Disclaimer: I don't own Lost... unfortunately. I only own Jesse(He's so cute!)...and Jason(He is evil!)and a few other not very important ones... but you already know all this.

Author's Note: Okayyou are all probably hating me horribly for keeping you waiting for the next chapter. But finally it is here and it is a two parter, too!

Riding On The Wings Of An Angel

Chapter 10:Collision Course (part one)

Somewhere in the darkness a dove fought to fly;

A child tried not to cry.

Somewhere, somewhere, the light tried to thrive.

Kate:

The next three days went by in a blur. Only waking to take her med, drink and to eat, which she didn't do much of. Her body refused to allow more than a little food to enter her system, protesting by making her vomit or feel as if she would. Someone was always there watching over her. Ready to give her a drink or calm her after a nightmare— many of which she had.

While she was in and out of it, she was started when she woke up early one morning to find Jack not by her side. Instead a very anxious Sun was there. Than thatevening Jack was still not there. 'Is he bored of me? Am I being too much trouble?' A discomfort settled in her stomachand she swore to get better faster and not be so much of a burden.

Later, even through Kate was fading in and out of consciousness while her body tried to heal, she started to sense a panic and apprehension or maybe fear whenever she was awake. At first Kate thought that something was really wrong with her. Maybe she was dieing. But then she heard, yelling, screaming and panicked voices call out to one another urgently.

Fighting to stay awake, she fought to sit up and concentrate on the words being said. Unfortunately her mind wasn't cooperating quit right and it commanded her into unconsciousness, but right before the darkness took over, she heard the words. "Death…Birth… I need help over here!"

X X X X X X

Flashback:

A child was sobbing, "Mommy, wake-up." Some more whaling, "Mommy, mommy… where are you!" The voice became frantic and more insistent with each word.

Kate rolled over her head to the side and opened her eyes, "Jesse!" She tried to call but it only came out as a whisper. Jesse wasn't in the room. Kate could hear him, but he wasn't there.

"MOMMY!"

With that Kate shot out of bed- wait why was she in a bed. It was a bare prison style bed in a cold dark room. The room had a solid oak door a window covered with bars high up on the wall. Kate decided she must be in a basement somewhere.

Moving Kate found her wrists and ankles were in shackles that cut into her skin. The screaming came again and Kate moved to the wall. She put her ear to it and could hear Jesse and a man.

"Jesse, your mother is dead." The man coldly stated.

"NOOOOO! MOMMY!"

"There was an accident. She is gone. You will have me now." The man sounded almost giddy, like a child on Christmas morning.

"You will listen to me, now." The man's voice spoke who Kate suddenly realized sounded like Jason's.

"NO! I WANT MY MOMMY!" This made Kate cringe. She had learned from experience that you just didn't say 'No' to Jason.

SLAM "You will listen to ME!" Jason thundered. "If you don't you will get more of that."

Whimpering could be heard. A door slammed and Jason must have left. A tiny voice spoke "Mommy. I want you. Please come save me."

Lifting her hands Kate banged on the wall, grimacing from where the shackles bit into her skin with each thud. "Jesse… Jesse?" She spoke, fearing that someone outside would hear her. She tried again, louder this time. "Jesse, it's mommy."

Jesse stopped whimpering.

"Jesse, little man?"

Little footsteps were heard moving to the wall. "Mommy? Where are you?" Jesse asked his voice quivering.

"Jesse, I love you. I am in a room next to you." Kate explained.

"Are you dead?" He whimpered. "Daddy said you're dead."

Choking back a sob, Kate spoke, "No baby, I am alive."

"Are you sure?" His voice sounded confused.

"Yes—" her voice broke and a tear fell, "Jesse I love you and I will get you out of this place… okay?" Kate pleaded with him to agree with her.

"Okay mommy, I love you, too."

X X X X X X

Jack:

It had been three and a half days since he had brought Kate back to the caves. She had mostly been out of it and Jack was glad she was unaware of all the chaos that had gone on in the last forty-eight hours. Wiping a curl off her sweaty forehead, Jack sighed, knowing she was having another nightmare.

"Kate, it's okay." Jack tried to sooth. He had tried to wake her and had failed.

"Jesse… I'll save… I love you baby."

Her mumblings made no sense to Jack… or anyone else, but he knew that Jesse was very special to Kate. She mumbled about him every time she was asleep.

Suddenly Kate jerked awake, her breathing coming rapid, her eyes darting this way and that.

"Kate, hey, it's alright." Jack tried to catch her eye. "It was just a dream, you're at the caves."

"Jack?" Kate questioned realizing what had happened. 'Just another memory come to life while I am unconscious. How lovely.' Kate thought sarcastically. 'At this rate I could write a book and make a lot of money… considering we ever get off this island.'

"You okay?" Jack asked at her distanced look.

Wiping her forehead, she frowned, lines creasing her face. "Yeah, I'm fine."

"Here," Jack picked up a bottle of water and some pills. "Take these."

Kate didn't look at him while she drank the water, lowering the bottle from her lips she fiddled with it in her hands.

"Some dream." Jack commented.

"Yeah." Kate sighed, still not looking him in the eyes. How could she when she knew that he would see all that she felt, all that had happened to her, in her eyes.

"Hey," Jack tried to catch her eyes, "Hey, look at me," He prodded gently. She looked up at him after a moment. "You can talk to me about anything, you know."

He went on. "I'm here to help."

"Are you speaking as Jack or as a doctor?" Kate half joked.

