A/N Once again it seems that I have to confirm that I don't hate Arizona.

Arizona's POV

Arizona left the bar in a slightly drowsy but satisfied state. During these times her worries were gone and she forgot all about the disaster that was her life. Sure she had Sophie but it wasn't the same. She was married she had a stable life but she blew it. During these times she forgot how much of a screw up she was.

She got into her apartment to find Sophie waiting for her on the couch. By this time Arizona's high was gone. The effects of the high were getting shorter and that worried her. Would they have no effect soon? She cursed the day she first started taking them.

2 Years Ago

Sophie opened Arizona and Callie's apartment door to find Arizona sitting still on the couch. She seemed shocked and dazed. Sophie quickly made her way over to the blonde.

'Arizona what happened?' she asked in a soft voice as she sat down and put a comforting arm around her.

'She did it. It's true.'

'Callie? She slept with Mark? She admitted it?'

'She might as well of' this is when Arizona broke down.

'Oh Arizona I'm so sorry come here' Sophie said as she pulled Arizona into a comforting embrace which made Arizona cry even harder.

Arizona continued to cry like this for the next twenty minutes all the while Sophie held her.

'I hate her' Arizona stated when there were no more tears left to cry.

'You don't'

'I know...I love her which is just as bad' this started Arizona off again. 'Oh God Soph it hurts so bad make it go away please, just make it go away'

Sophie didn't know if Arizona was serious so she kept quiet for a while. When Arizona was still crying some time later she spoke up.

'Well there is something that can make it go away. Something that can make everything better'

Arizona looked up at this.

'What?'

Sophie put her hand in her pocket and pulled out a small plastic bag containing several small sphere shaped black and orange pills.

'What are they?'

'Do you trust me?'

Arizona sighed. 'Right now more than anybody else in the world'

'Then you'll believe me when I say that these will make you better. They'll make the pain go away; forget all about Callie'

Arizona sniffed 'You promise?'

'I promise'

Arizona reached for the plastic bag but Sophie kept it out of her reach. 'Let me'

Sophie took out two pills and slowly guided them towards Arizona's mouth. Arizona opened her mouth slightly and stuck her tongue out. Sophie gently placed one pill on Arizona's mouth and waited for her to swallow. Arizona then stuck her tongue out again ready for the pill that was already in Sophie's hand. Arizona swallowed the pill once more. This time Sophie's hands were not in her stash, but still on Arizona's mouth tracing her lips gently with her fingers. They both made eye contact with each other.

'How does it feel now?'

'Better'

'I told you' Sophie had barely got the words out of her mouth when Arizona's lips were on hers. The kiss was not soft and tender like Sophie had always imagined it but fast and sloppy with no emotion. Sophie gently pushed Arizona back.

'Wait, wait Arizona are you sure about this?'

'I don't know but does it really matter?'

Sophie thought about this for a while.

'No' and with that Sophie's lips were upon Arizona's once more.

Present Day

'You still in a mood' these words by Sophie brought Arizona out of her moment of nostalgia and back to reality.

'I took the pills if that what you mean' Arizona answered dryly.

Sophie smirked. 'I knew you would'

'Does that make you happy Sophie? That you got me hooked on pills and now I can't seem to shake them'

Sophie stood up. 'Oh here we are again Saint Arizona who can do no wrong. I think I recall you begging me to help you get rid of your pain I did and now you're holding it against me?'

Arizona was now frustrated and annoyed. 'That was not the way Sophie that was not the way!'

'Well do know any other way because I sure as hell don't Arizona' Sophie was giving back as good as she got. 'What's wrong with you anyway?' she added as an afterthought when she seen that Arizona was sweaty and shaking.

'I…I don't know, you know more about th...this stuff then I do. I think I know what it is but I'm not sure'

Sophie looked at Arizona. Almost with regret. 'How long did your high last?'

'A…about ten mi..minutes'

Sophie sighed. 'Dammit Arizona'

'It's not w….working for me anymore. I need s…s..something stronger. Right?' Arizona questioned hoping she was wrong.

Sophie only confirmed what Arizona already knew. 'Right'

'Wh..what do you have?'

Sophie didn't answer straight away.

'Sophie?'

'Arizona you're already taking the strongest pills I have. The only pills I can get without causing suspicion'

'What does t..that mean?'

'Arizona I don't think there is much I can do to be honest' Sophie said not making eye contact with Arizona deciding a spot on the floor would be a much safer bet to stare at.

'N..no Sophie you can't l..leave me like this I need something p..please' Sophie then looked up into Arizona's eyes and seen the desperation in them.

'Please' Arizona begged again as if Sophie needed anymore persuasion.

'Okay Arizona okay I'll be right back I promise' Sophie then grabbed her jacket and bag and with a kiss to Arizona's head she left the apartment in search of the closest dealer. She rang every connection she had in search of one in the area. She stuck lucky when she was told there would be on in the alleyway right by Joe's and that he would be expecting her. When she caught sight of the tall stocky man she hurried immediately over to him.

'What can I do for ya lady' he asked in a deep voice.

'Amm I got a girl at home and she's going through some sort of ammm withdrawl or something I'm not sure because she just took two amphetamines but the effect only lasted for about ten minutes and she just started like shaking and sweating and stuff. She needs something fast. What do you think?' Sophie asked frantically.

'Sounds like her body got used to the pills. Is she stumbling her words too?'

'Ya she is. What's happening?'

'She is going through withdrawl. She needs something fast and strong'

'What you got?'

The dealer pulled out a few small balls of substances. A substance that Sophie recognised straight away.

'Heroin? You want me to give her heroin? No fucking way'

'Look lady she needs something strong and something fast. You can inject this straight into her bloodstream and she'll be fine within seconds but its up to you'

'What else do you got?'

'Nothing that's gonna work for your friend'

Sophie thought about this for a while and decided that something was better then going home to Arizona empty handed.

'Ok give me a bundle'

'That's ten bags, you don't put more than one bag into each needle you understand that right?'

'Ya I know I've seen it done. How much?'

'A hundred dollars'

Sophie got the money from her bag and handed it to the dealer. The dealer took the money and handed her a number.

'If you need any more make sure you call that number'

Sophie mumbled a thanks and hurried off into the direction of her flat putting the number and the bundle into her bag. She got into the flat to see Arizona sitting on the floor mumbling incoherently to herself.

'Arizona I got something' Arizona didn't answer. She seemed disorientated and oblivious to Sophie's presence. Arizona was in no fit state to act so Sophie made the decision on her behalf. She took out one of the pieces of tinfoil and unwrapped it. Remembering how to do it from her past she quickly made the heroin into liquid. Sophie had never taken heroin but she had seen plenty of her friends do it in New York. She got a needle out of Arizona's medical bag and absorbed the liquid into it. She put the needle on the counter beside Arizona. She looked around for something for Arizona's arm settling on the belt she was wearing. She strapped and tightened it on Arizona's upper left arm. She picked up the needle and extended Arizona's arm. She placed the tip of the needle into one of Arizona's veins. She paused for a moment looking at Arizona wondering if she was making the right decision. Deciding that there was nothing else she could do she injected the heroin into Arizona repeating the words 'I'm sorry' over and over again.