I'm not quite in the writing mood right now but I figure that I'm not doing anything but being lazy at the moment anyways. So this is chapter ten and I know that I haven't really been responding to any of the reviews lately. I just haven't got the attention span to sit down and do so yet. I'll do it soon though. I promise. Well, I hope this chapter is to your liking and have a wonderful week! I love you all!

James POV:

As the night went on I remembered more and more of the accident that I was in. I hadn't remembered much when I went to sleep but through the night I kept having nightmares about it. I now remembered that the man who hit me was on his cell phone and when his car crashed into mine I smacked my head on something. I couldn't quite figure out what I had hit in on but the taste of the blood than ran into my mouth was fresh in my memory. I tried to reach for my cell phone to call someone but the pain that was coursing through my body made me pass out instantly. I could recall little bits and pieces of being taken out of my car and being placed into an ambulance while the medics were trying to ask me questions. Even though I tried to answer I knew that nothing that I thought I was saying could actually be heard. The last thing that I remember was a doctor telling me that I was extremely lucky and that he was going to help me recover. After that I just fell into a deep sleep and that was it. I never thought that I could be this sore though. My whole body just felt like it was being crushed. My arms and legs didn't even measure up to the pain that I was having in my side. I knew that I was on pain killers but it even hurt to breath. Every breath I took was making it worse and I didn't want to open my eyes to look at my bruised and swollen body. I knew that I shouldn't be complaining about how I felt because I was really lucky to even be alive at the moment.

I just wish that I could be at work and sitting with Kendall at his desk having coffee. Kendall!

I whipped my head over to the side only to see that Kendall wasn't where he was the night before. The bed they had made for him was no longer there and neither was he. I sighed and laid my head back down on the pillow before realizing how terrible of an idea it was to move my head that fast. I now had a bad headache and nobody to soothe it. I closed my eyes and tried to sleep again but my body just wouldn't allow that.

I heard the door open and a woman's voice say, "Oh, he's still sleeping. He's had a hard night but you can give that to him when he wakes up. Just make sure he doesn't burn himself."

"Thanks nurse. I'll take good care of him. If I need you I'll make sure to call." I smiled when I knew Kendall was the one talking.

She laughed, "Alright. And you don't have to call me nurse. Call me Kelly."

"Ok, Kelly. I'll see you around."

I heard the door close and Kendall must have been looking at me because he whispered, "Look at you. You're all beat up and yet here you are smiling." He chuckled, "And guess what? It's Wednesday. You know what that means? It's our coffee and muffin day. I went to Starbucks and got you your favorite."

I didn't have to open my eyes to know that he was smiling at me. He words were just happy and even though I knew he didn't want me to be in pain he was glad that he could be by my side. And honestly, if he was by my side then it didn't matter to me how much pain I was in. After a few minutes I decided to stop playing dead and groaned a little when I tried to move.

I opened my eyes slowly and he was sitting right next to me, "Good morning sleepy head."

I smiled, "Morning."

"You were kind of loud in your sleep last night. You were screaming and crying so I had the nurses give you some more pain killers. They're probably worn off by now but I wanted you to have a good sleep."

"Thank you. I didn't mean to keep you up."

He chuckled, "Really James? You're in this condition and you're worried that I didn't sleep?"

I nodded, "Yea."

"Well I got plenty of sleep. And I also got you this." He held the latte in front of my face and I smiled.

"My hero."

He laughed, "I try. And I also have muffins too but I don't think you're ready to eat yet. You probably can't even move without being in pain."

"Not really but that isn't going to stop me from enjoying our Wednesday coffee date."

Date? Oh god. Why did you say that?

He smiled, "Well then I'm going to have to help you get through it."

I knew that he so desperately wanted to tease me for calling it a date but he wouldn't because he took pity on me.

"Go ahead and say it."

He tilted his head like he didn't know what I was talking about, "Say what?"

