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Unknown pain Chapter 10
Out in the open
Jeff and Shannon arrive back at the hotel around five in the morning. Helping Shannon to his room, Jeff gives him a few painkillers to help him sleep. Once Shannon has settled and is sleeping comfortably, Jeff leaves the room to go see his brother.
JEFFS POV
I knock on the door to Matt's room hoping that we can have a conversation without yelling or screaming at each other. The door swings open to reveal a very tired and stressed looking Matt.
"Where's Shannon?"
"He's in my room asleep," I try to avoid eye contact, wanting to get this over with I make the first move.
"Can we talk for a minute?" I pull my eyes away from the ground to look up at him, he nods stepping aside I walk in and sit on one of the beds.
"How is he?" Matt asks sitting next to me.
"You want the truth?" I can hear my voice starting to crack as I talk.
He nods his head.
"Not so good." There was a very long uncomfortable silence until matt spoke up.
"I don't know what to do."
"All you can do matt is give it time just give him time"
"But how do you know that's what he needs?" he asks seeming to be a little irritated at me.
After all these years of keeping it a secret and not wanting to bring it up in fear that if he knew what happened to me he would blame himself. So for the second time today I consider rather or not after 15 years to come clean with matt. The one person that I swore to myself I would never tell.
"Matt I just know…I"
"How Jeff? How do you know that giving him time is what he needs? Huh?" Matt asks, cutting me off, and for some reason that set me off.
"I know because I've been there matt okay? I know what it's like to feel that know one cares to feel ashamed because it was my fault and maybe if I would have fought just a little harder that it wouldn't have happened!" I yell as tears rolling down my face.
3rd Pearson POV
Matt sits in front of Jeff and puts a hand on his knee only for Jeff to push it off.
"Jeff…"
"I don't wanna hear it Matt"
"Hey don't get pissed off at me for your bad luck"
Jeff looks up unable to believe what his own brother just said.
"Bad luck you call getting fucking raped bad luck!" Jeff screams now on his feet and heading for the door.
"Jeff I didn't mean it like that Jeff.….stop…..please"
"You can go to hell Matt," Jeff says in a soft voice filled with heat. He opens the door to leave only to have Matt pull him back and slams him into the wall.
"Jeff look you can cut the 'I was raped to' act okay?"
"You think I'm making this up?" Jeff said in disbelieve.
"Oh, please If you were ever raped I would have been the first to know"
"You know the reason I never told you was because you would have blamed yourself, and I didn't want to hurt you like that so I kept it a secret. You know what hurt the most out of everything?"
"And what was that?"
"You never notice a thing like I was scared to leave the house for weeks matt, every time you asked me to go to the store or to go anywhere I said no, and not once did you think 'is something up' Hell you didn't even notice that I hadn't slept for days you didn't even care that when I did fall asleep that I had cried myself to sleep or woke up hyperventilating"
"And when did it start?" Matt asked still not believing his brother.
"May 20th 1992 the same day as that big 'schools out party' you just had to go to"
"That was one hell of a party" Matt stated grinning.
"Ask me"
"Ask you what Jeff?"
"Ask me who it was."
"Fine who was it?"
"Ryan Manson" as soon as the name comes out of Jeff mouth Matt slaps him.
"Take that back Ryan would NEVER hurt you like that"
"That what I thought until he did it"
"You're lying about everything" Matt accuses.
"Why do you think I'm lying? Huh? Why would I lie about getting raped?"
"Because its an excuse."
"An excuse for what?"
"To keep Shannon away from me!" Matt yells releasing Jeff and sit back on down the bed.
"And why in the hell would I want to do that?" Jeff asks sitting on the bed across from matt.
"Because you want Shannon all to yourself"
"Why would I want Shannon all to myself?"
"Cause your in love with him." As soon as the sentence left Matt's lips Jeff couldn't help but laugh
"Me in love with Shannon Matt have you forgotten I'm the strait one." Jeff responds still laughing.
"Can we talk about everything later you look tired and I should be getting back to Shannon." Jeff says making his way over to the door.
"Here" Matt tosses Jeff Shannon's cell phone.
"That guy Dean called again said that something came up and he needs to talk to Shannon ASAP."
Jeff just nods and leaves the room.
PS. Ryan Manson was Matt's boyfriend back in high school I'll explain more later on in the story.
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