UNINTENDED Chapter 10, a true blood fanfic

I do not own any True Blood characters, just my own. I have to say thanks to C for the song I used in this chapter, as well as the band Trapt. Thanks for the help with my idea, and I totally appreciate it.

Samuel offered to clean up and sent Eric and Hayley on their way once she had regained her composure. She was a mess and eyed her with worried eyes as they started to walk. "I need a shower so bad and the bus will be crowded. Shit." Hayley said, looking at her ruined clothes. Eric walked silently beside her, and she stared forward as she reflected upon the kill.

"You're pretty amazing, you know." Eric told her, and she glanced up at him.

"Why? Because I just staked vampires?"

"Well, that as well. But tonight you were….amazing. I could not believe that was you up there, looking so confident and so powerful. It was a far cry from that first night, though it made me feel the same way." Eric acknowledged, and she looked at him as she remembered what he had said that night. His eyes were intent on her face, and she searched them for something. She heard a voice up ahead calling her name, and she shoved him into the trees as she hid. He ended up pressing her into a tree and she felt his body against hers, as she felt his eyes on her face in the dark. She knew that she was really gross at that moment, but she felt his hands on in her hair and he held her face tight. "I want you so badly, Hayley." Eric whispered and she felt his moving closer.

"I am covered in gunk." Hayley told him, but she felt her hands sliding up his muscular torso despite knowing he was a mess as well. "There is also Godric. I don't think he wants you with me this way, and he is your maker."

"I know that, but my body isn't willing to acknowledge it." He brushed his lips against hers, as the voice went away. Hayley was fairly certain it was Jake, and she pulled Eric's body closer. He kissed her harder, and she drank in the taste of him as he did. She felt him tease her lips to part, and she pulled away suddenly. "Hayley."

"Not like this. We made a choice, or I made a choice, and it needs to be reversed before we end up going too far." Hayley told him, and he stood silently. "Godric is your maker, Eric. You know I am right."

"And you would rather make love with him." Eric said in a low voice, and she looked to the side. "You did, that night. I felt your emotions, every one of them. I felt your despair, your sadness, your desperation, and lastly your desire. It was a sick thing to feel relieved that your maker is still alive as well as intensely jealous that he is fucking the girl you love."

"You told me to do anything. I didn't expect that from him, Eric. I never knew that he loved me, and I was so desperate to save him and I…….I do love him. I don't want him with every fiber of my being the way that I want you, but I am glad that he is here still. I think that you are as well." Hayley said, and pushed him away.

"I am." Eric admitted, and she tossed her hair back.

"All we have together is the memory of a few nights." Hayley told him, and he grabbed her arm.

"I told you I was in love with you, and I meant it." Eric told her, and she shrugged his hand away.

"Then you were a complete asshole about this tour. This is my dream and I love doing it." Hayley told him, and began to walk away.

"You told me you were leaving in a day. What did you expect?" Eric demanded, and she wiped her cheek with a dirty hand.

"Nothing, I guess. Maybe support, but whatever. I am going to take a shower." Hayley said, and he pulled her roughly to him and kissed her. He slid his tongue into her mouth and kissed her deeply and threw her into a tree, and she tried to fight him. Finally, she slid her arms around his neck and he growled as her he pressed into her heavily. She felt him lift her legs and she moaned as the desire threatened to take her over. "Eric." Hayley murmured against his lips and moved her face. "No. I am not doing this."

"You're right." Eric said, and let her slide to the ground. "You must take some of my blood, Hayley. You got banged up over there. I insist."

"More dreams." Hayley stated simply, and he stared at her.

"We could make them become a reality." Eric told her softly, lifting his wrist to his mouth and tearing it open. He offered it to her, and she took it as she covered it with her mouth easily. She watched his eyes change as he stared at her, and the hunger and desire was evident. He slid the hand that remained on her up her body slowly, and she shuddered as he tore at the clothing on her shoulder. He pulled her close and traced her now bare skin with his fangs, and she told him yes with her eyes. He sank them into her skin and she whimpered as he pulled his wrist away and pulled her closer with his hands. She felt the strength that came with his blood slowly coursing through her and she closed her eyes and allowed it. He pulled away after a few moments, and stared at her. They said nothing for a long time, and finally Hayley looked away.

