A/N: This chapter is very intense and dramatic.
2 weeks later
Buffy laid on the couch watching T.V. She glanced at the clock, sighing she turned it off and went to go upstairs. Midnight seemed to be the time when she could actually sleep. Klaus had gone with Esther out of town for a couple of days.
Buffy was completely alone, Elena was at Stefan's, Jeremy was at a friends house and Jenna was with Alaric. She the heard Snickers yelp. Buffy turned around and ran to the kitchen. Snickers was sprawled on the floor and Aurora was standing in the kitchen holding a knife.
"Hello Buffy," Buffy reached in her pocket and hit the emergency dial on her phone.
"Get out of my house,"
"No, you see, I didn't take kindly to your friend sticking up for you. You should have done it yourself." Buffy glanced at the knife quickly before looking back at Aurora.
"Please get out of my house." Buffy whispered, Aurora ran out her and Buffy screamed when she felt the knife stick into her shoulder. Buffy punched her in the face and tried to run but she grabbed Buffy's leg and tripped her. Buffy kicked her hard I the knee and then scrambled to her feet, her adrenaline was pumping, her body was in survival mode. Aurora got up and rushed her but Buffy managed to move out of the way and she ran right into the island.
Buffy grabbed the back of her head and started to slam it over and over into the corner.
"Stop, stop!"Aurora screamed, Buffy didn't hear, Buffy slammed her head down so the bridge of her nose cracked against the island and Aurora went still. Buffy fell to the ground, a blank look on her face. Aurora was on the ground, un-moving. Buffy could see the hollow look I her eyes and the giant gash surrounded by bruising around her upper cheekbones.
Liz barged into the house and saw Buffy. She saw the defense wounds on Buffy and the knife in her shoulder and the swelling in her ankle. She then turned to look at Aurora, she leaned down and put to fingers on the girls pulse point, there was nothing. Not to mention dispatch heard the entire thing.
"I need paramedics to the Gilbert house... Send the coroners office," she took a seat next to Buffy.
"Buffy, it isn't your fault." Buffy shook her head and tears escaped her.
"Liz, I killed someone." She said quietly,
"She tried to kill you, regardless of who her family is, the evidence against her is too much. You acted in self defense." Buffy coughed and there were speckles of blood around her mouth.
"I can't do this anymore..." Buffy whispered, "am I gonna make it through surgery?" Buffy asked,
"Yes," Liz said. "I know you will." Liz told her, though she didn't believe her own words. The coroners and the paramedics arrived. They instantly began treating Buffy and they brought a stretcher in. They loaded Aurora into the body bag and then they put Buffy on a stretcher.
Elena and Stefan ran into the Hospital and saw Jenna talking with Liz
"Jenna, they keep recordings of the phone calls at the station. They heard everything that happened. Not to mention Aurora was in your house at quarter past twelve. The De'Martel's couldn't press charges even if they wanted to. The evidence shows that she was there to kill your niece."
"That's not what I'm concerned about. My niece killed someone."
"It was in self defense."
"Do you know what this is going to do to her? She had just started managing her PTSD. Is Snickers?"
"She is okay, I checked, she's with Caroline right now." Elena gasped and she hugged Stefan tightly.
"Is she gonna make it?" Elena asked, "Jenna! Is she going to make it?"
"We don't know Elena!"
"Did someone call Klaus?" Stefan asked,
"I did on my way over." Jenna whispered,
"Where is she!" They heard him bellow from down the hall.
"I got this," Liz said.
In O.R
"She's flat-lining!" One of the doctors screamed,
"Okay, I need a shot of epinephrine right into the heart!" They did so and her vitals stabilized.
"Okay, I am going to go talk to the family," the surgeon said. "She needs to be under constant observation for the next 24 hours." He walked out into the waiting room and they picked their head's up. "She's stable, she flat-lined for a minute but we were able to revive her. She needs to be under constant observation fir the next 24 hours." Klaus closed his eyes and Elena gave him a hug.
"She's a fighter Klaus," Elena said.
Buffy woke up and shook the fog away. Was it all a dream? Then she spotted Liz in her room and everything came back to her.
"Oh god." Buffy whispered, she began to sob, Liz walked over and placed a hand on her good shoulder.
"You are going to be okay."
"Where is she?" They heard an accented voice say, "I don't care, she is going to see me. I am her therapist you idiot!"
