So I want to apologize for not uploading earlier. Thursday was a very busy day and I wasn't able to finish the chapter in time. I was going to update yesterday but I was literally dragged to a bar for a friend of a friend's birthday party.
I would also like to apologize for being extremely bad in review replies, as I said RL got in the way but I will go back to replying as soon as possible. Thank you for all of your sweet notes and/or questions. They have influenced the story in one way or another ;)
NOTE: Before you go off and read Ch. 10- this story is rated M, and will keep climbing the Rated Mature mountain; actively keep that in mind from this point forward.
Off you go hahaha.
Eminem- The Warning Pt. 1
2002.
"Jacob." I looked at the floor, feeling Edward's grasp still holding on to me like a vice even though he was making his way to the pier.
"What a douche." Jacob scowled at Edward making me mad for some reason. Deciding not to get distracted again I called his attention, "look Jacob-"
"Bella," Jacob rushed out excited, "when Charlie mentioned the possibility of letting me date you I thought I'd died." I stared at him speechless, "I've always had a huge crush on you- ever since we were kids. I couldn't believe my luck when Charlie told me I had a chance."
What the fuck? What year is this? 1556?
"Jacob," I said firmly not wanting him to interrupt me again, "Charlie may want me to start dating, although I find that odd that's not the point. The times when fathers controlled their daughters' future is long gone."
His face fell again, "that's not-"
"Let me finish," I put my hand up to stop him, "I'm don't want a boyfriend Jacob." His face fell but I didn't feel as bad as I thought I would have. "I'm flattered you feel that way towards me but I can't reciprocate those feelings towards you."
"Give me a chance please."
"I'm sorry I just can't." I gave him a sad smile and walked off hoping he wouldn't hate me.
The thought of someone actually harboring feelings for me sent me into a tailspin, me? Liked by someone? Wow.
It was December 27th and I stared at the black contents of my cup thinking back to everything that's happened in the last two weeks. I'd put Jacob's declaration away not wanting to overthink things and focused purely on the Christmas season and spending time with the Cullens and my father even after his "advice."
I also thought Jacob would respectfully back off but I didn't take into account Charlie's meddling. I wanted to kill him after he gave Jacob by phone number.
A flashback to December 23rd came to me, moving on with my deciphering, if you could call it that.
"Hello?" I answered thinking it was Alice or Esme but secretly hoping it was Edward.
"Bella?" The unfamiliar voice of Jacob randomly hit me, the sudden desire to punch both him and Charlie came through me.
"Jacob? How did you get my number?"
"Charlie gave it to me, I hope you don't mind." Memories of having a similar conversation with Edward three days before came back, but instead of accepting Edward's finding out I felt angry that Jacob had done the same thing.
"No." I gritted my teeth trying to take a deep breath, "I don't mind."
"That's great! Listen I wanted to ask you to see a movie with me?"
I was being asked out on a date. The very first request but instead of feeling nervous and flattered I felt pissed and annoyed. "Jacob I've already-"
"I won't give up, not yet anyway." He said rather firmly surprising the shit out of me.
"But-"
"Another day Bella." He told me brightly, "see you around ok?"
"Listen-" Indignation coursed through me, not believing his overconfidence. Before I could answer he hung up; I stared at the receiver with shock and anger. What. The. Fuck."Charlie!" I screamed running downstairs seeing red.
I found him on his La-Z Boy recliner reading the newspaper. "What is it honey?" He asked at my fury.
"You gave Jacob Black my number!"
He blushed and looked at the floor, "was that him?"
"Yes and he won't leave me alone." I crossed my arms around my chest, angry as fuck. "I would like to file a formal complaint Chief Swan."
"Under what grounds?" Charlie cocked his eyebrow not believing me as a little smirk rose around his mouth. Ugh.
"Harassment."
"Bella." He rolled his eyes getting up with a grunt and putting the paper on the coffee table. "Don't be ridiculous."