"Thanks for your help tonight." Hayley told him, and walked towards her bus. She saw lights on inside and stared at her clothes. The door opened and she ducked behind a tree and waited to see who it was. Tegan stepped out, and took a look around and she stepped back into his sight. He came towards her and his face twisted into a frown as he looked closely at her.

"What the hell, Hay?"

"I killed some vampires." Hayley whispered, and he stared into her face. "I had help, and I am fine. I just need a shower and want to keep this on the down low. You know what I mean?"

"Everyone is over at the other bus. I was waiting for you. I was worried since I saw you take off with the blond guy." Tegan admitted, and she looked at him. "Let's get you cleaned up." They went in and she grabbed clean clothes for a shower and threw her old ones off to the side to be thrown away later when she was done. She stepped under the hot water and scrubbed herself clean to the point her skin was bright red, and that was when the tears came. She began to sob as she remembered the assault outside, and the moments with Eric. She hit the thin plastic of the shower wall and slid to the floor of it as she let it all out. Guilt washed over her as well as the fear that had been under the surface all night. She knew that Godric should hate her for still wanting Eric so badly, as much as she hated herself. But he would not do that. It was not like him to ever hate her, and she laughed without humor as she thought to herself that he would support her going back to him. She heard a voice, and glanced up slowly through the steam. "Hayley? Are you okay? I don't mean to disturb you, but I heard you crying." He had poked his head in the door and she smiled at his concern. Sweet Tegan.

"I'll be OK, Teg. It was a long night." Hayley told him above the sound of the water, and she was hit with the memory of their brief shower together. Guilt hit her again and she sighed. "I'll be out soon." She heard the door close and she finished the shower slowly. The water was starting to cool as she turned it off and she dried off leisurely and pulled on her leggings and longer tee shirt. Hayley brushed her hair and eyed the slight bruises on her neck and shook her head. "Great." She went into the lounge and tossed her clothes and sat down on the couch where Tegan waited quietly for her.

"So what did you do?" Tegan asked her, and she sighed.

"I staked two vamps out there. One was this girl who was in love with Ian back in the day. She obviously hated me."

"Did you try and deny who you were?" Tegan asked her, and she shrugged.

"I was going to, but she was obviously pretty livid. I just figured it was time to fight." Hayley said, and closed her eyes. "The guys would have, but she made me so upset that I wanted to do it." Her phone rang across the room and she slowly went to get it, seeing Godric's name. "Hey, you." Hayley greeted him, closing her eyes.

"Kate. I heard about what happened. Are you okay?" Godric's voice was intense and concerned, and she bit her lip.

"I have some fun bruises to answer questions about from where the girl tried to make me stop breathing, but otherwise OK. Eric….helped me out with that, and I am shaken up a little perhaps." Hayley heard Tegan's phone and glanced over as he grabbed it from the table.

"Eric said that you were amazing. In every capacity of the evening." Godric told her, and she wondered if that included the kisses against the trees. "I am glad that he was there. I had a meeting I could not miss."

"He told me." Hayley said, and they were both quiet for a long time. "I am never coming here again."

"It sounds like that might be a difficult thing to manage, given what you have chosen." Godric told her gently, and she wondered if he knew something. "I am glad that you're alright, Kate. I will see you soon." Godric ended the call and she stared at her phone as her mind raced. That was a hasty ending compared to what she was used to. He normally had a few sweet things to say to her. He had to know something, and she cursed herself silently.

"They want us to come over to the other bus. Everyone is hanging out and partying a little." Tegan told her, approaching her slowly. He stared at her neck and touched her skin gently. "Wow. Someone got their hands on you."

"Yeah, they did." Hayley said, and looked out of the window. "I am not much for partying right now, but it is almost over. I need every moment of this tour that I can get." She brushed her hair again and they left to walk over. The two other bands were inside as well as a few familiar names in the music industry, just relaxing and drinking. She allowed Jake to handle the introductions and took a seat by him as she accepted a glass of wine from Jackson. She took all of their praise with a smile and then relaxed as they all just chatted.

