I just realized that I left everyone off at a horrible cliffhanger and haven't updated in forever. I am so sorry!
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"Renji she is to far gone to be able to hear you," Urahara spoke sadly, drawing his blade out of his cane. "I'm sorry."
Urahara lunged forward and his blade ran through her shoulder as she tried to move back from the attack. She let out a hollow's scream and sliced Urahara's arm using claws that were about four inches long. He stumbled back and she pulled his blade out of her shoulder and tossed it behind her and her yellow eyes locked onto his and she lunged.
Renji stumbled backwards but Zezu rammed into him, knocking both over. Renji tried to pry her off until he heard sobbing and felt her hands clench his haori. He pushed her slightly so he could sit up and she sat on her knees in front of him. Her body was close to convulsing.
"Renji get away from her!" Urahara called.
"No wait," he called back. "Zee-chan look at me if you can hear me and the hollow isn't in control." She shook but lifted her head. "This may hurt, we need to get the mask off."
Renji lifted his hand to the mask and threw his reiryoku into it and ripped it off and tossed it behind him. Zezu cried out and buried her face in his haori. He wrapped his arms around her and saw Urahara pick up a katana that looked like his when it was in dormant form.
"Take her upstairs to rest," Urahara spoke then walked off with the sword.
Renji collected Zezu in his arms and shunpoed upstairs and entered the room she always stayed in. Renji laid Zezu on the bed and she grabbed the silk blanket that had been folded up on her pillow and buried her face in it but didn't let him go like she usually would. He noticed on of her eyes were not hidden and staring at him as tears fell down her cheeks. Her blond hair that had escaped her braid framed her face and her sapphire blue eyes glistened from her tears.
"Zezu-chan, are you okay?" he whispered, brushing her blonde hair out of the way.
"You hurt me..." he heard her whisper. "You tried to push me away..."
"Urahara-sama said that the hollow had taken over. At first when you came to me , I thought your hollow was going to hurt me until I heard your cries. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to harm you in any way," Renji whispered, caressing her cheek and she nodded. "Did you find out your zanpakto's name?"
"Not all of it. Kōri no something," she whispered, moving the blankets so her face was completely visible. "When I lunged, at first I think it was in control but then I saw the look in you eye and I'm not sure what happened after that."
"It doesn't matter, you were able to over come the hollow spirit," Renji smiled as he leaned over and kissed her brow lightly then leaned against the wall, next to the head of the bed. "I am relieved that you were able to push through it."
"Renji-kun?" the red-haired shinigami looked at her and saw want in her eyes. "Would you make me yours?"
"You need to rest, Zee-chan," Renji whispered sadly. "If we did that tonight, then I could possibly hurt you worse with your weakened state. Any other day, I'd jump with excitement and enthusiasm at the notion that our relationship has made it this far."
She nodded and closed her eyes as she buried her face in her silk blanket. Renji sighed, completely surprised that he had turned down her desirable offer. He rested his arm on the edge of the bed and closed his eyes, willing for his blood to cool down from the look that Zezu had given him as he drifted off into sleep.
Renji woke and looked at the bed but saw that Zezu was gone. He touched the sheets and growled when they were cold. He jumped to his feet and found Urahara, Tessai, Jinta, and Ururu at the table eating breakfast.
"Urahara-sama, where is Zezu-chan?" Renui asked, trying to remain calm.
"I thought she was still sleeping with you. Haven't seen her since she survived the change," Urahara spoke as he drank his tea.
"I heard someone up around three this morning but thought it was just Jinta," Ururu mumbled. "Sounded like who ever it was left the house but I never heard them come back."
"My, my, a new shinigami out on the loose, but she had left her blade here even though it had been in tessai's room so he could make sure the blade was strong enough for energy like hers. Might want to go tell Ichigo and them, send out some searches. Talk to Isshan and see if he would know where she'd disappear to when she left when no one was alert."
Renji ran out of the shop, keeping his reiryoku open in case she was in danger or something as he jumped across roofs to the Kurosaki home. He slid into his gigai and knocked on the door roughly. Karin opened the door and let him in and called for Isshan.
"Abarai-San, what is it?" Isshan asked as he came into view.
"Where would Zezu go if she left in the middle of the night while everyone was sleeping?" Renji asked urgently.
"I would assume the cemetery or the cliffs just past it. Those two where the most common places," Isshan spoke and Renji dashed out the door before he could say anything else.
Renji growled as his gigai slowed him down but he didn't want to stop and get out of the faux body. His minds was racing about why she'd disappear without telling anyone especially him. He grunted as he felt the exertion of his gigai and growled and jumped out of it and kept running, jumping across the roofs. As he reached the cemetery, he looked around but didn't see her so he ran to the cliffs and saw Zezu, leaning against the tree near the edge with her eyes closed and head lowered slightly.
"Zezu-chan, wake up," Renji whispered and she flinched as she stirred. "Why did you leave?"
"I needed somewhere quiet and peaceful," she whispered, not looking at him. "I'm perfectly fine."
"Don't lie to me Zee, we promised each other not to," Renji growled and she closed her eyes and sighed.
"Why did you refuse me?" she whispered annoyed. "Don't blame it in me being a weak human because I am not, never been. Just because I was tortured as a kid, doesn't mean anything, I did t have anywhere else to go and I always pushed through it. Having some white masked psycho in the darkest corner of my mind will never change that."
"You were already exhausted and I didn't want to push you over the edge. I may have desired to take you but I care about you too much to let it be me that hurts you the most," Renji spoke calmly and she snorted.
"Is that all it will be? Caring? Promises to never hurt me? If your going to act like that, maybe you should just stay acting like a brother," she hissed as she stood up and walked towards the edge of the cliffs. "A brother is not what I want. I had that and look what happened there, he's dead!"
"Zezu-chan, what is the matter with you?" Renji asked confused.
"What's the matter with me?" Zezu spun on him. "You have lied and hurt me i the most humiliating way! I offered myself and you just ignored it. Look at you now, practically begging for answers. I should have never fallen for you," she sighed then turned back around and jumped off the cliff fully clothed even through there was a storm coming in.
Renji stood there shocked, unable to move as the rain finally reached him. The wind howled around him, tearing at his shinigami uniform as the thunder cracked across the sky and the lightning lighted up the darkened area. He took a deep breath and realized that he was shaking, not from the cold but from her yelling at him.
'Does she really regret meeting me?' Renji thought sadly as he felt himself falling backwards and as he hit the ground, he felt a rock pierce his back as darkness took him.
Sorry that it's another shitty ending with a cliffhanger. I just let my doped up mood take over. Had a root canal and now taking several medicines for the pain. Has anyone ever experienced the messed up feeling of having half your face numb from anesthetics (number shots) and try smiling or eating something like peanut butter on a spoon? I have to say its the weirdest feeling I've ever had to deal with. Please review.