Author's note: okay, I'm not going to say much, it's late and I stayed up this long to finish it up so that you, the delightful viewer, could get to see this as soon as possible. My makeup's going to look like shit tomorrow.

Okay so thanks to all the alerts and reviews and i still don't own anything. yay me.

The visitor's room was full of people sitting at round tables talking to each other. At a glance Ludwig could recognize a lot of people he knew. At the table closest to him he could see Kiku and some other boy. He had shaggy brown hair and tanned skin and had a rather relaxed posture. Could this be the boy that Kiku liked? Judging from the traces of a smile on his face and the tinge of pink in his cheeks, Ludwig decided it was probably so.

He also Lili talking to an older boy that looked remarkably similar to her, only his hair had been slightly messier. That must be her "trigger happy" brother. As he moved on into the room he saw Toris talking to a girl with a very loud valley accent. Then he noticed as he passed the flatness of her chest and how her neck had an Adam's apple. As he turned he saw Berwald talking to a much smaller man with blond hair. He seemed to understand him just fine as they chirped back and forth.

After he had passed their table he finally saw his brother. He had been sitting with his elbows on the table and his head propped up on his hands. It took nearly all of his self-control to not run over to him. When Gilbert had finally noticed that Ludwig was there he jumped out of his seat and moved out from behind the table.

"West!" Gilbert yelled as he gave him one of his overpowering hugs. "It's so great to see you man! Have you missed the awesome me?"

"Yeah, I have actually," Ludwig said. Then he turned to Feliciano who was standing behind him. "Gilbert, this is Feliciano. Feliciano, Gilbert."

When Gilbert had noticed Feliciano, Ludwig noted the most curious reaction. A flicker of shock and awe crossed his eyes as he extended out his arm to shake Feliciano's hand. Feliciano noticing this as well hesitantly stuck his hand out. Then the two were smiling like idiots like nothing had just happened.

"Ve, so you're Ludi's brother? I'm his roomie!" Feliciano said in a chirping way as usual. Gilbert smirked at him in his mischievous way.

"Ludi, huh? I think I'll have to use that one, huh West?" Gilbert smirked over at him.

"West, is that your nickname for him? Ve, I don't think I get it," Feliciano said with this oh so adorable confused voice. Gilbert let out his overly loud laugh.

"It's because it's Awesome! That's why. You don't have to understand it for it to still be awesome!" Gilbert laughed. Feliciano started laughing too with a few 'Ve's' popping up occasionally. Ludwig was almost horror struck. Was this really a good idea? If Feliciano ever tagged team with Gilbert it might be the end of him.

"West, how did you get such a cute roomie?" Gilbert asked as he and Feliciano turned their attention back to Ludwig. Gilbert's hands were on Feliciano's shoulders and the two were standing rather close. This bugged Ludwig a lot for some reason, but pushed the feeling down to focus on the present.

"I don't know, maybe because he was assigned to me?" Ludwig deadpanned. He really didn't want Gilbert flirting with Feliciano.

"Ve, technically I got assigned to you, you're the one that took up the extra bed in my room," Feliciano said while taking a few steps back from Gilbert. "Do you want to sit?" Gilbert just nodded and sat down at the table as if he remembered the situation at hand.

"So West, they treating you good here? The place is a little on the white side for my tastes." Gilbert asked while taking side glances at the room around him.

"The place is fine Gilbert, you don't need to worry about it," Ludwig sighed while Gilbert groaned.

"Well I kinda have to worry about it Luds. It's a little concerning when you find your brother passed out in a pool of blood in his room," Gilbert said while suppressing the urge to scream it all out. "Now I only get to see you once a week and the awesome has been worried sick about since I dropped you off on here on Monday. It wouldn't be so bad if this was just the only time, but you had so many scars and who knows how long you've been hurting yourself."

