When Susan woke up, her head felt as if it were splitting open. She tried to shield her eyes from the invading light of the sun, but it was no use. She slowly tried to sit up, but felt a familiar stickiness between her legs and bumped against a body next to her. She gasped..."Caspian?!"

He murmured groggily until he felt a hand shaking his shoulder. He rolled over and opened his eyes as he held his head, then jumped up, "Susan!?" He looked around the room, "Oh my...I...we...did we?"

She wrapped the sheet around her body and jumped up, collecting his clothes and tossing them at him, "Yes! You have to leave! Oh Aslan...I can't believe that happened...do you remember anything? I don't remember anything! Why can't I remember anything!?" she squeaked, obviously panicking.

He pulled on his pants and rushed over to her, pulling her into a cautious embrace. "Shhh...calm down."

"Calm down!? What do you mean calm down?! I've betrayed..." her voice trailed off.

"Susan...you've betrayed who?"

She looked at him a moment, "My brothers...my sister...the Narnian people...I've betrayed their trust."

"I am sorry...I barely remember last night, I do apologize for my actions. But I do care for you."

"I know Caspian, but I thought anything we might have had was over when you told me about wanting to avoid being distracted by me. I let go of you."

He took her hands and kissed her fingertips, "But I have not let go of you."

She shook her head, "You must..."

"Why must I? Can you name a better potential queen for me?" She looked down and clutched the sheet around her tighter as he traced a finger over her bare shoulder. "Susan, I do regret not remembering last night...I would have wanted to remember every inch of your body" he whispered, then leaned down and kissed her neck. She shuddered but quickly caught a hold of her senses and jumped back.

"You have to go, someone will catch you."

He nodded, "You are right." Caspian dressed quickly and kissed her cheek before slipping from the room.

She bathed that morning. She sat in the tub until the water turned so cold her teeth chattered, but she still felt unclean.


When Legolas got back, she greeted him formally along with Caspian and her siblings, but he caught her alone a couple of hours later and pulled her to a hidden nook and kissed her. She was still wracked with guilt over the incident, but worked hard not to show it.

He eyed her carefully, "Are you alright?"

She nodded and kissed him, playing with a lock of his hair to keep her eyes away from his, "I just missed you..."

He lifted her chin and stared into her eyes, "Something is the matter...I just cannot tell what it is. Are you still feeling guilty about what happened between us?"

She had been so worried about what happened with Caspian that she had almost forgotten about the rushed, but heated lovemaking they shared on top of her desk right before he left.

"Yes, I am...we disobeyed a direct instruction from a deity, I'm right to feel guilty."

He sighed, "I do as well melamin, but I promise I will not lose control again until we are married."

(9 weeks later)

Thanks to the skills of Narnian carpenters, the Dawn Treader was finished several months ahead of time. Edmund, Lucy, Caspian, Trumpkin and Reepicheep were ready to set sail that morning, but Susan was having a difficult time leaving her room.

She stared at her reflection in the vanity and sighed. She looked horrible. She'd just finished getting sick for the third time that morning and she had a terrible feeling more was on the way. She trembled, looking down at her hands as tears fell down her face. She was pregnant.

No doctor, midwife or physician was needed to confirm it. She knew it from the first moment she nearly ran from the room when the chef brought a roast chicken out. Her breasts were swollen and so tender she could barely stand to tighten her corset beneath them and she couldn't seem to get enough sleep. For the first week after she noticed her nausea, she was in complete denial, but weeks continued passing and her monthly menstruation was a no show twice in a row.

She sniffled and wiped the tears away, then walked over to her basin and splashed water on her face. She took a few deep breaths and walked around the room, trying to make the redness of her eyes go away. After a few moments, she joined everyone in the library.

"Su, we missed you at breakfast again!" said Lucy as she watched her sister walk in.

"Are you alright?" Edmund asked as he noticed the redness of her nose.

"Oh I'm fine, just allergies that's all...are you all packed and ready?" She said, desperately attempted to divert everyone's attention from her health. From the corner of the room, Legolas eyed her up and down.

For the past few weeks, he could tell something was a bit different about her, but he had yet to put his finger on it. She was skipping meals, excusing herself constantly and always seemed exhausted. He felt like the answer was always at the tip of his tongue, but he just couldn't figure it out.

They walked to the stables and bid them all farewell. Legolas glared as Caspian took Susan's hand and kissed it.

