Chapter 10- As Long As Your Mine

It had been several hours since I left Katie's house. I hadn't heard from either of them, but I really didn't mind. I needed to be alone right now. I didn't realize how much I actually cared about Katie, she had quickly become a very important person in my life.

I didn't like that at all. People who I rely on tend to disappoint me. I don't think I could live if Katie disappointed me.

And Josef, I had gotten used to him in my life. Hell, I had gotten used to mind-blowing sex in my life.

Fuck me, this sucks.

My cellphone started ringing, I pulled it out of my pocket and answered.

"Hello?"

"Hey, it's Josef...meet me at my office..."

He hung up, and I sat there.

I guess I better get over there.

-Josef's Office-

I opened his door, he looked up at me from behind his desk.

"I'm shocked that you came."

I smirked. "Boy, if I had a nickel for every time I heard that..."

He narrowed his eyes at me. "Are you ever serious?"

I shook my head. "Nope..."

He stood up and walked over to me. "You know, I think that there is a good reason for that...so why don't you tell me what it is?"

I shook my head. "I'd rather not if you don't mind."

Josef continued anyway. "Like, for example, why did you change your name?"

"Josef, remember, the beautiful thing about our relationship is that we do not talk...we fuck, but don't talk."

"Why do you not want to talk about your old life at all?"

"I just don't okay...anyway why does it matter?"

"I was just wondering why a girl so young as you has such trust issues."

"Why do you care?! My trust issues have nothing to do with you! Me trusting you has nothing to do with me fucking you."

"Why does it always come back to us fucking?"

"Because, that's all we do...remember...you suggested it..."

"I remember..." He said looking away from me.

"So why this sudden need for information about my life?"

"Because...I've grown to care about you Maralyn."

"Please...don't call me Maralyn..." I said it in barely a whisper...

"It's your name...it's who you are...is it not?"

"No! It's who I was, now please, just call me Angel..."

"Who you were has a lot to do with who you are now, so you need to accept that."

I shook my head. "No, I don't, I have left that part of my life behind, it doesn't matter to me anymore."

"If it doesn't matter to you then why does it bother you so much me calling you Maralyn?"

"I...I...don't know..."

He pulled me over to the couch and made me sit. He sat next to me.

"Me and Katie talked a lot after you left...She said she worries about you because she can tell you have all this self-hatred...you can't live forever hating yourself...it just wont work."

I sighed and looked away from him. "What am I supposed to do Josef? What do you expect? Me to break down crying in your arms? Tell you all about the horrors I've suffered? Tell you how he whipped me, how he shoved scalding metal in my chest and branded me? Because if that's what you expect that's not going to happen."

I got up and ran for the door. Josef caught up with my in the lobby, his secretary looked at us in shock. He grabbed my wrist and pulled me back to him. The commotion of us running had brought everyone out of their offices, they stood and watched in shock.

"You are not running from me Maralyn, we will talk about this!"

I tried pulling my arm out of his grip, but it was like iron. "Josef, please, let me go."

He looked down at me, his eyes were the most serious I had ever seen them. "Never."

I stared at him in silence, then the next thing I knew, I was crying in his arms. He held me, and kept kissing me on the top of the head. He kept whispering 'it'll be okay' it my ear over and over again.

And I knew at that point, I was head over heals in love with Josef Konstantin.