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Chapter 10
Edward let out a sigh, as he stepped into his room rubbing his wet hair with a towel to dry it. "Well," he said, twenty minutes after his and Jacob's display of affection in the bathroom. "I can honestly say that I have never had a shower that was more..satisfying." The vampire let the towel fall into the open laundry bin by his door, done drying his hair, and strode over to the dresser to retrieve a pair of clean boxers.
Jacob chuckled as he played with the barbell that was now placed in this tongue. He twisted it with his front teeth as he stared at the ceiling, laying back on Edwards large bed, arms crossed behind his head. He had the blanket pulled up to his waist seeing as he had no clothes at the house. "More fun than a shower should be," he said with a wink.
A smile spread across Edward's features as he pulled his boxers on. He sat down on the bed and fell backward so that his head rested on Jacob's chest. "Definitely," he agreed, heaving a pleased sigh. He rolled over so that he was on his stomach and looked Jacob in the eyes. "We'll have to do it again sometime soon."
"Away from your family I hope," Jacob said as he turned his head to look at his lover. "What time is it anyways?" He questioned as he peered out the window. It was so foggy where the house rested in the middle of the woods he couldn't tell if it was night or day. It was just...white. Staring at the fog, it slowly started to contort to the fur lapel that Victoria wore. His vision blurred as he saw the flamboyant vampire materialize. A fog wolf attacked it followed by another foggy shadow.... How the vampire died was brutal...but she had done worse. His attention was fixated out the window.
Edward sat up on his elbows and stared at Jacob for a moment, wondering why he seemed so distant. When he dared to venture into his thoughts, he found the pain-filled memories of Victoria's attack weighing heavily on the werewolf's mind. "Jacob," he whispered softly, in an attempt to break his love's attention away from those memories. Edward's hand squeezed Jacob's tightly, the warmth of his skin strongly contrasting with the coolness of his own.
Jacob turned his eyes to Edward. A vampire. Like her....No. Not like her. He was a vampire. But he was his vampire. Jacob gave his goofy smile as a natural "Jacob Black" thought broke his serious string of thoughts. Edward was his...he made sure of that in the shower.
The vampire smiled as he picked up on the last thought that went through Jacob's mind. Indeed he was Jacob's, and Jacob was, in turn, his. Nothing was ever going to change that. At least, not if Edward had anything to say about it. He leaned himself forward, pressing his forehead to Jacob's, the tips of their noses barely touching. "I'll always be yours," Edward said softly.
"I know," Jacob said with a grin. "You think I'd let something this sexy get away," He said as he reached over with arm and pulled Edward onto him still keeping them face to face. "Not a chance buddy," He finished with a wink.
Edward gave a crooked smile before placing a light kiss on Jacob's lips. "I appreciate the sentiment," he laughed. He placed his hands on the bed on either side of the wolf and pushed himself up onto his knees so that he was now straddling Jacob's stomach. A random thought crossed his mind. "Er...How many people in the house do you think...heard us?"
"I dunno. Give 'em a little mind tap if ya really wanna know," Jacob said as he placed his hands on Edward's hips instinctively and gently massaged them with his thumbs. "But the question is...do you honestly want to know what's on everyone's mind?" He questioned raising an eyebrow. After all the reactions Jacob had seen out of a certain Cullen family member when it came to Edward and himself being overly affectionate he was pretty sure what the living chill pill would be doing if he had heard. Jacob's mind began to wander. If Jasper was actually doing something...his feelings would be pulsating from the room. Maybe even affecting the other Cullen's. Jacob chuckled at the thought.
Edward considered it for a moment before giving a defeated sigh and laying back down on top of Jacob. "I've decided I really don't want to know what is going on in their heads," he said. He folded his arms so that they were across the werewolf's chest and propped his head on top of them, staring Jacob in the face.
