Er... Have I been forever forgotten? Because, I swear, I haven't forgotten you guys! I had major writers block (hence the reason for this being so short) and wanted to end this bittersweetly, but couldn't bring myself to it and then I got grounded and couldn't go on the computer and I just finished this - like, two minutes ago. But the last few lines have been planned since who knows when! I love them... it ties the whole story up.
And with that, I admit, yes, this is the FINAL chapter! No more updates will be coming on this. I'm sorry, really, I am. I made it a happy ending to make up for it! No sequel is in the process. In fact, I might be taking a break from Twilight fanfiction from a while. For those of you who are Lost Control fans, don't worry, I'm not abandoning it. Adopting a Wizard fans... er... you might want to sit back and wait for the updates, because they WILL come but I am having trouble writing Harry so OOC. Why? Because I've delved into Harry Potter FF! Writing it! Not jusdt reading and marvelling at the fics like I used to!! I have Loony Moony up already! AND Three Days! ANd I really want to post my other fic tonight, but I can't think up a title, so I'm sort of stuck there.
My thanks yous- THANK YOU to Amber-is-a-Jasper's-Girl, who actually saw the last part (I think). She was my wonderful beta until I got sick of the whole DocX thing! Give her a round of applause! NOW I want to thank all of YOU who have stuck with me this long! Mwa! Love you all! Now, have I been forever forgiven for leaving you so long?
Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight. WAHH!
"Jasper?" Her soft voice woke me from my memories. "Jasper, are you alright?"
"Go away," I snarled. "Leave me alone!" Alice took a slight step back, sensing the danger.
"Please calm down, Jasper. You'll scare Bella. Her and the lovebird are coming out of my room in twenty seconds."
"I don't care!" I responded cruelly, my head still buried in my hands. Sure enough, Bella's sweet blood filled the hall within seconds. Her emotions and Edward's were identical, intertwined. They made my heart ache. Bella's heat was radiating as she suddenly crouched down beside me. I cringed as her warm, soft, human hand touched my cold, hard vampire one. The scent increased. It tortured.
"Jasper, please. You can have your happy ending, too. I promise." I snarled at her, but the girl didn't flinch away.
"There is something wrong with you," I muttered. "Flinch, girl, flinch! Have a normal reaction! Get scared!"
"Make me," she challenged and I did. She was quaking by the time I was done. "Okay, m-maybe that wasn't a g-g-good idea," she admitted then.
"Bella? Are you hungry?" Edward's tone was soft. Bella nodded reluctantly and stood from her spot. I did not move. She approached the boy cautiously, carefully. Why was she so careful around him and not me?
"Bella, are you alright?" Edward voice, hearing my thoughts. "Your common sense and self preservation is kicking in."
"I don't want to hurt you more," she responded in a small voice before wrapping her arms around him. He stroked her hair gently and carried her down the stairs.
"Edward! Don't put her down, she'll fall!" Alice called down the stairs. She sighed happily. "Crisis averted, thank god."
"You like messing with Fate, don't you?" I commented. She shrugged.
"A bit, yeah. But you like to mess it up, too." When I flashed her a questioning look, she just shrugged again. "I mean, I told you what it was supposed to be like. Then you went and just changed it all. It was annoying. I spent weeks trying to fix up all the visions I had."
"When did you find them?" I asked quietly.
"Two years later." She sidled down beside me, close but not touching.
"That sounds like a long time."
"Is it?" Her wide golden orbs stared at me with wonder. "It seemed rather short to me. Maybe it's because I don't have the human preconception of time. For humans, a week is long. An hour is even long. Time cane go either way – too fast or too slow. We live in seconds, don't we? Fractions of seconds, fractions of fractions… For us, a minute could be a minute to late. "
"An hour away from a loved one is an hour too much," I added softly. She turned her gaze back to the opposite wall.
"And a week could change a life for eternity," she ended in a whisper. "Jasper?"
