chapter 8

Once Ana said those words to Christian he squared his shoulder and looked Ana straight in the eye . He didn't want this situation to tear them apart she was the most important person in his life and he would never let her go .

Ana decided that no matter how hard the conversation or how much it hurt her or Christian it needed to happen otherwise they would be going round in circles so it was now or never .

when we spoke earlier obviously you were shocked and angry i can understand why it wasn't something you expected me to say but it is what i would like to do and i want you to be with me and support me .

Christian sat and listened to Ana he didn't say anything just sat and let her talk as she was the one who brought this situation on with everything she said and with everything she wanted to do .

When Ana said she wanted Christian to support her he knew this was hard for her and she did understand the internal fight Christian was having with himself . He wanted so much to be supportive of Ana and help her but he needed her to understand how serious she needed to take this situation of bringing a sub into there life.

Once Ana has stopped speaking Christian decided it was time to talk and time for Ana to listen .

He stood up and walked over to were Ana was sat and he sat down in front of her so they were face to face and he started to talk he started by telling Ana that no matter how angry he was earlier he love's her and just needed some time to think and process everything they have spoke about .

Now that he had got his thoughts together he could now speak to Ana without flipping the fuck out he hoped he had to remember that no matter what got said that he loved Ana and she loved him and nothing or no-one would change that .

Christian started by telling Ana that he wants to support her with everything that she wants to do but he founds it very hard to understand "why it has taken her 12 years to realise that been a dominant is what she wanted to learn to do"

And why she wanted to be one as she saw Christian in dom mode alot over the last 12 years so she knew what it is like as she see's how it affects him and how it makes him feel .

Ana was listening to Christian and everything he was saying but she needed to let him no why she had decided after all the years this is what she wanted to do she understand why he was asking her everything as he was making sure this is what she definitely wanted to do .

So Ana decided it was time to tell Christian everything he wanted to no so she took a deep breath and started to talk .

First of all she told Christian he really had no idea how much she had watched him over the last 12 years. Watching him when he is c.e.o Christian grey and then dominant Christian and how much both personalities change from one minute to the next and how easy it was for him to switch between them both .

Which is what Ana wanted to do as she was always Ana wife of Christian grey and c.e.o of Grey publishing and to be honest she had got bored of always having people thinking of her that way .

but with Christian people thought he was mysterious and could never get a proper read of him and that excited Ana so much and wanted the outside world to think of her in the same way . plus that got her so hot for him like that and she wanted him to feel the same way about her .

She knew he thought she was sexy as fuck but it wasn't the same feeling .

Then Ana decided to answer Christian's second question about how it affect's him and makes him feel he doesn't realise how much attention she pay's when there in the playroom sometimes it can be hard especially if mr sex- on - legs is really in need of a good session or he is mad or upset then playtime gets a little crazy and all logic is lost .

As Ana continues to explain all her thoughts and feelings to Christian she tells him that when there together in the playroom she can see when he is unhappy with anything that has happened in there as his facial expressions give him away plus he becomes tense and his body and body language give him away .

Which obviously with the look on his face he didn't realise that Ana paid so much attention and then he realised that she wasn't as naïve as he thought she was .And that was one of the main concerns that she was going into this decision with a fantasy in her head what it was going to be like but Christian now realised that he was wrong and his amazing wife knew exactly what she wanted and there and then Christian decided that he would stand by his wife and bring a third person into there sex life but not into there everyday life .

Christian suddenly decided that he couldn't wait to see Ana as a dom and the thought of it made his dick harden in an instance