"Yes?" Jacob asked rubbing his hand up and down Edward's back. He let his eyes meet with the honeyed eyes of his boyfriend. "I will never get used to that," He said not looking away from the other's eyes.
The vampire gave Jacob a puzzled look, too courteous to probe his mind for the answer. "Used to what?" Edward asked. Though confused, he was smiling. He unfolded one of his arms from its resting place on Jacob's chest and running his now free hand through his lover's hair, massaging his scalp gently with his fingertips.
"Your eyes..." He said as he closed his eyes. He loved the feel of Edward's fingers in his hair. It was so relaxing. His mind wandered. The feel of his hot skin against Edward's cold skin.
Edward looked down, an automatic embarrassed reaction. He never thought anything of his eyes, but the fact that someone so dear to him did truly made him feel a little special. He shifted a bit and his eyes met Jacob's again when he looked up. "You've got to at least be a little hungry after all you've been through today," he said, suddenly remembering that mortals need to eat. Of course, with Jacob, a 'little' hungry was probably a three course meal and then some.
"Of course but I know there ain't no food in this house...." He said looking around. "Well...aside from me I suppose," He chuckled lightly at his own little horrible joke. He leaned up slightly and pressed his lips to Edward's.
Edward was about to protest to Jacob's joke. Something along the lines of, 'If any of them even dare to call you food I'll---' But the light touch of Jacob's lips against his own made him forget that he had even said anything so absurd. The vampire returned the kiss happily, his fingers still running through Jacob's hair reflexively. This was definitely one of those days that started out horrible and ended up being blissful.
Jacob smiled as he pulled back from the kiss. "As much as I would like to...I don't think I should walk around your house naked..." He said as he pulled Edward a bit closer to his own body. "I gotta get some of my clothes."
Edward sighed. "Alright," he said, and leaned forward to give Jacob a quick kiss. "Though the image of you walking around my house naked is so tempting." He wasn't sure if Jacob had left any of his clothes over from previous occasions, and the immortal was certain that he would have to go home to pick something up. Pushing off of the werewolf and rolling over to the other side of the bed, Edward stared up at the ceiling.
"If we had our own place I wouldn't be afraid to walk around naked," Jacob said as he sat up, the sheet sliding down to his hip bones and revealing more of his chiseled shape. "I don't want to offend anyone...or get something bit off that is slightly important to me..." He said with a chuckle.
Edward's nose crinkled in disturbance at the last line. "On second thought, why don't I go with you?" he said, sitting up to look at Jacob. "Would you mind?" The vampire smiled, showing off his brilliant white teeth in doing so. He could use a walk anyway, he had convinced himself. And he was still feeling cautious about Jacob being alone, despite his wolfish advantage.
"If you really want. I'm not worried about your family right this minute. They went out to hunt right?" He questioned as he stretched his arms up and stood, letting the sheet slip off his waist and hang off the side of the bed. "I at least have time to get off the grounds before they get home," He said with a smile. "But yes, you can come if you wish." He finished swirling his tongue ring between his teeth once more making sure Edward saw his own personal torture device.
Edward shivered visibly as he watched the tongue ring and it's torturous demonstration. "Yea," he said. "I think I will." He slid off of the bed, and walked toward the closet to get some clothes for himself, all the while training his eyes to avert themselves from the very naked Jacob standing in his room. The last thing Edward wanted was to lose control of his sexual urges.
Jacob crossed his arms over his chest and smirked as Edward glided over to the closet. He had seen the vampire shiver. He liked how much of an effect he had on his lover. He began to imagine himself running his rugged hands down Edward's back, cupping his hands around his perfect ass and squeezing, pulling his boyfriends naked body against his own. He let his thoughts get graphic as he knew Edward would be in his head.
Edward halted his actions, fumbling a pair of jeans, as the images in Jacob's head filtered through into his own mind. The vampire threw an accusing glance at Jacob, and decided that it was for the best to keep his own wandering mind away from Jacob's. Though, in truth, that was much harder than it sounded. Edward tried to continue dressing himself as if he had noticed nothing, but he was failing miserably. It was amazing how much of a klutz he turned into once Jacob's influence was brought into account.
