Out of the two chapters, I'd have to say this one sucked. It didn't really show what I wanted. But I needed to get it out there for you guys. I have a plan! But you'll have to read the bottom authors note to figure it out. I hope this chapter is okay.

-I don't own naruto.

Chapter 10: Fixing

I found myself shrouded by darkness again. I was getting sick of it. Sick of the same darkness. Sick of Kakashi. Sick of my hate towards myself.

I was going to fake myself out of anorexia. I would eat, and I wouldn't throw it up. I would gain all the weight back, and then lose it all again. Just to get Kakashi off my back. All I needed was his trust. Then, I could go back to perfection. Right now, it's so close I can almost taste it, but now I have to go back.

Stupid Kakashi. Why can't he just forget about me? Why can't he just ignore me? Everyone else does already.

I opened my eyes, and the ceiling was above me again. My head was still swirling. The half eaten rice ball was on the table when I came out, and I sat in the chair in front of it. Kakashi came over, and sat across from me. I looked up at him for a second and quickly looked back down. The rice ball fit perfectly in my hand. There was going to be a lot of pretending in the next few days.

I nibbled at the side, and chewed slowly. Kakashi didn't say a word, and I felt like I needed to say something if I was going to get him out in the next 6 days.

"Kakashi-sensei…" I started, "I want to change…"

He looked at me, surprised.

"Good," He acknowledged me. "This should be a lot easier."

I took small bites of the rice ball until there was nothing left, and I got up to wash the plate.

"I'll take care of that later," Kakashi told me. "Are you still hungry?"

"Not really…" I faked a small insecurity.

"Alright then. Let me get some rules out. I don't want you training this whole week. It would push you too far, and you don't need that right now. You aren't allowed to leave the house without another person with you. When I think I can trust you, there will be exceptions to the rules, but for now, this is what they are. Understood?" He spoke seriously.

I nodded and looked at the ground again. My face held the same sad expression, but I was a total mess inside.

This was going to be a long week.

He led me to the couch, and sat me down across from him again.

"So, in the meantime, we might as well get some things straight," He cleared his throat. "What do you think started your anorexia?"

I fidgeted uncomfortably in my place. "I came home from training one day, and I was sick of being shunned. I looked at myself in the mirror, and noticed extra skin on my body, and I made a goal to lose it."

"So mostly everything traces back to Sasuke?" He probed.

I kept hesitation in my voice, but that wasn't acting. I didn't want to tell Kakashi anything. "Not really… Ino always seemed perfect through my eyes…"

"What about her did you see?"

"She was everything I wasn't. She wasn't as shy as me. She wasn't as fat. She wasn't as ugly. Her forehead wasn't as big. I guess I was just jealous…"

I was relieved when Kakashi finally stopped interrogating me.

"When I stopped eating, all the rest of the girls around me looked perfect too. I saw myself so inferior, and I hated that."

I found myself surprised because I was telling Kakashi so much. I should've been telling him lies. Some other reason why someone would be anorexic. But I was telling him my reason. Was it because I really wanted to be "fixed?" No, it couldn't be. I was proud to be anorexic. It was all I had.

My stomach churned softly, and I looked down at it. After all this time, I was hungry again.

"If we're going to get this done before the exam, you're going to need to eat as much as you can," Kakashi stood up and took out more food as I grimaced and leaned on the side of the couch.

"Can I get some fresh air?" I asked uncertainly.

"Don't go any further than the front porch. I'm trusting you," he answered.

I sat with my legs hanging off the edge of the platform. My back was leaning against the support pole with my head turned out to the front of my house. A little girl playing with her dad passed by, and I took note of her giant smile and bubbly laugh. Another couple passed with their heads entwined with each other. I smiled softly, and turned to the sky, wishing for my happiness back.

Kakashi came out with a plate of cut fruit, and I took a piece and popped it into my mouth.

"Sensei, how long did it take for you to get over all the deaths you went through?" I kept my gaze on the sky.

"I was busy as a ninja, so I didn't think of them very often. At the beginning, they were all I could think of when I had the time, but as I got busier, thoughts of them disappeared."

