A/N: This is long overdue…my bad guys. Anyhow, I promised I'd post it today, so here it is! Hope you enjoy.
"Do you know what she's having?" Amanda says quietly, breaking the rather uncomfortable, dreary silence.
Abbie looks up from the floor and tilts her head in confusion. "What?"
"Serena, do you know what she's having yet?" the detective repeats curiously.
Abbie smiles slightly and shakes her head. "No, we don't…the doctor said that we could find out at her appointment this weekend though."
"What do you want it to be?"
"Personally, I want a boy, but Serena really, really hopes it's a girl. I guess my overall thing is that I hope it's just one baby, and there isn't another one hiding in there somewhere. Do you and Liv ever talk about kids?"
Amanda shakes her head and chuckles at the question. "We might've talked about it once or twice, you know, just to see how the other felt about it. I mean, we both like kids, it's just, our jobs and everything, we aren't ever really home. One of us would have to quit, and I don't think either of us want that. I told her we should get a cat just to see, and then we could possibly start discussing that part of our future. You know who would make really cute parents though? Casey and Alex."
Abbie snorts and has to refrain from bursting out in hysteric laughter. "While I would agree, I gotta say, the chances of Serena having sextuplets are higher than those two having a kid. Casey hates kids believe it or not."
Amanda's job drops in astonished shock. "What? No way, I thought everyone liked kids!"
"Not Casey, she's the type that thinks they're too much of a handful, irritating, and a hole in her bank account." Abbie explains snickering. "It's kinda funny really, just by looking at her you couldn't tell that she didn't like kids. I know Alex wants kids though, especially now since Serena is having a baby. Whatever Serena has, Alex wants and vise versa. So there's no doubt Blondie is pushing Casey to at least entertain the thought of a kid."
They fall into a silence once more before Amanda speaks again. "Do you think they're ever gonna find us?"
Abbie is silent for a long moment before she settles on shrugging her shoulders. "I'm sure they will. They've got to right? Ugh, I had court yesterday too, Petrovsky must've let Kim have it good for me not showing up…who is this bastard anyway?"
Amanda shrugs and hugs her knees tight to her chest. She involuntarily shudders at the thought of their captor coming and having his way with her again; the thought just simply makes her sick all over again. She ends up taking a shuttering deep breath, that she doesn't realize is that loud until Abbie says something.
"Amanda, are you alright? What's wrong?" Abbie asks concernedly, sensing the feelings of the other woman lingering heavy in the room.
The detective squeezes her eyes shut and hugs her knees even tighter not if seeking not only comfort but protection. "How are you supposed to deal, when you became the very thing that you live to protect everyday?" she asks softly, her voice just barely above a whisper.
Abbie's eyebrows raise into her hair line and she opens and clothes her mouth several times before coming up with something audibly coherent. "Amanda…"
"I just, don't understand. When I'm at work, I know of everything that is at risk, I just never think that I myself would ever be a victim. It's not the same anymore, Abbie, it's just, it's not. Whenever I close my eyes in here, I see him, I feel him on me, sometimes I'll wake up and he'll be here. How am I supposed to feel like I do any ounce of good out there, when I'm the one who ends up in here? I can't do it Abbie, I just, I can't do it…"
Abbie watches as the usually composed detective breaks down into sobs. She slowly moves across the floor and carefully wraps her arms around the sobbing woman. "Shhh, it's okay."
Amanda squeezes her eyes shut and attempts to stop the constant flow of tears but as she rests her head on Abbie's shoulder, she just can't help it. "The pain, it's just so much, I wish he'd just kill me instead sometimes. It hurts Abbie, it just hurts so much I don't know what to do."
"It'll be okay, I promise we'll get out of here?"
"And how can you be so sure? It's only a matter of time before he gets tired of me and decides to dump my body somewhere by a lake…"
Abbie stays silent this time and just settles on gently rubbing small circles on Amanda's back. She knows that the two of them have to stay positive if they have any chance for survival, but how is that even possible considering the circumstances?
Meanwhile…
"Why is she twitching like that?" Olivia asks curiously as she watches JJ's body twitch violently for probably a fifth time since they've been in the ambulance.
"It's the electric shock. It causes muscle spasms, as well as attacks the heart." One of the EMTs replies motioning towards the heart monitor.
Olivia glances at the machine and winces at the unsteady and inconsistent heartbeat of the woman on the gurney. She was thankful that the paramedics finally came when they did despite the amount of ice covering the roads. She was tiring herself out doing CPR and she knows that had she stopped at any time, she would've lost JJ completely.
"Is she going to be alright?" Liv asks after a long moment of silence. In a way she feels a little responsible that this happened, and she wouldn't be able to live with herself if something happened to the agent because she didn't act quickly enough.
One of the EMTs looks to her ready to response when they are interrupted by a loud high pitched whine. They all take a quick glance at the monitor once more only to find the inconsistent blips turning into a straight green line.
"She's going into cardiac arrest, is it safe to use the defibrillator?" one of them asks hurriedly.
"It's going to have to be, we don't any other choice than that."
Olivia watches carefully as the small team of EMTs work to restart the blonde's heart. After several gut wrenching minutes of an untold future, small inconsistent beeps once again return to the heart monitor, and every one in the ambulance let's out a breath they hadn't know they had been holding.