"Please tell them she can come in." Buffy whispered, Liz walked out and came back with Rose. When Rose saw Buffy her heart sunk, she looked horrible. Not because she had just woken up from a major surgery. Because she had bags under her eyes, she was pale, a lot more than usual and she had tears in her eyes."Rose," Buffy sobbed.
"I'm by law required to guard your room, but I can do that outside the room," Liz walked out and closed the door. Rose sat next to her and took her hand.
"Jenna told me what happened, I am so sorry this is happening."
"Rose... I killed someone," Buffy said quietly,
"She was going to kill you. You did what you had to to survive." Buffy let tears flow,
"I killed someone! And you are telling me it's okay because it was in self defense?" Buffy's eyes became distant. "There was so much blood, I did that to her. There was so much blood." She recalled the giant gash across the bridge of Aurora's nose and the bruising. "Am I going to hell?" Buffy sobbed,
"You did what you needed to. No one is blaming you."
"There's blood on my hands." Buffy began to hyperventilate, "she-she died because I killed her..." Buffy was hysterical. A man barged in and walked right over to Buffy,
"You... You killed my sister." Rose stood up and shoved him out into the hallway.
"You get out of here," Rose said.
"You will pay for this." Liz grabbed his shoulder and turned him around.
"Was that a threat you made in front of the sheriff?" She asked,
"Get your hands off me." He said in a deadly tone,
"If you go back in that room I will have to restrain you." Tristan shrugged her off and straightened his tie, he turned and walked away. When he was walking through the waiting room he spotted Klaus.
"Your whore did this to my sister!" He screamed, Klaus rose to his feet.
"Your sister tried to kill her, she acted in self defense. So Tristan, tell me, why are you here?"
"To make sure that slut suffers," Elena got up and walked over, she glared at him.
"You need to back off." She said, Tristan rolled his eyes.
"What are you going to do?" He said, his voice was amused.
"You don't want to find out, so walk away." Elena said, Klaus moved in front of Elena,
"I told you what would happen if you showed up again, oh and by the way. Aurora deserved what happened to her, that psychotic slut." Elijah, Rebekah, Esther and Freya walked in right when Tristan punched Klaus in the face, Elena went to stand in front of him but he shoved her. She fell right on her stomach and she screamed in pain. Elijah grabbed him by the back of his suit and threw him to the ground.
"You were dumb to come here, Tristan." Liz cam out and Elena screamed and clutched her abdomen. There was blood seeping out of her pants and Stefan lost it. He hauled Tristan off the ground and began to punch him over and over.
"Stefan!" Liz screamed when he threw Tristan against a wall. Doctors rushed over to Elena and got her off the ground and led her to a hospital room. Liz had no choice and shot her taser into Stefan's back. His muscles seized and he fell to the ground.
"Tristan De'Martel, you are under arrest for assaulting a minor. Klaus are you okay?" He nodded, "Stefan is under arrest for assault and battery."
"Please make sure Elena is okay," Stefan pleaded.
Elena was in tears as the examined her.
"We are going to do an ultrasound. Ms. Gilbert, the chance that the babies are alive isn't good." They did the ultrasound and Meredith was puzzled. "One of the babies survived." Elena sobbed and let go of a giant sigh of relief. "Consider yourself lucky." She said, Elena nodded. "Jenna went home to get you some clothes. Take a shower and get cleaned up. You need to take it easy for a few days." Elena nodded and walked into the shower.
Stefan sat in holding, he was so scared for Elena, they had just gotten used to the idea of having a baby and now this. Then he looked up and he saw his mom. She saw the blood on his hands and sighed,
"Lily, we recommend that you have him stay here."
"That isn't happening." She said, "that man made his girlfriend miscarry. I am bailing him out and then we are going to the hospital to make sure Elena is okay. Do you understand?" The cop nodded and opened Stefan's cell. She hugged him tightly and they drove to the hospital.
"Elena Gilbert," they told them the room and they went up. They saw Jenna handing Elena new clothes. When Elena saw Stefan she let go of a few tears and hugged him tightly.
"Did you-"
"One of them." Elena whispered,, "Stefan, can we go home?" He nodded, Elena changed and slipped into her coat and walked out.
In Buffy's room she had finally calmed down, she wasn't aware of what happened in the waiting room. Rose was still with her,
"Buffy, understand that you are going to get through this. I will not lie to you and say it won't be hard to get past this. And it is a burden you will carry for the rest of your life, but you are strong. You also are going to need aggressive counseling for this, but you will make it through this." Buffy nodded,
"I already feel myself slipping, Rose." Buffy said, "this is going to destroy me."
