"What about me?" elisabeth asked as i followed dean toward the impala.

"Stay here and watch over sammy." dean barked over his shoulder. "Rj and i are gonna go ice the sonofab that did this to him."

Dean was in an alarming mood, vicious anger alight in his eyes as he slammed the driver side door. I was barely in my seat before he sped off. His knuckles were white on the steering wheel, his jaw pulsing as he glared directly ahead.

A sudden guilt washed over me. I should've protected sam. If id been a little faster maybe he wouldn't be lying unconscious on a couch in the bunker.

"Im sorry dean, i-"

"D- right youre sorry!" he suddenly shouted. "I dont even know why im taking you with me right now when you clearly can't handle yourself on a hunt."

I sat in stunned silence for a moment, feeling a tangible fury coming in waves off dean. I leaned away from him, facing the window.

"Im sorry." this time its a weak whisper, barely audible.

"Stop apologizing. Sorry doesnt change anything." he growls.

I shut my mouth.

#)(#

"Beth?"

Elisabeth turned around at the feeble sound and all but ran toward sam.

"Sam! Are you alright? How do you feel?" she asked frantically, her hands fluttering over him.

"Im fine beth, calm down." he winced as he pushed himself into a sitting position. "Where are dean and rj?"

"They went to avenge you and finish off the thing that we were hunting." beth said.

"What?! I have to go help them!" sam started to stand up, but elisabeth's small hands pushed him back onto the couch.

"No way. You're staying here and resting. Dean left me in charge of you." she stated firmly, hands on her hips.

Sam smirked, amused despite his worry. "Alright then, nurse beth."

#)(#

"Dean!" i screamed, sprinting toward him. The demon id been struggling against body slammed me and i was crushed to the ground.

I gritted my teeth in resignation before slamming my demon knife into its skull.

I shoved the body off myself then scrambled to my feet.

I was going to make it in time. I wasn't going to fail them again.

Nothing went as planned, however. My ankle wrenched and i lurched forward, getting myself between the demon and dean just in time to slam my knife through its throat, twisting the blade as the demon flickered out.

"Rj, you d- idiot!" dean screamed.

I looked up, wondering what i'd done wrong this time. Suddenly my vision blurred and i stumbled forward, ending up leaning dizzily on dean.

Glancing down, i discovered where i went wrong.

What i assumed was dean's demon knife was buried hilt deep in my abdomen, and my shirt was sopping with glistening blood.

Dean dropped to his knees, cradling me to his chest.

"D-it rj!" he shook his head, but his eyes shone with fear.

"I didn't fail you like i did sam. I saved you! Thats what you wanted right? I did my job." i breathed, my voice cracking unevenly.

"No rj, i didn't want you protecting me, or even sam! I wanted you to protect yourself! So this-" his voice broke as his eyes flicked down to the bloody wound. "So this wouldn't happen."

"It would've been you dean, if it wasn't me." i muttered listlessly. My head was getting fuzzy. "Rather...it be...me...than you."

"I just don't want to lose you!" he pleaded.

But i was already gone.