Hey guys, sorry for not uploading for a few days, I meant to but I've been sick. Both mentally and physically. Lately, I've been extremely self-conscious. I've heard many comments about me gaining weight or me not being pretty ,usually I would brush it off, but this time it's really gotten under my skin. Constantly standing in the mirror, thinking 'Am I good enough?' or 'Is this okay?' Eventually, I just tear myself down before anyone else could. They may crack jokes, and I laugh, just to show them that I'm not hurt, but really I am. I stand on the scale, and I watch the numbers rise, then they fall.
Then, I've started wanting to be alone more often, not wanting to hang out with even my closest friend. Just sit in my room, most times I don't even want to talk to my parents, because majority of the time, it's them making the comments. even though, I know they arent trying to hurt my feelings, it still hurts. most of the time I feel excluded.
for now, I'm going to try to release myself from my dangerous addiction. In the mean time, I will be writing and I'll upload them once I feel better.
could you guys also pray for me as well? It would mean a lot to me.
Ill be back soon..
~Kristina B