"You know what. Just say it because I know if you don't say it now you're going to bring it up some other time."

He chuckled, "You know me so well don't you?"

I nodded, "Yes. Very well."

"A date though? Really? Is that what you think our mornings are?"

"Well, kind of. I mean it's exactly like a date. We have breakfast together and we talk about how everything is going in our lives so it's kind of like a date."

He shrugged, "I suppose it is. Well, maybe one day we can make it official."

I smiled, "Yea."

"With kissing and all of that."

I blushed remembering that I asked him to give me a goodnight kiss the night before. I knew that I really shouldn't have done that but I wanted it so bad. I felt like his kiss would heal me in some way and actually it did. He made me much happier than I was before. He was probably the only one that could make me smile when I was sitting in a hospital bed writhing in pain.

"About that kiss last night-"

He put his hand up to stop me and said, "Don't worry about it. I was happy to do so."

I half smiled, "Thanks. Uh, do you know when I'm getting out of here?"

"Your doctor came by this morning to talk to you about that but since you weren't awake he told me that they're going to hopefully get you home in two days or so. They don't want to send you home if you can't walk."

I groaned, "I don't want to be here anymore."

He laughed, "I know. Just hold in there. You'll be alright. And if you want I'll stay with you until you can get out."

"No you won't. You're going to school. I'm not letting you fail because of me."

"Settle down. Logan is going to class today and he's going to get my homework and stuff for me. He's going to bring my backpack and stuff too so I don't have to drive all the way back there."

I sighed, "Ok, but you better keep your grades up. And speaking of Logan how did their night go?"

He smirked, "I called him this morning and he was ecstatic. I don't know if they've had sex yet because he's all secretive about it and I would never be able to get that out of him but it's a good chance that they did."

I let out a little laugh that hurt my ribs, "Sex already? They're moving fast."

"Sometimes fast isn't really a bad thing."

"You're right. Sometimes going slow is just terrible. If they like each other that much then they should just go for it."

He smiled, "Yea, they should. They're obviously really good together and I think that they may actually last quite a while."

I nodded, "So, umm…did I talk in my sleep? I do that sometimes."

"You said some stuff but it's not like I had a conversation with you or anything."

"What did I say?"

He shrugged, "Other than your screaming you said that you wanted it to stop. And then later in the night after you got more pain meds you started saying how they hated you."

"Oh…"

He raised his eyebrow, "Who's they?"

I slowly shook my head, "Nobody…It's not important."

He put his finger under my chin and made me look into his eyes, "Don't lie to me James. I can tell that something is bothering you. You know that you can trust me. If you need to talk then just talk. I promise that I won't judge you or anything."

I didn't know what to say to him. Would it be ok to tell him the truth or would he just throw me away like everyone else did? I was embarrassed of my past and telling Kendall would be a big step for me. The only people that knew anything about my childhood were Carlos and my family. My family was no longer in the picture so pretty much it was just Carlos. He never judged me for anything but I didn't know how Kendall would react. I didn't have to tell him everything though. Maybe just a little bit would make him feel like he had helped me. I wanted him to feel like he had helped me but I knew nobody could make my past seem better. I looked up at him and saw concern in his bright green eyes. He did care about me and if he thought my past was too much to handle then I guess it would be better to get it over with.

I took a deep breath that made me cringe and then looked at him once more. "I was having a nightmare…about my parents."

"Your parents?"

