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"Shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up," I spoke in a breath, lying on my bed, staring at my phone. It had been ringing so many times that the little singing sound got me going crazy, and I actually thought I could speak to it, ask it to stop. Obviously, it didn't listen to me and a couple of minutes later, it started ringing again. I didn't sigh, I had done it too many times before, so I just stared at it, eyes wide open, until it stopped once again. 'You have one new message' the screen wrote, and I opened the phone, hesitating between listening to it or just erase it. I finally clicked the middle button and brought the phone to my ear, waiting for the machine to process so I could listen to the message.
"Sarah, its Joe... again. Listen, I'm sorry. I know I've said it a hundred times already, but just in case... I'm really sorry. It's cool you emptied your message box, it was full yesterday, so I couldn't leave a message," Joe paused a second before he started again. "I miss you," he said in a low voice. If I didn't know Joe that much, I would have thought he was crying, but I knew he was just really sad. "Bodie says 'hi'. If ever you feel like it, you can call." Dial tone. I closed the phone slowly, still staring at it.
This time, I really sighed. It took all my energy and my willpower not to call Joe, go see him at the bar, or accept to let him talk to me when he would be at the door. Because yes, he came here, at my house, at least every two days, asking for me. Even if I did want to talk to him, my mom wouldn't let him, but still. He was very persistent. And I missed him too, even though I was mad as hell at him. I just couldn't bring myself to talk to him yet, I was still furious. I could still see him, towering over me, bringing his lips to mine, wanting me. It felt so wrong. And then I saw his eyes. The way he was looking at me that night, it seemed like he wanted to kill me. I had been trying to get that to happen from the very beginning, and now that I didn't want it anymore, it was happening: Billy wanted to kill me. And I, silly me, missed him. That's right, I had never spent so much time away from everyone since I first started hanging out with them, and I had to accept the fact that I missed them all, especially him. I missed the sight of him, sitting on his car, smoking his cigarette. I missed his sent, his touch, his lips, though we had only kissed once, I still missed it. I missed the secret smiles he sent me, the way I felt safe when I was with him, the brief moments when I felt he cared for me. It was driving me crazy. And as much I was wanted to stop thinking about it, I felt it every day. I wish I could say the same about him, but I knew he was probably better off without me. He hadn't even called; he probably didn't really give a shit if I was fine, if I was still breathing, if I still thought of him as a disgusting bastard. You know, normal stuff guys are supposed to wonder. But he's not a normal guy, is he? Yeah, I thought so.
No, Billy didn't do anything to give me the impression he had any feelings for me, except maybe hate. I kept wondering why it was him I wanted, when it was Joe who was the perfect one for me. He was sweet, caring, smiling, fun, and he loved me. Could I say that of Billy? Of course not. Yet, I wanted him. We were like magnets: on one side, I was strongly attracted to him, but on the other... something – my sense of logic, I suppose - pushed me away, miles away from him. The sound of the door opening took me out of my thoughts.
"Hey, my sister's here," Jade told me, only her head being visible behind the door. I nodded and stood from my sitting position, following her towards the corridor. For the remaining two weeks of her time here, Jade and I had been shopping a lot, went out to the restaurant, saw gigs and just spend quality time together, without having anything to do with the guys, of course. I still hung out with Emily, but I stayed away from the boys as much as possible. Not that I had anything against them all, but I didn't want to risk seeing Joe or Billy, and since this is the Darley gang, it was pretty clear it would have happened.
We both jogged down the stairs and arrived directly in front of a smiling Elisabeth. She was spending the week end here to see us, before her and Jade left together to go back home. My home... Well, not anymore anyway.
"Sarah!" she shouted, embracing me in a tight hug. "Oh my god, it's been so long," she continued before I could say anything, and I finally pulled away, the both of us smiling.
"I know, how are you?" I replied, truly happy to see her.
"I'm great. Eric couldn't make it, but I have Matt with me," she explained, pointing to the little boy in my mother's arms. I turned to him and waved, and he shyly smiled to me.
"How old is he now?" I asked, smiling wider now that I saw the cute little kid, his blond wavy hair matching his mother's. He even had her blue eyes. It's funny how Jade and Elisabeth looked so much alike, even if Jade had brown eyes and brown hair, and Eli had blond hair and blue eyes.
"He'll be three in July," she answered, also waving towards her son.
