**phone call **

MOTHER: Yes, yes … please, I don't know what else to do, she has been three days without leaving her room … you better come, I hope you can do something. Yeah … aha … of course … I hope, yes, thank you very muchagain. Bye honey, yes, yeah, bye.

I was sitting by the window watching the scenery. The streets were full of life, I could sense a gentle summer breeze and a warm temperature for walking.

But I didn't want to go out, no. I didn't want to see anything that reminded me of John … It had been three days since he left and the idea of not seeing him in three months was eating me inside. I felt a deep anguish in the chest remembering the last image I had of him going away in front of me in Matthew Street.

I could send a letter, but … The possibility the possibility of no response made me sad, I still didn't understand the feelings of John …

While I was immersed in my thoughts someone opened the door quietly. can I come in?

It was Bee. Bee was gorgeous, her red hair shone in summer and I must admit I was a little jealous if I compared it with my look of the black widow …

GINA: Bee, what joy to see you …

BEE: You make a face, honey, come, sit on the bed.

Bee at on the bed and I stood beside him.

GINA: How is Shotton?

BEE: Well, well. But I think it's pretty obvious that I'm not here to talk about it.

I was afraid of that…

GINA: Uh ..

BEE: Your mother called me. she said you're like a lost soul in the house and you don't want to tell her what's wrong.

GINA: Mom has already enough problems missing Dad, you know … you know why I'm like this.

BEE: Yes, and that's enough! Gina C'mon, are you going be like this three months? I don't want to see you like this, John is not worth. He only caused you pain and more pain … you should have stayed with Stu …

GINA: You know my feelings are not the same to Stu than to Paul … oh, I mean, John - ¡big mistake! -

BEE: ¿Paul? Oh Gina … Do you have to tell me something?

I had to tell her.

BEE: Well, let me understand. You kissed the best friend of John… And you didn't displease …

GINA: Bee, don't judge me … it's true that I feel attracted to both, and with Paul , I might have something to but …. I know that John would be furious….

BEE: John shouldn't say anything, you go to bed with who you want! - To bed? Bee Eh, not so fast! - You are suffering for him as he should be drunk without thinking of you in Hamburg - that hurt me, but it was true.

GINA: But what does it matter now? There aren't here…. - I broke to mourn -. You don't know how much I miss them … I need to see the face of John, hug Paul … I don't care what we have between us, just need them here beside me. - Bee hugged me visibly excited.

BEE: Gina , be strong, you know they miss you too. In three weeks Jules will go to Hamburg to see Pete, you can tell her a message for them or you can send a letter at any time, is not so far away as it seems.

Bee was right. They were many kilometers but they were here in my heart.

Bee's visit helped me to smile again, I couldn't let the summer days pass without enjoying them , also , I will go to Amsterdam soon , finally!

That Sunday morning I went to church. I stopped going to church since dad left us and returned for the first time. Arriving at the church I saw the wall where I and John talked the day of the festival … - No, no! Enough! - I told myself shaking my head.

The Mass was as boring as ever, but something had to occupy my time.

The Mass ended and I went to talk to Robert at the exit.

There I could see Dot with his mother. I went over to say hello.

GINA: Hi Dot, how are you?

DOT: Getting better - said visibly happy

GINA: I'm glad - I said sincerely

DOT: Hey … Have you heard from the boys?

GINA: No … nothing.

DOT: Ops … I thought you were in contact with them, no matter.

GINA: Oh, do you miss … Paul?

DOT: Paul? No. - said changing the expression on his face - now he is doing what he always wanted, sleeps with three girls a night there in Germany, drinking, smoking and flirting, this is Paul.

GINA: Oh, don't say that, he's young and likes to have fun, but he's not that kind of guy - Dot seemed very resentful of him -.

DOT: I don't know, a few days after the abortion of our son, he was at the casbah , drinking, as if nothing had happened . Also … John told me that he was much of the night with a girl.

John again. He was always getting in the middle of everything… What do he pretentd?

GINA: Oh, I'm sorry …

DOT: quiet, who it should be ashamed is that girl, Paul was my fiance … - suddenly seemed saddened.

GINA: Dot C'mon, don't worry about it anymore, is the past, you deserve to be happy and you will be. -

DOT: YES … I guess.

GINA: I gotta go, take care.

DOT: Goodbye Gina - said recovering smiling.

I know that I maybe should feel bad for meddling in their relationship, but in fact, I think their relationship was broken for a long time …

As the days passed, each day I was better. I have to admit that I crossed out the days until to see them again.

MOTHER: Ginie , you've received an envelope - I heard my mom say from the dining room.

My heart began to thump … would be …?

Quickly, I went downstairs to get the envelope of Mom's hand to get back up running.

I lay down on the bed and ripped the envelope.

It was a postcard from George. Ok, I didn't expect to be George … but also filled me with happiness.

"Dear Gina,

I promised that I would write and so I did.

Everything is good here. Germany is not so cold in summer (like the girls).

We live together a large room behind a movie screen, we charge very little but we had a great time.

We've met a very nice photographer, Astrid, all the guys looked at it at first, but it seems that she chose Stu.

John is unleashed, it seems as if he had never drunk beer in his life and Paul seems another person.

I run out of space postcard, so I end here.

We miss you, take care.

Love, Harrison "

ASRTID?! Yes, I had a fit of jealousy …. The boys were having a great time in Hamburg, but I wouldn't know what they were doing there. Well, I didn't know, but just think of the German horny girls in search of a gallant English … I was going crazy.

I needed to hear from my favorite teddy boys, so I bought three postcards and wrote them.

My first letter was for John.

"Funking Dear John,

How are you? I don't want you to get used to this but : I miss you. I imagine you'll be drunk, chasing blonde girls all nights, (you're obsessed with blondes!) And doing the thug on the streets of …

I hope you come back soon … I thinkweI still have many things to talk about. Liverpool is boring without you, and I need my staff clown.

A hug., .. and a kiss.

. "

Was it right to send a letter like this to a guy with a girlfriend?

Another was to Paul:

"Paulie,

How are you?

The other day I went to see Mike and we drank iced tea … isn't the same without you. Hope you're having a great time. George told me that you don't look the same person … I want to see it with my own eyes!

I still have the paper yoy gave at The Cavern before saying goodbye, I read it from time to time and think of you …

Still pending our duet.

Come back …,

Gina. "

And finally to George:

"Letter to :

Georgie!

Behave yourself! Enjoy your stay in Hamburg, I'm sure you'll remember forever.

Take care of Pete, Jules missed him a lot and she will make him a surprise visiting him in two weeks, aren't they adorable?

I need my skiffle band back in Liverpool now!

I love you, you know.

Gina. '

I closed envelopes and threw it to the mailbox. They would arrive in about 4 or 5 days, so I expected his answer in a week or week and a half.