I looked at him 'Felix' I purred 'What are you doing?' I looked at him and smiled, showing him I wasn't afraid. He shook his head and his eyes went back to the red color.

"Prue" was the only thing he said right before he pressed me against the tree, his hands resting against the tree next to my head, looking up and down. I held my breath as he leaned closer, his lips close to my ear as I felt his breath on my earlobe. "I was hunting and then I smelled you, obviously. What were you doing?" he made me feel like a big pile of goo, his voice was deep, strong and with seriousness to it. His voice sounded dangerous, sexy, I took a shaky breath as his eyes bored into mine.

'I was hunting that bear and then I' I heard my voice was weak, like I was some nervous schoolgirl talking to her crush, I cleared my throat and looked back 'saw you' I swallowed 'draining the bear and I couldn't stop watching'

I saw his eyes darken while he looking at me, he could see and smell how his drinking had an effect of me. He leaned closer and he licked his lips, he moved closer, agonizing slow. Like he needed to be sure whether or not he could do this. "You're so" and then my cell phone started to ring, Uprising from muse.

'Shit Alice' I said as I grabbed my phone and picked it up.
"Jane is on her way, you have to run" Alice shouted and I looked into Felix's eyes.

'Sorry but I have to run.' I said as I pushed him away but he grabbed my wrist. 'Jane is coming, I have to go Felix' I said as I looked in his eyes, I knew my eyes were showing fear and I pulled myself free. I ran into the forest, I was just in time.

But then I felt the pain in my head, it was torturous! I screamed in pain, falling to the forest floor.

Jane! Shit, I wasn't in time, the pain was way worse than my change. I knew rage made a power useless so I made a decision and stood up, it was almost impossible, the pain was everywhere but pain meant you where alive.

'Is that all you can do Jane? Come on you can do better than that!' I heard her growl and they came into view. The pain got worse and I smirked, my plan was working. Although it was hard to think straight but then I reminded myself that Alice in the dungeon and the loner years were emotionally more painful, physical pain was bearable. I chuckled 'I guess I'll take your place if I decide to go to the Volturi, I bet Aro would like me more at his side then me Jane. I bet I could make him forget you!' if Jane was a cartoon character she would be red and steaming.

I needed a real comment, I knew Jane was Aro's fuckbuddy and I could use it to make her snap, then I could run. But I could hurt Felix with those next words, I saw how he was struggling to get to me and then I decided I could do it, he would understand that I needed to run.

The pain was really bugging me and I looked at Felix, hoping he would understand the lie I was going to tell. 'I bet I could be Aro's queen if I wanted to' I didn't want it and I hoped Felix understood that I didn't want it 'my power is more valuable as yours and I bed I can make him scream my name!' I heard Felix gasp and I glared at Jane 'you are replaceable Jane and you will never be Aro his queen, when I have him, he will ask Jane who?'

The pain stopped shortly and her rage made her power useless, she wanted to attack me. I looked at Felix and he was just staring at me. I mounted only you at him and then I ran. I ran as fast as I could towards the Cullens.

Jane was behind me, rage filling her and I skidded to a stop and turn around, I lit my lighter and made a fireball. Oh I would love to see that bitch her face when I threw it at her. She saw me and stopped "You can choose to run so I don't have to throw this" I said as I held up the fireball. I smirked; I loved feeling powerful over some other vampire.

She growled and turned around 'I'll be back', I just rolled my eyes. I was irritated because that bitch interrupted my alone-time with Felix, shit he almost kissed me. I would have felt his lips on mine.
I groaned, why wasn't I allowed to kiss that guy? Why was God picking on me? Because I was the one that wasn't able to die? Because I lived as long as the universe?

I got into the Cullens home and Jasper made me relax, I smiled at him and winked 'Thanks Jasper' I said and he smiled, I still couldn't believe he had been a part of a strong newborn army, Alexander told me Maria's army was our biggest challenge. I shook my head to clear my mind, Alexander were forbidden thoughts.

"Prue my God, I was so worried when I saw I was too late" Alice said as she hugged me, I was flabbergasted and I hugged her back, taking in her scent. She smelled like roses on a rainy spring morning and I sighed happily.

'I'm great Alice, you know Jane's face right! It was epic to bug her like that. I loved it! And before you blame yourself listen to me. Because of you Jane found me running away from Felix instead of kissing him. What do you think would have happened when we were kissing? You made sure nothing huge has happened. He would have gone back to Aro and maybe I would never see him again. I must thank u Alice' I took a breath and smiled at her.

"Prue is right Alice, if you hadn't called, who would have known what had happened." Carlisle said as he smiled at me.

I was seated in the living room as Rosalie came in. She glared at me and I just smiled, I didn't know why she was acting like that. I didn't let it come to me and I grabbed an old necklace out off my back. It was a platinum chain necklace with a heart-shaped locket and a golden rose on the heart, the center of a rose was a small diamond and I thought it would be perfect for Rose. (url picture .com/media/a_ )

I grabbed it and ran after Rosalie 'Rosalie, can I come in? I have something for you' I tried to stay calm and keep the love in my voice but I was nervous as hell.

"Come in Prue" she sighed, when the door opened I looked inside the room and I was speechless, the room was beautiful and homey and safe and cozy and perfect.

