I own nothing it all belongs to Stephenine Meyer. All I own is the plot and my lovely characters
A/N Sorry for the wait but right now school is driving me mad. Anyway I have a new story up Anger and the Artist it's a Leah and Caleb story. Please check it out.
Girly Nigh Part 1- Part two should be up soon.
Erin's P.O.V
I woke up hot and to constant banging I snuggle deeper against the warmth wanting to sleep just a little bit longer and the banging went away.
"Hello?" Who was that?
"I've come for my daughter" Hey?
"She's still asleep"
"I'll wake her up" Is that…?
"I don't think that is a good idea, she is very tiered" Oh! Suddenly everything that had happened comes back to me and I sit up that side of my body instantly freezing. I wrap the throw around me as I look down to see Cookies blinking sleepily. He was without a shirt only wearing cut off jeans that were way past the time to be thrown out. I smile at him while rubbing my eyes. Jesus I was still tiered.
"Morning" He mutters sitting up. He looked worse than me his eyes not quite staying open. I touch his shoulder and he smiles as he moves to stand. The door was closed but I could hear the conversation between my dad and Cookies mum getting more heated.
"She is my daughter and I am taking her back home"
"Come into to the kitchen and have a cup of coffee just give her a few more minutes"
"No"
"I better go save your mum" I say standing slowly and stretching before walking over the too the door. It was cold, why was it so cold? I open the door and poke my head just enough for me to get my dad's attention.
"Dad?"
"Erin Darling your awake" He looks pointedly to Embry's mum.
"Yeah you woke me" Embry's mum gives him a look and raises her eye brow-told you so.
"Sorry but we should be going now" I step out of the room fully into the hallway. About to ask where we were going exactly but Dad's gasp has me looking down and realising why my legs were so cold.
"Dad it's-"but Cookies took that time to walk out behind me, nod at my dad and walk into the kitchen he didn't get far before my dad exploded.
"WHAT THE HELL HAS HAPPENED HERE?"
"Nothing my goodness what do you think I would allow?" Joan gaps anger clear in her voice.
"Well obviously for my daughter and your son to sleep naked together"
"Dad I'm not naked" I point out.
"Close enough to it" He seethes.
"Dad your over reacting" Wrong thing to say but I was knackered I had just woken up from not sleeping for 48 hours and my mum was in a coma.
"I told you not to even think of taking advantage of her" He shouts at Cookies.
"And he didn't" But he ignored me.
"You-"
"Mr James I didn't and wouldn't ever do a thing like that" Cookie near growls.
"You're a teenage boy!"
"Mr. James you are insulting my son now I realised you are under a lot of stress but don't think that I will allow you to come into my house and insult my son like that"
"Well how do you explain-"I cut them all off before this escalated to a full blown argument.
"Dad really he didn't do anything and even when I threw myself at him he didn't, he even let me trash his room then bandaged me up, he's done nothing but help me" I say it loudly to cut into the conversation. Dad looks to me then and see's my hands and feet. He takes a step forward and I see it in his eyes. He wants to do what he did whenever I hurt myself when I was little. Take me into his arms and kiss my head and tell me it was all going to be fine and a little bit of me wanted him to. I could also see the pain in his eyes and how tiered he was, I also saw guilt. And it was just too much I take the few steps needed to be in front of him and hug him. It felt comforting it felt great. He just stood frozen for a second before he finally hugged me back tightly squeezing me.
"It'll be ok" He whispers into my hair. I close my eyes and just move my head, snuggling closer to his shoulder, he was wrong things weren't going to be ok not right now maybe not ever but they were going to get better at some point. I'm not sure how but things weren't going to remain like this forever and his words took the last of the chill inside me the Cookie's heat couldn't melt.
"Kate's prepared your room, but I thought we could go see your mom first"
"Mum" I mumble against his shoulder but clutch him tighter before breathing in deeply and letting him go, returning to reality. Dad nods he seems to understand the change but his eyes seemed to shine slightly exactly like the day he told me he was moving out and I...begged him to stay.