"Not if I have any say in it."
After three days Buffy was home. She spotted a bottle of bourbon on the counter and grabbed it.
"Buffy, you should-"
"Fuck off," Buffy snapped, Jenna nodded. Buffy saw the blood stains on the floor and counter. "Where is Elena?"
"She lost one of the babies and she is staying with Stefan." Buffy nodded and set down the bottle.
"I am so sorry Jenna." Buffy whispered, "I'm so sorry." Tears welled in her eyes, there was knock at the door and Buffy went to answer it. Klaus was standing at the other side of the door.
"Klaus?"
"Buffy," he sounded broken and Buffy knew what was about to happen.
"No,"
"You can't be in my life," tears rolled down his cheeks. "I have too many enemies because of Tristan and he will get people to hurt you."
"Please don't do this." Buffy begged, "don't do this. It isn't too dangerous, I-"
"No Buffy," he took a pained breath, "it's over." Buffy took off her ring and whipped it at him.
"Then take it back," she said quietly. "Take it back and get out of here." Klaus didn't take the ring, he just walked away. Buffy watched hm get in his car and leave. Buffy picked up the ring and looked at it. She walked back into the house and sat down on the couch and began to cry.
"Buffy," Jenna walked in, she heard what had happened and she sat down and hugged her niece.
"My life just fell apart," Buffy cried.
"I'll be right back," Jenna said. Buffy nodded and watched Jenna walk out of the house. Buffy reached in her purse and grabbed her pain killers and took one. She then walked into the kitchen, almost on auto pilot. She grabbed a piece of pizza out of the fridge and then looked at the blood stains. No one had cleaned them up. She finished her pizza and got the bleach and a mop and began to clean up the blood.
Half way through cleaning her meds kicked in she reveled in the numbness. She finally cleaned the rest of the blood when the front door opened.
"I brought reinforcements." Jenna said, Caroline popped her head in the door and tears rushed to Buffy's eyes and then Bonnie walked in with Snickers.
"Hey, we're gonna slumber it tonight," Buffy let go of a sob and both girl hugged her.
"And I am going to get junk food, drop it off and then I am staying with Rick tonight.
Later that night Caroline and Bonnie were talking with Buffy.
"You know what? He is such a dick, he doesn't deserve you." Bonnie said,
"Mhmm, fucking asshole. You know what we should do? We should egg his house." Buffy chuckled,
"Guys, I can't, his mother has been a mother to me. I'm still love Rebekah, Elijah...All of them. Even Klaus, but he is being a royal douche right now."
"Do you want to take one of your pain meds or do you wanna get drunk and watch movies?" Caroline asked with a smirk,
"Get drunk and movies, but yummy ice cream must be involved, ooh, we should order pizza." Buffy said with a sad smile,
"Bonnie order pizza, I am going to go put on a movie. And this time it won't be the Notebook or the Titanic." Buffy walked up stairs slowly and found Snickers,
"Hey Snicks," Buffy said. Snickers moved on the bed giving her room and Buffy laid next to her. Snickers crawled up on her chest and laid down. 'Why did he do this? At the scariest point in my life, why did he?' Buffy thought, she felt tears rush out of her eyes and Snickers stuck her nose in Buffy's face causing the blonde to laugh.
"I'm okay, I'm just fed up." Snickers began to lick her, "okay, geez. I will stop being mopey." Buffy picked Snickers up and walked down stairs. Caroline sauntered up to her.
"Okay the pizza is on its way, and." She opened up her sleeping bag and pulled out a bottle of vodka. Buffy set snickers down and then snatched the bottle and opened it. She took a few large swallows and then handed it back.
"Bonnie! Get in here we are drinking!" Buffy called, Bonnie took the bottle fro Caroline taking a few hearty gulps and then gave it to her. The pizza arrived,
"Buffy I got this," Caroline said. Later that night they were all very drunk, Caroline turned the movie on and it was The Chamber Of Secrets.
Buffy woke up with a groan. Her head was pounding and she sat up, Caroline handed her a cup of coffee.
"Are you god?" Buffy asked, Caroline laughed.
"I will take that as the biggest compliment of all time." Buffy looked in the kitchen and didn't spot Bonnie.
"Where did Bonnie go?" Buffy asked with a yawn before chugging her coffee.
"She had to go home, her dad called." Buffy nodded, she saw the ring and snatched it.