I nodded, "When I was younger they treated me like I was a golden child. They got me everything that I had ever wanted and they made me feel so special. Being an only child was amazing. I was always happy and whenever I asked for something they gave it to me. As I grew older though I could tell that they were falling out of love. The people that I thought would never separate were falling apart right in front of me. When I reached middle school they started fighting constantly. They were always yelling at each other and one day my dad got home and he was mad. My mom wasn't around so he came right up to me. He told me to stand up and I did and then he hit me. After that day it just got worse, my mom didn't care that he was beating me. She would just stand there and watch. I was scared at the time and didn't even think of standing up to him. I thought that maybe it was my fault that they hated each other. I thought that if I behaved then they would be in love again and all of the fighting would go away. Then one day I got home from school and I didn't get much sleep the night before…My dad was mad that I went to bed without making him dinner so he came into my room…He had been out with his friends not long before and was so drunk…He started to tell me that I was worthless…That he wished that I had never been born…And then…"

I felt a tear run down my cheek and Kendall wiped it away. It was hard to tell this story. I knew that I was mumbling most of it and that he probably could barely understand what I was saying. He put his arm around me carefully so that he didn't hurt me then nodded to tell me that it was ok to keep going.

I stuttered out, "H-he r-raped me. I tr-tried to make him g-go away b-b-but he wo-wouldn't…" By this time I was bawling. Kendall had me wrapped in his arms and even though there was extreme pain flooding through my body I just didn't want him to let me go. The memories of my father all came rushing back into my mind and I just needed someone to comfort me.

He kissed my forehead and said, "James, I'm so sorry. You're not worthless, ok? You're wonderful. I've never met someone in my whole life that is as beautiful and amazing as you are. You're smart and kind and caring. If I ever had a son like you then I would be the happiest person alive. You can't think about the things your dad said to you because none of it is true."

He grabbed my hand and I realized that I had been shaking pretty violently. I didn't want Kendall to see me like this. It was a state that I hadn't been in since I moved out of my parent's house and told Carlos about everything. I promised myself that I wouldn't let anyone see me like this ever again. But Kendall wasn't just anyone, he was special, he was my one exception to everything.

I whispered, "Kendall?"

"Yea, James."

"You're perfect…"

Sleep was taking me over and I tried to fight it but when Kendall was holding me it was hard not to just close my eyes and dream. "You are too James." He kissed my forehead once more before I heard him starting to sing a song. I didn't know it but it was beautiful and before I knew it I was fading into my dreams.

Kendall POV:

I thought that when James was awake he was adorable but when he was sleeping he was much more than that. He looked so peaceful with his eyes closed and his lips parted just a bit. I could hear him breathing slowly and when I placed a soft kiss to his cheek he smiled a little. I started singing him random songs that would soothe him into a deep sleep and a few songs after he fell asleep I heard a knock at the door. Carlos walked in slowly and smiled at me.

He whispered, "He's sleeping still?"

I carefully pulled away from James and led Carlos out into the hallway. "He just fell asleep. He woke up but then we started having a discussion about his past and it wore him out a little bit."

His eyes grew big, "He told you about his past?"

I nodded, "Yea. He told me about his parents and what his dad has done to him. I'm not sure how much of his past he told me but it was enough to make me want to go kill his parents."

"Yea, when he told me about that I was about ready to go slit some throats too. They're terrible people. They don't talk to him anymore but they don't want him to be poor so they just send him a shit ton of money and clothes every now and then."

"Is that why he's always wearing designer clothes?"

Carlos nodded, "Yea. He tries to get in touch with them sometimes but they never answer him. They pretty much don't even acknowledge his existence."

"How can they not see how wonderful he is?"

He shrugged, "I don't know. I try to tell him to forget about them but for some reason he still wants them to be in his life."

I shoved my hands in my pockets and sighed, "He deserves better than that."

He smiled, "Yea, he deserves you."

"What?"

"Kendall, James has been treated terribly by several guys. Every single guy that he has ever dated has only wanted him for his looks. They would all have sex with him and then break up with him right after. He needs someone in his life that actually cares about him. Someone that wants him to be happy and that will go to the ends of the earth to make that happen. I know that you like him a lot and trust me when I say that he's dying to ask you out. He needs you Kendall. I know it sounds weird because you two have only known each other for a little while but it's true. When he first told me that you were perfect for him I just didn't believe a word he said but now I see that he was right. You are perfect for him and you both have a huge thing for each other. Just stop thinking and do what you want to."