"Let the girl eat something first knowing my son he probably only gave her the cookies he insist on making" I swirl on Cookies to see him looking at the floor his cheeks slightly flushed.
"You made them?"
"Yeah, well Emily makes such nice cookies but the guys use to eat them all before I had a chance too, so I asked her to teach me to make them, and well mine aren't as good but they're better than nothing"
"They were really nice" I smile at him.
"Ok she can eat" Dad grumbles.
"And you too, you look terrible have you eaten? I bet you haven't instead you just drank coffee black no doubt and thick as mud well…" Joan's voice fades as she walks into the kitchen my dad following behind her. Cookies and I stood in the small cramped hallway for a second just looking at each other. I didn't know what to say I woke up all easy and relax, admitted that I threw myself at him in front of my dad cool as a cucumber but now, now I was a nervous as hell my heart beating loudly in my chest.
"I'll get your clothes" Cookies says even as he walks towards me. I blink confused till he reaches me and leans down to lightly kiss my forehead. I smile.
"It will be ok" He whispers "I'll make sure it is" He says before turning to get my clothes. I was still standing melting in the hallway when he returned. He chuckles as after the fifth attempt I manage gather my clothes together. He was just so amazing.
"Do you want to go see your Mom now or later?"
"Now please" I say not bothering to correct the Mom mum thing. We were in the car driving out of La Push after a tense breakfast. Dad glared at Cookies, Cookies ignored it and Joan swapped between glaring at my dad for glaring at her son and nagging him to eat more.
"Ok" Dad says softly and takes the necessary turning to take us to hospital. My stomach curls and twists uneasily at the thought. What would she look like? How long would she be in a coma? What happened once she was out of the coma? I needed to face the light I couldn't keep climbing trees and smashing up rooms. I needed to be sensible and act mature like I had thought I was all these years. I clear my throat to begin it felt tight and dry even after all the coffee I drank.
"What happens when mum is out of hospital?" Dad didn't answer at first. Instead he frowns at the road. The he sighs.
"I don't know, Wendy will no doubt need intensive physiotherapy and you might have to move house bring in a carer for a short time, maybe it would be best if you move out with Aunt Lilly, oh by the way she's coming over I had to phone her" Dad says before I could say a thing. Aunt Lilly was the only living relative my mum had and she was a total bitch. She patronized mum when she was talking to her that is. She had been through five husbands all who I felt sorry for but one had tried it on with mum once and Lilly found out when the husband, number three to be exact, told her when moving out in anger. Well she then blamed mum and ended up not speaking to her for years till mum had to phone her telling her she had MS. Then she had been all "Oh Wendy! Poor you!" If you can't tell I don't like her.
"I don't want to move to Aunt Lilly's, neither will mum we both can't stand her. And I'll care for mum"
"You can't, what about school, you've done a good job till now but she will need help 24/7 you have a future you can't do that. Wendy wouldn't want that. It was her greatest fear that you would put her before your future, before your happiness" Dad spoke quickly and quietly but I could still hear the emotion thick in his voice. I look out of the window. This was getting to close to a heart to heart.
"She's my mum" I say ending it. But it doesn't.
"And I'm your father but you don't mind ignoring me"
"You hurt me! Mum didn't walk out on me like you!" I say turning to face him while I hissed the words.
"Your mum told me to leave!" Dad says slapping the steering wheel.
"What?" I had never heard this before.
"Nothing" Dad says calm now as he turns into the hospital and finds a place.
"Mum told you to leave? She was angry then" I say the last more to myself but he answers.
"Yes she was angry but she didn't tell me to leave in anger"
"What?"