"I am going to go knock some sense into him." She declared, "you can stay here and watch Snickers. I will be back in a little." Buffy got her keys and walked out to her car. She got behind the wheel and drove to the mansion. She didn't have to bother knocking. She was waiting to take her pain meds till she got back.
"Niklaus Mikaelson!" She screamed, Klaus walked to the foyer and the stopped when he saw her.
"We are over, we can't be together." He tried to turn away but Buffy caught his arm and spun him around.
"Don't you dare walk away from me. You are going to listen to what I have to say." He slowly nodded, "I am not sorry that we reconnected. I am not sorry that I bumped into that day at the cemetery. I am also not sorry that I became friends with you, that I fell in love with you, and I am definitely not sorry that I said yes to marrying you." Buffy said,
"You know what love? I'm not sorry that I broke things off, I'm selfish and I don't ever want to see you hurt. But you want to know what I'm really not sorry about? Flirting with you that day in the cemetery, I am not sorry that I fell in love with you long before you even viewed me more than a friend. I am not sorry that I love you enough that I proposed to you. And I am not sorry that I met you again." He said, he wasn't going through with what he knew was right. The girl standing before him was all he wanted.
"Then show me," he kissed her hard, her arm wrapped around his neck. He slipped his tongue into her mouth and she moaned in response, "I love you Klaus." Buffy whispered in his ear as she laid her head against his shoulder.
"I love you too Buffy." Buffy bit back a scream when he touched her bad shoulder.
"Can you drive me home? My shoulder hurts."
"There is one more thing before you do that." He took the ring from her and got down on one knee.
"Buffy Ann Summers, I love you more than words can describe. You are not only my best friend but the love of my life. The minute I saw you again I knew that you were the woman I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. Will you marry me?" He asked, Buffy had tears in her eyes, she didn't expect him to do a proper proposal, but here it was.
"Yes," this time the yes felt different. It felt more intimate, more binding. He slipped the ring on her finger and stood up. He kissed her again.
"Alright love, I'll take you home." When they arrived back at her house Caroline was in the kitchen talking to Elena on the phone.
"Elena, chill. The doctor told you there might be residual bleeding. It's fine." Caroline groaned, "Elena let me talk to Stefan."
"Caroline?"
"Hey, Elena is still having some blood coming out of her. Can you please explain to her that it is normal?" Caroline hung up the phone when she heard Elena finally agree. When she spotted Klaus she marched over to him and smacked him upside the head.
"Are you stupid?!" She screamed in his face, she slapped him again. "She was so torn up that she drank more than me. And you have seen me drink!" She stepped back and took a few calming breathes.
"Are you guys okay now?" She asked with a cheery smile, Klaus rubbed his cheek and nodded.
"Yes," Buffy said.
"Okay, good. I have to get going," Caroline gave Buffy a hug.
"Rick," Jenna called. She walked into his flat and wasn't prepared to see what she was seeing. Alaric was kneeling and a box out in front of him. The lights were dim and there was a champagne on ice and roses.
"Jenna," he cleared his throat. "I love you so much. Will you marry me?" Jenna dropped her purse on the floor and rushed over to him, he stood up and she kissed him.
"Yes," Alaric slipped the ring on and she hugged him tightly.
Buffy was curled up against Klaus sleeping soundly. Snickers was tucked in at her side and Klaus was almost asleep as well. He couldn't believe that he had almost made the biggest mistake of his life. In Buffy's dream,
Buffy was watching as she bashed Aurora's face in. She cried out to herself, trying to make herself stop but she couldn't. She watched as the other girl's lifeless body fell to the ground. Dream Buffy turned to her,
"You did this. It wasn't in self defense, you liked it you little bitch. You murderer!" Dream Buffy stabbed her in the stomach and twisted the knife before shoving her backwards.
"Stop! Please!" Then the knife was gone and everything went deadly still, the colors of the dream began to fade until she was surrounded by darkness.
She could faintly hear someone yelling for her to stop and she recognized the voice, it was Aurora. Then she materialized. Her face the same as when she fell dead.
"You did this to me Buffy. You have my blood on your hands. How does it feel knowing you killed someone?"
"You were at my house to kill me!" Buffy screeched, "I acted in self defense." Buffy said,
"I told you to stop." She said with a pout, "you know... There is a way to make this stop."
"No," Buffy sobbed.
"Buffy!" Klaus yelled trying to rouse her. Snickers jumped on her chest and began licking her. Buffy's eyes snapped open.
"Klaus... I'm going to hell. I-I killed someone."
"You are not going to hell. You did what you had to, not to mention she was here to kill you."