"So was that your somebody?" Jake asked in her ear, as the others talked beyond them. He looked at her neck and traced the marks with a concerned look.

"Overzealous fan. No, that actually was my former somebody." Hayley told him softly, and he raised an eyebrow.

"For a former, it looked pretty current." Jake told her, and she met his jealous eyes.

"He used that as a way to tell me something just between us, that's all." Hayley said, sipping her wine.

"Something went down out there, didn't it?" Jake asked her, and she nodded slowly. "You're fine?" She nodded again silently, and tried to hold the composure in her face. She drifted back into the chatter around them, and drank some more wine as she joined in with them. Hayley had not drank in a few months, and it hit her fast as she continued to sip it and laugh with everybody. She knew that she was getting drowsy, and she rested her head on Jake's shoulder as she closed her eyes for a moment.

Hayley woke up the next morning with a headache. She felt an arm draped around her, and smiled as she started to stroke the cool muscular arm slowly. It was warm, and she opened her eyes. It was the bus from last night, and she was laying down on the couch with someone sleeping behind her. The room was otherwise empty, and she took a breath as the pain pounded through her brain. She remembered all of the wine, and cursed herself silently. She assumed it was Jake behind her, and she glanced down to make sure that clothes were present and she had not done something really worth regretting. She sighed in relief and focused on her head again, as she felt him move. He pulled her closer and she widened her eyes as she bit her lip. "Hayley?" Jake murmured, and she nodded. "Sorry to probably scare you, but you fell asleep here and I knew that you had been through a lot last night. I wanted you to be…..safe."

"Thanks, Jake." Hayley told him, surprised that she meant it so much. She should be annoyed.

"Can you tell me what happened last night?"

"Not so much." Hayley replied, and he sighed. "It's handled and I feel……fine." Eric had helped that with his blood, and she sighed as she thought about that. She knew the torture of what it involved, or was it pleasure? Either way, she would likely look a mess if he had not done that and have a lot of speculation going on amongst the attendees to the next show.

"Can you tell me how your neck looks so much better?" Jake asked, tracing her skin with one finger as he pulled away from her slightly.

"If I did, I would have to kill you." Hayley tried to joke, and heard his angry sigh. "It's fine, Jake. It really is." She tried to find a clock. "When are we leaving today?"

"In a few hours." Jake said in a resigned voice, and she slowly sat up. He followed her motion and sat next to her, and she met his gaze. He looked like he wanted to ask her more, but she glanced forward.

"I'm sorry I drank so much last night. It was…stupid and I was trying not to. I hope nobody thinks I am this stupid girl trying to be in a band or something."

"Everyone was drinking and everyone loved you, both on and off stage. How can they not? You're so personable and sweet." Jake told her, and she smiled her appreciation at him. "Want to ride with us today? We can watch movies and just hang, and sleep here again." Her eyes went right to his and he smiled. "It was nice holding you last night, Hayley. Really nice."

"Well, it was not a bad thing to wake up to." Hayley admitted, and rested her head on his shoulder again. "I have such a headache."

He got her some ibuprofen and a soda, and she settled back on the couch. "So will you? Ride with us?"

"I need to check and see if the guys need to practice anything, but otherwise sure. A change would be OK, and it is all ending so soon." Hayley sounded sad, and he stroked her hair. "Is the let down as bad as I think it's going to be?"

"Yes, but you'll be recording a record soon enough and then recording with us and touring again before you know it. Appreciate the few minutes it feels like you have at home and just keep your passion for it going. You guys are going to be headlining before you know it."

"We will?" Hayley asked him, and he smiled and nodded at her. Everyone began coming to life and they all went out for breakfast before hitting the road. Hayley and Jackson rode with Jake's guys and the others wanted to sleep some more. Jackson brought along the guitars and he and Hayley practiced her song as they all sat on the couches. Jake watched intently and clapped for them when they had finished.

"Did you write that?"

"Yeah, I did recently." Hayley told him, biting her lip as she looked down.

