Sorry for the long wait to update, but two of my friends have just recently died (about 3 days before x-mas (cries)) if anyone lives in England they might have heard about it their names were Harry Ballah and Raman Sarwell. Because of this tragedy I haven't really wanted to write more of this fanfic for a few weeks or any for that matter but do not worry I will still work on all of my fanfic. I also have exams coming up and have been revising for them vigorously. So yea sorry about the update and try not to flame me to much because of it thanxs XD on with the story
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With everyone's eyes turned to him, Heero felt very vulnerable, but hid it behind his solider mask. Instead of looking at them or even speaking to them Heero walked across the kitchen and went straight to the coffee pot and poured himself some. Duo who knew about what happened to Heero just gave him a small genuine smile that meant one thing to Heero, I still love you. Seeing this smile on Duo made Heero relax a bit but when Quarter started to talk to him, he tensed back up again worried about what they would say and what they would ask him.
"Heero are you alright?" a concerned Quatre asked him, looking as if he were about to burst into tears for making his friend upset. Heero just nodded to him and started to walk out of the kitchen until Wufei grabbed his arm and started to shout.
"You are not alright and everyone here can see that! Just what is wrong with you that could make the Perfect Solider practically run out of the room and have to be comforted by his sister (1) and not even talk to the people who have been his friends for the past year!?!?!?!" Wufei shouted at him, not realising that Heero was tensing even more with each word that came out of his mouth.
Heero instead of talking back to Wufei calmly just spun and punched him in the face not even looking remorseful while Duo shouted "YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO SAY STUFF ABOUT SOMEONE WHEN YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT WENT ON!!" and Quatre also shouted "HOW CAN YOU SAY STUFF LIKE THAT ABOUT YOUR FRIEND?!"
Trowa just looked on calmly and when Heero punched Wufei with enough force to knock him out he walked over to Wufei and stood in front of him looking Heero square in the eyes. Heero noticing the look in Trowa's eyes backed off slightly but was still tense and ready to punch anyone else who spoke out of line to him. Duo walked to Heero and wrapped his arms around him not caring that the rest of the guys still didn't know that they were together yet. He had to calm Heero down and soon.
"Calm down, don't worry about it, I love you so does Kiko and Mamoru. Quat and Tro will understand and Chang will apologise as soon as he wakes up ok?" Duo murmured in Heero's ear while holding him and rubbing a soothing hand over his back. Heero put his head in the crook of Duo's shoulder and took the strength from him that was offered silently. But when he heard Wufei groan Heero began to tense back up again worried about what Wufei would say this time.
Wufei just groaned, rubbed the side of his face and sat up while shooting daggers at Heero with his eyes. "What was that for? I didn't make any comments that weren't true, and what could have been so bad that you are acting like a giant baby I would have expected this from Duo but not you, not the perfect soldier, or are you just a joke?"
Heero pulled away from Duo completely tense, tenser than when he punched him in the face. Duo was worried; you could clearly see this written on his face and in his body language. Duo was the first to speak even if it was only above a whisper "Heero? Come on don't listen to him alright you don't have to tell him anything ok?" Duo's voice was almost cracking at every syllable.
"Yes he does Duo; we have a right to know what went on in his past if we are going to work with him. Especially if he is going to act like a baby and run to people every time he doesn't want to answer a question as simple as who your first kiss was" Wufei spat at Duo.
Heero just turned to Wufei and just blurted it out "You really want to know don't you?" Seeing Duo about to tell him no and Wufei's nod he carried on "Well I don't know, and you want to know why? I was fucking raped that's why!!!" instead of looking at any of the pilots Heero rushed out of the room and into Mamoru's room where he opened and then slammed the door shut.
Muffled by the door Kiko's voice could be heard "Ryu? What wrong? What happened?"
In the kitchen Wufei looked shocked at what he had been told, Duo on the other hand was furious, no furious isn't a strong enough word to describe him, Duo was pissed beyond hell at Wufei for what he said. Trowa and Quatre were both gripping their heads while images rushed passed their eyes as they witnessed a much younger Heero, only this Heero was terrified and had bruising all over his face and body, a younger Wufei shouting about the injustice of it all and a younger Duo crowding round Heero hugging him asking if he was ok and just being worried about him. The images went as quickly as they came, but they could both remember them as if they had happened yesterday, both gundam pilots were white and shaking from the images that they saw.