"Klaus. When I was in the process of killing her I heard her beg me to stop." She whispered, "but I didn't. I was in full survival mode."
"No one would ever judge you. God will see forgiveness."
A week had passed, Buffy hadn't come close to coming to terms with what had happened. But no one had expected her to. Rose had become almost her best friend in the last week. Coming over to check on her when ever she was on lunch. On her days off taking Buffy places. Then there was Elena, she and Buffy were practically glued to each other. Elena had almost lost both babies and she had died again. They had both been through something extremely traumatic.
"Elena!" Buffy called, "are you able to eat?" Elena came downstairs,
"Yeah, where are we going?" Buffy shrugged,
"Well, there's that place in Richmond. Or we can just go to the Grill. Caroline wanted us to go there for some reason."
"Sounds good." They arrived at the Grill a short time later, Caroline spotted them and smiled.
"Okay, I am invoking the friend code. What you are about to hear must stay between us."
"What's going on?" Buffy asked,
"Damon got out of Rehab last month. And..." Caroline said bit in their bottom lip, "he asked me out. We really hit it off." Buffy was wide eyed but Elena didn't look all that surprised.
"I-Care," Buffy stammered. She really didn't know how to react, Damon had gotten better. Hell he even showed up at the house in person to apologize.
"My mom doesn't like it because of his record and the fact he stayed back, pft. That woman hasn't even tried to date since dad died." She said with a roll of her eyes,
"Care, take it easy on your mom. She didn't exactly have time. She ended up taking care of you and working."
"More like I took care of myself and she hid at work away from the grief." Elena just put a hand on Caroline's shoulder.
"We support you. But, we have to make sure he is worthy," Elena said.
"Defiantly," Buffy agreed. They walked to a booth and sat down. Buffy spotted Tyler and she hid behind her menu. "Tyler, three o'clock." Buffy whispered, she had a really bad feeling about him. Every time they saw each other in school he seemed to have some sort of calculating look in his eyes. It made her extremely uneasy, what was even worse is that he had tried to spread many rumors. It really wasn't a secret that Aurora had tried to kill her or what ended up happening to the redhead. But he was having a field day with it.
"Well, she's liar and murderer." Tyler said as he walked over to them,
"Tyler, shut the fuck up and leave." Caroline said with a sickly sweet smile.
"Stay out of it Caroline." Buffy was doing everything she could not to look at him, everyone in the Grill was staring at them after what Tyler had said. Again, they all knew. But they knew what had pushed Buffy to do what she did.
"What did I do to you?" Buffy asked finally looking at him. She was pissed. "What in God's name did I do to make you treat me this way?"
"You led me on, now I'm gonna make your life hell."
"You're funny. And I apologized for that, just let it go. And by the way, you couldn't make my life worse if you tried." His nostrils flared with anger.
"Wanna bet you little bitch?"
"Tyler Lockwood. Star football player, annoying stereotypical jock and complete douche once again tried to hurt another girl. Wow, get a hobby dude." Buffy said, "seriously man, you need to understand that I am done, with all of this. So back off." Buffy leveled a glare at him, everyone let go of a noise after she said what she had said. She had dissed someone in public. Was everyone still in high school? Or did they think it's funny that a five foot three bald girl just bitched someone out in public. Buffy went back to reading her menu, when she felt his eyes still on her she picked her head up.
"And you are here why?" Buffy asked, "you need to be somewhere that isn't here." She said with a smile, he gave her a very cold look before walking away. Caroline and Elena exchanged wide eyed glances. Buffy saw them do it. "What?" Caroline burst out laughing and Elena almost spit out her water.
"You just bitched Tyler out in front of forty something people." Elena said, "I strive to be like you." She said honestly,
"Where did that come from anyways?" Caroline asked between giggles.
"I'm really fucking tired of being picked on, that's what that was. Ever since I started going to that school Katherine has really had it out for me. Then I broke it off with Tyler because I wanted to be with Klaus and now this. He is just being a child." The waitress came,
"Hey Vickie," Elena said with a smile.
"Hey, what can I get you guys?"
"Bacon double cheeseburger." Buffy said,
"Buffalo chicken salad," Elena ordered.
"Club sandwich." She wrote down and walked away with a smile. As soon as she was out of ear shot Buffy turned to Elena.
"That was the most fake smile I have ever seen."
"She hates me," Elena said with a shrug.
"Why?" Caroline asked,
"Because of Matt. Apparently I shattered his heart, I left him so I didn't do that. Buffy you were there," Elena said.
