Author's Note: Hi friends! Sorry for the long-overdue new chapter. The past few days and weeks have been a wee bit crazy with so many appointments to my doctors (I'm just 32, but overworking at my old job took its toll early on my heart. But I'm still okay though don't worry). Work was also a bit hectic a few days ago, so I had to prioritise that coz my bills have been piling up LOL, but luckily these past few days things have really quieted down and I got the chance to continue One Night in Bali, and begin the new joint chapter (by TheGuestReviewer and me) for Big Time Pilot Love. Anyway, please enjoy the new chapter of One Night in Bali! :)

One Night in Bali

Chapter 10 - Art of Moving On

As Kendall opens his eyes, he sees the gentle Singaporean sunrise peeking from the gap between the curtains. He then feels the gentle breathing of his boyfriend Logan as the brunette continues to sleep with his head and his chest over Kendall's body.

The blonde then puts an arm over the sleeping Logan and gently caresses his back. Kendall enjoys how smooth and supple Logan's skin is despite the fact that Logan is now more muscular than before. Kendall then moves his hand to gently stroke his brunette boyfriend's hair as Logan continues to sleep.

Kendall then tries to stop the tears from forming in his eyes...

Tears of joy that they are now boyfriends...

Tears of fear about what would've happened if things didn't go as he hoped for...

Tears of love for the beautiful brunette still sleeping adorably beside him...

As a tear finally escapes from one of his eyes, Kendall gently immerses his mind into a period of retrospect...

It has been a lot of years since Kendall had painfully kept his secret from Logan, that he loves him more than just his best friend. He loves him so much that he wants to be with Logan forever. But he doesn't know if Logan feels the same way about him. He even has no idea if Logan is a bisexual just like him, or if he's straight, with all the girls he flirted with during their active Big Time Rush days.

Then suddenly, on that fateful summer, Kendall finds out that Logan is dating a girl... A girl named Makenzie. The blonde's heart was devastated at the news and the photographs of the two together since the time the boys went on a cruise after their last tour. He was so crushed and yet he has to stay strong and not let anyone show how destroyed he was when he realised Logan could not love him the same way as he loved the brunette.

Whenever the now not-single Logan hangs out with Kendall, the blonde tries to put a brave and happy face for Logan. He doesn't want his Logie to worry about him, and especially find out why he was devastated lately. Even when Makenzie drags herself along with Logan during their best friend times, Kendall is kind and civil enough to be nice to both of them. Even if Makenzie sometimes makes out with Logan in front of the blonde, Kendall just laughs it off and pretends to react as if he's joking when he says "Oh get a room, you two!" But deep inside, the shards of his broken heart stab and slash at his insides, making him almost sick to his stomach at his extreme sadness and jealousy.

When he has finally some time to be alone, in one of his cars in a vacant parking lot as he lights a cigarette, or two, or three, or four, or even five, in his anger and sadness at himself for loving someone who would not love him back, in the studio as he writes songs for his upcoming new album as he revives his first band, Heffron Drive, and most especially as he arrives at his house, he finally lets whatever strength remaining to finally crumble as he breaks down with tears of pain and sorrow flowing from his reddened green eyes.

Where did he go wrong?

Did he even try to give Logan even the faintest signals?

Are their frequent eye-to-eye contact during interviews, concerts and even during meet-and-greets not enough as signs?

He can't even remember what he might have said to Logan...

If ever there was a chance that Logan would actually love him back, did the blonde say anything to crush Logan's hopes?

What did Logan say to him in response anyway?

Kendall was too distraught during those painful days and weeks...

"I don't remember what we might have said...
And I didn't bother to write it down anyhow..."

And as the days went by, with Logan and Makenzie hanging out more often, Kendall gradually started to accept the bitter truth. The pain inside him is still as strong as ever, but he wants to accept the truth, so that he can get on with his life soon.

But memories kept flooding back to him and trapping him in sorrow and anger at himself, especially whenever he is alone and whenever he is asleep, if he manages to fall asleep. Memories when he and Logan were happy together, and suddenly cut off by the presence of this girl...

"Now all of the memories spun like a web...
And I can't get out, get out, get out..."

Despite the drastically-reduced times between the blonde and the brunette, Kendall still did his best to be with his beloved best friend as much as he can. Occasionally, he is cockblocked by this new girl, but he doesn't want to give up just yet.

But eventually, Kendall had to fully accept the truth... Logan seemed to really like this new girl and wants to spend more time with her. It's like a part of Logan is saying goodbye to him, and he is forced to feel the same way towards Logan...

But the blonde still loves his brunette...

"I gave everything I got not to lose you,
We chose to say goodbye but I choose you
I choose you..."

Each sorrow-filled day felt like a never-ending nightmare for Kendall. Logan was the only person he ever truly loved this way, and wanted to be with him, but the new girl has snatched him away even before he had a chance to say something to the brunette. And now his chances are gone, and it's killing him deep inside.

"Feels like I'm stuck here frozen in time
If it wasn't real, then I wonder what really is
And if there's a world where you could be mine
Well that's where I'd live..."

Eventually, Kendall tries to cope with the pain by distracting himself. He focuses om his original band, Heffron Drive. But a lot of the songs that he wrote remind him so much of Logan, and even the other songs were ones that he and Logan jointly wrote. Kendall was hoping that Heffron Drive could tear his mind away from his brunette, but it doesn't. Kendall really loves Logan, even though Logan now has a girlfriend. He still wants to tell Logan, to show Logan, how much he loves him. And all these conflicting thoughts gradually take their toll on his mind.

"I keep building walls but you're always on my mind...
Won't let them fall down...
I'm tired...
Can we give up the art of moving on?
It keeps me up all night..."

And as Kendall nears the end of his retrospect, his boyfriend Logan briefly snores, then snorts, and finally wakes up. The brunette first hugs the blonde's body tightly before looking up to Kendall's face to smile at him with a slightly groggy smile.

"Good morning, Kindle Babe!"

Kendall leans in to kiss the lips of his now-awake boyfriend.

"Good morning, Logie Bear! You slept well?"

"Yeah, of course, 'coz I'm sleeping with you, babe..."

"Awwwwwww"

And Logan then shifts himself so his face could be closer to Kendall's and starts peppering the blonde's face with gentle kisses.

"Whatcha wanna do today?" Kendall asks.

"After breakfast, maybe let's just stay here for the rest of the day. I really just wanna cuddle up with you all day long. I've always wanted this for a long time" Logan answers before he kisses his Kendall once again

"Sure, Logie. By the way, do you wanna get breakfast now?"

"Nah, maybe a bit later, Kindle. I just wanna be with you right now..."

And Logan embraces Kendall as he drifts back again to a light sleep. Kendall gently strokes Logan's hair and back once again, appreciating the beautiful boy and the start of the beautiful relationship that they now have...

Kendall had become tired of building walls with Logan still being on his mind and knocking down those very walls...

He desperately wants to give up this art of moving on...

And finally he got his wish...

He had to give up his art of moving on, because he no longer has to move on...

Because he finally now has his Logan...

To be continued...