"Wow, he's getting old," I commented, and Eli laughed softly. We walked towards the living room, my father leaving us for a moment to take Eli's stuff in the guest room. We all sat down and my mom left the room, passing by my father as he came back, to get us drinks.
"Was the flight okay?" my father asked Eli, sitting beside her of one couch.
"Yes, everything went fine. Matt was a little nervous, but once we were started, he was better. Right honey?" Eli lowered her head to meet her son's eyes, the little boy sitting on her lap. When he heard someone speaking to him, he raised his head, but didn't answer anything. "The plane was fun, wasn't it?" she asked again, and Matt nodded vividly, causing everyone to laugh. "Sorry, he's shy right now. He's always like that around a lot of people."
"Oh, we understand," I said, looking at the little boy with a dreamy smile. As much as I can't handle kids, I think they're the cutest thing, and I can't wait to have one of my own. Not as early as Eli though, I'm not ready to be a mom yet, but I still wish someday I'll have a little one to call me maman.
"You wanna hold him?" Eli asked me, raising Matt's little hand in hers towards me. I hesitated a second, wondering if it was such a good idea. As I said, I'm not really good with kids and I'm always scared I'll drop them on the floor or something.
"Uh, okay, yeah," I finally agreed before I stood up and walked towards her. She lifted Matt up so I could reach him and I held him the best I could, first lifting him up by his armpits, then placing him on me, keeping him in place with my arms. He instinctively wrapped his arms around my neck and I couldn't help but smile warmly, feeling better now. "He's so little," I commented, and Eli laughed, looking at us with a smile.
She was about to say something when the door bell rang, and everyone turned their head towards the front door, wondering who could that be.
"Who could be knocking on our door at this time?" asked my dad with a raised eyebrow. It was approximately ten o'clock, since Eli's flight was late, so I couldn't picture why someone would be here. Since I was the one standing, I decided to go get it, Matt still in my arms. I unlocked the door and opened it, falling face to face with a black man I hadn't seen in a while.
"Bodie?" I almost shouted, shock spreading across my face. He sent me a weak smile and took a step closer, still staying out of the house. He was, as always, dressed all in black, but he seemed to be nervous and his hands couldn't stop moving.
"Hey girl, what's up?" he asked me, like we hadn't spent two weeks without talking to each other. His eyes landed on Matt and they widened, surprised to see me holding a toddler. "Sarah, why is there a baby in your arms?" he asked me before I could say anything. "Is there something you haven't told us?" he asked again, and I raised an eyebrow.
"No, Bodie, relax. This is my cousin's kid," I assured him, and some tension seemed to leave his shoulders. He nodded before looking behind him in a stressed manner, before quickly looking back at me, but I had caught what he was looking at: Billy's car. The mustang was parked further down the street, but anyone inside must have been seeing everything we were doing. I looked back at Bodie and he smiled weakly again, giving me a knowing look. "Why are you here?" I asked sternly, and Bodie's smile dropped.
"We just wanted to check on you," he explained in a low voice. I turned my head to the living room where everyone was looking at me with wondering expressions, my dad silently asking me if everything was fine. I nodded towards him, but he didn't seem reassured.
"I bet you did that already. I saw the cars," I replied, and Bodie sighed.
"I know, but we... I wanted to talk to you. Why aren't you coming to the bar anymore?" he wondered, and it was my turn to sigh.
"You know why," I said simply, but Bodie didn't seem satisfied. Matt moved in my arms and I had to bring him quickly back on me before he fell down. Bodie looked at the toddler with hesitation, waiting for me to be in control again before he spoke.
"Sarah, you know he didn't mean to hurt you."
I didn't answer anything to that. The reason is simple: I honestly didn't know who he was talking about. He could have been talking about Joe trying to fuck me while I'm drunk, even if he knew I didn't want to, or he could have been talking about Billy who fucked Megan just to make me angry and then basically told me I was dirty because he had seen me with someone else, Joe that is.
"Well he did," I finally said lamely, and Bodie placed his hands on the door frame, supporting his tensed body that was now closer to me.
"Listen, I don't got time for this shit, just get over it, ok?" he said in a hard tone, and I stepped back a bit, surprised by his change of attitude. "One's an asshole and the other a hysterical teenage girl, you have to do something," he added, lower now when he had noticed he had talked too loudly. I ignored the last remark, concentrating my thoughts on the first one.
"Are you late for something or what?" I asked, and Bodie turned around again to glance at Billy's car. Just as he was turning back to me, the car honked, confirming my assumptions.