Jacob chuckled as he watched Edward fumble around till he was finally dressed. "I don't see why you HAVE to wear clothes..." He said as he approached Edward and wrapped his arms around the pale man's waist making sure to press his larger body completely against Edward's chilly one. "I wouldn't complain if you didn't." He lightly took Edward's ear lobe in his mouth and teased it with the tongue ring before whispering in his ear, "I promise."
Edward had barely gotten his jeans on when he felt Jacob's warm arms pulling him close. Before he could say anything, little shocks of pleasure were sent through his spine causing him to gasp in surprise as his love teased his earlobe. "If I did that, there wouldn't be a need to find you any clothes, now would there?" Edward asked, his hand finding one of Jacob's secured on his waist.
Jacob chuckled as he slowly pulled himself away from his loving boyfriend. "Not to mention the fun of taking your clothes off and watching you strip would be taken away from me," Jacob said with a wink. He walked to the door and propped up on the door frame. "For someone so fast, it takes you forever to get dressed," The wolf said with a wink and a smirk securely on his face.
Edward let out a sigh as he pulled his shirt over his head. "Now, how did you know I was going to strip for you later?" he teased. "Are you sure you haven't picked up Alice's talents during your stay?" The pale boy sat on the bed to pull on his socks and shoes before standing up again to join Jacob at the door. "I'm ready if you're ready," he declared.
"I think I need a little bit more physical healing before I leave," Jacob said with a smile as he pulled Edward to him by his belt loops and pressed his lips against the others. A smile was present as he pressed his mouth to Edward's as he actually cupped the pale man's bottom. He gave it a firm squeeze as he pushed Edward's body more firmly against himself.
There was a small surprised sound that came from Edward, but it was muffled as his lips were pressed to Jacob's. The vampire mentally shrugged, and returned the kiss, wrapping his arms around the taller boy's neck. And suddenly, Edward found himself wishing that he HADN'T put on his clothes.
Jacob smirked as he pulled away from the kiss and smiled. "Come on before we have a reenactment of the shower," He finished with a a smirk. He moved away from Edward and headed down the stairs. He moved down the stairs and through the Cullen's home thankful that no other of the family were home. "I must admit. Feels nice to just walk around naked all the time," he said with a chuckle at the front door.
Edward smiled, and followed Jacob down the stairs. "Hmm," he murmured. "Well, it seems I have a lot to look forward to." The vampire opened the door and stepped outside, waiting for Jacob to come outside as well, and when he had Edward shut the door behind them. "I suppose we're going to your house?" he asked, as if he couldn't check for himself.
Jacob smiled, winked, and swiftly transformed. 'It's kinda breezy out here today,' He thought to his boyfriend as a small gust of wind blew through his fur. He walked over to Edward and rubbed up against his body, nudging him slightly and chuckled. He slid his large body in between Edward's legs and stood up lifting Edward off the ground slightly and looked up with a wink. 'Hold on,' He thought as he braced himself to dash off into the woods.
Edward's eyes widened with shock as Jacob practically forced him onto his back like a horse. His surprised expression turned into a fond smile and he held onto Jacob's fur gently as he took of into the forest. 'Not bad,' he thought to himself. 'Seems like a leisurely stroll for me, but this is nice.' He buried his face into the werewolf's neck, inhaling. Even as a wolf, his boyfriend still held the same scent he had come to love.
Jacob smiled. He loved the feeling of Edward nuzzling against him. He felt more powerful, more in control of himself, when he was in wolf form. He slowed his run to a walk before stopping all together next to a small stream in the woods. He lay down in the swaying grass and tipped his body slightly causing Edward to slide off of his back and onto the grass in the curl of his body. He lay his head against Edward's legs and wrapped his tail around them as well blocking most of their bodies from the wind.
