Oh lordy lordy lordy what will Rose decide after that last chapter. You will just have to wait and see. You know what to do REVIEW REVIEW REVIEW!!!;-]

I went back to my room after leaving Dimitri in the cabin. I laid on my bed and thought about everything. Here's what I came up with: #1 I love them both…a lot # 2 I want to be with them both…a lot #3 I am the biggest idiot ever for letting my life get so effing screwed up like this. Oh good god.

After thinking for myself for that long I decided to slip into Lissa's head and found that she wasn't doing anything important (homework) so I called her and decided to let her do my thinking for me; or at least have her help me with it. She came right over.

"Hey." She said as I answered the door.

"Hey. Thanks for coming over."

"No problem let's talk." We went over and sat on my bed.

"Rose your life has more drama in it than everyone I know combined." Lissa told me.

"Oh come on Liss, I don't think it's that bad; close, but not quite." I said with a fake smile that she didn't buy for a second.

"Okay so tell me what's up."

"Dimitri and I talked earlier…"

"Oh gosh, about what?" She asked worriedly

"Well, the other day I told him that I'm still in love with him, "She looked beyond surprised, but she stayed silent."So he decided he isn't going to give up on us even though I told him that I want to be with Adrian. So today he took me out to the cabin where we met Tasha so we could talk and he told me that he figured out a way for us to be together and that is making me think twice about things with Adrian. So I'm thinking maybe the only reason I wanted to be with Adrian more was because I knew it was possible for us to be together and I had thought it was impossible for Dimitri and me. Now I don't know. What should I do?"

"Wow Rose I really don't know what to say. I wish our bond worked both ways that way I could really see your feelings and could help you, but I can't tell you what you should do or who you should pick. That decision could change you entire life and I'm not going to tell you who I think you should choose because it's not up to me."

"I know I just…God I just needed to get everything out there. I really have no clue. It's just so hard you know?"

"So what do you think you will do?"

"I don't know. I guess I just need to think some more; a lot more." I told her.

"Well make sure you don't rush through it; you need to decide right."

"I know."

"I'll see you later?"

"Yeah. Bye."

"Bye." She said as she walked out the door.

God, what am I going to do? Which one of them can't I be without? I thought it was Adrian, but now I'm not so sure. I do know one thing though; I need to talk to Adrian. Now it's just a matter of building up the courage to walk over to his room, knock on his door and get comprehensible words to come out of my mouth.

I finally managed to get myself over to his room after about two hours, but when I got there no one answered the door so you'd think I was home free right? Wrong! I was almost back to my dorm when I ran into him…literally. Yeah I walked around a corner and bam! There he was walking around the exact same corner so of course we went back up to my room and of course he could tell something was wrong with me and of course after I tell him what happened he doesn't even get mad!!! What the fuck? I wish he had gotten mad; I deserve to have him be mad at me. Holy shit what is wrong with this man?!? So yeah now it will be even harder for me to choose because he is so damn nice. Ugh I need pills. Night.

Golly G I really don't think Adrian has any self-respect, but hey I still love him. And yes Rose you most definitely need pills. Sorry. Well you know what to do REVIEW REVIEW REVIEW!!!;-] Yeah people you better review because I updated twice today yeah TWICE. Three times if you read Dimitri's Side because I don't have any friends and am a total nerd no lol I'm just kidding I have lots of friends and I'm only a nerd in the coolest way possible ha. Okay so yeah just review please lol.

P.S I have officially decided how this story will end. I was going back and forth between two ideas, but I have finally decided on one and it will bring a second book into this too and I already know some of you won't like the ending from some comments but hey I didn't like the ending of Shadow Kiss, but I still read Blood Promise and totally cannot wait for Spirit Bound so I think you will get over it lol. Oh and REVIEW if you can't wait for Spirit Bound either. Oh and in case you didn't know the sixth and final VA book will be called Last Sacrifice and comes out Dec. 14th 9 days after my b-day eep. And Sydney the alchemist from BP will be part of the spin-off series. :)