"We got some stuff to do tonight, I gotta go," he explained, and I nodded slowly, seeing at his shaking voice that it probably wasn't something they did every day. "But I miss you, Sarah. We all do," he added, and I took a deep breath, wondering what to say.
"I'll think about it," I finally said and Bodie nodded, a smile illuminating his face.
"Take care." I finally smiled too before watching him turn around, walking towards Billy's car, disappearing in the night. I closed the door slowly, replaying the scene in my head. I knew the guys had been watching me for at least a week, seeing the mysterious cars around my house and the dinner once or twice. I didn't think much of it but it was getting on my nerves to be stalked like this. But still, it kind meant they still cared for me, that he cared for me... I walked back in the living room, still holding Matt, and I gave him back to his mother with a smile.
"Who was that?" My mother asked, now that she was back with some tea.
"Just a friend of mine. Everything's fine," I assured her, and she nodded hesitantly, not believing me one bit. "I'm going to the bathroom," I announced, walking away again towards the nearest bathroom, in the hallway.
I entered the room, locked the door behind me and checked myself in the mirror, acknowledging the big purple bags under my eyes. Jade was one enthusiastic girl and it took a lot of energy to keep up with her, even more when she was visiting and wanted to do so many things she couldn't do at home. I had loved having her around, but it was getting time for her to go so I could have at least one good night's sleep. I sighed and slid the mirror open to take some Advil's since fatigue had given me a headache. I swallowed the pill with some water and was about to leave the room when my phone started ringing in my pocket. I raised an eyebrow and reached for it, checking the screen to see it was an unknown number. I hesitated for a moment, wondering who could be calling me on my cell phone that I didn't know, but I finally just shrugged and lifted it open to place it on my ear.
"Hello?"
There was silence on the other line and I was about to hung up when a voice finally spoke.
"It's Billy."
I froze on the spot, wondering why the hell Billy was calling me and how in the world had he gotten my number. He didn't add anything to his announcement, leaving me to hearing him breathe on the other line.
"How'd you get my number?" I asked after a moment, placing a hand on the bathroom's counter for support.
"Joe gave it to me," he said in the same hard tone he had used before. Well, that made sense: last time I saw them, Billy was throwing punches at his brother, and now, they have the perfect fraternal relationship and they even exchange phone numbers. Awesome.
"We doin' somethin' at Baggy's place tomorrow. Come," he told me, or in this case, ordered me.
"What?"
Now that was unexpected. Billy had never purposely asked me to go out with them. We'd always meet at the bar or at someone's house because Emily would tell me about it, but never did anyone call me to ask. Apart from that one time for the hockey game, but that was because Tommy didn't even bother talking to Emily about it because he was sure she wouldn't be interested.
"It's just a party. You can bring your cousin if ya want," he explained, and I was pretty sure he did his usual shrug that meant he was trying not to make a big deal about something he wanted.
"I- No. I don't want to go to your party," I said as confidently as I could. I couldn't believe he was really expecting me to go to his 'thing' he was doing after insulting me and getting with Megan.
"It ain't my party, its Baggy's."
"But you're gonna be there?"
"Yeah."
"Then I don't want to go."
Billy sighed and I could tell he was trying not to let his temper get the best of him because he was breathing hardly in the phone and I knew he was getting irritated.
"Invite Megan, I'm pretty sure she'll be thrilled to go," I said without thinking about it. I probably should have kept that comment to myself, but it just came out by itself.
"She's already comin'," he informed me in a smaller voice. I scoffed, though I was far from amused and pressed my fingers harder on the phone, somewhat afraid I would drop it.
"Then that's great, have fun with her. I bet you did when you left together the other night."
Another comment I shouldn't have said. Billy stayed silent on the other end of the line and at some point I thought he had hung up on me, but he finally spoke again.
"As a matter of fact, we really did," he confirmed, and I knocked my head on the door behind me. Twice.
I closed my eyes, trying to escape the feeling of sickness rising in my stomach. I asked for it, I told myself. I shouldn't have even mentioned Megan's name, but it was done. And it hurt like fucking hell to know that.
"Great," I managed to say, my voice much smaller now than it was earlier. I should have hanged up, but I didn't. I just stayed there, hearing him breath as he heard me do the same.
"But she wasn't worth it," he finally added, and my eyes popped open in shock. Did he just say what I thought he said? Before I could reply anything, he spoke again. "Listen, I gotta go. Will you come tomorrow?" he asked, and I wasn't sure what to answer. I mean, what he said meant something, right?