"Let's just leave it at that I don't want to bring the past up again"
"But-"
"Erin please" Dad turns the car off as he speaks and now turns to face me his eyes were shining with moisture but the blue was dull and tiered. And I saw it. That he still loved mum, and that he was in pain, I was causing him pain. Then quick as a flash he blinks and it's gone.
"Erm" I swallow my throat suddenly tight with tears "go home, get some sleep I'll be a few hours I'll call when I need a ride, and if you're not awake I'm sure Kate will give me a lift or I'll get a taxi"
"I'll come in with you, I'll stay in the waiting room be as long as you want but I don't want to go home right now, there will be too many but if I go back with you there will be none"
"Ok, you can come in if you want to not like I'll be having a private conversation with her"
"You might surprise yourself" Dad mumbles and gets out of the car. I follow feeling of kilter. We don't speak till I reach mum's door. I breathe deeply.
"Wake me up when you're ready to come back to mine" Then he turns and walks to the waiting room. I close my eyes and then my heart hammering in my chest open the door. I don't know why I feel so scared it's not like I didn't know what to expect. She looked no different so that answers that question. He hair was startling against the white of the pillow and her skin. I walk closer my feet like lead. The chair creak when I sit down and that with the beep and wheeze of the machines keeping her alive were all that made a sound. Till I opened my mouth. I didn't want to talk. I had not thought to but I do. Seems dad was right.
"Why did you ask dad to leave?" I knew there would be no answer but I needed to ask and I knew I wouldn't have asked if I could be answered. I was to scared that I had made both my dad and myself unhappy all these years by being angry for the wrong reasons.
"Was it because you were angry at him because the way dad spoke today it wasn't. It was like you were ok with him leaving but how could you be? You were both each other's first loves you had me young. It wasn't all a lie was it? That you met at 21 and within a year were married and had me" I feel it hit me like a train "Oh my god you married because you were pregnant. Not because you loved each other! I was just a mistake that you had to clean up! Why didn't you just abort me?" I was a mistake I think darkly. Always have been always will be. Causing more people to make mistakes around me.
"We didn't abort you because we loved you before you were born and we loved each other, the story we told you is true. Never think that you were or are a mistake again" I was startled at Dad's appearance and words, the last had sounded menacing. Then as quick as he appeared he left leaving me confused and for the hundredth time in the last three days crying. I clutch my mum's limp hand and focus on the chipped bright red nail varnish.
"Then why did it go wrong? Why did you let him leave?" I whisper. "Why did you let my daddy walk away from me?" These weren't the questions to ask or to have answered. No theses were the questions I needed to answer.
Why was young and quick love doomed?
Why had I let dad walk away from me and why did I keep pushing him?
And the most terrifying to ask;
How had I fallen in love with Cookies this fast and will I survive it ending?
I breathe out shakily. I was in love. I really was. Cookie's made me feel like I never had. I wanted to talk to him, I felt safe with him, he was the light in my life, I could argue with him. I could be myself. He made my knees weak and my heart flutter. But most importantly I felt secure in myself with him, like the walls that had crumbled all those years ago were starting to rebuild brick by brick.
But he couldn't love me. He couldn't. And we are so young he knows what he wants in life and I'm floating. It's bound to end. So what do I do? Just go for it, create memories to remember or cut it off now before I have those memories that will cut me up later when I'm alone?
I listen to the beeps of my mum's heart for just a second while I listen to the laughter in my memories and smile. Clutching tighter to her hand I lean over to kiss her forehead.
"See you tomorrow mum, I'm off to make memories"
"I've made up the spare for you, and I haven't let the girls in, so it's still in one piece but I have put in the card they made you. It would be nice if you could look at it for them." Kate was leading me up the stairs. Dad and I had come in eaten and then promptly fallen asleep on the sofa. I had just woken up. It was ten past eight. "Their bed time is at nine if you could maybe just see them before they go, but if you don't feel up to it don't but-"
"It's ok Kate, I'm not going to bite your head off and I'll look at the card" I interrupt Kate. She looked just as tiered as Dad.