Edward leaned back against Jacob's side. On reflex, his hand automatically began petting Jacob. "What a nice place," he said. "I don't think I've ever been in this area of the woods." If Edward could sleep, this is exactly the place he would love to come to just to take a nap. He could feel Jacob's breathing against his back and sighed. His cold skin was immune to the chill that hung in the air, and he began to worry that it wasn't doing much for Jacob. He hoped his fur was thick enough to repel the cold.
Jacob felt Edward's fingers coarse through his fur. He tried his hardest to resist the urge. 'No...' He thought. 'Must....not....do....it....' his mind fought. In the end, he failed. His large back leg began to thump against the ground. His mouth stretched as a normal dogs would. His skin tightened. This feeling was amazing. He felt like any normal random stray because of the treatment...but he didn't mind.
Edward couldn't help but laugh. He turned around and placed both of his hands on Jacob's stomach and rubbed up and down. It was quite amusing to see his boyfriend react in such a way. "Does that feel good?" he asked, though he knew the answer. One of his hands reached up and scratched behind one of his ears.
Jacob's large tongue lolled out the side of his mouth as he rolled on to his back. He couldn't figure out what in god's name had come over him but he wanted more of the attention. His leg continued to beat as he leaned his head in against Edward's cool hand. He had some talented fingers that's for sure.
Edward grinned. "You know," he started. "I've never had a dog before, but I'd imagine this is pretty similar." He finished scratching his belly and sat back. It was definitely different having a lover that was male, but he had never really thought about the difference that was brought on by Jacob being a werewolf.
Jacob smirked as he rolled back onto his stomach. He looked Edward in the eyes for a moment before dragging his large tongue up the center of his face. With a chuckle he thought, 'That was the only thing missing from a pet experience.' He moved his large body into a sitting position and stared at his lover. 'We should probably be getting to my house soon.' He thought to the other.
Edward's face contorted to a look that said, 'You did not just do that!' but instead of saying anything, he just wiped his face with his sleeve and sighed. "You're right. We should get going," he replied. He gave Jacob one more scratch behind the ears before standing up. He wasn't sure if he was walking this time or not, so Edward settled for walking speed, just in case Jacob decided to pull another stunt like he had only moments before.
Jacob wasn't done playing around however. He walked up behind Edward and placed the top of his head in the center of Edward's back and pushed forward making sure Edward stumbled. He sat down and wagged his tail like a friendly little puppy. He tipped his head to the side, one ear flopped over and the other standing straight up to give the good dog effect. His tongue was hanging out the side of his open mouth.
Edward turned around after stumbling forward a bit and looked at Jacob with a soft expression. This attitude that Jacob had adopted really did seem to bring out his inner...puppy. Edward ruffled his boyfriend's fur playfully and gave him a good scratch under the chin. "You are so energetic today," the vampire commented. It was by no means a bad one either. He absolutely loved Jacob's playfulness and wouldn't trade it for the world.
'Never know' Jacob thought as he lifted his head up for the attention. 'Probably has something to do with the long overdue session in the shower' he finished with a chuckle. His mind wandered back to images from his earlier encounter with his lover. His tail wagged a bit more enthusiastically.
Edward had chosen the wrong moment to linger in his lover's mind, because the images that were brought forth were nothing but enticing. He suddenly found himself looking forward to another instance like the one in the shower. "We should get your clothes quickly," he said. "Because the next time I see you naked, I am totally jumping you where you stand." Not only was what he said a tease, but a promise.
Jacob smiled and started to walk at a slow leisurely pace. He turned his head to look back at Edward calling him to walk with him. His tail swayed back and forth. His ears perked up as he continued on his way. He enjoyed spending time alone with Edward, no one to bother them. They could talk amongst themselves and have intimate moments without anyone interrupting. He walked close to Edward, almost possessively. He dared anyone to try to get to 'his' vampire.