"Stop sending your boys after me and I will," I said, and I heard him chuckle other the other end of the line. God did that sound good.
"Deal," his raspy voice agreed, and I had to resist really hard not to smile, though he couldn't see me. "Sleep tight, pretty."
With that, he hung up, and I just stayed there, the phone still on my ear, looking at the wall, wondering if I had been dreaming. Five minutes ago, I could have sworn Billy didn't give a shit about me, or worse, that he hated me. But then, just now, he acted like nothing happened, like he wanted to see me again. I swear, this guy is the most complicated man I have ever met. Someone knocking on the door behind me got me to jump, and I quickly closed the phone and put it in my pocket.
"Are you alright, Sarah?" I heard Jade's voice speak, and I turned around to open the door.
"Yeah, I'm fine," I answered, doing my best to smile at her. She nodded hesitantly and turned around, heading for the living room once again with me on her tail. As soon as we stepped in the room, we heard Eli's voice speak loudly.
"Shit!" she shouted, Matt's bag wide open on her lap as she seemed to be searching for something in it.
"What's wrong?" her sister asked, her eyebrow rising as she wondering what had Eli so freaked out.
"I forgot Matt's food! I have to feed him early tomorrow morning but I have nothing with me. How could I be so stupid?" she rambled, but I was already next to her to stop her.
"Relax Eli, its fine. It's not that late, there's a small grocery store not far from here that's open all night, I'll drive you," I assured her, and her head lifted up to meet my eyes before she gave me a warm smile.
"Really?" she asked, and I nodded, smiling myself. "That's awesome, thanks."
I turned to my dad who gave me a single nod, stating that he was aware Eli and I were leaving for a moment. With Matt in her arms, she followed me towards the front door and we were soon outside, heading for my parents car. I climbed in the driver's seat and Jade sat beside me.
"You're coming?" I asked her, though it was obvious that she was.
"Yeah, why not." I shrugged and turned on the engine, waiting for Eli to buckle her seat belt around her and Matt who was sitting on her lap.
"We're ready?" I asked, turning to Jade who nodded, before I locked eyes with Eli in the rear-view mirror and she nodded too. "Then let's go."
We sped silently down the street; heading for a grocery store about twenty minutes away from my house that I knew for sure would still be open at that time.
Unlike me, Jade isn't a girl who appreciates silence, so obviously, she felt the need to start a conversation.
"Why couldn't Eric make it this week end?" she asked Eli, turning herself around so she could look at her sister.
"Oh, his mother's sick," Eli explained, frowning a bit. Jade pointed the side of her lips down, making a perfect exaggerated sad face, something she always did when she was sad for someone but didn't know what to say.
"Aw, that sucks," was all she said, and I agreed by smiling sadly at Eli in the mirror. She smiled back at me, and felt the need to change the conversation.
"So, what's up with you Sarah? Anything exciting happened since you've been here?" she asked with enthusiasm. I hesitated, looking at her through the mirror. I didn't really feel like telling her about my new friends – that I didn't even talk to anymore – but I knew that even if I decided I didn't, Jade would do it for me.
"Not much," I mumbled, hoping Jade wouldn't say anything. But Jade was Jade, and she always had to talk.
"Not much?" she laughed, looking back at her sister. "Guess what? Sarah, yes, our Sarah, is having it with two guys!" she exclaimed, and I almost slammed on the breaks in shock, horrified that all the mixed up between Joe and Billy could be resumed like this. I never thought of it that way. Instead of stopping the car like I almost did, I just held on to the steering wheel firmly and turned to Jade with murderous eyes.
"That's so not true and you know it!" I shouted, but the two sisters pointedly ignored my complaints, and Eli's mouth dropped in shock, and she started laughing hysterically. You see, in my family, we were four cousins. Eli, Jade, me and Hanna, our other cousin. Hanna was the eldest, and she was always the girl with the crazy stories with boys and friends, and we all looked up to her. After that was Elisabeth, who was this perfect girl with high grades, so beautiful it was hard to think she could be so smart, too. She made a mistake, but she was still the perfect one. Her sister, Jade, was the fire of the family. She was funny, strong, energetic and pretty, and everyone was so amazed of how nice and helpful she was. And then there was me, Sarah, the weird one. The girl who spent more time reading and daydreaming then actually doing something like sports or volunteer work, anything that people are actually proud to say of you. I was never the one with the exciting life, with thrilling stories to tell, because nothing ever happened to me. You can now understand why Eli and Jade were so eager to talk about the whole Joe/Billy thing, now that I actually had something happening to me.