"It's got a lot of feeling. I hope someone knows that you feel that way." Jake told her, and Jackson looked at her for a long moment.

"Maybe someday. It might go right over his head." Hayley said, strumming the guitar again as she started a cover that they loved performing. Jackson joined in and soon everyone in the bus was singing with them. Hayley grinned widely and looked around, tucking this moment into her mind for a memory. This was what she loved. They settled into watch a movie and she rested on the couch between Jake and Jackson, dozing in the middle of it. Her headache was a little better, but she was chugging water and swearing off wine anyway. She rested her head on Jackson's shoulder and snuggled comfortably as she closed her eyes. She woke up when it was dinnertime and got a salad as they all went to a restaurant in Texas. She sipped more water and smiled at Tegan as he sat next to her and kissed her hair. "Hey, sweetie." Hayley greeted him, and he smiled sleepily at her.

"You were OK last night?" Tegan asked her softly amidst the chatter, and she nodded at him with a smile. "I didn't want to leave you there, but you kind of crashed out."

"I know. I am embarrassed now." Hayley admitted, and he laughed.

"You were happy after the other incident. It was nice to see you smiling and laughing after hearing you cry so hard." Tegan told her, and she met his gaze.

""Thanks for being there." Hayley told him, and kissed his cheek. Everyone pulled out cameras and they took various pictures together. Hayley threw hers to Jackson and he took some as well as posed in others. They all walked back to the buses, and she wrapped her arm around Tegan to keep warm in the cool spring air. They went back on their bus after saying good night and she curled up in her bunk and fell asleep only to dream about Eric again. She slept in late the next morning and then the band practiced a little inside the bus. They had her song going well, and they ran through the others easily. The bus pulled into the venue, and Hayley glanced at the indoor theatre as she stepped outside for a moment. She saw Jake outside as well and went over to say hello. They chatted about that night and the plan for the finale, and she went to join her guys for their sound check. They ran through her song one last time and she felt confident to pull it off.

Hayley wore her jeans that night and her black shirt that read Bite Me in red sparkles across the front. She assumed there would be a certain number of vampire friends and thought it would be cute. She added some red eye shadow to her lids and some mascara, and straightened her hair slowly. She thought about Godric and smiled slowly as she pictured his smile, but then it faded as she remembered Eric's lips the other night. She really needed to make a choice, even if it was to walk away from both of them. She knew that Jake or Tegan would take her into their life if she suggested that, but it was not right either. Hayley shook her head and focused on the present. She finished up and went to hang out with everybody before the show, and met some fans as well. Their set came up quickly and she was suddenly dashing onstage and greeting the crowd. She responded to their screams by blowing kisses and then the song kicked in. She jumped around as she sang and took long looks at the crowd as she wondered where Godric was. She wondered if Eric was there, and she grinned at Jake as he came out to sing with her. He joined her at the mic for the chorus, and the crowd screamed his name as he waved at them. Hayley felt a bigger rush than ever before, and she leaned into him as they sang loudly. She performed some of their regular songs and then took a seat on the speaker in the front. "We have something new we're going to try here tonight. I hope it sounds good, because it is that new. Enjoy it and it goes out to you. You'll know who you are!" She glanced at Jackson and he started in with the guitar and the others joined in. She smiled as it sounded so smooth, and started to sing with feeling as the words spilled out of her.

Do we know how to get the message across

We turn the lights off to find a way out

No time to get through to grasp what was lost

Don't turn the lights off and leave me in the dark

Hey, I'm pleading, my soul is bleeding

I don't want to be left alone, not when I'm right next to you

What are you thinking, it's so misleading

Is it not for me to know, I think it's just hard for you to show

We never spoke in the words that we want

We turn the lights off to find a way out

We've never chosen to keep what we've got

Don't turn the lights off and leave me in the dark

Hey, I'm pleading, my soul is bleeding

I don't want to be left alone, not when I'm right next to you

What are you thinking, it's so misleading

Is it not for me to know, I think it's just hard for you to show

Hard for you to show

It's so hard for you to show

Why is it hard for you to show?

