"A Flower in the Attic"

Chapter ten: Sinful Actions

Disclaimer: I do not own Bleach nor Flowers in the Attic.

A/N: If you are not into "mature content" do not continue reading. There's a reason why this story is rated M, and starting on this chapter it will have some parts not for all readers.

Thank you to everyone who reviewed the past chapters and added this story to their alerts and favorites! They're the main reason why I keep updating this story!

I also apologize for any mistakes. Grammars and spelling.

Enjoy reading! ^_^

"Rukia! Why are you smiling?"

I saw Momo looking at me. She was asking me why I was smiling. Why? Were we not allowed to do so? Is smiling also forbidden in this hell? Why was she asking me? Oh yeah, I forgot. I have stopped smiling like a fool two years ago. Ever since the joy of freedom were taken away from us. From me.

But today was an exception. There was a goofy grin plastered on my face since I woke up. Everyday it shocked me how I could face another day to live with nothing but darkness. To live with nothing but loneliness. But for the first time in two years, I felt, I do belong in the world.

I felt alive.

I looked at my sister and brother. Nothing much have changed in them in two years and seven months and I do mean it literally. I looked at them but I couldn't bear the view I see. Nothing had changed. Their eyes were still as big as saucers. Full of hope and longing. They looked at me with those orbs that I refused to see. They had the same eyes as that man. Our loving, caring, and kind Papa. In two years and seven months, their bodies hasn't seen the sun. For children in their age they shouldn't be deprived of sunlight. They needed it to grow healthy and right. But being trap in darkness far too long, the lack of nourishment and food two kids needed, their bodies had rejected the most necessary thing for little mice like them should have, yes mice, for they have lived like those. They have stopped growing.

Both twins resembled an owl. Two big eyes and a head too large for their too small frames. Even quite frightening if someone would see them. They were little creatures in the dark.

I smiled at Momo. She and Shiro were trying to be strong. They were playing with their pet rat that they have caught one evening last week or was it the week before that? I had forgotten. It was less painful when we don't count the passing days. That way we wouldn't expect or even hope that the despicable woman would come back and take us with her. Giving us the liberty we desired.

I looked around me. This hell hasn't change a damn bit. The beds in the middle of the room, the table in the corner, and the shelves that held the books my brother was fascinated with. Was last night a dream? Did I really meet and talked to a guy named Ichigo? Yes, yes! I did meet him! And he was the reason I woke up feeling a part of the outside world! I averted my gaze back outside the window. I was sitting next to it and was peeking from the heavy curtains. I could see him. That blazing orange hair was not hard to distinguish from afar. I envy that very fortunate girl. He was sitting next to her who had a figure just like Momma. They couldn't see me, they were busy talking and the girl was smiling at him trying to entertain him. Oh how I wished to be the one under the sun, sitting on a bench, talking and laughing with him! I wished to be back in the forest by his side and spending an evening like a normal person. With no lies and make up stories.

I wish I could share this blissful emotion with my twins. I wish they could feel the thrill of meeting someone new once more! Like meeting a new classmate in school and trying to be nice as much as you could to be like by everyone!

But I couldn't. If anyone would know I spent time with him, we would be punished. I know how much it scared my brother when one of us was hurt. How much it pained him when the old hag would drag us one by one in the bathroom to be whip and the dying feeling of hearing our screams begging for her to stop and live us alone. It was music to her ears. The sound of pain ringing in the room was a lullaby for her in the night.

"Rukia? Why were you late last night?"

My older brother snapped me out of my reverie. as if sensing what was going in my mind. I shook my head and shrugged just like my reply to him last night. I was not certain what Renji would feel with my encounter with Ichigo.

"How many times do I have to tell you? I lost track of the time. I enjoyed the water so much! I'm sorry if I have worried you."

Renji was sitting at the table reading another book about different kinds of poison. I knew how many times he've read it already but I didn't say anything. My brother couldn't face the fact that we have been prisoners for too long. He buried himself in the world of science and play the role of our doctor and father to the twins.

He moved closer and stood straight in front of me. Slowly, he kneeled down and took both of my hands and wrapped them inside his own. They felt normal, thin and weak from lack of food and nothing special unlike Ichigo's, whose hands were strong, calloused and very warm. He engulfed mine like we have done it before. It made my heart beat faster.

"You're staring at that boy again. Stop looking outside. Someone might see you and you'll be in trouble. All of us will be in trouble." Why did he have to emphasize the word 'all'? Was it my fault we were trapped here and forbidden to see anyone? I was hurt but remained a neutral expression.

He pulled me towards the bed while still holding my hand. I let him take me and we both sat on the old empty bed facing each other. He was staring at me with a look I didn't understand. His eyes were traveling all over my body. Roaming freely wherever he wanted them to be. It made me uncomfortable but I didn't know what he was doing. It didn't feel right but, what WERE we doing? He was just looking at me. Was it a sinful act? I was totally innocent.

I tried looking away but he prevented me from doing so. He tipped my head up and then encircled his big arms around my waist. He held me closer as much as he could even pulling me closer until I was crushed onto his body. And in that moment, I knew this was not a brotherly gesture anymore. This was what he did when he loose control over something I'm not sure.