We both stayed silent again, and I ate another apple. A warm breeze passed when I took a deep breath. Kakashi went back into the house, and I kept thinking outside. The sun was starting to set with giant purple and pink clouds around it. I felt as if the food was slowing me down rather then speeding me up, but I said nothing of it. The week would go with the same act until Kakashi left and I went back to this.

Fruit on the plate disappeared quickly, as I was more comfortable eating it. I stood up and walked back inside when the sun fell under the horizon.

Kakashi was at the stove cooking dinner as I walked right past the kitchen to my room. I looked under my bed to see if my binge box was still there. There were a few wrapped fruity candies, and one chocolate bar, along with the mini bags of chips and cookies.

I threw a few chips into my mouth, and waited for the salty taste. Halfway through the bag, I unwrapped the chocolate, and popped that into my mouth. The sweet sugar melted in my mouth and my eyes closed. I immediately felt heavier. A small smirk was placed on my lips. Even if it meant unhealthy fat, if it was going to get Kakashi out faster, I was going to eat it. I shoved all the wrappers and bags back into the box, and walked out to the kitchen.

Kakashi was setting the table when I came out. A bowl of udon was steaming on the table, and I sat in front of it. The chopsticks beside it were broken, and dipped into the bowl. I savored the taste of the noodles drenched in oil and nearly gagged. I finished the bowl as slow as I could just so it seemed like I was uneasy. Afterwards, I drank a glass of water to make me seem heavier.

"I think we should weigh you now," Kakashi said. He walked me into the bathroom, and I stepped on, anxious for a higher number to pop up.

The screen went blank for a second, and then 74.3 came on. I almost smiled, but remembered to act. I slumped up against the wall, and sighed.

"It's for the best," Kakashi reassured me.

'Yeah, it is for the best, because it's best that he's gone so I can go back.' I thought slyly. I drooped my head down, and Kakashi walked out of the room. When I heard the door close, I came out and laid down on my bed.

"You gain weight when you eat and sleep soon afterwards," I whispered softly. My eyes closed while I was snuggled under the blankets as I began to drift away to a dream.

Chapter 10 ½: The Dream

I saw myself standing in front of a mirror staring at myself like in my dream from weeks ago, but something was different. I was skinny. Skinnier then I was before Kakashi put me under house arrest. I smiled in acceptance.

I sat down on my bed, wondering how it all happened, and suddenly saw Sasuke come into my room. He walked over to me and placed his arm around my waist. I looked up at him, unsure of what was going on, and he kissed my forehead softly.

I decided to go with it, and I leaned against his chest. His heartbeat was steady, and it brought a calm shadow around me. I breathed in deeply, and was surprised when I heard Sasuke say something.

"We're going to get you through this," he said.

I woke up to a bright room, and my heart was beating rapidly. I tried to tell myself it was only a dream, but that didn't seem to work. I looked out to the living room, and there was a note on the table.

Sakura,

I'll be right back. Make breakfast.

I looked into the refrigerator and I saw food ready, but it had to be cooked. I took it out, and turned on the stove to cook it. I sighed. I was only one day into the week, and I felt like I was going crazy already.

I kept my act up, and was able to persuade Kakashi to let me off at 85 pounds. There was still two days before the exams started, and I couldn't be more excited. Kakashi was gone, so I could go back to losing weight.

Dizziness, shortness of breath, and headaches quickly came back to me. I was anorexic again, and I couldn't feel more alive.

Maybe my dream would come true, but instead, Sasuke would like me for my skinny, perfect self.

Again, not the best, but it'll do for now. Sakura didn't seem like she was acting. Which, if you didn't pick that up, she was acting.

I'm hoping that I can finish this story before or on my birthday. (Feburary 2nd) but I don't think that will happen.

When I do finish though, I'm going to be planning for a possible sequel, and I'll be editing all my stories. In addition, I'm going to write another sequel to a Love Kills because I've left that for a while now.

So chances are, you're going to be hearing less from me.

I think the updates are getting slower and slower... Thanks for reading. The next chapter will be finished, revised, edited, and uploaded soon. Pinky promise.