When Arizona woke up next morning, she immediately felt Amelia's absence in the bed. After Callie left, she got used to sleeping alone. From time to time, when she had nightmares, or when Sofia had nightmares, she'd hold her daughter. But now she was been sharing a bed with Amelia for quite some time and she adjusted to her presence.

As she opened her eyes and looked around the room, she saw no sign of Amelia, but felt the smell of fresh coffee. Then her girlfriend walked in the bedroom, holding two cups.

She smiled to Arizona, who was still sleepy. "Good morning sunshine," she said as she extended her the cup of coffee.

"Oh, you're the best," Arizona said as she kissed Amelia shortly before taking a long sip of her freshly prepared drink.

"So I checked in with the hospital and we have one more hour before we have to go in," the brunette said as she settled back in the bed. "There were no emergencies, only the scheduled surgeries."

"Really, what did I do to deserve you?"

"I also booked a table at the restaurant downtown for tonight," she continued casually, taking sips of her coffee.

Arizona watched her lover with soft, yet questioning eyes. "Did you do something and you're just trying to get away with it?" she asked and laughed softly.

"What?" she asked confused, but visibly amused. "You deserve it." She smiled at Arizona. She placed both of their cups on the nightstand and kissed Amelia passionately.

She parted from her lips and looked in Amelia's blue eyes. Something was off. She was able to notice when something was wrong after staring so many times into her eyes and knowing how every emotion looks like on her. She noticed uncertainty, doubt. She frowned slightly, asking, "Is something wrong?"

Proving something was wrong, Amelia simply answered, "No, nothing's wrong. I just… no, it's nothing. I don't want to ruin this." She smiled to Arizona, trying to cover the truth.

"Tell me, please," she said softly. "If something's wrong, I want to know."

"It's about… about what we talked last night." Arizona furrowed her brow, clearly thinking about what they talked last night. Amelia brought up the kids subject. They were both quite excited about it, deciding they wanted one. Surely they didn't get very far with the details as other things unfolded, but they were going to.

"It was about kids, right? About a future kid," Arizona said, her smile now fading away.

"Yes. I was thinking… maybe we shouldn't hurry." Seeing Arizona perplexed, she continued. "I mean I want a baby, at some point. But I thought maybe now we should focus on… us?" She ended her sentence with a questioning tone, as if she wasn't even sure of what she was saying.

"So you don't want a baby; not now." Arizona tried to understand, to see what she meant. "I thought you were ready."

"I am, I'm just… I guess I'm scared. Terrified, really."

"Because of your…" Arizona started saying, but Amelia quickly nodded, understanding what she was talking about. "Look if you don't want to, we don't have to. I know what you feel, I was there too. But I want you to know what it feels like to get to raise one of your own, to watch them in complete adoration as they do the smallest things…" She laughed a little, knowing how good it felt. "I want you to know."

Amelia smiled and nodded, her eyes watering.

Their trains of thoughts were interrupted by the loudly beeping pagers. "Well, there we go," said Arizona.

Amelia quickly checked her phone and saw it was all over the news. "There was a huge fire downtown. So there'll be many burns," she said, as she got up.

"We better hurry," Arizona said as she fixed her prosthetic. She wasn't exactly done with the baby talk, but she told herself she'd get back at it.

In almost no time they were in the hospital and as soon as they changed in their scrubs, they ran down to the ER. The emergency room was packed, patients with all kinds of burns lying in beds. This wasn't something they hadn't seen before; they were already used to it.

They spotted Avery who was giving directions to everybody, helped by Owen.

"Shepherd!" They heard Jackson calling. "Trauma room 6 please and Robbins 7 and 8," he said.

"What happened?" Arizona asked as she put her yellow gown on.

"A gas pipe exploded in a home and the fire took two more before the firefighters got there."

"Gosh, okay, let's see," Arizona said, making her way to Trauma room 7. "Dr. Wilson, fill me in," she said, putting her gloves on and looking at the scans.

"Casey Douglas, 9, right shoulder and thigh burns, also complaining of internal pain," Jo said as she was filling his chart.

"Hello Casey, I'm Dr. Robbins," she said in her cheery voice. "How are you feeling?"