"Yeah... That was the night when," she choked up and Elena hugged her.
"That was the biggest mistake of my life deciding to leave," Elena said sadly. Caroline took both their hands.
"You know what, we are no longer riding the mope train. We are getting off at happiness valley and we are going to have fun." She declared, "no this isn't optional, Elena." She said without even looking at her friend.
"Okay as leader of this adventure what do you say we should do?" Caroline thought for a moment,
"Just that, an adventure. We have six days until Christmas and we are going on a trip. Wherever you guys want, and yes you can bring your men as long as I can bring mine." Buffy and Elena looked at each other and nodded.
"Okay, let's do it!" Buffy said,
Buffy and Elena walked into the house with smiles gracing their faces. They saw Rick had Jenna pressed against the wall and he was kissing her neck.
"Jenna!" Both girls exclaimed, Jenna's face fell on horror.
"Uh, hey." Alaric moved back and Jenna ran a hand through her hair.
"Yeah, um. Caroline, me, Elena, Stefan, Damon and Klaus are going out of town for a few days..." She spotted the ring and she smirked, "so... You guys can have fun. Where is Jer?"
"Oh, he's, uh, staying with Bonnie." Elena cocked an eyebrow,
"Are they together?" She asked, "is my little brother dating my best friend?"
"Yes, um. Be careful, don't get in a van if they promise you candy." Alaric pulled out a thousand dollars and gave five hundred to Buffy and then Elena.
"Have fun, stay safe." Buffy smirked, time to make em' uncomfortable.
"Okay uncle Alaric," Elena had a wide eyed look.
"What?!"
"So you freak out when I get engaged but not your cousin who is the same age as you?"
"I... You know what?" Elena ran a hand through her hair, "I'm seventeen, I'm pregnant I have no room to judge. I'm going to go get my things and Buffy is going to help me. Right Buffy?"
"Hmm?" Buffy said absently, "yeah, of course." Buffy had ended up starting into the kitchen. She had missed spots of blood and it was only a reminder. "Jenna, there's still blood." Buffy said quietly,
"Hello Buffy," Buffy reached in her pocket and hit the emergency dial on her phone.
"Get out of my house,"
"No, you see, I didn't take kindly to your friend sticking up for you. You should have done it yourself." Buffy glanced at the knife quickly before looking back at Aurora.
"Please get out of my house." Buffy whispered, Aurora ran out her and Buffy screamed when she felt the knife stick into her shoulder. Buffy punched her in the face and tried to run but she grabbed Buffy's leg and tripped her. Buffy kicked her hard I the knee and then scrambled to her feet, her adrenaline was pumping, her body was in survival mode. Aurora got up and rushed her but Buffy managed to move out of the way and she ran right into the island.
Buffy grabbed the back of her head and started to slam it over and over into the corner.
"Stop, stop!"Aurora screamed, Buffy didn't hear, Buffy slammed her head down so the bridge of her nose cracked against the island and Aurora went still. Buffy fell to the ground, a blank look on her face. Aurora was on the ground, un-moving. Buffy could see the hollow look I her eyes and the giant gash surrounded by bruising around her upper cheekbones.
Buffy's hand shot up to her mouth and she began to sob. He knees buckled and she fell.
"Get her Ativan!" Jenna barked, Buffy had grabbed the side of her head and was looking at the floor as tears poured from her. Elena ran back in and Jenna used a technique that Rose had showed her. She opened Buffy's mouth and dropped the pill in, she then calmed her hand over Buffy's mouth until she swallowed. Jenna then hugged Buffy tightly.
"Jenna," Alaric said.
"It's okay Rick, help Elena pack." He followed Elena and Jenna ran her hand up and down Buffy's back. Ten minutes later Buffy had calmed down.
"I killed someone," Buffy whispered. No matter how many times she said it she would never believe that she had taken a life. Not once did she ever think she would have to.
"Buffy-"
"No! Don't you dare say it was in self defense. I killed someone!" She screeched, she began to punch herself. "Make it go away. I don't want this guilt. Just make it stop Jenna!" Jenna felt her heart shatter.
"Buff, you are strong enough to push through this. All I want is to see you happy. I don't want to see you in pain." Buffy took many calming breaths. Finally she was grounded,
"Jenna, I'm sorry." Jenna gave her a tight hug and the both stood.
