here. We were in June, now, and the date of my period had passed by three days.
"Right, love?"
I shook out of my daze state and turned to stare at Edward. He was convinced I wasn't, as convinced as I had been until a minute ago.
"Eh…I need some air." I said hurriedly and fled out of the house.
Clouds had gathered and it was about to rain, you could smell the storm in the air. I realized I had left without a coat and I shivered, wrapping my arms around my waist.
Could Alice be right? Could I be pregnant? I wasn't any better than I was three months ago when I first thought of this. I had to buy a test and be sure.
A warm, furry coat wrapped around me and Edward's breath fanned my cheek. "Is it true, sweetie?"
I shrugged, not capable of talking right then. I had been craving things lately, had gained weight, had missed a period…But I hadn't been sick. Something was wrong, I could feel it, and maybe some women just didn't get morning sickness.
"Where are you taking me?" I asked Edward confused as he dragged me away from the house.
"Pharmacy." It was came his one-worded response.
The drive there was spent in silence. I hated this silence. Was he mad? Was he happy? Was he as nervous and scared as me?
"Hallo! Wie kann ich Dir helfen?" (Hello! What can I help you with?) the round, blond woman behind the desk asked us cheerily.
"Hallo. Wir brauchen einen Schwangerschaftstest." (Hello. We need pregnancy tests.) Edward said brusquely. This surprised me and made me realize one thing. He wasn't happy about me being pregnant.
The woman beamed and rushed on a back door, coming back what seemed like an hour later with five tests. I had felt suddenly claustrophobic in the tiny space, alone with Edward.
"Hier sind die Test, meine bin mir sicher, dass Du keine brauchst. Du siehst schwanger aus." (Here you are, my dears. I'm sure you don't need them. You surely look pregnant.) She winked at me. I caught a glimpse of her name. Hildegard Schmidt.
I smiled at her, unable to contain it anymore. I believed her more than I had believed Alice. Hildegard was old and she knew those things.
"Danke, Frau Schmidt." (Thank you, Frau Schmidt.) I whispered as Edward snatched his credit card and the bag with the tests then turned to the door.
"Er wird sich damit abfinden, Süsse. Männer sind immer ängstlich bei diesem Thema, aber ihm wird bald, die Idee gefallen, Vater zuwerden, Du wirst bald eine glückliche Frau sein." (He'll come around, sweetie. Men are scared of this whole thing, but as soon as he warms up to the idea, you will be one happy woman.)
"Danke, nochmals. Tschüss!" (Thank you, again. Bye!)
"Tschüss!" (Bye!)
"Are you mad?" I asked when we were in the car.
"Let's find the results and after we see a doctor, I'll tell you." Edward said in a detached voice. This voice hurt me more than if he had slapped me. I wished the tears won't fall from my eyes, but they had a mind of their own.
Edward didn't seem to notice this, he drove home in silence. Only when he stopped the car, he saw I was crying. He got out and rounded the car to my side, opening the door, turning me to him and stepping between my legs.
"Oh Bella!" he whispered and hugged me to him, his fingers knotting in my hair. I sniffed him and clutched to him sweater. I didn't know what to say or do, so I simply clung to him. "Let's take the tests. Okay?" Edward asked gently, scooped me up, closed the door and walked slowly towards the house. He walked upstairs, past our friends that were watching us anxiously and deposited me in the bathroom.
"I'll be on the other side of the door."
I nodded and closed the door. I sat on the toilet seat and eyed the tests. Everyone seemed so sure that I was…what if I wasn't? Would I be disappointed? I wasn't settled down by any means, but I suddenly wanted this, wanted to have Edward's baby in me.
I peed on the sticks, the tea from earlier showing its effects.
"Edward?" I croaked. The door opened and I was in his arms again.
"What is it?" he asked bleakly.
"We have to wait." I said then turned to him and cupped his cheek in my hand. "Honestly, are you mad? Don't you want this?" I asked hurt.
His eyes shone brightly for a second then they clouded, becoming almost black. "We'll see."
What should I understand from that? He seemed like he wanted to be happy, but something was holding him back. What? Was the question.
All the tests showed the truth, what everyone has been telling me. I was pregnant.