"My shoulder and leg really hurt and I feel like something inside is squeezing my chest," he said.

"Alright, let's have a look," she said. She peeled off the gauze and looked at his burn. After examining his thigh wound as well, she said, "Well your burns burn doesn't look bad, you won't need surgery. They are first-degree burns, which mean that it involves only your first layer of skin, which will quickly heal. Now let's check your chest."

She turned to Wilson who studied the scans as well.

"Should we page Pierce?"

"He said he's got discomfort, so yes, she should check it."

She moved to the next patient, a 7-month pregnant woman.

"Coleen Jones, 30, 28 weeks pregnant. Second-degree burns to the neck," April spoke out as she was treating her wounded area. "She's complaining of pain in the abdominal area."

"Coleen, I'm Dr. Robbins, I'm a fetal surgeon," Arizona told the suffering patient.

"Can you please tell me if my baby is alright?" Coleen said.

"Right away, don't worry." Arizona took the gel and the fetal monitor. It didn't take her long to notice there was a rupture and some hemorrhage inside her stomach. "Coleen, did you fall recently? Perhaps when you were trying to exit the house?"

"Yes, I tripped on the stairs in front of my home when I was making my way out. Is everything okay?"

"You are bleeding inside your stomach, but don't worry, it's a quick and easy fix, it won't take long. And the rupture is nowhere near your baby, so he's not going to be bothered," Arizona added with an encouraging smile on her face anybody could use. "How's her neck?"

"I have to treat this, but I'll be done soon. I'll page you when you can go in," April said.

"Alright, thanks," she said and looked around the room to see which resident was there. "Edwards, book an OR and scrub in with me."

"Will do, Dr. Robbins."

Arizona walked out the trauma room and headed towards the cafeteria in hopes to grab an apple before her surgery. When she entered, she noticed Amelia was there, sitting at a table with Maggie, chatting and eating.

"Hey," Arizona greeted as she approached them. She sat down and smiled at her friends.

"You're done with the ER?" Maggie asked.

"Yeah, I had a second-degree and a first-degree. They're both fine," she said as she started biting into her apple. "Oh, the first-degree burn; Casey Douglas needed a cardio exam."

"Right, yes, I checked on him and gave him medication," Maggie replied and Arizona nodded.

"There were so many kids there hurt by the fire," Amelia said and Arizona sensed something from this morning's conversation. Amelia had the same frightened look. "It really makes you think twice."

"Before what?" Arizona asked. Her eyes were focused on Amelia.

"Before having one of your own. There's just so much danger in the world, it's getting really hard to just think about it."

"Yes, but I mean there's always been danger. And danger will always be around. That shouldn't stop us from having a family if we want to," Arizona said. She might've sounded a bit harsh, but she didn't want to take it back.

Amelia looked up in Arizona's eyes, troubled.

"Am I missing out on something?" Maggie asked, clearly confused by the entire conversation.

"We were thinking of having a kid," Arizona said as she looked at Maggie and watched her eyes brighten up.

"You're having a baby?" She sounded as excited as she looked.

"Well, we were considering it," Amelia answered.

"Yeah, considering it," Arizona said. She stood up and before she walked away, she smiled and added, "I have surgery, but I'll see you later." She looked at Maggie and then Amelia, only to find her looking confused and slightly irritated.

Right as she left the table, her pager beeped informing her that Coleen was ready for surgery. She shook her head of all distractions and thoughts and plans and went on to perform the surgery.

As she said, it was a quick fix and she was done in almost no time. Now the patient was in recovery and she headed to the board to check her surgeries. She took her phone out and noticed she received a message from Amelia not long ago that read "We're still on for tonight?"

She remembered Amelia made reservations to the restaurant that happened to be her favorite. Amelia didn't know because they hadn't discussed restaurants and such, but it was. She flashed a small smile and closed her eyes. It was a bit of a challenging phase they were going through, but she couldn't lose her.

She texted back "Definitely" and she continued to smile. They were going to get through this.

Her phone buzzed not long after she sent the text.

"Meet you at 8 in the lobby?"

"Sure thing."

She slid her phone back in her pocket and went on to do her next surgery.