"Oh my god, are you kidding me?" Eli spoke, her mouth still opened with a clear amused smile on her face.
"I've got more: the guys are brothers!" Jade added, getting Elisabeth to laugh again in disbelief. It didn't seem to get to her that yes, two guys could be attracted to me, at the same time.
"Sarah, you naughty bitch!" she exclaimed, but as soon as she did, she covered her son's ears, though it was already too late. "Sorry," she whispered towards him, but the little one was already asleep on her lap. "I can't believe this."
"That's because it's not true," I replied, and Jade raised an eyebrow. "Well, not exactly," I added, and Jade rolled her eyes.
"It's a little more complicated than that, but in the end, that's what happened, Sarah," she corrected me, and all I could find to do was sigh.
"This is insane! Our little Sarah, caught between two guys? I must be dreaming," Eli spoke, still smiling dumbly, and I shook my head. She spoke to Jade, saying I was 'little Sarah', though I was older than her sister. Talk about feeling like a child. "I still remember you with your dorky glasses, dreaming of your castles are your princes. You were such an outcast, it was quite horrible," she reminisced, and I felt my hands tighten on the wheel again, trying my best to ignore her though it was really hard with her laugh echoing in my head. Another thing about Eli: she loved to talk about moments in your life where you looked ridiculous, made a fool of yourself or just did something really stupid, just so she could laugh about it.
"Yeah, I was a geeky weird kid, we get it," I said in a tone that was meant to sound normal, but had a lot of hatred in it. It was enough to get Jade and Eli to stop laughing and they both straighten their self on their seat, a now serious expression on their face.
"Well I'm happy for you," Eli said after a moment, and I locked eyes with her in the mirror, confused. "Really. You deserve something good happening to you."
I swallowed slowly, looking away from her, not finding anything to answer than a lame "Thanks" before I finally pulled up in front of the grocery store. I extended my neck to look at the door, seeing with satisfaction that the lights were still on, meaning I was right.
"We're here," I announced to my cousins and we all got out of the car, me walking first, followed by Jade and Eli holding Matt in her arms. We made it to the front door of the store in no time and we were soon in the cold building, the air conditioner probably at its highest. I swear, it was freezing in there. Eli and Jade went directly on the left row as I stayed a little behind, smiling at the cashier as I wandered in front of the shop. The man was pretty old; he had grey hair on each side of his head, since the middle was already gone. He had a quite big moustache a little whiter than his hair and was wearing one of those large sweat shirt that seemed to have been washed way too many times. He nodded, answering my smile, and went back to his magazine.
I could hear Jade and Eli talking in the back, arguing over what flavour to buy for Matt's food. They seemed to be taking a lot of time deciding, so I finally decided to join them so we could go. I was halfway through the row when I heard the sound of the door of the shop opening, followed by the typical bells, stating someone had come in. I turned my head towards the front in time to see the multiple bodies fill the room, all standing tall in their dark clothes... and black masks. My eyes opened wide and I felt my heart stop beating, seeing the tallest of them all point a heavy shotgun towards the old cashier, screaming something I could barely hear because of how frozen I was.
"Open the fucking register, NOW!" he screamed to the man in an angry low voice, making my stomach twist and my hand start shaking. I was panicking, not only because I was in a store being robbed, but because I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I knew that voice. I had heard it through the phone half an hour ago.
The cashier lifted his hands in the air, clearly in shock as well, as his eyes couldn't leave Billy's gigantic figure, and the end of the gun which was pointed to his face.
"OPEN IT!" repeated Billy, and it seemed to take me out of my frozen spot. I was about to say something when I was the witness of something I had never wanted to see. One of the tall gangbangers got tired of waiting and shot the man in the chest, his flesh exploding on the impact, spilling blood and organs all around him, before his lump body fell to the floor in a muffled sound.
I didn't think twice: I ran for it. Being halfway through the row, it didn't take me long to reach Eli and Jade who were both hiding behind the large row, Jade with a hand on her mouth to cover the whimpers escaping her lips, and Eli holding on to Matt, her hand on his mouth to keep him from making any noise. We didn't say anything and Jade roughly held my arm, bringing me closer to her, making sure I was safely hiding with them. Still, I knew my arm was visible but we couldn't move further so I just hoped they would leave fast enough.