"I really am sorry about your mom- I mean mum" We had reached my room now and I open the door. Kate moved off to leave but I couldn't let her go yet.
"Kate?"
"Erin?" She sounded shocked. I lean against the door frame. I look straight into her eyes, they were green. I never noticed before, I also never noticed that she was extremely beautiful even though her nose had a bump in it like it had once been broken.
"I want to say sorry for all I have done, it was stupid and selfish of me and I want to apologise for what I will do. I'm trying to change but it's not going well so I just want to let you know I will mess up and that I want you to tell me. Don't step on egg shells around me" She looks to me for a second before blinking five times in quick succession.
"I will, and apology accepted but you are going through a hard time-"
"Lots of people are"
"Don't interrupt me" Kate grins at me and I smile back. "But I will try my best, and if you ever want to talk or want to go see that Cookie guy then just tell me. I'll be happy to listen or cover for you, your dad, well he's not too happy with Embry"
"Thank you" she smiles at me again and then turns to leave but I was curious now.
"How did you break your nose" Kate's shoulders tense. Before she calls back to me.
"Oh in an accident a long time ago" I frown but turn into my room switching the light on. It was a plain room but tidy and didn't smell of paint and was not a tree so it was a nicer place to sleep than I had done recently. I walk over to the bed and see the card that was on my bed side cabinet. It was huge at least A3 folded up but as I pick it up and glitter floats to the floor I see the note. Written in thick blue and pink pen.
Open up.
I follow the instructions and see that it was more of a poster but as I do another smaller card slips out. I place the big card on the bed to pick it up. It was in an envelope and it was bumpy. I quickly open it and see why. There was a macaroni necklace covered in multicoloured glitter and another card. With a paper tissue bouquet of roses on the front and printed in pink pen Get better soon. I open it with shaky fingers to see a message written wonkily but clearly.
To Wendy
We hope you get this card and that you like it. I (Beth) did all the writing and all the pink roses on the front and June did all the red roses and the stalks.
Get better soon
Love
Beth and June
Xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Actually kisses covered all the free space that didn't have a letter in it. I feel myself smile and place them both back in the envelope to take to the hospital tomorrow. Then I turn back to my card. It was covered in glitter and bright paint. There were flowers and my car, but the best bit that made me laugh was the pictures they had drawn of my family. There was dad and Kate and those two, labelled just so I knew who they were but it was pretty clear. They were drawn to the right and were waving at me. Then on the left was Nicole with devil horns and a frowning red face. But the best bit was the middle. I was there with Cookies and we were holding hands and he was smiling at me. And there was a speech bubble and an arrow coming off him. The arrow had "smells like cookies!" and the speech bubble said "It will be ok". Cheeky little monkeys they had been ears dropping. I smile as I turn the page over.
To Erin
Hope you feel better even though you're not ill. We hope your mommy gets better soon and that you give her the card that we made and the necklace.
Love
Beth and June
P.S Can you bring Embry Cookie around again?
Xxxxxxxxxxxxx I had even more kisses than my mum's card as I had more paper to fill. I feel my smile grow wider. I had great little sisters there. Shame I was always angry at them too. I go to place it back on the side cabinet but change my mind. Instead leaving the card on the bed I walk straight into Nicole's room I knew she would be out and raid her desk for blue tack. Then returning with tack in hand pin the card on the wall opposite to my bed.
"Girls time to brush your teeth" I hear Kate say entering their room. I look to my watch and realise that the time had flown. I wait till they had gone into the bathroom before walking into their room.
"Kate"
"Erin!" Kate says surprised turning away from the clothes she was piling neatly.
"Shhhh" I say putting my finger to my lips. "I want to surprise them" Kate nods then smiles and leaves the room. Quickly running down the stairs. I sit on one of the Barbie pink ruffle covered beds. Nice room. A bit too pink for my liking but nice.