"Yeah?"
"Do you love me?" The question startled me. It caught me off guard. I struggled for words. "Jasper? Do you?"
"I… I don't know." I truly didn't. I loved her, but I hated her for causing me pain. I loved her, but I hated her for trying to make me what I wasn't. I loved her, but I hated her for making me want to change. To put it simply, I couldn't stand her, but I couldn't live without her.
"Please don't leave again," she begged quietly. "If you don't love me, it's okay. But if you leave… I don't think I could stand it. Edward has Bella now, I guess. But we had a pact, the two of us. If something ever went wrong, we would go to Italy – together. If Edward found true love and that person was destroyed, we would both leave this world. And it used to be that if you came back, the Volturi would be getting a nice little visit from us."
"You're going to go off yourself?" I hissed. My words were low and angry. Fury washed over me. "You were going to go to the Volturi?"
"We got the tickets," Alice admitted. "But we're not going. I can't do that to Edward, not now. I won't have to, if you stay. I can live as long as you're near. Even if you have another love, I can live."
"If I were to fall in love with Maria and bring her back here, would you mind?" She gaped at me for a moment.
"Maria? That foul woman who made that army!"
"If I was in love with her, would you still say that?" Her eyes hardened and her emotions were exasperated.
"Of course! She's cruel, Jasper, how could you love her? She would have killed you in a second. Wait – you're not…"
"No," I responded, smiling. "I was just curious for your reaction." She glowered at me.
"Your eyes are gold-ish," she commented. "You went hunting last night. I saw. But why?"
"For you," I whispered reluctantly. Adoration radiated off of her. And love as well. "How? How can you love me? I'm a killer. A murderer."
"You were a killer when I found you at first, weren't you?"
"I like the kill!"
"And so do I. It's a nice sport, almost as fun as shopping. I just like to stick with animals," Alice pointed out. She laid a hand on my shoulder. "Jasper, I'm proud of you for trying. But you don't need to. Not for me. Not if you don't love me."
I stood and brushed off my clothes. I didn't look, but her presence beside me was undeniable.
"I'm going to keep on hunting the animals," I announced to her and just her. Alice whirled me around and grabbed my wrists. My ice cubes melted and instead of her gripping me as if she would never let go, I was cradling her hands in mine.
"Jasper," she whispered, nothing moving except her lips. Her head was craned up and mine was looking straight down. An outsider would probably find it hilarious. "Why did it take so long? Why couldn't you just love me back?"
"It's forever forbidden," I responded, ashamed. "Love, care, affection - forbidden. It always has been for me."
Alice dug her inky black hair into my head and I hugged her close. She stood high on her tiptoes, reaching up, and I knew what I had to do. I leaned down and swept her up into my arms. Her lips met mine in our beautiful embrace. When we broke apart, the twinkle in her eye I knew too well had returned.
"Is it still forever forbidden?" she asked me innocently, yet deviously at the same time. Only a vampire could pull it off so perfectly. No - only she could. I grinned and could see my blood red eyes reflected in her gold. That would change soon. I would make it.
"Yes, it still is," I told her and her face fell. I quickly fixed my statement. "I'm forbidden to lend my love to anyone. I'll be using it all up on you."
The cradling hands and down have been written for months and I loved it. It just tied it all together. I'm sorry it's so short, really, I am. I regret leaving this story behind, but it's been going on just too long, you know? It's my baby, but it's growing up and I can't understand it anymore. It's reached adolesence!! Haha. Anyhow, I hope you enjoyed it. I was originally planning for some "Jasper-accidentally-attacks-Bella-she-turns-into-a-vamp-and-THEN-we-have-a-bittersweet-ending" but it just wouldn't work. Better not to over do it, right? Thanks for reading this fic! I'm sort of sad to be calling it forever finished.
And yes, you may yell/hit/harass/kill me for using so many corny "forever" jokes in this chapter. And I don't even have the threat of not being able to finish with me!