"I don't blame you. I got some advice from Rose while you were in the hospital. She said to get a new floor plan and design for the kitchen so it wouldn't be a constant reminder." Buffy nodded, "C'mon I'm gonna help you get your stuff together."
Klaus rolled up in front of the house and Buffy ran out the door with her bags. Klaus took them from her, he leaned down and kissed her before they got in the car. They drove to a rest area just outside Mystic Falls.
"We are going to Florida!" Caroline beamed, Damon held her waist.
"Hello, brother," he said when Stefan got out of the car with Elena.
"Let me guess, Orlando?" Buffy questioned
"Yes, okay, if we drive through the night we will get there by 9:00am. The minute we get there we are checking into hotels, four hours of sleep, no more, no less. Then we are going to the beach. After that I got us all passes for universal studios. We are going to spend the rest of the day there, then we are checking into a hotel there. Questions? Comments? Okay, let's go!"
Buffy got out of the car and marched into the hotel,
"Reservations, Mikaelson." She said, the man nodded and gave her the key card. Klaus followed closely behind with their things and followed her. The minute they reached the room Buffy crawled in bed.
"Remember to remind to never let Caroline plan anything without consulting me." She groaned,
"I'll remember, I didn't fancy driving for a day either." He said with a chuckle. He set down the luggage and the climbed in bed next to her.
"We need to sleep. I have a feeling that Caroline is going to kill us if we aren't awake twenty minutes early." Buffy heard Klaus sigh and she settled down. Less than five minutes later she was asleep followed by Klaus. Buffy's dream, should she say nightmare was of the night she had killed Aurora, all the same. She could have sworn she had told her to stop but she hadn't. She made sure her assailant was dead.
Buffy tossed and turned in her sleep. Her brain wouldn't let her forget, no matter how badly she wanted to. No matter how hard she tried to bury that memory it wouldn't stick. It was a constant loop in her brain. Never forgive, never forget. Those words is all she could hear in her mind. She couldn't forgive herself for this, she couldn't possibly forget it.
What was she supposed to do? Go through life biting her cheeks until she tasted blood and then just say something to assure her that she wasn't slowly going insane? It didn't matter. She was never going to come to peace with what she had done. Regardless of what others told her, it didn't matter.
What did this mean for her future? Did it mean that she was going to turn bitter and detached from everything. Someone who constantly wanted to end it all. The way she would wanna go out was in a really fast car, stoned out of her mind and Mr. Gordo next to her. Buffy was now wide awake, so much for sleep. She walked into the bathroom and looked in the mirror. The wound on her shoulder was healing very fast, thank god. She spotted a whirlpool tub and she smiled. She walked back into the room got a fresh change of clothes and then went back into the bathroom.
She stripped and claimed in, the water felt amazing. She leaned back, making sure her stitches stayed above water and she sighed in content. She spotted bath oil and read it. Rose petal and mango. She poured it in and closed her eyes. It felt amazing, the pulsating water, the warmth. She needed it. She heard the bathroom door open and she saw Klaus naked. He claimed in with her and she leaned against him.
"You were having nightmares love," Klaus told her. He leaned leaned down and kissed her. "I know you're scared my sweet, but you are going to make it through this. You always do. You are the strongest, most intelligent person I know." She rested her head against his chest.
"I can't get the image of that night out of my head..." Her face became blank, "every time I close my eyes that's all I see, it's all I can think about." Klaus pulled her closer to him. Buffy let her eyes close but she wasn't lying when she said she saw it. Her eyes snapped open and she was crying. "I'm so tired of fighting. Every single time something is going right for me something always has to come and slap me upside the head. I don't want to do this anymore." She whispered,
"You cannot stop fighting. Not after everything you have overcome. I will not watch you give up."
Buffy and Caroline were sitting out in the sun. Klaus, Stefan and Damon were playing football. A man spotted Caroline and walked over to them.
"Hey there gorgeous," he said. Caroline moved her sunglasses down and chuckled.
"Nope, sorry." She moved them back up,
"Come on baby," Damon walked up to them and glared atthe man.
"She said no," Damon's gaze bore into him, he nervously gulped and walked away. Caroline got up and walked over to him. He kissed her hard on the mouth and grabbed her butt. Buffy groaned loudly.
"Enough of the PDA!" She felt a pain in her shoulder and realized the bandage had fallen off and the sun was hitting it. She picked up her chair.
"Move Lena, I'm sitting next to you." Elena moved her chair and then Buffy sat next to her. They watched as Klaus decked Stefan. Buffy started giggling and Elena was laughing so hard no sound was coming out. Stefan got up and ran after Klaus.
