Okay, so like the next few chapters are all character analysis chapters~ You don't have to read if you don't want to of course, but I'm going to go into their thoughts, their wishes, and stuff…xDDDD
Most of it is obviously –somewhat?- made up, since Arisa is an OC after all~
This chapter is Arisa, since she is mah main character~ Now you'll learn why I named this story "Broken Promises." I think…or hope you do. You'll always welcome to ask me if you're confuzzled.
Plus, everything you've read up till now is summarized in her thoughts, and you'll learn a few new things too.
I've finally put the song into the story ;D
The songs for you TalesOfLegendia Fan~ If you still read this xDDDDD
It's "Just be Friends" by Megurine Luka from Vocaloid.~
Chapter Bonus [Arisa]
Ever since I was a little girl, I've been growing under so many different circumstances. I was born into a good family, raised with love. Only problem is, I've always had such a different life, so many difficulties arise constantly, and everything could just crumble in a split second. Like how glass breaks just by dropping it.
I never had a "real" family. My real family never came back. I've only had many temporary ones.
My brother disappeared from my life early, him going to something training for Naturals. I was a coordinator, a different person. But we were still family though. Auel was my beloved older brother, my brother that I clung to while I was a kid.
I've only ever had 3 friends I could really call "friends." Kira, Athrun…and Lacus. Kira, Athrun and I met while we were very young. I met Lacus many years later but we became fast friends. I haven't seen any of them other than Lacus until the Bloody Valentine incident happened, not like it was good thing of course.
Although we had a 2 year age difference, I was never treated like someone younger.
We were all like equals, standing on the same ground.
Proud and happy.
I've never had any other friends. I was so secluded from the world; the only two I ever talked to were my brother and half-brothers. I can't say much about that though. The world thinks of me as nothing more than an idol, a singer, a star.
All I wanted was to be me and truthful.
I've had to keep up this "aristocratic" feel on me, polite, proud, and rich. All because of my foster family. It's not as if I wanted to be rich. All I wanted was to be…well…me. That was all just the makeup of who I was told to be.
The person I strived to be was to maybe be like Lacus. After all, who doesn't? She's kind and gentle, she has a pretty face, as well as the fact that she speaks well in crowds. Her words are strong, they motivate pretty everyone. She's the perfect being.
I've never known the feeling of being perfect.
I walk, I trip. I mess up, I cry. At least I used to.
And then when I tour around town, my eyes would flash onto couples. They would be holding hands, smiling at each other affectionately. They would whisper to each, giggle and laugh.
Oh how I wish I could be one of those people. To have someone hold my hand and whisper sweet things into my ears.
And then…there was Nicol. He was like the bright light that shone above me, my own personal green haired angel. He was so kind, and so gentle. When he held my hand, its warmth would transfer to me. When I called his name, he would perk up and smile like a little kid.
Too bad he's not here anymore.
He was the only person that I could say I truly ever loved. My friends…were like family.
Kira Yamato. He and I probably had more in common than Athrun and the both of us. We would enjoy playing games together all the time; our tastes in food were even similar. We would laugh like an idiot, and would always have the most fun together. He had a nice family too.
Best friends…
Forever
Athrun was a different case. He grew up on the Plants, his father being the leader. He was born rich, sophisticated, and smart. Even as a kid, he always had an interest in robots. He built little toy robots for Kira and me, a bird and a fox. He left us early, and we've never met for long time.
A friend that would always be kept in my heart
A bond like steel.
Cagalli and I met just two years ago; our friendship is still not as close as it is with the other however. But, we're both girls.
Friends that grew to become close.
Then, just as I started to sing, I met Lacus. The daughter of the chairman Siegal Clyne. A huge amount of pressure would be applied to a person of her caliber and status. I thought she was another of those rich people who showed off, caring only about her looks and her gentle personality a façade.
How wrong I was.
Our friendship was treasured.
Promises. I hate promises. Especially ones that are broken.
My parent's promised to always be there for me.
Auel promised we would be together forever.
Kira promised we would always be friends; we would always be next to each other. We would always be on the same side.
Athrun promised that the world would be okay, that no one would die. That Kira would come to ZAFT during the war.
Lacus promised peace.
Cagalli promised that Orb would always remain a safe place.
Nicol promised he wanted to be with me together forever. He wished we would marry maybe after the war.
My half-brothers promised we were like a real family.
My foster parent's promised that they would be the family I lost.
Yzak promised he would be like a brotherly figure to me.
Dearka promised he would help me when I was in trouble.
Miguel promised he would look out for me.
Rusty promised he would be my friend.
Captain le Crueset promised that ZAFT was the good side.
Chairman Zala promised ZAFT was the stronger of the two worlds.
Chairman Clyne promised that the two nations would unite one day.
My school friends promised that I could trust them.
Then how come all these promises were broken? Why did they promise all this then break it that a twig snapping? Why bother making a promise you can't keep?
That was the world, full of broken promises, full of lies, full of painful memories. No one could understand the pain, the sadness I've felt from all these promises, how none of them have been fulfilled, none have been kept, and none of them will probably come true.
How can the world keep revolving if it feels as if it stopped?
A world full of broken promises.
And then… maybe my life could change.
It was only two years after the Bloody Valentine war, and the world repeated itself. I was once again forced to fight, if not by my own choice, and thus war started all over. Junius Seven fell, as if it was giving a warning to the world, that this was our punishment for all the terrible things we've done.
But it was a deliberate act.
Maybe it was deliberate, maybe it was a sign; it's something no one will ever know.
Perhaps the answer will be answered soon.