Jack chuckled slightly, "What do you think?"

Their eyes connected.

"I care about you Kate. And not just in a doctorly way."

Kate shifted, then looked at him. "Jack…"

'You don't really want me. I am used up and thrown-out.' She thought everything she wanted to express. 'I am somebody else's garbage. I am bad news.'

"Jack," She tried again. "Haven't you heard, I am not what you want." She looked away guiltily. "You don't know me."

X X X X X X

Kate:

'Why did Jack have to be so sweet?' Kate thought as she looked at him caringly. After she had told him she wasn't good enough for him, Jack protested. Swearing once again that everyone deserved a fresh start.

She hadn't believed him then, and she didn't believe him now. The past just wasn't that easily erased.

Kate was sitting by the fire Jack had just built for her. It was the first time Kate had gotten up to be near the others in over three days. Unfortunately her efforts were for nothing as Jack was the only on in the caves at the moment.

A tension was in the air, as if she had missed some big event. Everyone was edgy and no one stopped to fill her in. Not that she invited them with her unwavering stare into the fire. Her thoughts wandered. 'Where are Charlie and Claire?' She thought, 'And Sayid and Shannon?' She looked around some more. 'What about Boone and Locke?' She spotted Jin, but asking him was about the equivalent of asking a tree.

Jack had mentioned that Hurley and Sawyer were at the beach. 'Where is everyone?' She had tried to ask Jack but he had skillfully avoided her questions and inquiring eyes every time he caught her looking at him. 'What have I missed and why won't Jack fill me in?'

'Or even more, why is Jack so good at avoiding my questions.' Her fugitive days had given her the skills, but why was Jack able to lie to so well. Or even more, how long had he been doing it.

Suddenly Sun rounded the corner from where Kate was staring.Kate started to call out to her, but something made her stop.

More like someone, Jesse was sitting on the ground playing with a toy plane. He swooped it up and down, gliding it gracefully through the air. Then suddenly he made it crash. The toy plane crumbled in his fingers—broken to bits it disappeared. Slowly Jesse looked up at Kate and smiled.

To my lovely reviewers!

CrAzYhOrSeGiRl88: I know what you mean about Kate having lost a lot of viewers, but not me. I just became WAY more curious and intriqued with her character. I don't believe for a second that Kate is a heartless killerno way!Go ahead and stray off topic, i love it when i get to talk about lost/Kate/K+J or anything else lost related!. Kate has been strongfor so long, everyone else in the show hasneeded Jack's attention at one point or another so far, Kate hasn't so far. But i bet she will soon!Sorry it took so long to updatewho knows i might make it a two chapter update in the same week just to make it up to you :-)

October Sky: I love writting peoples thoughts. It is so funny! Kate will reveal a lot more than she intends to in the next little while. Poor Kate, she has been through so much.

colore: Yep, lots of fluffy-fluffyness! Lots more to come, but is it all with Jack? Okay, okay i know that it is Jack and Kate all the way... but it would just be no fun if Sawyer didn't muddle things up a bit. Thanks for the review!

Countess Jackman: WOW! I am so happy you loved it so much. Thank- you so so much for the awsome review, it made my day!

Austin B: I agree, Jack would definately make me feel safe too:-) yeah, you loved it! I am so glad the chaptesseem to keep getting better or at least not getting worse. Keep reading for more exiting/ fluffy/ emotional flashback and more!

Phoenix-Talon: Awww, poor Sawyer. Everyone is ignoring him.

Me: Ahh, poor little Mr.Personality. Want a cookie?
Sawyer: "What?"
Me: To make you feel better.
Sawyer: "Are you serious?"
Me: What, i don't LOOK serious?
Sawyer: "Well..."
Me: Don't answers that. Here just eat the damn cookie already! ((shoves cookie is Sawyers mouth))
Sawyer: "Whowcool downalready girl. It's just a cookie..." ((walks away quickly when Freckles gives him THE look.))

Thanks for the review. I justlove getting a review from you. And you story IS so cool, i love it. And i am working on updating more often, but there is just so much to do...

rain1657: Well glad to hear it. I will keep up the Jack/Kate stuff, but it might be interupted for a while... you'll see what i mean!

Lillywriter: Thanks, i really loved writting that ending.

Orlando-crazy: I know! It is just one horrible thing after another. Poor Kate, all the trama i am putting her through. Will she ever survive?

Kate: "I am a trooper."
Me: I know, i know, but what you went through with evil Jason..
Kate: ((Starts to cry)) "I know..." ((Hiccup)) "I... just... need... toJesse?"
Me: ((Looks around)) "Kate, there is no one there."
Kate: "What are you talking about... he is right there." ((Points at thin air))
Me: Okay time for you to take your anti-pschotic meds. ((Pushes Kate out of the room)) Forgive her, she is still recovereing from a life threatening injury. ((laughs nervously))

Teyla Sheppard: Here you go.. another chapter. Sorry it took so long. you know life and alltends to get in the way. hee hee Crazy Kate... but is she really crazy or is Jesse really there? ...okay i was just messing with you ;)

Kate: "Hey! I am not crazy!"
Me: Uh... you didn't take those meds i gave you, did you.
Kate: "I don't need any stupid meds! I am perfectly sane."
Me: Um... Kate... you are... uh ((Shivers at the look Kate gives her)) Didn't i send yo to bed. ((Pushes her out of the room again)) She may need a little bit of therapy too!