"No Dad, you're the one that's being so. I'm not interested." I pouted looking away. My eyes feel on the green afghan that draped our loveseat. Edward's eyes are darker than that.I looked away from the blanket, redfaced.
"Is there another boy?" Charlie tried to read my face but I gave nothing away. He took a step closer for a better view but I backed off a little.
"No." It was true. There wasn't anyone else worth mentioning.
"Then what's the problem with giving Jacob a chance?" He visibly relaxed, voice giving away his suspicions.
"He's just…" What was wrong with giving him a chance?
No!
Shut up.
Dad had known his family for years, Billy Black was his best friend, Dad would never throw me to the wolves like this if Jake was anything but perfect in Charlie's view. I wouldn't have been surprised if he ran a quick background check before huge regret hit him like a ton of bricks.
"Yeah?"
I thought about Jake's pros and cons.
Con- I didn't know much about him.
Pro- He had Charlie's approval.
Con- Overly confident.
Pro- He seems like a good guy.
Con- He doesn't know the meaning of 'no.'
Pro- He knows what he wants.
Con- He sounds selfish.
Pro- He has drive.
Before the voice could continue on her anti-Jacob campaign I thought about my words carefully before answering Charlie. "I need to evaluate if I want a boyfriend or not Dad." I twisted my fingers awkwardly. Charlie nodded, understanding what I meant.
"Ok sweetie, but don't disregard Jake so quickly. He really is a good, responsible boy."
"Sure Dad." I nodded stiffly and went up the stairs back to my room slowly feeling intense guilt.
~.~.~.
"Thank you for coming Charlie." Esme hugged my father who smiled sheepishly as I handed Eliza a covered dish. I'd made an apple pie for Christmas dinner knowing it was a holiday favorite with Dad and the Cullens.
I looked at the decorations Esme and Alice had chosen, twinkling red and green lights wrapped around the huge evergreen that placed in the corner of the living room giving it an early 1900s feel. Stockings hung from the mantle as a roaring fire danced in the fireplace, the original Crosby "White Christmas" played soothingly around the room giving the house the final magical touch. Alice stood by her mother who was wearing a beautiful midnight blue dress and coat ensemble that made me think of Princess Diana pre-divorce. Esme wore diamond and sapphire earrings with the matching teardrop necklace.
I looked to Alice who'd chosen a sparkly cocktail dress in dark green bringing out the pale green in her eyes; she wore simple diamond studs and red pumps. Alice had begun to wear heels last year and had taken to them like a fish to water.
She and Rose had persuaded me to wear a pair but I felt so out of place in my black pumps.
I looked down at my red dress. It wasn't much, but Alice had wrangled into buying it when we went to Seattle to shop for presents. It came to my knees, the neckline was a soft V; the dress it clung a little too much for my liking and after putting extra tight girdle I managed to not feel exposed.
I greeted Emmett who had shot up even more so than the other times I'd seen him when he was back from college. He was 6'3" barely taller than Edward. Barely. His brown ringlets fell adorably around his face, his blue eyes still had the boyish mischief I remember from before he moved to California.
"Bella Ella." He came to me, giving me a fierce hug even though he'd seen me the night before when we went out to Port Angeles for a late night movie with the rest of the gang.
"Hey Emmett." I let out as he crushed me in his hug.
"You look great girlie." He smiled warmly, I looked up at him and felt a frog in my throat. I looked away clearing my throat. The gratitude I'd always felt towards him for always being there took over suddenly; I gave out a small laugh at my oversensitivity.
Everyone was emotional around this time of year.
"Thanks Emmett," I looked at the suit he was wearing, figuring out his mother probably picked it out for him, the black and green tie combo looked good on him. "You do too." I wiped fake lint from his shoulder.
I heard loud footsteps coming from the staircase. I looked over to see a begrudged Edward coming down with a happy Jasper.
