hey guys this is chapter 9. i know i left you guys hanging in the last chapter but this chapter will be full of angst so be prepared. i wanna dedicate this chapter to Notjustanotherperson i got an idea from something you said in a review. thank you.

enjoy!

Quinn was up just as fast as Rachel but somehow couldn't get to the bathroom before the door was closed and locked

"Rach open the door. Please" she knocked lightly trying to get the girl to open.

"Rachel, please open up. I need to know if you okay, whatever it is we will fix it. Rach." The cheerleader slumped to the ground helpless as to help her friend. She wanted to get Rachel but she didn't know what to do.

"SANTANA!" Quinn yelled not knowing what else to do.

The Latina rushed through the door pulling her shorts up with her girlfriend rushing out behind her. Normally she'd be royally pissed and ready to go all ape – shit on Quinn until she looked at her appearance.

"What the fuck did you do Fabray?" she said pulling her best friend from the floor.

"S, I don't know. We were talking about taking things slow, actually trying to be together and we were kissing. Tears started falling down her eyes and she ran muttering about taking a shower. I don't know what I did and she isn't opening the door for me." The blonde was in full on cry mode and Santana whispered to Brittany to take Quinn to the bedroom and try to calm her. Brittany bent over pulling Quinn up by her waist. Good thing I'm strong she thought pulling the broken blonde to the bedroom.

Santana had no idea if she would be able to get the girl to open up but for her bestfriend's sake she had to try. The Latina knocked on the door. "Rach it's Santana, only me out here I sent Q with B to the bedroom. You wanna open the door or you want me just sit here by the door until you're ready to open?"

A few seconds later Santana sighed and slid to the ground against the door. She didn't think she'd ever be pulled into this position with Quinn but even more so with Rachel Berry. The cheerleader decided against saying anything else, instead she sat there lightly whistling.

After what felt like forever to the girl she heard a click on the door. Finally she thought standing to enter the girl. When she saw Rachel's appearance she closed the door and rushed to the tub turning it off and slid down to her friend.

Friend?

Yes she's a friend now she sighed again

The smaller girl allowed Santana to pull her from the ground/ she didn't say anything she just started to take Rachel's clothes off helping her into the tub.

The Latina knew her analogy of Rachel Berry being a friend a friend now was correct. Usually the sight of a naked woman would be appealing even if it was just Berry. All Santana saw was what was necessary.

She helped Rachel settle into the tub and started towards the door.

"w- Where are you going?" Rachel asked hoarsely

"I'm going for your towel and some clothes Rach. I'll be right back; unless you want me get Q for you."

The smaller girl shook her head furiously and sunk deeper into the tub. Santana walked over to her new found friend and squeezed her hand reassuringly.

"I'll be right back"

Santana walked into the bedroom to see an anxious but terrified looking Quinn and a sad looking Brittany.

"How's she doing?"

"I don't know." Santana said shrugging and walked over to Rachel's things.

"What do you mean you don't know?" Quinn shrieked

"Q the only thing I managed to do was get her clothes odd and into the tub she hasn't said anything to me as yet." Santana grabbed the towel shorts, a shirt and panties and turned to her bestfriends.

"You saw her naked?" Quinn's anger rose

"Seriously Q? Right now?" Quinn sighed and collapsed on the floor

"Look Q I don't know what's wrong, but I'm trying to be there for her. Whatever it is she's going through has her totally messed up." She helped the girl up off the floor

"I don't know what I could have done san please go to her and make sure she's okay. I need her to be okay." Santana kissed Quinn's cheek as the blonde collapsed once again into Brittany on the bed.

Rachel just felt numb. She always knew her past would bite her in the ass. She had no idea how to talk to Quinn. No idea how to tell her any of this without risking losing her altogether. She knew this happy ending was virtually impossible for her. Santana slipped back into the bathroom and sat on the edge of the tub just watching her.

"When you're ready to come out let me know."

"How's Quinn?" she asked with some of the hoarseness gone

"She's worried. Shit we're all worried. She said you guys were talking and started to kiss when you started crying. She wants to know what's wrong and if it's something she did. She cares about you and she hates seeing you in any pain at all; that makes two of us. I must say Rach I'm sorry for all the pain I've cost you over the years and I hope you will eventually forgive me; but right now I could see you're going through something. I'm not saying you have to but I'm here you if you want to talk I'll try to help you through what you've been going through." Rachel sighed and stood to get out of the tub.

Santana helped her dress and Rachel walked into the kitchen. Sitting on the floor the Latina followed suit.

"I'll tell you Santana but you'll hate me and if Quinn finds out she will too. Just promise not to tell anyone, not even Brittany. I need you to promise me San."

"Rach, anything we discuss here is between you and me. Although I do believe you should consider sharing it with Q as well. I mean whatever it is I know she will still want to be with you."

Rachel took a deep breath and decided to start from the beginning. If she was going to do this she may as well do it right.

i know what you guys are saying "Santana?" but yes Santana is the one person she feels she should open up to because she know's Quinn and she'll be able to help her now i need you guys to tell me do you want to know what's wrong with rachel before or after they leave house arrest?

lemme know what you think

specks