"It's not on the bedside table like mommy said she put it" I hear Beth whisper.
"Did she not like it?" June whispers back a slight tremble to her voice.
"I don't know should I check the bin?" What a sister I was. I wait. "No I shouldn't go into her room she doesn't like that and mommy told us not too" Then I heard them coming their feet shuffling on the carpet. They didn't notice me immediately; they had changed into Disney princess nighties. I think I still had mine it was Cinderella. Their hair was fluffy at the top their heads dipped but they weren't tiered. They were dejected. They could be twins they were so together. Even though Beth was three years older and Beth Brown haired while June was blonde.
"Boo!" I say startling them both causing them to jump and squeal. I smile when I see their eyes lock and widen on me.
"Erin?"
"Didn't you like the card?"
"Hey" I smile at them. "Come here" I pat the bed on either side of me. They come slowly over and sit next to me keeping a distance. I didn't want that at the moment, I roll my eyes and put my arms around them pulling them closer to me.
"I loved the card I've stuck it on my wall, and my mum will love her card and necklace" They both relax and slowly hug me back. Their hair tickling my face.
"We really hope you both feel better soon" Beth murmurs against my shoulder.
"So do I but I do have one question" I let the girls go, they look to me uncertain. "Do you two ears drop often?"
"We don't ears drop!" They squeal at the same time.
"Uh Huh" I say making sure they knew I wasn't angry. "So are you too tiered?" I ask an idea suddenly coming to me. They shake their heads. "Well what about we have a little girly night? I'm sure if I ask nicely Kate will be ok with you staying up a little later" The nod and start to bounce excitedly.
"Ok get together all the hair and nail stuff you have" Being eight and five I knew they wouldn't have much so I quickly run down to ask Kate if it was ok so I would have time to raid Nicole's stuff as well as mine for anything.
"Kate can I spend some time with Beth and June, I promise they will be asleep by midnight" Kate just smiles and nods.
"Sure school is closed the rest of the week anyway the school is going under repair from the damage of the storm. So as long as it's before 3am I'm fine with it" but Dad looks to me like I had grown another head. I run back up the stairs and straight into Nicole's room after a quick stop in the kitchen to make hot chocolate and grab some chocolate. I instantly spot something the girls would love and scoop it up along with a few other things. Then a quick check in my room and the stuff Kate had packed for me earlier in the day when Dad told her I was coming. She had thought like a girl unlike I'm sure my dad would of and packed me makeup. Then after changing into my PJ's go back the girl's room.
"Hey" I greet them. They had made a good pile of hair ties and clips and a few tubes of pink lip gloss. "Kate's ok with it so let's begin" Beth and June look at me at a loss and it's then I realise I too am not quite sure what I was doing. There was only one thing for it. I check my watch it was 9.15. Not too late. I pick up my mobile and quickly call Kim.
"Hey" she picks up at the first ring and sounds worried.
"Hey Kim, fancy coming to my rescue?"
"Erin, are you ok?"
"Well not really, see Beth, June and I are having a girly evening but I just realised I haven't a clue what to do" Kim laughs but it was a strained sound "Can you come round maybe bring the twins?"
"Well I'm babysitting so do you mind having a girly evening plus one little guy?"
"Sure Josh is welcome anytime"
"Oh and Pixie?" I hear the little girl squeal in the background.
"I'm sure it will be fine we have blankets so just bring some stuff and help us out I'll have hot chocolate ready"
"See you Erin, and really how are you doing" Kim's voice turns caring and I feel my self crack slightly. I has so much to talk to her about.
"I'm coping but come round quick" I add in a whisper.
Thanks for reading pleas review.
A/N Like I said part two up soon. More family bonding I know I put a lot of this in my other story but it's important to me so there will be a lot of it and Erin's is going to end up differently to Kim.
New story up Anger and the Artist My Leah and Caleb story check it out!