Edward had his left hand inside his pant pocket, he didn't look very happy from what I assumed was because he'd also been forced to wear a suit tonight. He scowled looking down, as if the stairs had done some terrible deed to his person. I glanced at his black suit he was wearing his shirt was a dark red color with a black silk tie. His pocket square matched his shirt in color but just like the tie it was silk- I blushed thinking about his pocket square; he wore polished black loafers.
Mmmm... I would die happy if I could just lick that jaw.
I ignored my subconscious whom had developed a weird fascination with Edward's jaw and looked to Alice who was openly gawking at Jasper. He'd decided on a black suit, tie and pocket square in lapis lazuli; he looked different than Edward and Emmett. Jasper looked sweet, Emmett looked warm and Edward looked... sexy.
That was a hard word to say or think around Edward but I found myself using that word for him more and more whenever I described him.
"Good evening." Edward smoothed out his face as his eyes fell on me, he grinned lopsidedly eyes sparking but quickly turning to Charlie. He extended his hand to my dad who took it, "Chief Swan."
"Edward." Dad clasped his hand warmly, I'd always found it odd that Dad liked Emmett and Edward so much even with Edward's habit for driving fast. "I hear from your old man you've decided to follow him in his footsteps. How's Dartmouth."
Edward chuckled nervously and blushed rubbing the back of his neck. That's interesting. I watched him intently as he answered, "yeah it took me awhile to realize I wanted to study medicine." He cleared his throat, uncomfortable. "The school is great," he turned to Jasper who stood by him, "this is my roommate Jasper Whitlock. Jasper this is Chief Charlie Swan." Edward looked stiff and out of place something I'd never seen in awhile.
Was sinful Edward intimidated by the my policeman father? I put this tidbit of information for later, this was too good to pass by.
"Did you say Whitlock?" Charlie's antenna rose quickly. Of course it did, everyone knew everyone else in this small town.
"Yes sir."
"Do you have any relation to Principal Whitlock?"
"Yes," Jasper cleared his throat, his turn to be uncomfortable. Hm. "She's my great-aunt; my father's aunt."
"Wow and you met Edward at Dartmouth without knowing about his hometown or did you track each other down?" Charlie was seriously impressed. He had always lived in the small sphere of Forks so finding someone that had a connection to the town without seemingly ever being near it shocked him.
"It was serendipity in my opinion." Edward chuckled. "I had an extra bedroom in my apartment and after advertising it for rent, Jasper came to me interested and we hit it off," Edward gave Jasper a friendly pat on the back, "we didn't find out about the mutual connection to Forks until the night before coming back for the holidays."
"Wow that's great!"
"Dad." I chided, grinning lightly at his excitement, Edward smiled at him and then me, sending me a tiny wink. I blushed lightly turning to look at the living room wanting to block my face from him.
Leave it to Mr. Sinful to send you reeling. The voice's thoughts had taken a rather sexual turn ever since Edward and I made out in my Tulip bedroom.
I didn't like it.
I'm going to have a little talk with Mr. Prince by the end of the night about the rules tonight though. "Is Carlisle coming later tonight?" Dad threw me a quick apologetic smile and moved on to Dr. Cullen.
"Yes. He's on his way actually." Esme grinned, looking relieved. She probably thought Dr. Cullen wouldn't make it to dinner, something she that would have disappointing her to no end.
"That's great. I wanted to talk to him about possibly getting Super Bowl tickets with Harry if the Patriots make it next February. I've been itching to go." Organized sports bored me to death so I turned to chat with Alice but noticed she looked a little out of it.
"You ok shorty?" I whispered quietly.
"Uh...huh." She agreed dumbly, wide eyes still on Jasper who was now having a deep discussion with the Cullen brothers and my dad about the chances of the Patriots and his team, the Dallas Cowboys reaching the Bowl.