During the short time that Quatre and Trowa were having their flashbacks Duo had gone and started to pummel Wufei to a bloody pulp. Quickly snapping out of their daze they grabbed Duo off of where he was punching Wufei continuously in the face. Trowa held Dup back while Quatre went to see how much damage was done to Wufei's face. The worst damage was a bloody nose, a few cuts and a black eye. Quatre seeing that Wufei wasn't in any danger of loosing an eye or something similar pulled Wufei up onto his feet. Wufei not even knowing what hit him crumpled to the floor when a fist connected to his stomach.
Looking up at Quatre Wufei was stunned that the least violent member of their group had gone and punched him in the stomach. Quatre just glared at Wufei for what he had said and acted towards their unofficial leader of the group. Wufei seeing the glare on Quatres was almost of par with Heero's death glare hung his head in shame on the way that he acted.
Trowa saw that Duo's angry energy had turned to concern for Heero, Trowa just let him go and watch him walk his way towards Mamoru's room where he knocked on the door only to be greeted by a fuming Kiko. However, upon seeing that it was Duo turned to look inside the room.
Kiko started to speak in a language that the others had no idea what was said ((Its Duo, do you want to see him or not?)) Upon seeing Heero shake his head turned to Duo and softly spoke to him "Can you leave him alone for a bit please, he doesn't really want to speak to anyone right now, and to be honest I don't really want him to either…" Kiko trailed off and looked behind her only to see Heero pushed as far back as he could go into the corner of the wall with his knees pulled up tight to his chest and his face half hidden behind his knees.
Duo understanding nodded and started to walk away from the room when he suddenly turned around and spoke "Tell him I love him, even though he has been through all of that shit, tell him it made him into the person that he is now and that that is the person that I love." Kiko just nodded and went back into the room closing the door behind her.
((Ryu, why don't you want to talk to duo? Isn't he supposed to be your boyfriend? Please Ryu, he knows what happened to you remember? You told him and he still loves you)) seeing that her words were not penetrating the think skull that Heero has she decided to tell him what Duo told her ((he told me to tell you this Ryu, even though you have been through all that shit he still loves you, all the stuff that happened in the past made you into the person you are now, and that person he loves))
Heero just shook his head at the statement ((I can't, the others will hate him because he loves me, I can't make him chose between his friends and me I cant please understand that, please)) on that last please he looked up at her, and she could see the begging in his eyes the pleading with her that she understand what he means.
Nodding Kiko gets up and walks to the side of the bed where Mamoru is staring at him with sad eyes 'Please 'Ru wake up soon Ryu needs you and desperately.' Instead of staying in the room like she would normally have done she leaves the room to go and find Duo and tell him what Heero told her.
She finds Duo shortly after leaving the room. She finds him sitting in the lounge staring out of the window and staying away from the other pilots in the room. Purposely avoiding the other pilots she strode towards Duo and started to talk to him in a hushed tone.
"There is a reason that he doesn't want to talk to you, and to be honest I think it is a ridiculous reason but you know Heero, anyway he said that he didn't want to talk to you because he thinks that the others hate him, and that they will hate you because of him. He doesn't want you to have to choose between him and your friends so he made the decision for you." Duo's head shot round to look at Kiko when he heard the small speech, "Go and speak to him please Duo, he needs you now more than ever, I'll stay here and talk to the others."
Duo nodded but softly spoke back "Don't kill Tro and Q-ball ok? They didn't do anything wrong they were just there, Chang on the other hand torture him for all I care just make sure he stays alive long enough for Heero or me to finish him off ok?"
Laughing Kiko just nodded and shoved Duo in the direction if Mamoru's room. Once Duo had left the room she stopped laughing and became darker, her face not saying anything about the mood she was in but the aura around her telling everyone that she was in a killing mood. Walking to the other pilots she just stared at them and then she started to talk, well more like spat at them "Do you have any idea what you have done? Do you?!" seeing the blank looks on their faces she continued "He trusted you, and then you went and broke that trust because of a stupid game! Do you have ANY idea what he thinks now!!! Well do you?!?!?!?!" again seeing the blank looks on their faces she continued "He thinks your disgusted by him, revolted even, and that you will never want to talk to him again because of what happened in the past. He fears that the friendship you had has now been ruined because of what you know!!!!"