"Get em' Stef!" Damon called, Stefan tackled Klaus picked up the football and ran as fast as he could, he fumbled it and Klaus picked him up over his head threw him into the water. Buffy let go of a loud bark of laughter.
"Klaus!" Stefan seethed he tackled Klaus and pinned him. Klaus managed to get a hand free and threw sand in Stefan's face. Stefan's mouth opened in shock and Klaus laughed. He wedged a knee between them and kicked out. Stefan went soaring backwards. He landed on his back and the wind was knocked out of him.
"Okay children!" Caroline called, she smacked Damon as he was laughing. "Don't encourage them." Caroline scolded,
"Damon keep encouraging them!" Elena yelled, Buffy was laughing still. She calmed down and took a bottle of beer out. She tossed it to Caroline.
"Damon, can you?" She asked feeling bad,
"Nope, but it's fine. You guys are allowed to have fun." Caroline gave him a hug, Buffy grabbed a beer for herself and opened it. She took a long sip,
"Who decided on I.P.A's?" Buffy asked, Stefan walked up and took one out of the cooler.
"I did," Buffy nodded. Klaus came and sat next to her, Stefan handed him a beer.
"Thanks Ripper," Stefan rolled his eyes.
"Dude, I told you to stop calling me that."
"Sorry mate, that's never going to happen. Just get used to it."
"How about we say screw Universal Studious today, stay on the beach and have a cookout?" Buffy asked,
"But Buffy!" Caroline whined,
"Care, please. I'm already tired and I haven't moved. We can do it tomorrow." Elena said, Caroline groaned,
"Fine, you are so lucky you are pregnant or I would respond with a big fat no." Stefan opened a bag and took out a mini grill. He filled it with charcoal, but the grate back on and lit it. He closed the lid.
"Damon, double cheeseburger?" Stefan asked,
"You know it brother." Stefan put the burgers on the grill, Buffy and Elena were chatting. Elena gasped. She felt a sharp pain in her abdomen.
"Stefan," she whined. Buffy grabbed her some crackers out of a bag and tossed it to her.
"Remember to eat dumb one." Elena flicked her,
"You're dumb!" Elena exclaimed, of course once again Elena having a breakdown. "I-I'm not dumb! I'm just forgetful. Th-there is nothing wrong with that." She sobbed, Stefan shot a glare at Buffy.
"Really?" He asked, "second time in the course of two weeks you've done this."
"Elena I am so sorry," she felt really bad.
"It's okay, you are going through some stuff." She sniffed, "I'm also a raging hormonal mess." She stated with a laugh,
"I get it. We both have our problems. Let's make each other better people by dealing with each other." Buffy's eyes widened, "wow I just channeled Xander." She never thought she see the day she did that.
Buffy groaned when she spotted Caroline and Damon. They were all over each other. It bothered her, why? Because Klaus had barely paid any attention to her that day. When they got back tot he hotel room she confronted him.
"So... Why haven't you really paid attention to me all day?" She asked, Klaus sat down on the bed and folded his hands. He shook his head,
"You haven't really said much yourself, love."
"You're doing this out of spite?" She asked with a scoff. "Are you fucking serious?"
"Are you?" Klaus got up and the walked to the other side of the room and then turned around. "Is there something going on I don't know about?" Buffy's mouth hung open.
"Did you just accuse me of cheating?" The disbelief and hurt in her voice was palpable.
"Are you? Because you seem to not really want anything to do with me besides for comfort." Buffy's face fell and tears sprang to her eyes.
"I went back to fight for you and this is what you say to me? Did you ever think I was struggling? I haven't really gotten the chance to tell you that my cancer cells multiplied again. Did you forget that I killed someone? And this is what you do... Accuse me of cheating, well I'm sorry I haven't met your needs, I'm really sorry I have been detached..." Klaus walked over to her and kissed her, she felt his tears.
He felt horrible, he never should have accused her. Hep every ounce of love he felt for her into that one kiss. He broke away and leaned his forehead against hers.
"I am so sorry Buffy." Buffy was crying,
"The day after Christmas i have to get much more aggressive chemo. I'm so scared. I-I don't know what to do..." She sobbed, "I don't know what to do." She repeated,
A/N: That moment when Buffy went to get Klaus back, of course was Elena and Damon's scene in season four. Only I recycled it for this foc.
This chapter was a roller coaster and so is the next... Things are going to look up for Buffy and everyone, I promise.
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