At 8 o'clock she made her appearance in the lobby and spotted Amelia waiting for her. This morning she didn't pay attention to what she picked out to wear with the emergency and all, but now that she saw her and wasn't in a hurry, she noticed she was wearing a crimson shirt matched with a black coat and high-heeled boots. She touched up her make-up and fixed her hair and now Arizona was feeling embarrassed.

"You are very beautiful," Arizona said and kissed her. Amelia smiled against the kiss. "And I look like a mess," she added and pressed the elevator button.

"You do not look like a mess," Amelia reassured her and intertwined her fingers with Arizona's.

"I don't even have make-up on," she said.

"You don't need it." Arizona rolled her eyes and snorted.

They chatted on the way to the restaurant but none of them brought up the baby subject. Not even during the dinner. But it became inevitable and quite obvious they both were thinking about the same thing.

Arizona tilted her head, not taking her eyes off Amelia. Amelia's eyes were wondering everywhere around the room expect for her lover.

"Amelia," Arizona spoke softly, but Amelia still didn't look at her. Only when she took her hand she finally met her gaze.

She knew what she was avoiding. She was avoiding fighting, disagreeing and making a decision which might cost them more than they wished for.

"Arizona, I don't want to lose you. I know we wanted the same thing, but I started having doubts and I just… I don't know," she said, clearly anxious.

But Arizona was composed. "Doubts about having a family with me?"

Amelia looked at her startled. She took her hand out of Arizona's touch and gathered her words. Her expression became grave. "This is not about you. It's not about whether I want a family with you or not. Of course I want it with you, who else?" She raised her tone slightly. "This is about delivering a child into a world with so many insecurities and risks. About not being 100% sure he or she will have a safe and bright life."

Arizona puffed. "Do you think danger occurred in the last 10 years? You think it wasn't present and more pressuring back in war time? When people had little to nothing to eat, not to mention any safety? This, what we have today, this is totally different compared to those times. Amelia, anyone can tell you the perfect time to have a kid is never. If you want a family, if you want to raise a child, then you don't have to wait. You don't wait until it's too late."

Amelia looked away, searching for the waiter and as soon as she noticed him, she waved to him for the check.

"Amelia, I understand what you are saying. I see what you see," she said but stopped when the waiter brought the check.

"Thank you," Amelia smiled to him and as soon as she left the money, she looked back up at Arizona and told her, "You don't see what I see."

She stood up and Arizona understood they were leaving. She sighed and followed Amelia to the car. They didn't say anything the entire road. But as soon as they got home, Amelia repeated what she last said.

"You don't see what I see because even though we both lost our babies, it was different. You keep on saying you understand what I went through, but no. Unless your experience is the same as mine, then no, you can't understand. You lost your pregnancy, but I gave birth to my boy knowing he has no brain, knowing there'll be no future for him. I had to…" her voice started shaking, her eyes watering up. She sniffed and took a breath. "I had to hold him until he would die. I saw him, I saw his features and I will forever have his image printed in my mind." Arizona didn't take her eyes off her, but she changed her expression. Her eyes softened. She knew Amelia was right, she knew their stories were different. "Arizona, I'm scared of having another one because what if… what if it will be the same?"

Arizona approached her, wanting to take her hand, but Amelia backed off slowly. "I…" Amelia closed her eyes, and added, "I'm very tired; I'm going to sleep."

Arizona watched her turn and walk towards her bedroom. She felt like she might break inside, yet again. Her eyes glanced at Sofia's bedroom. She was missing her daughter terribly. In moments like this, she'd go to her and watch her draw or just listen to her talking about the most ridiculous things, but she would feel so much better.

She was tired too. She headed towards the bedroom and changed into her pyjamas. She slipped under the covers and turned away from Amelia's side of the bed. Amelia was taking a shower but as soon as she got in bed too, even though she was there now, she still felt like it was empty. She so badly wanted to turn and hold Amelia. She was feeling really bad; she knew very well that this was a sensitive subject. She wanted to forget everything and just be there for her. But ultimately she had to get used to the thought that they both needed a bit of space.

There was no connection between the two right now, not like most of the times when they'd fall asleep in each other's arms. But now… now the bed was occupied by two people who felt very distant from each other.

At least for now.