Before I could say anything to him he put up his hand to my face and said, "Just don't be scared of what might happen anymore. He likes you. I have to go pick Logan up from school. I'll be back in a little bit with him. He's gonna bring you dinner and your stuff. Seriously, Kendall, don't be stupid."

He turned around and walked towards the elevator. He smiled at me one last time before stepping onto it and leaving the hospital. I turned back to look at the door to the room James was in.

What should I do? You know what you should do? Ask him out. Tell him you like him. Do something that will make him realize that you're into him. What if something bad happens again and you never get to tell him how you feel? Don't let that happen. Just like Carlos said 'Don't be stupid'. You can do this. For once just trust your gut.

I took a deep breath and when I walked in I saw James sitting up in his bed watching TV. He smiled at me and patted a spot next to him on his bed.

"Aren't you supposed to be sleeping Diamond?"

He shrugged, "I suppose but really I haven't watched TV in a while and now that I'm crippled it's nice to do so. And besides, I didn't want my latte to go bad." He held up his latte and I laughed.

"Of course. Only you would wake up and willingly be in pain just to drink a latte."

He chuckled, "I actually haven't taken a sip yet. I was waiting for you. I heard you talking to Carlos out there. Where did he go?"

"You heard us?"

He nodded, "Yea. Something about him picking up Logan and you being stupid."

Thank God he didn't hear the whole thing.

I sauntered over to the spot on his bed and sat down. I took his hand and he flashed me a smile. I laughed and he asked, "What? Something funny about me being injured?"

I shook my head, "No. I just like how happy you can be when you're all broken and in the hospital. It makes me feel good."

He squeezed my hand and smiled, "The only reason I'm happy is because you're here with me."

I blushed, "There's no need to lie to make me feel better."

"I'm not lying." I looked into his hazel eyes and saw that he really wasn't lying.

I still don't understand how he can like you. You're not anything special.

I guess I looked sad because within seconds he made me look up at him. "What's wrong Kendall?"

"Nothing. It's just I don't understand."

"Understand what?"

Alright, Kendall. Don't make this sound lame or anything. Just go in for the kill.

I bit my lower lip and quietly mumbled, "Why we aren't…together."

"We are together."

"I didn't mean like in the same room. I mean like…why aren't we a thing? We've spent all of this time trying to impress each other and turn each other on that we're just wasting it."

He smiled, "I didn't know you liked me."

I looked up at him and glared, "You have no idea how much I want to punch you right now. That is the biggest lie I have ever heard in my life."

He chuckled, "Ok, maybe I did. I just thought that it would be weird to date a student. Before you came along I promised myself no matter what I would never date a student."

"That's stupid."

"No it's not. Getting involved with students is…frustrating."

I asked, "How so?"

"If I were to date a student and they sucked at my class I would feel obligated to give them a passing grade. Even if they didn't deserve it."

I ran my finger up his arm and said, "Well hey there big man. Wanna go out?"

We both laughed and he said, "You're wonderful Kendall and I would love to go out with you. I'm just worried."

"Ok, well how about we do this? Once the semester is over and I've already failed your class with flying colors then we can try it."

He laughed, "I'm not going to let you fail. You're going to pass. Trust me. You're not as stupid as you think you are."

I smiled, "Thanks. Do I still have to call you Professor Sexy?"

He nodded, "Of course. Who else is going to build up my self-esteem?"

I shrugged, "Alright, but once we go out I'm calling you James."

He kissed my cheek, "Deal."

I don't know how I feel about this. I've been in a 'I don't want to write anymore' type of mood and it's killing me. I will never stop updating! Lol. Well, let me know what you guys think. Was it really as bad as I thought it was? Don't forget to review and all of that fun stuff. I'll try to reply to reviews tomorrow or tonight. Love you all!