Edward placed a hand on Jacob's back as they walked. He enjoyed keeping physical contact with him, even when they were walking. Though Jacob had phased into his wolf form, Edward could feel the heat through his fur. It was still so amazing to him the contrast in their body temperatures. He caught a stray thought from him and he felt a warmth fill his chest. Did he really think of him as 'his' vampire? The notion brought a smile to his face.
Jacob broke through the shrubbery lining the woods. La Push beach was lay out in front of his vision. He could see his home passed a few of the other brown buildings. 'Shall we?' Jacob thought looking up at Edward questioningly. He put one paw forward as he waited for Edward's answer. It was still weird to have any of the Cullens on Quileute land.
Edward stepped forward and out of the woods. "Yes," he replied in a low voice. They walked the rest of the way out and came around to the back of the house so as not to be seen by others. He walked up to the back door and scanned the house to see if Billy was home. Unfortunately for them, he was. They would have to sneak in past him and all the way to Jacob's room. This was not a problem for Edward, but he was slightly worried about how Jacob was going to get inside without being noticed. He couldn't very well go inside as he was, and if he phased back he would be naked. And who wouldn't notice a naked teen walking inside the house. "Would you like me to get your clothes for you?" Edward asked.
'Why? I'm not afraid of my father,' Jacob thought as he looked up at his lover. He nudged the back door open with his large head. 'Come on' he thought as he walked in.
"Welcome home Jacob, Edward," Billy said greeting the boys with a nod of his head. "Seth left something for you on your dresser. Said it was important," He said flipping through the stations on the television. Jacob nodded knowing if he had said or thought something his father wouldn't have heard or understood.
Jacob made his way into his bedroom and quickly phased, throwing on a pair of blue jean knee length shorts as he sauntered over to the dresser. On the maple dresser lay an old tattered book with a note sticking out of the top. Finishing buttoning his shorts, Jacob lifted the book and dusted some of the filth off the cover to reveal a wolf howling carved into it. He flipped it open to the page marked with the note and unfolded the small piece of paper.
'Dear Jacob, found something you might like to know.' He passed the note to Edward as he looked at the page. His jaw went slack as he read the page.
On the page was written on how it was possible for Quileutes to give up their wolf spirits and be human. A thought crossed through his mind... He could be with Edward forever...as a vampire...
Edward sat on the edge of Jacob's small bed, watching as Jacob's expression changed. Suddenly curious and too polite to invade his thoughts, he stood up and walked up behind him. "Jacob?" Edward whispered. The vampire glanced over his lover's shoulder to read the page that he had flipped to in the old book and his jaw dropped as well. Surely this had to be some kind of joke. Jacob could actually have a chance to stay with him forever? He let out a shuddering sigh. "Is this...true?"
"DAAAAD!" Jacob's voice rang through the house and most likely the entire reserve. Billy threw the door open in a panic as he rolled into the room quickly. "What's wrong?" he questioned when he saw both boys with mystified gazes on their countenance. Jacob passed the book to his father and questioned, "Is it true?"
Billy's face tightened. He had hoped Jacob wouldn't remember the old stories or come across this information. He knew the decision he would make. "Yes..." Billy said sitting the book on his lap. "You can give up your wolf spirit and become as a normal human."
Edward's face lowered. If Jacob were to give up his wolf spirit, they would be together forever. But would that really be what he wanted? Jacob loved his ability to phase. It was the only thing that set him apart from normal humans. And above all, it was concealable. He could easily hide the fact that he was a werewolf, but to be a vampire would mean constant secrecy.
Jacob sat down on the side of his bed and interlocked his fingers, resting his elbows on his thighs. "Sounds a little too perfect..." Jacob spoke softly. "No matter what," Billy began sitting the book in his son's lap. "I know you will make the right choice for you." With that, Billy rolled out of the room and slowly slid the door shut behind him.
