"If you make me switch schools, and I'll tell mom exactly what happened between you and Mrs. Edwards. Not your stupid little 'We were just really swell friends'. Or the whole 'Mrs. Edwards is getting divorced? Whatever is the reason for that?' The truth."
I cannot believe I just said that.
I don't believe I said that.
There's no way I said that.
I'm not that kind of son.
There's NO way I said that.
The look on my dad's face tells me otherwise, it's a mix between anger, hurt, and guilt.
I feel my mouth go dry and my throat tighten. My father's eyes slowly meet mine, and I feel the need to look away. Look any where but in his eyes. He'll know you didn't mean that. He'll know it's an empty threat.
"How do you know what happened?" His voice is nervous. God, why the hell are we doing this in a FUCKING hospital?
"Bullfrog, I'm not stupid. Nor is Clare. That's all the reasoning you need," I say as I continue starting at the wall. Don't just go half way, Eli, if you're going to do it, do it.
"I'm really ashamed of you, Bullfrog. You're the one who told me that once you truly love someone, you'll marry them. And that divorce isn't an option. Cheating? The Bullfrog I know wouldn't dream of it. Lying to your wife? The one you supposively love? The Bullfrog I know wouldn't be able to. Lying to me? I would hope you wouldn't. But guess what? You DID. You don't deserve mom. But you deserve me. A fucked up son who completely ruins the family. Ha, like father, like son. Don't worry, I'll be gone soon enough and you'll never have to hear from me or see me again. " No, I can't believe I said THAT.
I look at my father and turn around. I walk out of the hospital into the sunshine with my head held high. I know I hurt my dad, but he needed to hear it. I'll cut myself a few extra times tonight to make up for the pain I just caused him.