Freddie's p o v

So I started my freshman year at Santa Monica Catholic High School my mom thought it would be easier for me at a private school.

She wanted me to focus on my grades not girls she said I was too depressed over Sam and Carly I needed to remember what mattered most. Grades and getting an education.

She also thought it would be cool to sew my name into my clothes what was I eight again? In her sleep derived haze though she accidentally sewed the name into the wrong side of the uniform.

So my first day of school I went unknowingly wearing my new uniform with my name across the back.

I am Fredward Benson If Lost Contact My Mommy At

Of course she also insisted on walking me up to the office on my first day yelling.

I love you Fredward

Don't forget to eat your veggies

My first class I was shoved into my desk someone threw a spit ball at me.

I was chased out of the classroom by five kids who caught me since I had no idea where I was going they threw me against the lockers hitting me punching me.

I never said a word the last thing I wanted was for my mom to get involved.

Everyday I was thrown into walls lockers garbage made fun of giving death looks.

No one sat with me or talked to me my lunch money was stolen my electronics smashed.

Books knocked out of my hands my homework stolen or copied.

I was forced to take the rap for the main bully when he was caught cheating. I took the suspension the detention the points on my record.

Than he beat me up anyway I told my mom I got injured in gym she cursed the school for being too rough on kids.

I was tripped at lunch I had food thrown at me I was beaten held down while they scolded me with hot water.

I was too little to fight them off too weak.

I missed Sam she would never let this happen to me back in Seattle.

I avoided taking gym because the locker room was a prime bully spot, they yanked my chairs out in class everyone laughed as I lay sprawled on the floor.

The teachers did nothing even when they saw them pushing me around in the halls stealing my bags or shoes.

They cornered me int the halls four of them shoved me into the girls bathroom.

Locking the door I banged on the door forever screaming but no one came.

I can still hear their words that day as they laughed about this boy Tanner who shot himself the night before.

I can still see Tanner's face when he was shoved into the bathroom the day before his eyes so full of pain as they kicked him broke his arm laughed at him.

They ripped my clothes off shoving my face into the crotch of their leader.

Suck it like the little bitch you are Fredweeina

I tried to fight them as they overpowered me hitting me spitting at me biting me punching me kicking me shoving me naked into the girls bathroom.

Kill yourself just like that loser join your boyfriend bitch

I barely knew Tanner but I felt his pain in his blue eyes as I fell against the bathroom wall the same one he must of leaned against the day before all I could think of was maybe Tanner was right.

I just wanted to escape the pain I felt my body shaking with sobs as I pulled out a bottle if sleeping pills I had stolen them from mom that morning.

Are you really going to let them win?

The voice came from above. I looked up to see Tanner's best friend Breslin conner sitting there on the window sill high above me a rope from his neck they had tied his hands back and his legs together. They had tried to hang him but he had out smarted them and I bet they didn't know yet.

I'm sick of being the victim you don't understand

I don't understand? Hello I have a rope around my neck I'm tied up I have to whazz

Kid I've been through this since Elementary school

You just came this year

Than you should know why I want to do this

No I don't neither do I get why Tanner did what he did

He let them win he wasted his life he could have been a great musician he took that chance away

Not me man I am going to win get the best revenge I am going to to get through this

I'll help you if you want me to

I took his hand it was the best decision I ever made from that day on we stuck together working out every day after school on the local gym.

We went to a support group for victims against bullying we started working on our audition for H.A.