"Shall we go to the living room for some before dinner drinks while Carlisle gets here?" Esme asked the group but only looking at Emmett and Charlie. Jasper and Edward looked to each other knowingly.
"Sure Esme." Charlie agreed following her into the living room. I stayed behind the group, watching everyone interact. I was sure Charlie could see the familial blanket that surrounded us that night. I gave out a sigh remembering his words.
"A penny for your thoughts?" Edward whispered beside me. I was slightly pissed he'd winked at me earlier, he was so reckless.
"Oh you'll get more than thoughts Cullen." I growled turning towards the group and not wanting to start the argument so early in the evening.
"I look forward to it Swan." I heard him whisper behind me, the hairs on the back of my neck stood up, swallowing hard I took my seat next to Alice. We made small conversation as Eliza served Charlie and Emmett a scotch on the rocks, and gave Esme a mimosa.
"What do you want to drink Bella?"
"Tea please." I smiled knowing she would never serve us alcohol until we were over twenty one. I was fine with that.
"The same as always hon?" She smiled knowingly.
"Yes please."
"Edward?"
"Sex on the Beach Eliza." He said proudly. I coughed a little at the brief image of him naked, on a beach enjoying… the sights. I turned to our parents thankful they were having their own conversation, letting out a breath of relief that Charlie hadn't heard Edward.
"Don't be ridiculous. I'm getting you coffee." She rolled her eyes, expecting such an answer from him, he winked at her mischievously. "Jasper?"
"Coffee please, two sugars." Jasper answered laughing at her exchange with Edward. The idiot caught my eye because he started humming a familiar tune. After a moment memories and lyrics ran through my mind.
"Do you take sugar? One lump or two?"
I looked at my hands, covering my blush with my hair.
Alice asked for tea with sugar not honey and asked the boys what they would be doing the next day. Afterward her father arrived and we moved on to the dining room since Dr. Cullen had changed into his all-black suit at the hospital.
Dinner was mostly uneventful. We'd opened our gifts in the morning, I did so at Charlie's though.
Emmett had given me all of Jane Austen's books, Alice gave me a small jewelry box, Charlie a beautiful, dainty diamond pendant. Jasper got Alice and I tickets to see Christina Aguilera next summer after Alice mentioned she loved her. I wasn't as crazy for her as Alice but hey it would be my first concert and I couldn't say no to a Christmas gift.
Alice took ten photos of the tickets and thought about framing them. It was more than obvious she was developing a crush on Mr. Whitlock. I would wait until she admitted her feelings though not rushing her into anything.
I gave Alice a framed photo collage of her and I from when we were kids, even when I didn't want to be her friend. She cried making me cry too when she called me to tell me how much she loved it. For Emmett I gave him a huge cookie jar full of an assortment of homemade cookies promising to refill it when he finished the first batch. He was more than happy with it to the point where I thought he would cry too.
Emmett was a huge fan of my baking and I hadn't forgotten how he used to share his with me when we were kids, even when dumb Edward told him not to.
Ha!
Edward and I had been forced to get each other Christmas presents in the past; it had been more of a front around our parents. We acted civilized around other people but the worst of his teasing came out when we were alone. I was sure the presents he gave me in the past, like my Limited Edition Princess Diana Barbie, Mattel released after her passing or my Yellow Ranger tennis shoes in '96.
When I'd gone shopping with Alice I looked around for something small and unimportant for him not wanting to raise suspicion. I had become extremely paranoid since our "relationship" sifted last year.
I knew his favorite color was green so I thought about getting him some pocket squares much like the red one he wore that night. But when I was waiting for Alice to get out of the fitting room after she took in fourteen outfits- upsetting the associate, I decided to walk around the department store to pass the time.
I walked by the haberdashery section of the store and asked to see the satin pocket squares when something caught my eye. Apologizing to the salesman I asked to see the object of my curiosity and as soon as he took it out of the glass counter I told him I wanted it.