When Caspian, Edmund and Lucy were gone, Peter hurried off to attend meetings, leaving Susan standing alone with Legolas. She smiled as they walked to the library, "Are you sure you are feeling alright? You haven't quite been yourself lately."

She shrugged her shoulders, "Perhaps it's just the change in the weather."

He nodded wordlessly.

They reached the library, "So what books were you trying to find?" he asked.

"Something adventurous, like Moby Dick."

"What's that?"

"A famous book from my world...rather entertaining."

She climbed the ladder to look for a book on the second level of the library. He knew she was slightly accident prone, so he walked over and braced the ladder with both hands. She laughed softly as they both noticed he was eye level with her butt. He blushed as she began to walk down the stairs but he stopped her, looking as if he was listening for something. His breath caught in his throat as he slowly grasped her hips and turned her around so that her belly was at his eye level as she stood on the ladder.

She trembled as he ran his fingers across her belly as he whispered in Elvish. "Melamin, what are you doing?" she asked as panic began to grow within her.

He looked up at her, his eyes searching hers, "You are with child Susan..."

Her breath caught in her throat as she felt sick, "Wha--? How did you know that?"

"I can hear the heartbeat within you...fast and fluid. Very different from your own."

She closed her eyes as she moved down the ladder down the ladder and walked away from him.

"Judging by your reaction, you have known for some time. Why did you not tell me?"

She shut her eyes tight as she imagined Caspian on top of her, then Legolas...then Caspian. She almost collapsed, but his quick reflexes allowed him to reach her before she crumpled to the ground. He sat her down on a nearby chair and knelt before her, holding her hands.

"What is the matter Susan? Shall I fetch a physician?" he asked, concerned.

She sobbed with her head in her hands, "No...I don't need a physician or a midwife or a healer...I need a miracle. Oh Legolas...I've done something so horrible..."

He took her hands from her face, "I understand why you'd be hesitant to tell me my love...but I am truly happy that you are having my child. Do not worry. We will find a way to tell everyone. We'll just have to have a quick wedding."

She cried even harder, leaving him to look pained and confused.

He held her hand, "Susan, please tell me what's wrong."

She took a few deep breaths and wiped at her eyes, attempting to steady herself. "Do you remember when you left for that trip to the northern forest to investigate claims of Telmarine rebels?"

He nodded as she continued, "Well, you know the Archenland dignitaries were here when you got back, but they arrived while you were away, so we had a ball. They brought wine and we were all drinking and playing drinking games...I got so drunk I didn't really know where I was or who was whom. Everyone got drunk really."

A knot formed in the pit of his stomach as he asked the question he needed to know the answer to, but desperately didn't want to ask, "What happened Susan?"

"That night, Peter put me to bed and I remember someone coming into my room, and I thought it was you Legolas, I swear I do. I didn't remember you weren't even in the castle! I even called you melamin and cund vell, but I was too drunk to notice you never said anything back...when I woke up, I saw who it was...it was Caspian. I had invited him into my bed thinking he was you...oh Legolas...melamin...please forgive me. I would never betray you on purpose!" Her body shook violently as she sobbed uncontrollably.

His jaw tightened and he stood up, straight as a board. He spoke in an eerily calm manner, "Are you now telling me that the child you carry may not be mine?"

She stood up as he began pacing the room, muttering in Elvish angrily. He began to leave the room, "Legolas! Please! Speak to me!"

She tried to grab his arm, but he quickly snatched away, turning around to angrily glare at her as tears began forming in his own eyes, "Nin gweriannech! (You betrayed me!)"

She tried to clear her eyes of tears so she could see clearly, but it was no use, "I told you I thought it was you! My heart lies with you! I would never give myself to anyone else on purpose! I made a mistake! I love you more than anything Legolas...I have struggled with this every since it happened."

He stared at her as tears streaked down his face. He knew the affect ales, wines and other spirits had on humans, but that didn't matter now. He was hurt, angry, confused and in need of someone to blame. Legolas thanked Aslan that Caspian was now on a ship, fully out of his reach. No one knows what would have happened had the young king been somewhere within the elf's reach. He would have surely found himself locked in the dungeon tonight.

"I cannot be in your presence now Susan...for I fear I will say something both of us will regret."

He left the room without another word as she crumpled to the floor, hugging herself.

I know one reviewer begged me not to make Susan pregnant, but come on!! What's better than some hot baby-daddy drama? Narnia style!! I'm sorry reviewer! I hope you keep reading and the rest of you, please keep reviewing!!