'Wow, this room is so perfect! It's cozy and homey and I feel so safe here, like there is nothing that matters. Like you are away from the fucked up outside world, away from the real monsters out there, I wish I had this kind of room after Alexander ra' I held my hand in front of my mouth, glad that I hadn't said the words –after Alexander had raped me-, I looked up and Rose and she looked at me.

"Who is Alexander and what this that asshole did to you?"Shit, why was I babbling like that! Now I had to answer her, I had never told anyone about why I burned Alexander. That was my darkest secret, I even forced myself not to think of it but now I felt sick. I couldn't get that night out of my mind, I had to tell her.

I swallowed and took a deep breath.

'Alexander was my creator; he and his brother changed me. He survived biting me because he was a fast healer. My blood is venomous to a vampire; I think it's only venomous when I'm terrified. But that doesn't matter. So Alexander trained me to fight and he learned how I could control my power, he was obsessed with me and I had to call him Alex' I shuddered at the thought 'and because he was the only thing I knew, I listened to him. He wanted more off me than my power, he wanted my love, and he told me he loved me but I didn't love him. I hated him for what he had done to me. He had changed me in this monster and I knew I would never see Jack and my' I swallowed 'kids Thomas and Elisabeth back.' I started to sob uncontrollable and tried to compose myself, I took a shaky breath and continued. 'He told me he would kill them when I refused him, so I complied. He kissed me and touched me but that wasn't so bad, I knew he could easily have taken more. After 2 days he started to touch my lower parts and that night he asked me to come to his room. I got in his bedroom and I knew what he wanted, Jack was still mourning about my death but I knew he would be safe if I did this. After he was done with me he told me he had smelled my daughter and I knew he was right because he had a t-shirt of my girl. I smelled it and it smelled nice, but because she was my daughter it didn't smell tasty. He got me angry when he kept talking about how good she would taste.'

Rose looked at me with pain in her eyes, she felt with me. Did she lose a child or was she raped? I swallowed and then I grinned, remembering the revenge on Alexander. 'I knew anger fueled my power and I smirked at him. Telling him he would never be able to taste her because I wouldn't let him. Then I let him burn slowly, keeping him on the brink of death for 15 minutes. He begged me to stop like I had done but I just smiled and told him how good it felt to see him burn. After that happened one of the newborns said I was a slut for screwing the leader and I exploded, everything within a mile was burned to ash. I'm glad I burned that piece of shit to ash, every single rapist should be burned to death!'

She flinched at the words rapist and I looked at her. She sighed and she told me about Royce, what he had done to her and I hugged her. 'You have Emmet now, he's a great guy. You're big teddy bear right?' we talked some more and I told her about more about my kids, how I still loved him and that I was glad I hadn't forgotten about them. I showed her a picture of Jack, Thomas and Elisabeth and she brushed the picture of Elisabeth.

'This necklace is something I bought but I never wore it, I think it's perfect for you' I handed her the necklace and she looked at it and smiled widely. Her face said enough 'let's get out of this depressing mood and join the rest of your family; I know they heard the story too.'

The rest of the day was fun, I felt at home. How could that be possible after such a short time, Rose was starting to see me as a friend and I had Alice? We watched some movies, listened to some music.

I couldn't hold myself any longer as I seated myself behind the piano. I started to play the happy tune of Alice her song, she had written it at the early days off spring, when the roses had bloomed for the first time. It was an upbeat song but it still missed Alice on her violin.

Alice smiled as she looked at me play "My song The Blooming Rose!" she squealed.

'Yup, I never forgot it, but it misses something don't you think?' I said as the piece started again.

Alice looked at me confused as she started to think "I played the violin? Oh now I remember it! Jazzy I remember how to play!" she jumped up and down so excited that she was almost jumping against the ceiling. I chuckled and ended the music 'you should get yourself a violin Alice, you were talented as I human, I wonder what it will sound like now.'

Alice was all excited and talked about playing the violin with Nessie, Edward's daughter was leading it and she loved the sound of the violin.

At dawn I wanted to go home to grab my clothes but Alice stopped me, pushing some clothes in my hands. 'Annoying imp' I murmured as I saw the black miniskirt.

"You're going to wear it, you have stockings to stay warm in Alaska" I sighed "I'm right again" I rolled my eyes and dressed myself. A black miniskirt and a light ice blue long-sleeved shirt that showed my cleavage. Why the hell did I have to wear this shit? The humans would drool all over my appearance today.

'I hope you have a good reason for this Alice!' I shouted as I grabbed my black coat, I was glad I had a short coat else way you wouldn't have seen I was wearing a skirt. But then I saw the shoes, was she fucking serious? 6 inch heals for a school day?

'I'm not going to wear those black booths!' I shouted as I held those shoes in my hand.

"Trust me you will regret it when you don't wear them"

I sighed and put them on 'I guess I'll trust the psychic' Alice squealed and we were off to school.

The lessons were agonizing slow and all I could think about was Felix, what it would have been like if I had kissed him. Wondering how his lips would feel on mine, I needed to stop thinking about it or it would be visible when I bended. I was obsessed with a guy I barely knew and knew so well at the same time. It felt natural being with him, when he was near nothing else mattered.

When lunch finally came I needed fresh air. Alice smirked as I want to the front door; I stepped outside and took a deep breath. I must have been losing my eyes because I smelled cinnamon, chocolate and honey. I looked around and then I saw I wasn't dreaming, I wasn't losing my mind, Felix was standing at the other side of the road. I saw how his eyes, his now golden eyes, looked into the crowd and then they locked with mine.