"Are you sure Miss? This is a novelty..." He told me awkwardly.
"I'm sure. That's what I want."
"Miss-"
"That's what I want."
"Yes ma'am." He said turning his back towards the wrapping station they had behind the counter.
I hadn't given Edward his present because I chickened out- pardon the pun. I had left his present in my blue bedroom in case the opportunity came up Christmas day during dinner. And now that I wanted to cut his face up for winking at me in front of everyone I decided to give it to him just to piss him off.
"Do you have to go to the reservation?" Alice asked as everyone drank their after-dinner drinks.
"Excuse me." Edward announced putting his second cup of coffee down. I knew he remembered I wanted to speak to him in private and waited to excuse himself until after dinner. He didn't take the stairs in the foyer, instead he went for the kitchen.
He was being sly now? Really?
You just want to be alone with him. He winks at everyone! He even winked at Eliza for god's sake!
Lies.
Fucking blind I swear. My subconscious looked away, pissed.
I turned to Alice apologetically. "Yes I'm sorry."
"You'll have fun honey." Esme said smoothing out Alice's possible complaints. "Carlisle and I went one year when we were still dating when Emily and Sam Uley invited us. We had so much fun, they light a huge bonfire at the center of the reservation and chant, play music and dance." Esme sighed, eyes far away reminiscing.
"That sounds awesome!" Emmett grinned, finishing his coffee and looked at his mother with envious eyes, "I wish I could go."
"They have to invite you first Emmett." Esme chided, "you can't just show up without being properly invited."
"I know Mom." He rolled his eyes, looking at Jasper who was laughing too. "I'm twenty one and a collage graduate but still treats me like a child." He rolled his eyes playfully.
"Emmett, you'll always be my baby." Esme said stiffly.
Now or never.
"Oh!" I gasped, "I forgot my coat at home." I looked to Charlie who stared at me, "I'm going upstairs to get another coat. I'll be right back."
"Alright honey." He laughed looking at Esme shaking his head, "so dramatic." I made my way up the grand staircase not wanting to raise suspicion.
I ran down the corridor and knowing he would be waiting in my room I didn't bother to debate whether I was right or not. I went in to see him laying on my bed, suit jacket off, facing the ceiling. I closed the door behind me making sure to lock it.
I was getting used to Edward on beds. My inner voice's mouth watered at the thought.
"I was wondering where you were." He said propping himself on his left elbow. I noticed a small black envelope near his right hand but didn't ask what it was. "What did you want to talk to me about?"
"Why the fuck did you wink at me downstairs?" I walked to him stopping a foot away from the edge of the bed.
He stared at me, disappointed, "awww. I was hoping you wanted to make out a little more not come looking for a fight." He fell back with a thump, I rolled my eyes.
Leave it to Edward to think everything had to do with hormones. "I asked you a question."
"I wink at everyone." He said, bored as he ran his hands down my comforter almost caressing it. I thought about the time he did the same thing when getting into his precious Volvo the day he arrived from Hanover, I looked away blushing.
"You do not."
"Yes I do." He sighed closing his eyes, hands still roaming. "Blue looks the best on you, but red brings out the sexiness in you baby." He whispered sighing again.
"Not now Edward." I blushed staring at him
"There's always time for it love."
"Edward." I growled.
"Mmmm... Again." He grinned wickedly eyes still closed, it had been a request. I stared at him, the pull I felt for him was back, full force. My subconscious took the chance to take over and it was she who said, "I'll do it again if you wait for me tomorrow night in your room."
The words were out before I could stop them, Edward was off of my bed and grabbing me in a matter of milliseconds, "in turn for what?" He whispered roughly into my ear, holding me to him as I felt it stand to attention in my inner thigh.
The weird thing was that even though I was surprised, I didn't move away from it, if anything I felt excited and anxious.