During the last part of Kiko's speech Quatre went pale and started to shake his head from side to side, "NO! I would never be disgusted by what had happened to him, I will always be his friend, what happened in his past just shows how strong he really is to have come out of everything the way he has, a nice and caring boy, even if he doesn't show it most of the time I still know that its true!" At the end of Quatre's mini revelation Trowa just nodded to show that he agreed with everything his lover had said.
Kiko knowing that Quatre and Trowa would be the ones more easily convinced she turned her attention to the fifth gundam pilot. Wufei just looked at the floor, never looking anyone in the eyes, showing everyone just how upset he was about what he said and did to Heero, the only one of the pilots that had gained his respect the moment they met.
"I'm sorry," he whispered to quietly the others only just caught what he said, "I didn't mean any harm, I thought his first kiss was Duo and that he just didn't want to say anything, I had no idea what the real reason he didn't want to say was. I'm so sorry, if there is anything I can do to help rectify the mistake I have made please tell me I will do anything."
Kiko sensing that he was speaking from his heart didn't go into the speech that she had prepared in case he didn't want to live up to his mistake and apologise. "Look, to make him get out of the depression that he has gotten himself into you are going to have to apologise and not talk about what he shouted out, and you are going to have to be patient with him, after all he remembers everything that you have forgotten and sometimes he expects you to react differently than you do sometimes. Take now for example he didn't expect to have to tell you for a second time and he expected the same reaction only it didn't happen, so be patient in a few more day you will all have your memory back hopefully. The person who is going to be getting your memories back Quatre should be arriving in a few hours and I would like all of this crap sorted out before he get here." With the last of what she was going to say Kiko walked towards the kitchen to get lunch ready for the guys knowing that once everyone had talked and sorted the problem out they were going to want to have lunch.
Duo walked to Mamoru's room and without bothering to knock just walked into the room. However, what he saw made him take a step back. Heero was in the same position he was in when Kiko had left; he was in the corner of the wall with his knees pulled as close to his chest as possible and with his face half hidden behind his knees. Duo walked slowly towards Heero before kneeling in front of him and wrapping his arms around Heero, knees and all. Heero didn't do anything but tense even more.
"Heero …koi, look at me please," Duo begged. Hearing the pleading tone in Duo's voice Heero looked up at Duo seeing the tears that were threatening to spill over violet eyes, "I would never choose the others over you, I love you Heero, please believe that. I would give up every friend I had just to have you by my side for the rest of my life. Please don't shut me out just because you thought I would choose the guys over you, I would never do that. Please Heero talk to me."
"How? How did you know I thought that you would pick the others over me? How?" Heero questioned his eyes pleading for an answer, even though he already knew who had told him, after all he only told one person.
"Kiko did, she's worried about you, and so am I. The others don't care Heero; really, they still see you as their friend, even though they know more about your past. Please Heero, talk to them, forgive them, but never forget what happened ok?"
Seeing Heero nod slowly, almost uncertainly. Duo lent forward and kissed Heero on the lips, making sure that it was more of a comfort kiss than anything that would progress. Feeling Heero kiss him back he slowly pulled away nibbling on the bottom of Heero's lips as he pulled away.
"I love you Heero."
"Ai shiteru Duo." Heero replied back leaning forward to kiss Duo again. However, once they pulled away there was a knock on the door.
"Heero? Its Quatre can I come in? The others and I would like to talk to you, is that alright?" Quatre questioned from the other side of the door, the concern in his voice evident. Heero just looked at Duo with frightful eyes wondering what would happen if he let the others in and talk to him.
TBC
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Authors Note
Ok, Heero thinks of Kiko as his sister and so will refer to her as nee-san or sis or whatever I can think of at the time, when my mate read this it confused her so I put this here so as to not confuse people (although I don't think it worked XD) anyway the sister I am referring to is Kiko cause she is so close to Heero she is like the sister she never had
Ok, so what you think of this chappie? Well R&R and I will get the next chapter out as soon as possible XD (oh and any idea will be welcome thanxs XP)
Anyway till next time
Ja ne