But that all happened while I was aboard the Minerva. Problems kept coming after me, as well as stress and pain. I've learned all sorts of good and bad things over all these years, some things troubling me, some things making me incredibly happy.
The Minerva was nothing more than another battle ship, a ship designed to fight in the war. The size of the ship could compete even the Archangel. Durandal had planned to start the war from the beginning didn't he?
The Archangel…a precious ship that I held dear to myself. Even though I joined the ship later on, they were so welcoming, so kind although I was originally their enemy. It was surprising to even myself. I hadn't even thought the people of that ship would be so welcoming, so hospitable. We all became friends.
Then, I was forced to fight even them, just because I joined the Minerva. We became enemies, despite the fact that they had no idea that perhaps I was the one sitting in that seat, aboard the Tranquility.
The Tranquility, a mobile suit more amazing than I thought. I thought it would just be a machine with the latest technology, not awesome, just advanced. A sparkling white, with navy blue joints. Although it was nice, it could never compare to the power my beloved machine Miracles.
Miracles was the most amazing machine. Another sparkling white, with light blue joints, and shiny silver wings that sparkled gracefully under the sunlight. Almost like the Freedom, the wings would extend and shoot out many beams and rifles towards far away enemies, a super effective attack. Although, I would have specialized "beams of light."
These "beams" would shoot out, like a rainbow, extending from enemy to enemy, defeating all enemies that stood in my way. These light beams would be beautiful, catching those who has never seen it by surprise, with me going for the definite win.
Too bad Miracles is no longer in my possession.
The Minerva became the place where I would stand with my head held high, in front of my new friends. I could sing to them. I could be me to them.
They saw me as nothing more than an idol.
I became their friend. A precious friend. Just…a friend.
Just be friends. All we gotta do
Just be friends. It's time to say goodbye
Just be friends. All we gotta do
Just be friends. Just be friends...
It came to mind in the early morning yesterday
As if I gathered broken pieces of glass
What the heck is this? Drips from my cut finger
Is this what we really hoped for?
I knew it at the bottom of my heart, the hardest choice would be the best
My self-love refuses it and repeats self-contradiction
When can I tell it to you?
In the slowly decaying world, I'm struggling but it's the only way
Carving your faded smiles, I pulled out the plug
I screamed with my hoarse voice, rebound and resonance echo in vain
Nothing is left at the end of the unchained me
Coincidences that sticked us degenerates into the dark and are broken in pieces
"No matter what we do, life is just like that" I mumbled
Somebody's tears flow down the dried cheeks
All we gotta do. Just be friends
It's time to say goodbye. Just be friends
All we gotta do. Just be friends
Just be friends. Just be friends...
Yesterday a tranquil night made me realize
It'd be useless to pick up fallen petals
Because it'd never bloom again
It's tiny but already dead on my palms
Our time stopped long ago
I remember the season we met first and your grace smile
Bringing up old issues, we hurt each other as badly as possible
Our minds are full of thorns
With this continuous dull relationship
Grievously I can't change my mind
I still love you, I don't wanna be apart from you, but I have to tell you
It's raining heavily in my mind, I'm stunned, I'm standing dead, my vision is blurry
Despite my determination, the pain is still penetrating
The bond between us has come apart and is dying away in everyday
Goodbye, my sweetheart, it's over
We have to leave without turning back
Just once, just once, if I could have my wish to come true
I'd be born again and again and go see you on those days
I screamed with my hoarse voice, rebound and resonance echo in vain
Nothing is left at the end of the unchained me
The bond between us has come apart and is dying away in everyday
Goodbye, my sweetheart, it's over
We have to leave without turning back
It's all over
Nothing more than friendship.
Just like aboard the Archangel.
But then, there was another person who lit my way. We hadn't known each other for long, but before we knew it, our relationship took bloom.
Shinn Asuka.
How was I supposed to know I was to fall in love? With a ZAFT member especially?
I wanted someone who was in Orb, like me.
We could get along better.
We would be together more often.
We won't hurt each other.
And we won't have to cry anymore.
Then how come I fell in love? Fell in love with him? Wasn't I supposed to be attached to Nicol? Wasn't that the way it always was? Wasn't it the way I vowed for it to be? To never love again?
But then I did.
We were separated by that thin red line, telling us as long as we stood on opposite sides, we could never love each other.
I wanted to break that line.
Even if my body is physically with ZAFT, my mind always drifted off to the opposite side, to Orb. A place that I really treasured now. It was as if it was my second home. I could always go back there, even in trouble. No one would shun me, no one would reject me.
As if I was really human, not just a singer, and a fake image.
But I can't run away from who I already am.
An idol in the eyes of many.
Even after entering ZAFT to be a soldier and fight in the war
Still an idol.
Maybe having Auel die was another sign for me, that something terrible was going to happen.
Maybe Stella's death was too.
That's what I was.
Pitiful.
The song didn't really fit all that well, but i really wanted to put it in somewhere...
So I just made up a line and stuck it in there like that =DDDDDDD
The next one would probably be Shinn or something ;D
Arisa: So I'm pitiful? D:
Shinn: Nuuu~ Not even close
Misha: Yush joo are~ At least you're supposed to thing you are o-o
Arisa:........
Shinn:........
Misha: HAI! :D OHHH! I ALMOST FORGOT
Anonmyous:)
Harro and thanks for tat review x]
It brought me much joy =D
Actually....I don't know how to spell anonymous (-spell check)
Anyways~ Yeah, I think a kiss would be nice too, but there's nowhere to fit it into the story! D:
Hopefully by the end I'll stick it in somewhere =D