Get fucking used to it. You act as if it's a new feeling, it's not and en-fucking-joy. God, you need to get laid, maybe you won't be such a bitch if he loosens you up- if you know what I mean.
I punched my subconscious in the face knocking her out in retaliation though, but I knew I couldn't go back on what she said, having a hard time erasing what she'd told me in the privacy of my mind. "You don't risk our cover. Ever."
"You're just paranoid." Edward whispered as he traced his nose from the back of my ear to my jaw. My subconscious' words echoed in my head, making my breath catch in my throat.
"Maybe so but I need insurance." My eyes fluttered closed as I answered losing my breath a little.
"Alright consider yourself covered gorgeous." As if he could read my earlier thoughts, he licked my jaw bone slowly and seductively. A sharp intake of breath came out of nowhere, "still going to the reservation?" He asked cooly.
"Yes." I swallowed, trying to block the desire in my throat.
"Hmmm... you could feign sickness and stay with me tonight..."
"No." I woke up from the spell and pushed him off, the voice would not become a prophet. I tripped a little but was able to go to my closet and grab the first coat I felt. "I promised Charlie and Jacob is expecting me."
"What?" Edward's seductive tone evaporated and an angry growl ripped from his chest.
"I told you already." I rolled my eyes looking at him as I walked to my door. "I'll see you tomorrow."
"Bella!" I closed the door in his face and ran down the corridor before he caught me. I was wrong again. He flung the door open and was able to catch me in seconds. He pushed me into his bedroom blocking me from the door. "Is this a date?" His green eyes were stormy, his mouth turned up into snarl and body language on the offensive.
What the fuck?
"No it's not."
"Are you sure?" He grabbed my face in his hands and as always searched my face for nonverbal answers.
"Yes," I pushed him off and rushed to the door, "I don't date." I glanced over my shoulder leaving him before he could come after me again, completely forgetting about his present.
~.~.~.
Charlie and I said our goodbyes to the Cullens and drove to the reservation. Edward came back to the living room as we made it to the foyer, ready to leave.
"Have fun." Alice told me ruefully. I hugged her as Charlie thanked Esme and Dr. Cullen for the delicious dinner. Charlie lead me to the police cruiser he used as a regular car. It seriously annoyed me that he didn't get a regular car but he would always argue that there was really no point to do so.
When we got to the reservation we were greeted by the sounds of tribal drums, people cheering and the billowing smoke from the bonfire not so far from us hidden somewhere in the nearby forest. Harry Clearwater and his wife Sue, they were dressed in their best Quiliute garb and handed us both a cup of soda, Harry made fun of me saying if I expected a cup blood from the day's kill. I looked away completely embarrassed.
We made our way into the celebration, I was nervous not knowing what to expect. When we rounded the small path onto the center of the reservation I saw the huge bonfire Esme had mentioned. Everyone was laughing, singing Quiliute songs to the beat of drums. I saw Jacob was by the edge speaking to a boy not much younger than us.
He turned around towards us and beamed once his eyes fell on me. I looked down, blushing and feeling self-conscious as I remembered his confession of affection towards me.
"You made it!" He hugged me, shocking me.
"Jake!" Charlie hugged him once he let me go, Charlie turned to me expectantly, "why don't you show Bella around, it's her first time here."
"Sure." He grabbed my hand and pulled me towards a group of teenagers, they were boys with the exception of a surly-looking girl. "Guys!" The boys turned to me curiously, the girl scowled deeply. "This is Bella."
"Hey Bella," The boy closest to us extended his hand; he was taller than I but not as tall as Jacob, the same tribal tattoo on his arm as Jake's. Now that I looked around, they all had the same tattoo except for the girl. Must be a male tradition in the tribe. "I'm Embry."
"Hey."
Embry introduced me to Quil, Paul, Brady and Colin, the girl was Harry's daughter Leah. Memories of playing with her along with Jacob came back. I smiled at Leah but she just scowled deeper, scoffing and walking off to the opposite side of the small clearing.
