I'm just so fucking depressed
I just can't seem to get out this slump
If I could just get over this hump
But I need something to pull me out this dump

I took my bruises, took my lumps
Fell down and I got right back up
But I need that spark to get psyched back up.

Beautiful - Eminem.

Bella.

I warned her. I fucking warned the bitch. Ever since that day of her pathetic lttle attack. My vampire brain allowing me to remember every little detail.

xx.

We were staying with the Volturi, because I was a newborn. Peter and Char wanted me to be the best trained vampire known. It wasn't like they wanted to exploit me. They cared for me as if I were their own flesh in blood. More than I can say about my actual flesh and blood.

So, yeah. I was fucking pissed as fuck. First I was told, straight out and up fucking front, no human contact unless you're hunting. I screamed, punched, kicked with everything I had. Thats when I started absorbing more than one power at a time.

My rage had filled me to the point I was being swollowed in darkness. You know the saying 'There's always a light at the end of the tunnel.'? Yeah, wel turns out I was so far in the darkness, my eyes may aswel have been stapled closed.

There was no light. I was gone. I was hitting rock bottom.

'Atleast you can't get any lower, right baby?' A voice in my head told me. I sighed. Yeah, I guess the voice had a point.

"Bella, they're early. They'll be here in three hours. We need you in training. We have plans." Jane said. She looked at me with pain filled eyes. I merely nodded. She came into the room, pulling me in for a quick hug before retreating. Jane quickly became one of my best friends.

In a few minutes I was outside where a majority of the guard stood, including Cauis. He smiled warmly at me. He knew not to expect a smile back. What was there to smile about?

"Bella my dear, all you and Jane will be doing in this fight is using your powers to incapacitate the army. We will tear them apart. My guess is we won't even lose a member." Cauis said brightly. I didn't get why, he was the one that always looked bored and sighed alot. But he seemed fond of me. I just couldn't find it in me to care.

"Well, they're here even earlier than expected. Formations." Cauis clapped his hands together happily like Master Aro normally would. I guess fighting made him happy. It was sure as fuck going to be my release.

Jane clasped my hand in hers, Char taking my other hand. They both smiled. I nodded my head, the corners of my mouth turning up very slightly, but they saw it. They released my hands and walked to their appointed places.

Come on fuckers, I want a fight.

I saw flaming red hair leading the army. (I got to here, saved it, kept writing and got to 3000 fucking word and guess what? I pushed 'save' and it fucking deleted it all! I am BEYOND pissed.)

Her army came to a stop infront of us, and before much longer, I was working on torturing the front line. They fell to the ground, screaming and thrashing violently on the pain bestowed upon them.

Stupid fuckers, it's all in your ugly fucking thick heads.

That was the first 50 down, the guard jumped in quickly, swiftly tearing their limbs apart. I wanted to be doing that myself. Slowly. Making them feel every lost limb as I pulled it from their rock body. Watching the venom pour from their wound as they screamed in horror and pain, desprately trying to get away.

"James's Little Plaything. What a surprise to see you here!" Redhead laughed. Something in my snapped. I felt it. She was suddenly screaming, and I felt her emotions. She was shocked, in so much pain, confused, agononized. I smiled sadistacally.

"I whispered in her ear:
Fear me dear, for I am Death,
I'll take your hope, your dreams, your love,
Till theres nothing left." I sang darkly. She was fearful now.

Fearing for her life. Good she should be. I looked over to the fight, extending my torture to the fouth line of the pathetic army.

"Stop! .. Please, stop!" She begged.

"I whispered in her ear:" I started again.

"Please!" She begged.

"You better fear me dear, for I am Death,
And I'll take that shit you call a life,
In a single fucking breath." I whispered the last part.

I gripped her head between my hands tightly. She screamed, her head thrashing from side to side. Eyes tightly closed.

"I have a new power." I whispered. "Look at me." I commanded. She opened her eyes as I stopped the pain. Her pupils dialated. I stepped forward, my body disappearing as I merged with her.

"What are you doing?" She screamed in her head. She had no control over her body. What could she do anyway, hit herself?

"This is your only warning." I threatened. "I'm only letting you go because I want a chase. When I do catch you, I'll kill you painfully." I stepped out of her body as Char started screaming for me.

"Bella, Oh-!" She gasped as I fell at her feet. I stood up, dusting myself off.

"Surprise?" I said, knowing she didn't know about this ower yet.

xx.

Jasper.

"How did you find her? I asked. Bella told me vaguely. I knew she would leave out the horrible parts. I wouldn't think any less of her if she had.

"She already told you." Char stated confidently. It was fake confidence.

"Tell me from your point of view." I asked. She sighed, her eyes instantly getting glassy. Fuck, just how much had Bella left out?

"It was her blood that drew us there." She admitted some what sheepishly, she started stuttering and gasping for breath I knew she didn't need.

"Her arms, god her arms.. They were cut so badly. Blood was everywhere. I don't know how we didn't attack. She was wearing such.. such horrible clothes. We could tell she was a rape victim straight away, when we killed James, it confirmed it.."

She trailed off, stopping and inhaling deeply.

"We thought it was her heart just beating in overdrive.." What did she mean? "I didn't know.. Not until after.." She struggled. "There were two heartbeats.."

Two heartbeats? What did she mean by two heartbeats?

Jasper, man, put two and two together. She was sick at school..

Fuck!

"She was-" I started but before I could say it Char cut me off.

"Pregnant." She confirmed. And I knew she would be crying if she could.

I felt all the blood in my body turn ice cold. And I suddenly foun dmyself crying for Charlotte. For Bella. For everything. Why couldn't I have been there for her?