wrapped in the blanket of the night sky Chapter 10: Even If It Breaks My Heart, a harry potter fanfic

Chapter 8: Even if it Breaks My Heart

Rose's POV

A throbbing pain shot up the back of my neck and my head felt like it was on fire, I was lying there hoping I'd die, the pain was getting too much and my head felt like it was about the explode. In the distance I could hear muffled voices, "Will she be alright? What's wrong with her? When will she wake up?" someone said frantically, the voices started to get louder and louder,

"Mr M-"

"If the Weasley girl dies what should we do master?" another voice asked sounding more frustrated than worried cutting across the friendly familiar female voice.

"SHE WON'T," a voice screamed, pounding inside my head, "SHE KNOWS SHE CAN'T, SHE'S THE MOST POWERFUL WEAPON WE HAVE,"

The pain growing inside my head I could feel my body start to shake and my mouth open as I tried to scream, but no noise came out.

"MR MALFOY STAY CALM," I heard someone scream and flashes of blue light shot above me like shooting stars. Then nothing and I could feel my body falling, everything went black and everyone fell silent.

Scorpius' POV

Rose had just collapsed in my arms and I don't remember much about the past hour apart from the fact that I was a mess, she just lay in my arms, she looked so peaceful, I'd tried to wake her but nothing would make her open her eyes. I remember tears of desperation rolling down my cheeks as I ran with her body towards the hospital wing, I remember people who'd left the party early screaming when they saw the trail of blood following me, but most of all, I remember seeing Dylan's face as I ran past him, he grabbed my arm, causing me to spin round and stagger backwards whilst trying to balance again with Rose's limp body in my arms.

"Scorpius?"

"I have to go," I said slowly backing away,

The glassy expression in his eyes, the way his mouth seemed set in a grimace, the look of guilt and regret mixed together, I didn't understand it, why should Dyl feel guilty? Then again I didn't understand why Rose collapsed, "You coming?" I asked

"I must- I err have t'-," tears pricking his eyes, threatening to fall, "later," he stuttered,

"Suit yourself," and I broke into a run again.

I reached the hospital wing and was greeted by the school nurse asleep in a chair by the door, I fell to my knees as Rose's dead weight became too much for me and screamed to her to wake up. Madam Pomfrey woke up with a start, bustling over to where I sat, taking Rose and shoving me out of the wing.

About half an hour later I saw Professor McGonagall and Mr Potter bustle into the room as I sat and waited with my head in my hands outside. I heard someone running and as the footsteps got closer I realised it was Sam. No one had told him what was going on, he probably heard from Dyl, but he looked white as a sheet and held a look of disbelieve in his eyes. I knew I was shaking and tears were flowing down my face but I didn't care. On seeing my face he must have realised as he stopped suddenly and sank onto the floor, "She'll be okay?" he questioned, "I mean, it can't be anything serious,"

"Ohh yeah, that what Dylan said?" I snapped

"Calm down mate, probably ate a dodgy prawn or something," although he didn't look too sure,

After what felt like a life time of waiting Mr Potter came out and addressed us, "Mr Malfoy, Mr Pierce, I re-"

I shoved him aside before pushing my way into the hospital wing and there she was, lying still as anything, I meant to scream but it came out nothing more than a frantic whisper, "Will she be alright? What's wrong with her? When will she wake up?"

"MR MALFOY please calm down," said Madam Pomfrey,

"Will Rose be alright?" I asked again

"Headmaster had requested we send her to St Mungo's if her condition worsens,"

Rose's body started thrashing around on the bed, her fists clenched the sheets and her arms poker straight by her sides, and then she screamed a deafening scream. I noticed Madam Pomfrey flinch and look quizzical, "and the sooner the better it appears,"

I ran over to Rose's body as she lay there, I took one of her hands and it slowly unclenched, the muscles loosening, I looked at the shiny gleam of sweat running across her forehead and her eyes, even though they were closed you could tell they were moving.

I took my eyes of Rose for a second and chanced a glance at the door, I regretted it instantly as I saw Harry Potter standing in the door frame, the famous Harry Potter, the boy who lived, when he was only a baby and survived and eventually defeated Voldemort in his time at Hogwarts, I saw the grown man before me looking at Rose with a pained expression and tears in his eyes. Yes the great Harry Potter was crying. And that terrified me.

I woke up in the morning curled up beside Rose in her hospital bed, she looked far more peaceful than she had last night, and her whole body seemed relaxed and moulded into mine. Her eyes started to flutter open so she was looking straight at me and she smiled, "Hey Rose, you gave us a fright last night,"

"It was-"

"A prawn?" I said smiling

"Something like that" she murmured, "Where's Dyl?"

"Why do you-?"

"Scorpius, this wasn't Dyl's fault,"

"What? I never said it was, I just think you should rest"

"Well maybe you should go then," she paused, but we both knew I wasn't going anywhere

"What happened Rose?"

"I-I can't tell you Scorp," she stuttered

Normally I would have forced the truth out of her, but she looked so vulnerable and weak lying there, not like Rose at all and as I looked into her eyes, I believed she would tell me when she wanted to.

"You know Scorp, I honestly thought you had more balls than this," she said, a twinkle appearing in her eyes,

"How's that?" I said,

"Dyl knocked himself out, naked, in front of the whole school, Sammy spooned... Potter,"

I saw where she was going with this,

"I kissed you,"

Ouch.