Edward sat down next to Jacob, a considerable gap between them for the first time in days. He couldn't in good conscience bring himself to sit too closely to Jacob while he had to debate about something this critical. The vampire felt a twang of guilt. He was the cause of Jacob's confusion. It was plainly painted on the werewolf's face, the inner turmoil that must have been welling inside from the conflicting feelings rising inside. Edward didn't need Jasper's powers to tell his feelings this time.
"I think..."Jacob began. "I think we need to go talk to some of the elders. See what this is about," Jacob rationalized. He wasn't too sure he could convince himself to do something so drastic. Giving up what had essentially made him....him. Going to the other side. Becoming one of those that had had to face off against so many times before. Maybe he could just refuse to learn to control his phasing. As long as he couldn't control it....He wouldn't age. Wouldn't that work?
Edward nodded, solemnly. There was nothing he could do at this point in order to influence Jacob's choice in any way. It wouldn't be fair for him. If Jacob could find a solution that made him happy, then Edward would be content. "If you think that would be best, then we'll consult them," he said. "But, I agree with your dad, Jacob." He would support whatever decision the native boy would make, whether it be to become a vampire, or to refuse.
"I...I will do it myself...." Jacob said standing. He turned his back to Edward. He couldn't let the vampire see the conflict on his face. He knew he wanted to be with Edward...but at what costs to his humanity. He turned and jumped out his window, phased mid sprint towards the woods, and was gone.
Edward slumped backwards on the small bed that he sat on. Alone. He wondered what Jacob would choose, but then again, he didn't want to think of it. If Jacob said yes, they'd be able to stay together for the rest of their immortal lives. But if Jacob was unhappy with it, then Edward considered it an unworthy feat. And if he said no...Edward had already decided to support his lover's decisions no matter what. But would he actually be able to cope if Jacob said no? No. He would feel more dead than he had his entire unnatural existence.
Days passed and Jacob couldn't convince himself to go to the elders. He had yet to go home either. He found himself wandering further and further away from what he knew as home. He missed his father...He missed his friends....He missed his vampire...Edward. His thoughts filled with the thoughts of Edward and his feelings for him. He knew his love for Edward was true but he wasn't sure if he could give up his wolf spirit. It was who he was now... It was how he coped with everything. Just phase and run. It wouldn't be that way any more. Would he still be as fast as Edward? Would he still be as strong as he is now? He loved meat so much in his wolf and human forms... Would he be able to control himself as a vampire? Would he be like the Cullens...or those he fought against?
Could he really do this?
Since the day that Jacob had found out about the loophole in being a werewolf, Edward had barely spoken a word to anyone else. He walked home at a human rate that day, not able to will himself to run at the speed that would only remind him of Jacob. And thinking of Jacob only reminded him that he had no clue where he was at the moment. But no matter how worried he was, Edward's guilt prevented him from looking for him. "If I give him space, perhaps he'll be able to think better," he said to himself.
Days passed, and he hadn't heard from Jacob. The vampire barely left his room, even though he was starving himself. At some point someone had brought him an animals body so that he could feed, but he never looked at them and he mumbled his thanks half-heartedly. He didn't even taste the blood as it seeped into his mouth. He wanted Jacob back. Without him, everything had lost all luster.
Jacob stood in the water of a small creek, the water rushing over his large paws, moving the fur about. He had been gone, away from those he cared about, for 3 weeks now. He new he needed to make a decision. It was growing harder and harder to choose. He knew how much he loved Edward. But he also he knew how much he loved being a wolf. Running through the woods at high speeds. The feel of the wind through his fur. But most importantly, not having to hide away from the sun. Being able to walk among other humans undetected anywhere. His favorite part...was the feel of his warm skin and the thud of his heart beneath his chest...He had done it. He stepped from the water. He had made his decision.
Author's note: PLEASE DON'T SHOOT US!