EMOTIONS: We'd be better off whithout them

by Exploading albino potato

After the death of Mello's boyfrined Matt, Mello is working with Near on the Kira case. Near has to deal with Mello's anger and violence as well as his own feelings for him. Near's POV. NO LEMON. cursing, blood, Murder, suicde. MxM MxN. Very depressing.

10. The end

The sickening thought crept into my mind.

I could just shoot myself. It was so tempting. I crawled over from Mello's corpse...ugh. Calling him a corpse sounds so wrong. I picked up the weapon, and touched the cold metal to my cheek. Slowly, slowly I moved the gun from the side of my face to my temple, I closed my eyes again.

I was going to pull the trigger but I dropped what I was holding and the gun clattered to floor.

I realizes I was the last one left to solve the Kira case. L was dead. A and BB were long dead. Matt had died and Mello's corpse was lying in a pool of blood a few feet away from me. I had to solve the case. For L. For Mello.

Eventually I did. I sat in the yellow-box warehouse with the murder notebook under my shirt. I watch Raito Yagami get shot to death by Matauda and I wrote Teru Mikami's ass in the death note. Pardon my language, I think Mello's foul speech has rubbed off on me.

And then I simply went home. Or to the Kira HQ. Kira was dead. Gone. Then a few hours later I heard of the second Kira's suicide. She jumped off a bridge. That started strirring up my emotions...Oh theese damn emotions. I thought I didn't have any...No I knew I had emotions i just pretended I didn't. Emotions...We'd be better off whithout them is what I always used to think. But Mello changed that. I knew I never should have loved him but I did. L would be so ashamed of me .

But I had done it. I had solved the case. I should be happy. If L was watching me that should make him happy.

Mello's gun was in my dresser drawer. I knew I should have gotten rid of it but I didn't. The logical part of me was screaming not to do it. But I had served my purpose in this world, now I was no longer needed and would not be missed by anyone.

I took my puppets off the top of my dresser and picked up the Kira one. I hurled it out the window. Then I kissed the Mello puppet and put him next to the doll of myself, along with Matt and L.

I picked up the gun and held it to my temple. My eyes stung, but I closed them. I pulled the trigger and shot myself in the heat, because my heart already hurt enough.

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