What? I stared at Leah as she sat on a rock on the edge, staring me down.
"Don't mind her," Jacob told me lowly, I didn't turn away from Leah. I wanted to see how far our staring contest would go. "She's just a bitter harpy." Until Jacob spoke that is.
My neck snapped to him, "why would you say that?"
"Because it's true." He shrugged nonplussed, "she and I have never gotten along. She's always been kind of a bitch to me." He grinned weakly. Edward's green eyes came into view, jarring me a little. Leah sounds like Edward before two years ago.
Not true, Edward and I still don't get along.
The voice didn't answer back, I was thankful she was being particularly quiet now that Edward wasn't present.
"Want something to eat? We barbecued earlier." He pointed to a long table full of food, "I saved you some burgers."
"No thanks," I thought of Esme's ham and sides feeling gutted. "I'm still full from the Cullens." That and I didn't want to overeat, Dr. Collins would not be happy with me if I went back to my old habits.
"Oh." He looked down, disappointed.
So he gets upset because I won't accept food but he'll be peachy keen after rejecting him.
The voice huffed from her corner, still saying nothing. Again, I was thankful for that.
"Are you dating him?" Jacob asked me suddenly.
"I beg your pardon?" I looked at him curiously; his dark eyebrows were ferried as he looked at the ground in front of me, not really looking at me.
"Cullen." He said Edward's last name darkly. I bristled not knowing why exactly, "does it matter?"
"Yes, I want to know what I'm up against." He said, his eyebrows unknitting as he looked up, determination all over his face.
"I'm sorry Jacob, but I barely know you. How could your crush be so deep as to want to want to track down invisible adversaries?"
LIES! Edward is not invisible!
The inner monologue was seriously making me anxious. The voice rolled her eyes yet again.
"I told you Bella," Jacob grabbed my hand and held it in both of his hands, "you've had feelings for you seen we were kids. You stopped coming to the rez after your mom started getting sick," I flinched at the thought of Renee but Jacob didn't notice he kept going, insensitive too. "You started going to the Cullens more often and soon forgot about me." He looked at me through his lashes, sounding hurt.
I pulled away feeling a sense of guilt forgetting my promise to Charlie about considering him, "I'm sorry Jacob. I don't remember much before the age of five." He inhaled sharply, ignoring the guilt I was feeling for being so cold but I continued, "if you had such strong feelings for me how come you never tried coming over or whatever earlier instead of waiting such a long time to tell me?"
"I was afraid of your rejection."
"That makes no sense, " I felt the poison come into my mouth not knowing why I was rejecting Jacob's insistence, "I have rejected you and you're still are here trying to 'woo' me."
"Wow what a fucking bitch." I turned around to find Leah, ready for a fight.
"Excuse me?"
"You heard me." She stood her ground challenging me.
"Bella." Charlie called me from where he stood by the tribe's elders. "Come here, I want you to meet some people." I looked at Leah and deciding it wasn't the time of place to get in a bitch fight I walked to Charlie, but not before throwing her daggers.
You are being a bitch even though I agree with me. I said nothing to the voice as I walked over to Dad not excusing myself with Jacob who just stood there. Trust me, I don't feel like talking to you for awhile either, not until you admit it. But before I leave I want to remind you that I am your subconscious. The reason why I'm so vocal now is because you are desperately ignoring everything around you.
Charlie was introducing me to the tribe's elders, their friendly and warm greetings were mute to me. The voice went on, I will take over sooner than later, today in your room was just a hint so don't be surprised or shocked when I push you aside.
I stared at the bonfire in front of me completely breathless, not knowing what to think.
Trust me.
Uh oh... ;D
P.S.S. For those of you who might listen to the title song, the lyrics have NOTHING to do with the story hahaha I picked the song because of the title ;) Although I have to admit I love Eminem and dislike Mariah. Just sayin' ~I.E.