Love lost. Insanity lost.

Chapter 8

THE PATERN…

A story by: Deathbyscreams

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight, I just play tea party with them.

"Pray that your loneliness may spur you into finding something to live for, great enough to die for."

Previously: "What the fuck are you doing?"

"uhh, nothing."

I finally made it out of the closet. I was forced fed some breakfast and sent home.

I didn't have to sneak past Charlie since he had already gone fishing.

Did I call him last night? I think Kathy did.

Okay good, I don't need to get in trouble with him, since I already was carrying pain killers on me. It would have be bad if he had found them on me. But I need them for my wrist which was now throbbing and I could bare think around the pain. These drugs weren't for fun; they were to take away the pain.

It was good thing Kathy was such a good friend to let me have her pain killers, no matter what kind of animal was printed on it.

I really needed another pill; oh I forgot to ask her what kind of pain killers they were. Oh well I'll ask her next time.

I was so tired but I still couldn't sleep, was that a side effect of the pain killer? They keep you awake?

Maybe I should careful as to how often I take them. But I would need some soon; my wrist was hurting and it might even be broken. I might want to get a cast for it. Wait I had wrist protector in my drawer, I could put that on and that would be just as good as a cast (A/n can't think of the right word for it but you know what I'm talking about right?).

I dashed upstairs to put it on. After I put it on I felt my breakfast come back up. I threw it up and then brush my teeth. Maybe I was coming down with bug? I didn't feel that good. My head was pounding, I could hear the blood rushing in my ears.

I really needed to sleep. I hadn't slept in over 32 hours, I really needed to sleep. Yet I still couldn't sleep no matter how hard I tried.

I spent the rest of the day on the couch watching TV; hopefully I would grow tired of TV and finally sleep. Wait when was the last I ate something? Breakfast, but what was the last thing I ate and kept down, dinner two days ago, wow that was a long time ago. I should eat something.

I still couldn't sleep or eat. My wrist was throbbing.

Charlie came back from fishing and we chatted for a while.

I pretended to grow tired and go upstairs to my bedroom.

It wasn't until 3 in the morning that pasted out to dream about a horrible creature that was trying to kill me. At least I didn't dream about him…..

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Three weeks had passed since that night.

We had developed a pattern.

I spent all my times with Violet and Kathy.

I no longer considered my home at Charlie's house.

I belonged at Kathy's house.

I took my pills like a good little girl.

I soon learned that Kathy spent all her time doing cocaine.

I wonder how the baby will turn out.

She's seven months pregnant.

She was always high and kind of mean when she was high.

We fought about the kid, which was being turned into a crack baby.

I stopped caring about the baby afterwards.

I spent all my times with Violet.

She was always nice to me.

She took care of me when the monsters came.

When I would scream so loud she'd start singing to me.

I wish I could steal her from Kathy and have her as a sister.

It's not like Kathy cared for Violet that much.

So when I can, I take care of violet.

She's like my child now.

Sometimes I want a baby so I will have something that will love me.

But no one will sleep with me.

So I have Violet, as my child.

Sometimes I wonder where their parents went.

I'm scared to ask.

I just kind of stopped caring.

About everything.

Hmm, I don't know if I'm better now or before I met her.

I think I'm better now.

I no longer have to worry about dreaming about him.

I don't sleep.

I don't have to worry about buying food.

I don't eat.

I don't change my clothes or shower.

I save time that way, plus money too.

You could say that I'm worse off now.

But don't judge me.

Until you've lived my life.

I chose to live how I want too.

And all you haters well you guys can all go die.

So it's just me and Kathy.

She's seven months pregnant.

And it's been four months since he left me.

And all I hear are their voices.