Ludwig could only look down in shame. He half heard Feliciano dismiss himself to give the two some privacy, but he was already so lost in his head that he wasn't paying attention to him or Gilbert. Gott, how fucking stupid could he be? If it weren't enough that he was locked up and Father his father was pissed; now his brother was holding it against him too? If only he weren't so stupid. If only he didn't try to kill himself. If only he had actually died so his brother couldn't worry about him. After all, you can't worry about someone who's dead, right? Long gone in a pine box, everyone would move on and forget him and it all would be dandy.

"I'm sorry, Gilbert, okay," Ludwig said as he tried to hold in his inner turmoil. "I'm sorry I messed up, I'm sorry that you found me and I'm sorry that it didn't work. I know that you think you care but you spend so much time running around with your drinking buddies that I honestly didn't feel the need to damper your mode with my melancholy bullshit. The last thing you need is some dumbass brother of yours to fuck up your day. Okay, I'm sorry I fucked it up then and I'm sorry that I'm fucking it up now."

Gilbert just stared at him stunned. The look didn't last long before he started to fire back at him.

"Well excuse me brother, but in case you haven't noticed I do care about you why would I be here if I wasn't. I'm sorry we don't talk a lot but I try. In case you haven't noticed I have a job and a social life and just well a life in general. That doesn't mean I don't fucking care Ludwig." Gilbert growled. "So what did you want me to do huh? Just let you bled out the floor like you were some fucking animal hit by a car? Is that what you wanted?"

"Yeah, that's exactly what I wanted." Ludwig said as silence passed over the two. "You know I kept thinking that what I did was an accident, but the more I think about it the more I realize that subconsciously, it might have been on purpose. I'm actually almost surprised that I hadn't tried to off myself sooner. Because you know what, if I were gone father wouldn't have to deal with a shit head son, you could run off your buddies and not worry about me and this damn place wouldn't have another stupid teenager to deal with. Everything would be perfect. "

"Is that what you really think?" Gilbert asked him through a hard glare.

"Yeah, that is what I think," Ludwig shot back with an equally fierce glare. Gilbert's face softened as he processed his brother's words.

"Gott, Luds, I don't even…" Gilbert's voice trailed off and Ludwig felt his heart sink like a rock all the way to his stomach. If he hadn't screwed things up enough already, he'd only made things worse now. Stupid, fucking Ludwig… "I don't know how to help you other than hoping the place can sort through your problems, but just remember this Ludwig: I care and I don't think anything would be better off if you were gone. It nearly killed me seeing you like that when you had… how do you think I'd react if you really had died? Don't you realize that it would have destroyed me? And what about your new friend Feliciano? Do you think that he really wouldn't care if you had dropped dead?"

"Feliciano wouldn't care," Ludwig said grimly. "I'm just some guy he's known for barely a week. Why would I matter to him?" Gilbert just shook his head.

"Gott you can be so dense sometimes. I can see it in his eyes, he cares for you. Maybe you should think about that while you're in here." Gilbert said. He then took a glance at his watch and grimaced. "Hey Luds, I gotta go, I need to get to work." Ludwig just nodded and didn't say anything. Gilbert opened his arms for a hug, but Ludwig only half way participated. Just as Gilbert turned to walk off he spun around just as fast as if he had forgotten something.

"Oh Luds, what is Feli's last name?" He asked. Why would he need to know that?

"It's Vargas, why?" Ludwig asked.

"I know his brother. He's dating Antonio, one of the guys I hang out with," Gilbert said solemnly. "Tell him that his brother misses him for me?" Ludwig nodded. "Great, I'll see you next week Luds." And with that his brother walked out the doors and out of his life for at least another week.

So gilbert knew Feli's brother, that's an interesting development. It also answered his gay twins question. But that would sink in for him later. For now he just wanted to get to his room breakdown before anyone had a chance to see him cry.

Okay, so that's that. Prussia finally showed up again. he was supposed to be in the last chapter but Ludwig's dick decided to steal show. now you tell me faithful viewers; which is more magnificent? The awesomeness of Prussia or the spontenouty that makes up Germany's Dick. Only you can decide.