AN: First of all I would like to wish all moms out there a happy mother's day! Now I'd like to warn my wonderful readers/reviewers that Heaven Sent is going to come to a close probably in chapter eleven, but never fear! As soon as I finish writing that chapter (attacked a bit by the deamon of writer's block!) I will start work on the fourth installment of this little mini series. I know many of you are wondering about Jayden and the details of the time Tommy spent away from Jude and I promise many of your questions will be answered in the next installment! My goal however is to keep each of these installments under twenty chapters a piece so that it's easier to work the title song into the final chapter as I have managed to do thus far and will again in chapter eleven of this fic. So I hope you all enjoy this chapter, I can't wait to read your wonderful reviews! It is your reviews that keep me writing!

One more thing before you guys get on with the reading... For those here who are BTVS fans or Best Year fans... If you guys have a pairing and plot suggestion for me to a fic for either or both series, please PM me! I've been toying with the idea of writing at least one story for either or both shows but while I understand the characters and have pairings I love (at least with Buffy... Buffy/Spike all the way!) Plot wise I am absolutely at a loss... so as my wonderful readers I would love to see what you think! Now, onto chapter ten!

Heaven Sent

By An American Mom
Chapter Ten: Plans

Sadie sits in an abandoned corner of the hospital cafeteria playing idly with her salad, not really eating it. She's completely absorbed in her thoughts, kicking herself for most of them actually, she doesn't even notice as Kwest sits down at the table across from her. It's not until he reaches out and takes her hand, stopping her and breaking her away from her thoughts that she realizes she's no longer alone. "Is Jude okay?" She asks in an almost hollow voice.

"She's as good as can be expected right now, currently down for Chemo with Tom and Jayden. But how are you doing with all of this?" He asks, genuinely concerned about her well being.

"I… I don't know." She shakes her head frowning deeply and staring down at the salad in front of her though she doesn't really see it. "I don't know what to do for her, you know? I'm her older sister; I'm supposed to protect her. I'm supposed to look after her, but how do you protect someone from this? I can't even be strong for her right now. When I walk into her room all I seem to end up doing is falling apart. I mean she's my baby sister and she's sick enough that she could actually die Kwest. I don't know how to handle this!" She shakes her head rapidly this time before lifting both of her hands and hiding her face behind them trying with every ounce of emotional energy she has to keep herself from crying only to fail completely, the quiet sobs racking her body.

Kwest had listened to her, letting her voice her frustration, her fears, her pain, but when her sobs begin to shake her slender frame he rises from his chair and closes the distance between them. He takes both of her hands into his pulling them away from her face before pulling her to her feet. He doesn't give her a chance to protest as he wraps his arms around her, cradling her body against his own and swaying back and forth silently. He just allows her to cry as much and as long as she needs to, his arms being the physical strength she needs to keep her on her feet. He can feel her body start to sag against his own as the sobs zap her of what little strength and reserve she'd had left, so he pulls her body tighter against his own whispering into her hair; "Just let go Sadie, I've got you and I won't let you fall."

It's a half an hour later before her sobs finally begin to slow and then subside all together. She pulls back to look up at him with bright red swollen eyes, her hands reaching up to wipe them as she speaks in a quiet worn out voice. "I'm sorry for falling apart like that… but thank you, you know, for being here." She gives him a tiny smile as she resumes her seat at the table.

He doesn't even think about it as he leans over and kisses the top of her head before taking his seat across from her again. "You're welcome. If you ever want to talk or just need someone to hold you up and let you cry, you can come to me Sadie. I can be your friend too you know, not just Jude's."

"She needs you right now though; I'll adjust to this and be the big sister I'm supposed to be."

"Yes she does need her big sister to be strong for her, and she needs all of her friends for morale support right now. That doesn't mean I can't be strong for you or that I can't be your friend. You need one right now as much as she does. I mean after all we are staying in the same house, so I'm just down the hall."

"That still seems strange some how. I just can't get used to that, that you and Tommy and Jude are the ones who really live there now I mean."

"It's still your home too Sadie"

In an attempt to change the subject she glances down at the dainty silver watch wrapped around her right wrist, "We should probably get up there to them."

"After you," He stands motioning for her to go first but in a way also offering her his arm, ever the gentleman.

"Thanks." She grabs her small pink purse from the table slinging it over her arm before walking just slightly ahead of him on their way to her sister's room.

Ever since his first visit Jayden has become almost a permanent fixture in Jude's room. Darius drops him off with the couple on his way to G-Major in the morning, stops by to bring everyone lunch, and returns just before visiting hours are over to pick him up for the night. For once despite all of his money Darius is unable to speed up the process of the DNA testing that will let them all know if Jayden is Tommy's or not. Jude won't say it but every time she looks into his stormy grey eyes or when she watches certain little expressions the boy has she becomes more and more sure that he is. She knows that it could just be slight wishful thinking and that the expressions are merely mimicked from all the time the boy has spent with Tommy recently, but she can't help that part of her hopes he is. Part of her wishful thinking can of course be blamed on the fact that her own possibilities for children later on have lessened with the disease and likely treatments involved though of course not completely impossible.

