A/N: New pictures on my blog!
"Rachel!!" Uggh what now? I thought to myself as I swiftly got up and went to see what Emily wanted. Tonight was my night to baby-sit. Mom and Dad went out to have some "alone time" and apparently they can't have it when we are around them, whatever it's their lost. Paul was rather disappointed, when I said I couldn't do anything with him tonight. Family comes first with me always does always will.
I finally got to Emily's room and asked her and the girls what they needed. They needed more string for their lanyards. Lanyards, lanyards, lanyards! That's all I ever hear anymore! Ever since a month ago at a church function, when some other girls taught them how to. Bo wasn't around he was on the computer looking up church's in Forks. We have yet to find one to all of our likings, we have to all agree on it or it's a no-go.
My mother wants to get back to church so bad, she loved working for our old one. When we find a new one she's going to apply for a job there if they have any available. We all want to get back to church as well. To try to meet new people and become friends.
I took the strings up the stairs and into the girl's playroom, and started walking towards the boy's playroom. There were two extra rooms that we didn't need so we converted them into a boys and a girls playroom. I usually hang out with the boys so I always go to their room. When I opened the door I saw Bo sitting there like he was waiting for me so was the rest of them.
"Rachel we all know you been sneaking around." Bo started saying. Wow this conversation is getting off to a great start already.
"And you've been hiding something or someone from us." Oh that hit a nerve; I've never hidden something from my parents or my family before.
"I know you're hiding that La Push boy from us Rachel." What! How did he know? I thought.
"I saw him pick you up from school." Bo officially knows everything that's needed to know.
"I'm sorry." I started off "I really am, I never wanted to hide him from you seriously." I said.
"Dad knows as well and he agrees with us 100%." He gestured towards the boys. "We've decided that you shouldn't see what's his name anymore."
My heart shattered right at the thought. I had to agree though; I wouldn't defy my dad's or brother's wishes. They only wanted what was best for me, even though I think he's the best thing that ever happened to me.
"Okay." I barley got out, I was almost full sobbing. "When?" I asked soundly.
"Well" Bo said "We could go tonight; maybe right now I'll drop you off."
"Let me get dressed okay." I whispered out.
I went up the stairs one at a time. Every step I took was like a blow to my heart. That I couldn't stop, I got dressed slowly, trying to prolong this nightmare.
While in the car I was silent. We made it all the way to First beach where I saw Paul. I choked back my sobs that where about to happen.
"Paul, I need to tell you something." I said with all the control I could muster up.
"Okay." He said skeptically.
We went to sit on the rock where we first met, our rock. I decided to take the plunge and say it.
"I can't see you anymore, I mean I want to but I can't." I
Said one step away from bawling. I looked to see my heart, and soul ripped out from me. He had the most painful expression on. Like a man burning at the stake. I couldn't take it anymore his pain was my own.
"I'm so sorry." I said then ran off to Bo's car, where he was waiting for me. I quickly got in but before I did I said three words that he would never hear.
"I love you." I whispered. He looked up at me like he heard me. I hastily hid my face from his view, so he wouldn't see how heart-broken I was.
When driving away, I heard the most heart-wrenching sound. A wolf howling out in pain, it made me think of Paul, my Paul.
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