Shilly One-shot

Goodbye

Lilly's Point Of View

I look at your photograph

And these memories come back to mind…but I don't mind

I still had his photographs

I have a lot of photographs of him and me

Millions of memories can come back to my mind

From a walk on the beach to a ice-cream party

When I shoved ice-cream on his face…

Laughing

Crying

Smiling

Memories come back to my mind

I don't mind at all

I remember when we kissed

I still feel it on my lips

My fingers brushed over my lips softly

I could feel the presence of his lips there still

Memories don't help me forget

They keep me remembering

And I don't care

I just wish I could still feel

Feel his lips on mine

They seem like a faint memory now

But somehow

Their presence is still there

The time that you danced with me

With no music playing

I was laughing

I was watching a video Nick and Kevin had taped

Of Joe and I

We were outside

In the middle of a road

In the pouring rain

Dancing

We were two teenagers in love

Smiling and Laughing

Together

Like it always should be

I remember the simple things

I remember till I cry

I found myself walking

I wasn't sure where

But I would know when I got there

And then I seen it

It was the bench

In the middle of the park

That Joe and I first met

When I first met him…

I punched him.

For making fun of Oliver,

Until I found out that he was

Oliver's cousin

I woke up this morning and played our song

And through my tears I sang along

I searched through my iTunes library

I had to find it

I knew it was in here

I downloaded it twice

It was our song

Our song that no one could take away from us

I finally found it

I clicked on it immediately

The band called 'There for Tomorrow' erupted through my computer speakers

I sang along, through my tears, to the song I knew by heart…

I saw just what it does
When it's too hard for you to face it
Still pushing you to make it
Its been no new news to me
Cause It's all been done before
Four years and we're still counting down
Until all your precious time is wasted
Its been nothing new to me (to me, to me)

We still haven't grown accustomed to the sound
As they all begin to drown you out
Its all been done before

When your deadlines become my days and nights
I'll take all your favorite lines
(When you needed it the most)
As your deadlines take tonight

And you were startled by the fact
That you could've had it better off by now
Its not over until the quiet are calmed down
Oh yes, maybe it's too plain
To stand on solid ground
It got old, but you can't blame it all on me

We still haven't grown accustomed to the sound
As they all begin to drown you out
Its all been done before

When your deadlines become my days and nights
I'll take all your favorite lines
(When you needed it the most)
Please don't give up on
When your deadlines become my days and nights
I'll take all your favorite lines
(When you needed it the most)
As your deadlines take tonight

I saw just what it does
When it's too hard for you to face it
Still pushing you to make it
Its been nothing new to me (to me, to me)

We still haven't grown accustomed to the sound
As they all begin to drown you out
Its all been done before

When your deadlines become my days and nights
I'll take all your favorite lines
(When you needed it the most)
As your deadlines take tonight

As your deadlines take tonight
All your favorite lines
(When you needed it the most)
as your deadlines take tonight

As the music began to fade out

I began to sob uncontrollably

But the one thing I wished I forget

The memory that I wanna forget…is goodbye

The presence still lingers here

I can still hear his exact words

I remember the whole scene

That ended with me running to Miley's house

It was the memory that I wanted to forget

The memory that haunted me

The memory that ended it all

The memory of Goodbye

Suddenly my cell phone's blowing up with your ringtone

I hesitate but answer it but answer it anyway

My cell phone began to blow up with his ringtone

I gulped as I heard the lyrics pour out of my phone

'They don't know, they can't see, who we are…

Fear is the enemy.'

The ringtone was just about over

And I was still hesitating

At the very last second I grabbed my phone

And opened it

'Hello?'

'Lilly! Thank the Lord that I reached you!'

He sounded so alone…

So helpless

So lost

The next part shocked me the most

You remember when we kissed

You still feel it on your lips

'Shane? What do you want?'

'I remember when we kissed,' he said dumbfounded. 'I still feel it on my lips. It's weird, but I do.'

I couldn't believe it

And I had a hard time believing it

Especially with the next thing that he said

The time that you danced with me

With no music playing

'Do you still have that video?'

"Video, of what" I asked, while I held my breath

Did he remember that, too?

"You know, you were laughing the whole time…" he said, hopefully.

Silence

I was still holding my breath

"In the rain…with no music playing…and we were dancing." Wow…he remembered that one too

"Yeah…I thought you forgot about that."

He chuckled

"How could I forget, we were sick for a week!"

I laughed this time with him

You remember the simple things

We talk till we cried

"I found myself walking to our bench, the other day, too."

"You still remember that? Usually you forget almost everything."

"Hey! It was one time! And yeah, I can remember things…the important things."

That made me smile.

Then the tears came

"Damn, Lilly, were did we go wrong?" I could hear his voice cracking.

It was the worse sound in the world to my ears.

"I don't know, Shane. I really don't know…"

I couldn't help it.

I let one tear fall…

Then it was followed

By many more tears

I knew he could tell I was crying

I knew that he would come and do something
I know that he knows how to make them stop.

You said that your biggest regret

The one thing that you wished I forget…Is Goodbye

"I hate that stupid memory…" he said quietly

"Which one" I asked "We made a lot."

"The one that is the biggest regret of my life"

"When you made fun of Oliver" I said, jokingly.

"Hey! You punched me before I even told you the whole story." He chuckled

"Sorry, continue."

"I just wish we could both forget the memory of Goodbye." He said softly

More tears.

"Do you want to start all over?" I questioned, softly.

"Of course, you don't know how warm my nose is without ice cream being pressed on it."

We both laughed.

"Seriously, I tried to get Kevin and Nick to do it, but they wouldn't."