From the first day Tommy had laid eyes on Jayden the curly headed little boy had stolen his heart almost as fast as Jude once had, and from his first visit with Jude it was easy for Tommy to see the little boy had stolen his girl's heart as well. He knows he was always careful with Portia, but accidents happen right? Much like Jude part of him wants the little boy to be his, but on the flip side part of him doesn't. If the boy is it will raise questions he isn't sure he can answer. Questions like; why did you leave me? Why didn't you love my mom? Will you leave me again? Though if he isn't the father someone in their little group is going to have to answer even harder questions, like who the boy's father really is if it's not Tommy.

When Kwest and Sadie walk into Jude's room they find Tommy, Jude, and Jayden all in her bed; Jayden is seated between Jude's legs while Jude is nestled between Tommy's with her head resting against his chest. The three of them are focused on some cartoon currently occupying the TV of the lavished private room Darius had her moved into shortly after Jayden's first visit. Kwest is the first to speak, "Hey rock star how was chemo today?"

"So far so good still, just really tired today," Jude says in almost a whisper as she idly runs her fingers through Jayden's dark curls.

"You haven't gotten sick yet?" Sadie asks in genuine concern for her baby sister.

"Not yet, but they said I might get lucky and not get sick at all or that it could take a few treatments before it starts. Plus they're also giving me something to try and help prevent it."

"They also told her if she doesn't allow herself to assume it's going to make her sick then it might keep it from happening. It's not full proof but it keeps her mind from making her sick regardless." Tommy adds before kissing the top of her head.

"So what do you do while Jude gets her medicine Jay?" Sadie asks the little boy as she pulls a chair up next to the bed.

"I sit on the floor in front of her chair and color picture for her." Jayden says proudly. "Wanna see?" He carefully climbs out of Jude's bed going over to her night stand and pulls out a drawing pad and hands it to her.

Sadie takes the pad from him flipping through the six drawings he'd made during today's round, "These are very good Jay."

"Hey Sades, do you think you could pick me up a cork board like the one we have in the kitchen? I meant to ask you the other day, but I'd like to put one up in here so I can hang all of his drawings up." Jude asks quietly.

"Sure sis, I'll bring one with me in the morning."

Tommy shifts out from behind Jude to climb out of the bed; he kisses her forehead softly as he looks towards Kwest and Sadie. "Can I talk to the two of you for a moment in the hall?" He looks down at Jude adding, "I won't be long."

"Can I stay here with her Tommy?" Jayden asks, his lower lip jutting out as his eyes widen slightly to enhance his pouting expression with his hands folded angelically in front of him.

Tommy laughs, "Sure. Behave yourself okay?"

"I promise!" Jayden carefully climbs back up into the bed with Jude lying down on his side beside her and wrapping his arms around her as they get comfortable to continue their cartoon while the others walk out into the hall.

"Is something wrong Tom?" Sadie immediately questions, her arms crossing over her chest.

Tommy shakes his head, "Not at all Sadie. I just wanted to talk to you two privately about Jude's birthday coming up here in just a couple of days. I want to make it as special as possible for her, but keeping her worn out state in mind."

"What do you have in mind T?" Kwest asks his brow arching curiously.

"Well I've spoke to the nursing staff and they're going to set up the game room here in the teen oncology wing and help any of the teens on this floor who are physically capable of coming get there before hand. Outside of the hospital I think the only people I want to involve will be you two, Jayden, Darius, Stuart, Kate, possibly Jamie, and SME of course. I want this to be a surprise though which is why I haven't told Jayden about this."

Kwest holds a hand up to interrupt him, "Are her and Jamie even speaking again yet? Has he been in here to see her?"

"He hasn't come in yet no. He's having a rough time coping with the concept of her being this sick, but he's called several times and they've settled their differences. He even called and apologized to me for being such a pain in the ass. It may all change again when she finally gets to go home, but for her sake I'll continue to be nice to him. Speid's handling the teen section of things for me though and Darius is keeping the press out of our hair. I just really want to make this special for her. I've been working on a song too to try and express to her just how important she is to me."

"So what do you need from us?" Sadie asks.

"Sadie if you could handle decorations and the cake that'd be fantastic." When she nods in agreement he turns to Kwest, "If you could handle sound equipment and DJ that'd be perfect."

"No problem man. What do you need for your song?"

"I think I'm going to do it acoustically for the party, or I may have SME back me. I haven't quite decided yet, not really able to until I finish the song."

"You know, I think this is just what my sister needs Tom. Honestly your age difference used to bother me almost as much as it did Victoria," she pauses a moment to try and shift past her aggravation at even mentioning their mother's name to get to her point, "But you really are the best person for her. You complement each other in ways I don't think anyone else could for either of you. Ever since Jude got sick I've started to really see what dad's always seen in you." She leans towards him wrapping her arms around his neck in a brief hug that he awkwardly returns before pulling away with a soft smile.

"Thank you Sadie, it actually feels good to know you're okay with us too. I think your sister would like to hear that from you though." Tom says quietly as he glances towards the window to Jude's room watching her and Jayden laughing at something they're watching on TV as they still lay cuddled together on her bed. It's watching them from an outside perspective like this that makes part of him almost hope he turns out to be his but also gives him hope for a family of their own later on. There is no part of him that isn't absolutely certain she'll make it through this and come out stronger than before. That's just the kind of person his girl is, she's a fighter and one of the strongest people he's ever known.