Hard for you to show

I thought it would be nice to lie down and close my eyes

It never occurred to me that I am already asleep

Don't be the one to

Don't be the one to let go

Don't be the one to

Don't be the one to be alone

Don't be the one to

Don't be the one to let go

Don't be the one to be alone

Tonight

Hey, I'm pleading, my soul is bleeding

I don't want to be left alone, not when I'm right next to you

What are you thinking, it's so misleading

I don't want to be left alone

No one wants to be left alone

Hayley ended the song on a long note and waved as the crowd cheered. She stood up and swung her hair around as a fast song kicked in and enjoyed every second, and suddenly it was over. She was bowing and waving as the guys joined her on the stage, and then they were running off. They all hugged each other right offstage and then there was chaos. The guys were jumping around and everyone backstage joined in. Hayley laughed as tears slid down her face and jumped right in the middle of it, as she danced around the room. She let the emotion of the night out as she screamed along with everybody else and soon collapsed on the ground. She watched the second band closely, cheering as they stood just offstage and downing water. Jake took the stage and the audience screamed and she felt so exhilarated. Their set was longer and she danced around until it was the last song and everyone joined them for the chorus. She ran up to Jake's mic and sang into it as he wrapped an arm around her tightly. They all stood there after it was over, and let the guys say their thanks. Then Jake was hugging her tightly as she cried, and kissed her lightly on the lips. Everyone was hugging everybody else and then they all waved and came offstage. Hayley was smiling as she cried and they all hugged again backstage. They had done their pictures before hand and she just wandered around talking and hugging as she cried. The emotion was overwhelming and a dizzying mix between sadness and happiness. She finally went outside with a few people and smiled as she looked around. The fans were there to show their love and support and she greeted them enthusiastically. Hayley took pictures with them and signed things, and finally took a deep breath and gazed over at her friends.

Godric stepped forward with Isabel and Sam, and she ran to hug them. They were full of love and praise and she cried some more as she thanked them. She glanced around to see the other band members gathered about, and she grinned widely. Godric looked at her with warm eyes and she looked at him as he stroked her hair back. "You were beautiful up there. More than words could ever describe. I am so proud of you, Kate." He kissed her gently, and she slid her arms around his neck. She needed his approval more than anyone's, since she nearly gave him all of the credit for being there. Hayley pulled away after a long kiss, and then she saw Eric. His eyes met hers as he talked closely with a blond girl, and she saw something flash in them before he gave the girl his winning smile. She felt something hurt inside of her, and she felt her stomach tense up. This was all wrong. She could not be jealous. She blinked and looked around, and felt Godric stroking her hand. "Are you coming to the house tonight?"

Hayley met Jake's eyes and he grinned at her. "I think we have something of a celebration on the bus. It's our last night as a group and we just want to enjoy the tail end of this crazy time. Is that OK?" Hayley looked at Godric, but her glance passed over Eric as he was flirting heavily with the blond. She felt her heart ache again and bit her lip.

"Sure. I know how much this means to you." Godric told her, and she smiled at him as she pulled herself to him for a hug.

"You're too good to me." Hayley told him, and he pulled her close.

"I will have my turn. I need to learn to share you with the world." Godric told her, and she felt his lips on her hair as he pulled away. He looked closely at her and then his own glance went to Eric for a moment. He looked back at her and she hoped that her eyes did not show the way she was hurting inside seeing Eric like that and knowing that she should not care. She smiled at him and he stroked her cheek. "You are so beautiful, Kate."

"You already said that." Hayley told him, and took his hand. She needed to figure this out and fast.

"I will again." Godric said, and she glanced down. "Go with your friends, and come tomorrow to see me. I am looking forward to it."

"I am as well." Hayley told him, and he left with Isabel and Sam after hugs were exchanged. She watched for a moment as they walked away, and then her gaze turned to Eric again. He was looking at her as she blond leaned close to him with a intent stare, and she bit her lip as he pulled her close to him. Hayley shook her head and walked towards the bus slowly, feeling tears in her eyes. She was staring at the ground during her moment of solitude as she fought the tears, when she heard the voice behind her.

"Wait, Hayley."