Billy turned to his friend, raising his arms in the air in disbelief.
"What the fuck, Heco, you junkie motherfucker!" he screamed to the Latino, letting his own shotgun hang from his hand.
"Sorry man, it was an accident," Heco explained in a shaking voice. Billy took a step towards him pointed a finger to his face.
"I swear to god, I'll fucking blow your brains out if you keep messin' everything up!"
Heco jumped and took a step away from Billy's hidden red face while his leader pointed to the cashier.
"Deal with that shit!" he shouted at him. Heco nodded and climbed over the counter to get the money out.
Words couldn't describe how terrifying being hiding there truly was. Despite the fact that I knew these men who heartlessly took this innocent old man's life, I was scared shitless. I knew at this point it didn't matter I had spent months hanging out with them, laughing, even kissing one of them. If I moved, if I talked, they would shoot me before they got a good look at me, and it would be too late. I couldn't count on this; I was just like anyone else right now. I swallowed hardly, trying to hold back my tears, but it was hard, being looking at Jade and Eli, two girls that meant so much to me. Sure, they could be found a little annoying sometimes, but they were the only people I could count on in my life and I loved them to death. And Matt... he was just a little boy. If something was to happen to him... I could never forgive myself, or anyone who was responsible for it. We heard another shot, and Jade let go of a deep sob even if her hand was still on her mouth. Fortunately, they had shot the register and were now quickly taking the money, so they didn't hear her.
"Hurry the fuck up, we gotta go!" I heard another voice say.
"Bodie," I whispered, but I was the only to hear myself since my two cousins were too panicked to focus on anything.
"Yo, man, I think I heard something," one of the guys said, probably Spink because of the obvious British accent. There was a silence and I could tell it took all Jade's energy not to scream right there, but I just kept my mouth shut. But then, Eli breathed out slowly, making the tiniest sound, but it was enough.
"There's someone in the back!" shouted one of the guys, and the three of us looked at each other in horror, not knowing what to do.
"Shoot him!" ordered a voice, the voice. I bit on my lip not to scream as well, and I heard footsteps approaching, but still very far.
BANG, BANG, BANG. Three shots were fired in our direction, and I heard Jade scream, but I didn't move. There was a horrible silence where everyone's breathing seemed to be stuck, waiting for something that never came. I bit on my lip harder, feeling the familiar taste of blood on my tongue. There was a sharp indescribable pain in my shoulder and I was too scared to turn my head and look at it.
"Did you get that fucker?" I heard someone ask behind me.
"I don't know," answered another voice, and I gasped, recognizing it.
"Oh my god, Sarah, you've been hurt," cried Eli in a tiny voice, approaching her head towards me to take a look at my arm. I turned my head, noticing the sleeve of my shirt now covered in a wet, sticky substance: blood. Just by seeing the wound, the pain seemed to grow in a second and I scream a muffled cry, biting on my lip even more. It hurt so bad I wished they shot me in the head so I wouldn't have to endure this cruel pain.
"Doesn't matter, we gotta go!" screamed Bodie's voice again. The guys agreed and I heard them hurry towards the exit, their heavy footsteps echoing in the store before the door closed finally and all that was left was silence.
"Are they gone?" asked Jade's shaking voice, modified by her choking on her tears.
Eli nodded but I still didn't move. To be honest, I couldn't feel anything. I was blindly staring at the wall, crying my heart out, my right hand covering my left shoulder, trying to stop the bleeding.
"I'm dying," I said in a devastated voice before letting out a deep sob. "I'm gonna die, I'm gonna..." I continued, stopping myself because of my incapacity of talking while crying. Jade crawled shakily to me, placing some of my hair off of my face clumsily, sniffing.
"Don't say that," she pleaded me, also crying. "Everything's going to be fine," she assured me. "Eli's calling an ambulance, don't worry."
I hardly turned my head towards Eli who was clearly talking on the phone. She had Matt in one arm, and the phone in the other, and I could tell she was screaming but I couldn't hear what she was saying. Turning back to Jade, I realised I couldn't hear what she said either. I could see her lips forming my name, and by the colour of her face, I could tell she was screaming too, but I couldn't hear anything. I blinked multiple times before figuring out my view was getting darker. Now I couldn't see anything either. All I felt was pain. A horrible, unbearable pain that weakened me until I was gone in the darkness.
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