Edward muttered something about "complications" and ran his hand through his hair repetitively, making it messier than usual.
"Is me, isn't it? It's my fault?" I whispered on the verge of tears. "It's because I don't have a job, because I don't have any money-"
Edward put his finger on my mouth as his other hand messed his hair further. His eyes bore in mine.
"It's not you!" he hissed, cursed softly and sighed. "I'm going to call the hospital and schedule us an appointed for tomorrow morning." With that he left. Not one kiss, not one squeeze, not one 'I love you'. I felt devastated. He didn't want this. I was certain of this, now. No matter what Hildegard Schmidt said, Edward didn't want this baby.
I remember falling down and stroking my stomach, tears rolling down my eyes. The next thing I knew was Rose and Alice by my side on the bed.
"Are you alright?" Alice asked worried.
I opened my mouth to say 'No', but a strangled noise came out.
Alice looked upset, but concerned at the same time. "Let's get you dressed."
"What?" I asked, finding my voice.
"It's morning. You fell asleep in the bathroom. Scared Edward when you didn't follow him." Rose explained.
"He suddenly cares?" I shouted, enraged.
"You didn't realize why he is acting like this?" Alice asked giving me a pleading look, making me realize on my own.
"Enlighten me." I sneered and got up and went to wash and get dressed.
"Ehh you are quite far along. Anyone can see that." Alice whispered.
"I have a pretty good idea when it happened, although I had two periods since."
"It's common for that to happen." At my exasperated look, Alice wavered. "Okay, not that common, but it happens. You are fine."
After I was washed and dressed, I went to the door to get out of my room.
"Wait! You won't get out until you figure it out why he is acting like this!" Rose snapped.
"He doesn't want this." I said simply and bit my lip to stop the tears.
"You are a fool!"
I narrowed my eyes at Rose. "How come?"
"He freaking thinks that-"
"Enough, Rose. I'll talk with Bella." Edward himself came in the room. He looked like he hadn't slept; he was wearing the same clothes as yesterday, his eyes were small and tired, big, black patches under them and his hair stuck in one direction, flattened on the forehead.
Alice and Rose left. Edward came to me and we sat on the edge of the bed.
"I'll just say it since you don't seem to realize it." He sighed.
"Perfect! Now I'm stupid, too!" I groaned.
"I never said that, love. Bella, I am afraid…that it had happened before we came here." Edward told me softly, searching my eyes.
"I know when it happened! It was before. I am sure." I answered.
"When? Before I came to get you?" he asked in a low voice, I barely heard him.
"When you came to get me. That night, on the windowsill. Remember? If the doctor says three months, then that's it."
He visibly relaxed. "Are you positive?"
"Let's go and find out." I prompted him.
He held my hand all the drive to the hospital and while we waited and as the nurse called my name which wasn't really mine. She must have messed them, calling me Bella Masen. Not that I was objecting. I saw Edward smirking and I knew he had 'failed' to give my name.
"I'm afraid of what we're going to hear there." Edward whispered so soft it could have been my imagination.
I was indeed pregnant, but the doctor deduced that it had happened in February. We made him count again and he came to the same result.
Edward seemed to have stopped breathing and when the nurse came in; he pushed her in the corned and whispered fervently something to her. She glanced at me and nodded, gazing at his face, lost by his beauty. I wanted to take her eyes out. No one was allowed to look at him like that!
The doctor told us the date I had fallen pregnant was around February 15th. Edward did the same thing with the doctor, backing him away from me as the nurse came to me to take some samples of blood. I had no idea why they needed this. The doctor was nodding to Edward and glancing at me suspiciously. He seemed to know what I had been or something like that.
As the nurse went to Edward with a needle, I realized what he was doing. What the whole fuss was about. He wanted to know if the baby was his. I felt sick and turned to the side of the bed, luckily there was a trash can. I heaved in it.
I hadn't thought of that. Edward had been the only one to be with me without a condom, but accidents happened. I felt like Edward didn't' trust me by doing this, like the result will have some kind of influence on our relationship. What if they had? What if he left me if the results were different?
I couldn't lose Edward. That was the last thought I had before I fainted.
Review. I have to think of what the result will be, so there might me a few days until the new chapter.