I shook my head furiously, "Nu-uh, you'd have kissed me even if I hadn't dared you,"

"Like I've said before Malfoy, in your dreams," smiling she taunted, "ickle Malfoy is... scared? Awh poor baby," she stuck out her bottom lip, "Wish these bad boys were yours? Am I right? Yeah I'm right"

My eyes slide down to her chest, "Ew Scorp," she squealed, I meant my lips,

"I'm a teenage boy; cut me some slack, and Rosie?"

"Yes?"

"Just for the record, you're mad"

McGonagall chose that moment to walk in, Rose smiled and dug her elbow into my ribs, I stood up.

"Professor? Will you marry me?"

"Sorry Mr Malfoy, you're going to have to speak up," Rose giggled and I stole her blush for a moment.

Hells Balls

I bent down on one knee and gestured with my arms, holding them out in front of me,

"My fair maiden,"

The doors to the infirmary opened.

"Will thou'st do one, ones honour in becoming thy betrothed," I admit, whatever the fuck I just said, I said to see Rose smile. And she did. She looked like Rose again. She looked gorgeous.

In walked a very anxious and confused looking Albus Potter "Rose," he began but on seeing me stopped and cracked a smile, I smiled back and that moment I realised that for the first time in our lives, we both had something in common. Rose. Evidently worried he made the way over to Rose but not before raising an eyebrow at me, I just grinned wider whilst trying to tune out why me and old McGonagall could never be.

Being right next to Rose's bed I could hear their conversation easily,

"I saw you last night," tears welled up in Al's eyes and I truly felt for the guy, I had no place to judge but the hostility Rose normally displayed to her cousins used to seem normal but now it seemed so out of place, like she didn't want to keep it up anymore, and Al seemed such a straight shooter, "I was scared, I had to come see you Rosie, what happened?"

Rose shut her eyes. "I don't know,"

"Yeah you do, you're just too much of a drama queen to tell everyone," he mumbled, "you can't keep everything bottled up Rose, you need to learn that I'm not going to judge every bad thing you do, it's not fair, yes you're hurting but it's also hurting the people around you, take a look round, where are they huh? Hermione? Ron? They aren't here, want to know why? BECAUSE YOU WON'T FUCKING TELL THEM YOU ALMOST DIED," he screamed the last sentence and a single tear rolled down his cheek, he turned to go but she grabbed his wrist, "Al," he tugged his arm and stormed out of the wing. Rose just stared after him and scrunched her eyes up, evidently trying to hold back the tears.

"Hard to believe Al and I used to be best friends," she murmured trying to smile,

"Rosie,"

"Don't say it Scorp," she took a deep breath, clutched my hand and whispered, "'cause that'll make it true,"

"You need to go home."

Something caught my eye under her bed so I bent down to pick it up; I noticed it was Rose's muggle music listening device. I remember when we were younger when we were at the manor how Rose used to leap onto my bed in the early hours of the morning and would grab my wand and start singing her favourite lyrics, at first I thought they were just words, now I know how much she depends on them, they keep her the way she is, keep her strong from whatever she has been hiding these past four years and they remind her of who she was before she changed her hair and eyes and if she lost that person she'd be scared somewhat shitless.

I remember she told me once that she liked songs with names that showed how she was feeling or how people around her saw her; I scrolled down the song list and saw 'The Star Song'.

"I'm going for breakfast Rosie," I said quietly and kissed her forehead lightly,

"Will you come back?" she mumbled after I'd turned my back on her,

"If you want me to," I said before walking out the room, when I got to the door I turned and saw her smiling with tears running down her cheeks. She had the music playing out loud, bouncing of the walls, filling the room with how I saw her...

'You got your tongue pierced once
And you say you got another
That you can't show anyone unless it's under covers
But you're running around showing everyone your new tattoo

You got an A in class and you hope no one would notice
You're the smartest kid in school and it makes you self conscious
And your loser boyfriend's smoking out in the boy's room
I wish someone would tell you

You're a star the way you are
You know you're not fooling anyone, no
You got the eyes of an angel
Don't try to change, yeah
Everybody's got their scars
No matter what they tell you you're beautiful the way you are'

I turned and walked away. Smiling and thinking how true those words were.

'And your mama's so happy you became a cheerleader
Homecoming queen just like your older sister
'til you died your hair pink and they said what were you drinking
And it never did sink in
It don't matter what they think

You're a star the way you are
You know you're not fooling anyone, no
You got the eyes of an angel
Don't try to change, yeah
Everybody's got their scars
Never mind how ugly they are
No matter what they tell you you're beautiful the way you are

All the way you are
All the way you are
All the way you are

You're a star the way you are
You know you're not fooling anyone, no
You got the eyes of an angel
Don't try to change, yeah
No matter what they tell you you're beautiful the way you are
No matter what they tell you you're beautiful the way you are
No matter what they tell you you're beautiful the way you are'

AN: sorry if you haven't enjoyed the past few chapters as much as the others, its going to get a bit more light hearted for a while soon after something to do with an owl and dusty gravel3

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SHOERTIEGIRL- don't worry she wasn't getting raped :D but it was supposed to sound like that cause when I wrote it I wasn't too sure and needed possibilities of stuff it could have been