His hands were roaming everywhere. It started slow but morphed into a fast rhythm. His big hands were going anywhere he wanted and I was trapped inside his arms I couldn't stop him. Even his face was buried in my neck inhaling my scent. I knew something wasn't right but there was a feeling swelling inside of me. It was starting to take over. I was frightened, for I have began enjoying every move he was making. He was making me vulnerable. He was making me moan from the pleasure I was receiving.

From the corner of my eyes I saw movements. The twins were whispering. Shiro and Momo darted their gaze at us and in an instant I felt ashamed. Was this what my grandmother was talking about? Shameful things we were meant to do in our age?

I tried pushing Renji away but I was a bit late. He had slid of the zipper holding up my dress in the back and his hands have started exploring my skin touching me wherever he could reach. I could feel his cold hands brushing my back caressing it as much as he could. He touched my brassiere, that was too big for my modest chest for all of my undergarments were from Momma, and snapped it open. I was focused on his hands I didn't notice his lips moving on my neck until I felt something sticky and wet. I panicked and pushed him real hard that made him fall on the bed, waking him up from the fire that he created. I quickly pulled up the zipper and covered myself with my arms.

Both our eyes were buldging from their sockets. I ran away from him and dashed in to the bathroom. Shaking from my own actions that had occurred.

I was terrified of it.

I was terrified of Renji.

I was terrified of myself.

Little by little we were going too far.

And like what I always did for two years and seven months, I blamed that person.

'This is all your fault, Momma...'

0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0~0

"Nel! Wait up!"

Ichigo was running towards Nel. She saw him and her heart has skipped a beat once more. Whenever she saw him she felt an emotion she couldn't comprehend. And as she waited for the said boy to reach her she couldn't take her eyes from him. Every step he made even made her flush red.

"Hey! Something wrong?"

"Nah! I just wanna thank you for the tip about the lake. I forgot to thank you this morning. It slipped my mind. I saw it last night and... It was awesome!"

Nel smiled. She was looking at Ichigo and thought how handsome he truly was. Tall, mascular, and very very kind. He was the kind of boy anybody would like and despite what her grandmother told her, she has liked him far too much already. She wanted him and not as a friend but more in an intimate relationship than that. To hug him and touch him whenever she likes. To explore every inch of him and be surprised on what she would see. She felt really disappointed when she couldn't accompany him in the forest. It was a chance to be with him and out of the Mansion. Where her grandmother couldn't see them. She thought of him for the whole night and what could have happened if she went. A chance she had missed.

"I'm glad you liked it. Maybe you could go again tonight,"

"Ye-" before Nel could finish Ichigo cut her of and answered quickly but was surprised when she finished her sentence.

"With me?"

"ah..." Continued a shock Ichigo. "What?"

"I said maybe we could go together, tonight. What do you think?"

"Uhm, I don't think I could go back tonight. My father might need me and he caught me last night sneaking back in to my room. He said not to go. Sorry." Ichigo barely lied. He was never a person who fancies a liar. It angered him whenever someone lies to him. He didn't like it and normally felt bad about it.

But he promised. Rukia, the girl he met last night made him promised not to utter a word to anyone. He wouldn't risk another night with her. He wouldn't pass an opportunity to be with the most intriguing and mysterious girl he has ever seen. And while he couldn't describe her as a goddess, he knew she was much more than that. A simple beauty in the night. It was enough and better than most women. To be with her for another night was making him feel anxious and desiring her. And in a few hours he could once again lay his eyes on her. 'Maybe I should bring my jacket tonight. It might be cold later.'

If Nel could jeopardize another moment with the petite and yet beautiful girl he would gladly lie and do it over and over to not prevent him from seeing her violet eyes. The most precious orbs he has seen.

"Well... I guess that's okay. Maybe some other time." To say that Nel was disappointed was an understatement. She was deeply hurt. Another chance has passed and was taken away from her. The worst part was she couldn't do anything about it and pretended it was not bothering her. "I need to take the keys from you. They might look for it." she opened up her palm and patiently waited for the tall boy to give the metal keys.

'Fuck! I've forgotten about that. How am I going to get back in the Mansion without keys? I'm such an idiot!'

Trying not to show the turmoil inside of him, Ichigo casually leaned on the wall beside Nel and in his most natural way he told her, "Can I just bring it to your room later? I don't have it right now. Sorry." 'Yes, this will give me time to think what I should do.'

A pout was visible on Nel's lips, making it more luscious. She patted Ichigo's shoulder playfully and smiled at him with bright eyes. "No problem! Return it to me when you can."

A sigh of relief escaped Ichigo before he could even stop it. Fortunately Nel's gaze was fixed on a woman passing by the corridor of the Mansion, cleaning a picture hanged on the wall. He immediately thank her and bid her goodbye before he makes another lie. He turned away from Nel and quickly left the area. Living the girl disappointed with him for living too early. She was hoping to spend more time with him.

Once inside his room he started pacing. Walking back and forth. His thoughts were all about a certain girl he met.

Tonight, he would see her. He would know more about her and he would look into her beautiful eyes for the whole night. He wouldn't get sick of them for they were the loveliest pair of orbs he has ever seen.

"Rukia... There's something about you I do not understand. Something with the way you move and speak."

He would reveal more of her.