The entire ride to the hospital was intently nerve wracking and it was until that they were there that Olivia had phone reception once again. The first person that she had called was Emily, and she would be lying if she said that she hadn't expected the ear full of profanities she got in the process. She knew that it would take the elder agent will probably break every single traffic law in the state of New York to get there too.
"Benson!"
See, five minutes, with ice on the road, and hellish New York traffic. Olivia squeezes her eyes shut for a long moment before she spins around and finds herself face to face with a rather angry looking Emily Prentiss. Not only is there anger, but there is also a large amount of fear and worry ever so present in the taller woman's eyes.
"Look, Emily, I tried to call but I didn't have phone reception where I was, and I just…we were at the house and the assholes had connected a live current to the doorknob. I couldn't stop her, if I could have I would've tried, honest." Olivia explains, praying to anything that she isn't about to have a gun pulled on her.
Emily's jaw unclenches and she visibly relaxes a bit before letting out a great sigh. "Have you heard anything?"
At this the detective vigorously shakes her head. "No since we've to here. Back at that house, I had to do CPR on her until the EMTs got there, and even on the way over here she went into cardiac arrest twice. I really am sorry."
"It's not your fault…I should have been there." The raven haired woman replies, pinching the bridge of her nose. "The others rung in while you and JJ were out, the other location was bogus, no trace of any one ever being there in the first place."
"Was there any kind of set up?"
"Not that I've heard of, I heard it was just an empty location. So I guess we have to go back to square one and talk to the suspects again."
"Emily Prentiss?"
Both women snap their head to the side towards the doctor who is glancing over something on his clipboard.
"Uh yeah, that's me…" Emily says stepping forward, "how is Jennifer?"
"Well for a minute there it was definitely touch and go." He says seriously. "Had Detective Benson not performed CPR when she did, Agent Jareau could have suffered from some major brain damage. She will have some major burns on her hand from where she came in contact with the current, and we've been able to cease the muscle spasms. We have her sedated to numb the pain, and she could wake up in the next four to eight hours. Believe me when I say that she's a very lucky woman."
Emily lets out a breath that she didn't know she had been holding and a small smile flits across her features. "Thank you doctor. Um…can I see her?"
"Of course, I'll take you to her room."
"Thank you, but can you give me a minute?"
The doctor nods and steps off to the decide before Emily turns back to Olivia and surprises the detective by enveloping her into a surprise hug. "Thank you. You saved her life."
Olivia pulls away and stuffs her hands in her pockets. "I couldn't let her die…I just, did what I knew I had to. I couldn't let you lose her." she replies sadly, averting her eyes to the floor as she thinks about Amanda.
Emily smiles and gently places her hand on the shorter woman's shoulder. "Hey, don't worry, we'll find her."
That Night
"Rena honey, you should really get some sleep…" Alex says softly as she takes a seat on her sofa next to her best friend. She can't say that she understands what Serena is going through but she knows that she's in pain and she needs someone there for her.
Serena simply shakes her head and wraps her arms around herself in a self protective embrace. "I can't sleep Ali…I'll have nightmares again. I have nightmares about what he could be doing to Abbie, and I just, I don't want to close my eyes to that. What if I never see her again?"
"Hey, don't think like that." Alex says frowning. "Everyone is doing everything that they can to find her and Amanda, you just have to stay positive. Abbie's a strong woman, and you and I both know that she would be damned if she let something happen to her knowing that she'd be leaving you behind."
"She wouldn't just be leaving me behind." Serena mumbles quietly, placing her hand on her stomach. "I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow…"
Alex nods her head and tucks her legs under herself on the couch. "I know sweetie, you told me, I'm going with you remember?"
"Abbie and I were supposed to find out what the baby is. I wish that she were here, so I could see her face when we find out…she really wants a boy you know."
"Yeah, that sounds like Abbie." The elder blonde says chuckling. "Are you feeling alright? Are you having any kinds of problems?"
Serena shakes her head and continues to protective lay her hand on her stomach. "No, no, I feel fine. I'm just, really tired, but that's normal. It's just going to work and everything now, it's just starting to wear me out."
"I understand. Having a baby must be hard." Alex says sadly as she stares at her hands.
Serena tilts her head and places her hands on her best friend's. "You wring your hands when you're thinking hard about something. What's up?"
Alex shakes her head and chuckles nervously at the question. "Nothing, I'm just worried about Casey and I…that's all."
"Why, is something wrong? Wait…is this about that ex of hers?"
"Yeah. I'm not trying to be jealous, I just…I don't feel comfortable with her around Casey like this, especially if she's still in love with her."
"Do you think that Casey still has feelings for her?"
Alex pauses as she lingers on the question for a long moment before she settles on shaking her head. "I don't know…I mean, I know that she loves me and everything, but I honestly don't know if she still has feelings for her ex or not. She says that she doesn't and I want to believe her but I just, it's hard Rena…"
"Have the two of you talked about this?" Serena asks curiously.
"Yeah, we have, and Casey just thinks I'm being jealous. I don't think she fully understands my feelings about this. I'm not like this just because I feel like being a bitch. It's hard for her to realize that my feelings are actually hurt, and I'm not just being a possessive teenager…"
There is a silence between the two friends before Serena reaches over and places her hand atop of Alex's once again. "I'm sure that things will work out with you two for the better, they always do right?"
Alex sighs heavily and sadly nods her head. "That's what I keep telling myself…"
What do you guys think? Is Alex just being ridiculous and overreacting? Or does she have a very justifiable reason for feeling the way she does? Leave your thoughts!